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Anything in Italic is the other person on the phone. I know most people would be able to tell but I thought I would just mention it just in case. I'm sorry for any spelling/grammar mistakes.

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Ruin

"You ready for our big night tomorrow?"

Maya smiled into the phone at the sound of the excitement in his voice, "Yeah, Lucas, I'm excited."

"It's going to be life changing."

That's when Maya felt her heart dropped at his words and the smile on her face left, "Life changing?" she asked, hoping her nervousness didn't show in her voice.

"Yeah, life changing. Our lives are going to change tomorrow and I can't wait. Look the guys are here."

Maya could hear the ruckus in the background at the arrival of his friends. "It's okay. I'll talk to you later. Have fun with your friends tonight."

"I won't have too much fun," he promised. "I'll be thinking of you. I love you."

Maya swallowed, "You too."

She hung up her phone and let out the breath she didn't know she was holding as her mother entered into the living room.

"Hey baby girl."

"Lucas is going to propose tomorrow," Maya blurted out, fast.

Katy's mouth dropped open and her eyes lit up with a huge smile on her face, "Aw baby, that's..." she began, until she saw the look in her daughter's eyes and both quickly disappeared. "Is that not a good thing?"

Maya deep swallowed, shrugging. "I don't know," she admitted.

"Well if you don't know I'm going to say no. What's the problem? Are you not ready? Or is it Lucas? I thought you two were happy."

"I-hmm-we are happy-I mean," Maya answered, rubbing her forehead as her mind raced. "I think we are. I think I'm-I don't know," she stuttered, shaking her head,

"You don't know if you're happy?"

"Lucas is a great guy," Maya stressed. "I know that."

"So, it's not Lucas? You're not ready to get marry?"

Maya stared at her mom, taking in a deep breath, trying to calm herself down. "Mom, what if I'll never be ready to marry Lucas? Or more importantly what if I'm not meant for Lucas?" she questioned. "I've always felt Lucas loves me more than I love him," she breathed out, before flopping down on the couch and head going to her hands. "And I know that's not fair but I've always questioned our relationship but then it's Lucas. He's a really great guy. He's perfect. He's traditional when it comes to our relationship and waiting to you know?" Maya didn't know why she was blushing or embarrassed. It was just her mom after all but it was still awkward letting her mom know that she is still a virgin. "He's respectful, loyal, caring and what girl wouldn't want to be with him?"

Katy nodded, knowing Lucas was a good boy. She didn't question that. "The girl who isn't meant for him," she told her daughter, getting her daughter to look at her with wide eyes. Katy sighed, taking a seat next to her daughter. "Maya you're still really young. It's okay not to be ready to get married," she eased. "When it comes to Lucas, the only advice I can give you when it comes to love is to follow your heart, baby girl," she told her, running her hands through Maya's hair. "If he is the one, you will know. Look inside that heart of your's because I want you happy," she tried to comfort her daughter. "And you know what some people say look for signs," she chuckled getting a small smile out of Maya. "Are you even sure he is proposing?"

Maya nodded, "He said it was life changing. He's proposing. I just know it," she sighed, letting out a long breath.

"Maya, sweetie, it's all going to be okay."

Maya nodded, sighing again, looking around the apartment before looking back her mother. "I think I'm going go out for some air," she told her, standing up. "And look for signs," she joked, putting on her coat and beanie.

Katy nodded, kissing her daughter's cheek, "Stay safe and try not to stay out too long. It's already dark. I'll see you when you get home.'

Maya nodded, before walking out of the apartment into the chilly November night. She wondered around the city for what felt like hours against her mom's advice of not staying out too long but at least her mom's words stuck out in her head.

Follow your heart.

Look for signs.

She stopped waiting as a large group walked pass her leaving the restaurant when something out of the corner of her eye caught her attention. She took a better look into the restaurant's window and that's when she saw him, standing by the bar. A small smile came to her face as she watched him goof off with his friends. He looked over instantly finding her eyes on him. They both held eye contact until he patted one of his friend's back whispering something in his ear, pointing in her direction before gathering his things. She watched him tell the rest of his friends goodbye and make his way through the restaurant.

She let out a slow breath preparing herself as he made his way out and got closer to her before stopping right in front of her. The two stared at each other for a moment before she finally spoke.

"Josh."

Josh tilted his head, playfully looking at her suspiciously, "Josh?" he questioned. "Not Boing?"

Maya couldn't help but smile, "Of course, you're still Boing. You'll always be my Boing. I haven't seen you in years."

Josh nodded, "It has been a long time, and you are still as gorgeous as ever," he told her, looking her up and down.

Maya blushed, pressed her lips together, trying to hide her smile.

"What are you doing out here by yourself at this time of night?" Josh asked, as the two started to walk.

"Clearing my head."

"About?"

Maya glance at him for a second before looking away, "Lucas," she answered, surprised how easy it was for her to still be honest and open to him even after all of this time and heartache.

Josh slowly nodded, "You and Lucas?"

It was Maya's turn to nod, "Yeah, we've been dating for almost two years."

"That's...great," Josh forced out, scrunching his face.

Maya looked over at him puzzled, "Is it?"

"Well I don't know. You should tell me. Is great that you and Lucas are together?"

Maya stopped in front of Josh, not caring about people passing by. "No, it's not and it's your fault."

"My fault?" Josh asked, stun, bringing a hand up to his chest.

"Yes! Josh, I don't understand, after Riley left for London we were so close. You were there for me. I thought our someday was around the corner then all of sudden you started to blow me off and push me off to the side like I didn't matter to you anymore then the next thing I know you were completely out of my life. What happened? What did I do wrong?" she asked, her eyes starting glaze with tears.

Josh took a deep breath, looking up at the sky before looking back down at the blonde in front of him, wanting nothing more than to comfort the girl who means more to him than she would ever know, "Maya you didn't do anything."

"Then why did you leave me?" she asked, her tears now rolling down her cheek.

Josh swallowed. "I had to," he told her softly, his thumb wiping away her tears, shocked Maya didn't pull away from him as she bit her lip. "I didn't have a choice. My feelings were getting to strong to where I was scared we would-I would do something to mess up our future. I was losing control of my feelings but I knew it wasn't our time yet, Maya. I was still too old for you. We weren't ready to be together yet and yet there we were about to be."

Maya pressed her lips together, letting his words sink in before nodding. She knew he had a point and was right. They would have jumped the gun and began a relationship that she knew she wasn't ready for but wanted so badly and in her heart still wanted. "It hurt," she admitted. "You were there for me then you weren't."

"I know, and I regret that I hurt you like that. That I just left out of your life like that without explaining and that's why I never went looking for you or tried to find away back in. I was ashamed of my actions. You have to believe me when I say I never wanted to hurt you and once I was out of your life I felt I didn't deserve to come back. You deserved better than me and I hoped you would find someone who makes you happy."

Maya bit her lip as she kept digesting his words and her heart started to pound. "Did you ever think about me?" she asked, softly, staring to his eyes. "Did I cross your mind?"

Josh held her gaze. "Everyday."

Maya nodded, looking away, taking in a shaky breath.

Josh let out a slow breath before speaking, "Maya, look you and Lucas-"

Maya shook her head. "It doesn't matter about me and Lucas."

"I'm not trying to ruin what you have-"

Maya stepped closer to Josh. "You're not," she reassured him. She knew she was about to cross the line with him but didn't care at that moment. She would deal with Lucas and the consequences later. Right now it was about her and Josh. She needed to follow her heart and right now her heart was screaming at her. "Josh, can't you see? It's always been you."

Josh nodded, his eyes not leaving Maya's as the two inched even closer together. "I'm the one for you."

Maya smiled, staring up into Josh's eyes. "You are," she agreed.

"You're the one for me," Josh said, as he laced his fingers with hers, bringing her hand up to his mouth.

Maya always held on to the hope that the boy standing in front of her would come back in to her life and here he was right in front of her. The boy that had always held her heart since she was thirteen years old. The boy she had always been madly in love with despite the years apart. "I am."

The two shared a smile as the gap between there bodies wasn't there. She felt Josh's hands cup her cheeks before she stood on her tippy toes and closed the distances between them. At first it was a slow soft kiss but soon it became deep and passionate. When they pulled away, Josh rested his forehead against her.

"It's late. I should walk you home."

Maya shook her head, wrapping her arms around his neck as he rested his hands on her waist. "No."

"No?"

"Josh I just got you back in my life I'm not letting go that easy."

"You don't have to worry about letting go because I'm not going anywhere if you don't want me to."

Maya smiled, placing another soft kiss on lips. "I wanna go with you," she told him. "I wanna be with you."

Josh stared into her eyes for a moment. "Are you sure?"

Maya nodded. "I'm following my heart."

XOXOXOX

Maya entered her apartment the next morning with her mom sitting on the couch with worry all over face. Damn, she should have remember to call her mom and tell her she was okay because now was going to get kick off of cloud nine.

"Where have you been? You've been out all night and didn't even call!"

"Mom-"

"Were you at Lucas's?"

Maya shook her head, trying not to let the guilt of Lucas's name be the real beginning of her cloud crumbling.

"Don't tell me you were out wondering the streets all night."

Maya shook her head again as she threw her coat and beanie on the couch.

"Then where were you?" Katy asked, sharply.

"I was with Josh."

"Oh," Katy frowned, surprised, not expecting that answer. She sat back down, her eyes watching her daughter. "Josh? Like Josh Matthews? Josh?"

Maya smiled. "Yeah. That Josh."

"I didn't even think you and Josh were in contact."

"We weren't but I was looking for signs and there he was."

"Oh well, this is a surprise turn."

"Tell me about it," Maya laughed, surprised her mom wasn't lecturing about being with Josh when she is dating someone else. "But it's a good turn."

Katy nodded, not sure what to make out of her daughter's love life. "Really?"

"Yeah," Maya answered.

"You and Josh?"

Maya nodded. "Everything feels right with Josh. I feel safe. I feel like he drives me up the wall but yet grounds me at the same time. I don't feel this way with Lucas. When I'm with Lucas, everything feels forced. I feel like I have to force myself to feel happy and content when I'm not. When I'm with Josh, it's nothing like that. It's natural. I feel like I'm where I'm suppose to be. I'm happy. I know it sounds crazy because he just came back into my life last night but when you know you know, right? And I know it's Josh that I'm suppose to be with. Mom, it's always been Josh. I've always questioned the what ifs when it came to him and now he is here and I don't have to question it anymore. I get to live it. I get to live it with him."

"While I don't think it was smart staying with Josh last night while you're still with Lucas but if you want to try with Josh then you need to end it with Lucas. It's only fair to all three of you."

"I know," Maya agreed. "And I will. Do you think I'm crazy to give up what I have with Lucas for Josh?"

Katy shook her head, giving her daughter a small smile. "If Josh is what you want and makes you happy then go after him."

Maya smiled, "He's what I want. I know this is crazy because I've been with Lucas for almost two years but Josh is the one for me. I felt it the moment I saw him."

XOXOXOX

Maya nervously sat down at the romantically decorated dining room table at Lucas's apartment, trying to find the courage to tell Lucas before he had a chance to propose to her. She tried to acted as normal as possible but knew he had to sense her odd behavior, especially every time he went in for a kiss she gave him her cheek and as more time pass the more nervous she got because she was running out of time.

"I have something I want to ask you."

Maya's heart sank, because she know her time was up. "Lucas-wait!' she tried to stop him as he got down on one knee.

"I'm just going to get straight to the point. Maya, I love you. We went from being friends to that crazy triangle to being just friends again to discovering there were true feelings there all along. Our relationship has been slow and traditional, build on trust and love between the two of us and I don't think we need to waste anymore time. I know you're the one for me like I'm the one for you. I want to be your husband and I want you to be my wife. Maya will you marry me?"

Maya swallowed, staring him in the eyes. Her heart pounding against her chest. She slowly shook her head. "No."

Lucas look like he had just been hit with a truck and Maya couldn't help but feel guilty. "No? I, I don't understand."

"I can't marry you," Maya murmured, pressing her lips together, hating that she hurt the guy in front of her who had been nothing but a good boyfriend to her and more importantly friend. "I'm sorry-"

"You're sorry?" Lucas asked in disbelief.

"I am. I'm sorry that this is hurting you like this but I have to follow my heart."

"Follow your heart?"

Maya nodded as Lucas looked at her confused and hurt..

"Follow your heart? Wh-what does that mean? I'm not you're heart?" he asked, sharply. "What are you not in love with me? Tell me!" he snapped, when she didn't answer fast enough for him.

Maya looked away, flinching at the sound of his voice booming through the room. She needed to tell him the whole truth and get this over with. She looked back up to look him in his eyes. "I have some things that I need to tell you and you aren't going to like it," she told him, softly but strongly. "Last night, I was out for a walk," she began, grabbing his attention. "And I ran into Josh," she revealed, and could see Lucas's painful wince at the mention of Josh's name.

"Josh?" Lucas hissed.

Maya nodded.

Lucas took in a deep breath, shaking his head. "Go on, what happened when you ran into Josh?" he demanded.

Maya swallowed, "We talked and walked around for a bit then we kissed."

Lucas ran his hands over his face, closing his eyes. "Is that all?"

Maya shook her head,

Lucas's jaw tightened, closing his eyes. "You spent the night with him," he said outloud for her.

Maya took in deep breath before nodding, "Yeah."

Lucas gasped, running his hands through his hair. "Did you think about me when you were with him last night?"

Maya pressed her lips together. "I'm sorry, Lucas, I never wanted to hurt you-"

"Good job, Maya because you failed."

Maya swallowed. "I can't help the way I feel. I'm in love with him-"

"You're in love with him?" he screeched. "So you're not in love with me?"

Maya bit her lip looking at the boy she was causing so much pain and knew she was about break his heart. "I'm not in love you with you. I'm in love with Josh. I always have been and I always will be. He has my heart-"

Lucas held his hand up for her to stop from talking. He stared at her for a moment hoping she was playing some kind of joke on him before he stood up, turning away from her. "I can't believe this is happening. I should have known. Josh has always been number one in your life even when he hasn't been in it. I should have known you were not fully over him. You have pictures of you and him up in your room even after not talking to him for years for Christ's sakes. I was a fool to ever think you could love me. I should have known!"

Maya said nothing. She was going to let him throw what ever he he to throw at her.

Lucas turned to stare at her for a moment. "I'm going to go upstairs and when I come back down I want you out of my house."

Maya watched him leave, letting out a long breath. She gathered her things, leaving Lucas and their relationship behind. She knew she was doing the right thing. The two weren't meant to be and she knew it from a weight being lifted off of her heart about ending their relationship instead of the heartbreak he was feeling. She just hated that she probably ruined their friendship and hoped one day in the future they could be friends again. Once the shock of the end of their relationship wore off Maya was sure Lucas would move on and find the person for him. It just wasn't her. She was following her heart to the person who was her true home.

She knocked twice on the door and could hear his footsteps coming towards the door and her heart fluttered while waiting for him to answer it.

"Ferret," he smiled

She returned his smile. "Boing."

Their eyes connected and he knew.

"You ready for the rest of your life?" he asked, holding his hand out for her.

Maya glanced down at his hand before she gladly put her hand into his. "You bet," she grinned as he pulled her to him and into his apartment and their future.

XOXOXOX

Two Year Later

"Josh. Stop," Maya warned, trying to sound serious, but failing.

"Stop what?"

"Don't play dumb, you know what."

"I don't think I do," he teased, kissing the side of Maya's neck.

"I'm trying to work here."

"Work is overrated."

Maya grinned, shaking her head. "Okay hubby," she said, turning in her chair, knowing he wasn't going to let her paint anymore.

"I love the sound of that."

"Hubby?"

"Yeah," he kissed her cheek.

"Well, we have been married for almost a year so you should be getting kind of use to it by now."

Josh nodded. "That's true but do you know what time it is now?"

Maya raised her eyebrows.

"Now it's time to put a bun in the oven."

"Boing!" she laughed, as he lifted her over his shoulder and carried her to their bedroom.

Later that night, while resting on the couch with her husband she looked noticing he fell a sleep. A smile came to her face as she watched him for a moment before turning off the television. She carefully reached for her laptop, trying not to bother him. She logged on to her Facebook for the first time since changing her status to married and saw a relationship status update from Lucas.

A small smile came to her face as she read now in a relationship and looked at a picture of the happy couple. She scrolled down her feed some more looking at other people's updates before closing her laptop.

She put her laptop back on the coffee table and carefully cuddled back up to her husband. She gave Josh a quick kiss when she felt him pull her closer to him. She couldn't be more happier that she followed her heart and didn't ruin her chance at true happiness by settling down with the wrong person.

I got this idea while listening to "Ruin" by Shawn Mendes. Joshaya is my otp and I just love them to death and at times I find it hard for me to write them. I'm not too happy with the ending but I hope you guys enjoyed. Please let me know your thoughts by leaving a review. I'm still working on everyone requests even the other Joshaya ones so keep your requests coming. Until next time xoxo