I'm sorry for the wait for those who follow me but I do have an excuse...I don't think it is a good one but it is one none the less. If you wanna here my b.s. please feel free to read it at the end of the chapter.

~Enjoy


Lucy's POV

I was so embarrassed with myself. I knew that none of my friends were judging me for having a hard time with this but when you are completely independent your whole life and suddenly even the simplest tasks require help, you feel like you should be able to do more. I couldn't eat on my own, I couldn't make my own food, I couldn't walk on my own, there was not a single thing that I could do on my own anymore.

I made Natsu leave the guild to take me home, not being able to stand the feeling of people staring at me. Even though I was blind, I was never more aware of people's eyes being on me than I was now. All I wanted to do was hide away and sleep. I wanted the day to be over and it had barely even begun.

"I don't know how I'm going to do this," I said aloud knowing Natsu was there to listen. Through this whole ordeal, Natsu had never left my side, always there to help comfort me when I needed him to but his comfort was a double-edged sword. Though I loved the attention that I was receiving from him, I hated that he was acting so differently. He was a straight forward, wild, and adventurous guy and I knew the calm and gentle act was not him. Her he was with me catering to my every whim when he could be hanging out with the guild. He could be out on another mission even and here he was walking home, protecting me from myself.

If there was ever a chance of Natsu wanting to be with me, I feel like I lost that chance the moment we accepted that damned mission. Now I would only be a burden to him and I know he would resent me, I was keeping him from going out and exploring the world, from going out and getting stronger. I was now, more than ever before, a hindrance to him and who would ever be able to love a hindrance, a burden?

Once we were back at my house he guided me to my couch and asked if I was still hungry. I meekly nodded in response and he asked if I wanted help and again I nodded. Truthfully I did not want help but I needed to eat and unless I wanted to make another mess, I would have rather done it myself but I had no choice but to accept his help.

Natsu sat next to me on the couch with the food that Mira had made for me and slowly cut the food into bite sizes to make the process easier. I sat there waiting patiently for him to let me know that he was ready to feed me. "Alright are you ready?" he asked not wanting to startle me by suddenly shoving food into my mouth. All I could do was swallow my pride and quietly mumble a yes as my answer to which he replied simply with a dejected "alright."

It took him a moment before he started to help feed me but when he started he was beyond considerate in treating the situation. He told me that he was going to talk through it so I wasn't confused as to what was happening from moment to moment, not knowing what was happening around me was something that made this situation even worse so him talking me through what was going on was an amazing feeling. We stumbled at first; he had accidentally stabbed me once or twice and I got food on my face every once in a while, because I would move a bit as he was trying to feed me. Through the process, we were able to laugh like we normally would. He would make a joke and I would pout but the sound of his laugh would make me smile.

After I finished eating the uncomfortable silence quickly arose and I was reminded that our relationship had been affected whether we wanted it to or not. Just a few days ago even silence felt comfortable to us but now it was unbearable. We both had things we needed to say but we were still figuring everything out ourselves. I was broken and knowing Natsu he was as well. He was probably blaming himself for me getting hurt and now I was acting a reminder for that self-blame. It hurt my heart that the man I loved was sitting there blaming himself for my weakness.

For what felt like the hundredth time in these last few day, I started to cry. I pulled my feet up onto the couch and hugged them close to my chest, in that position I felt safer but it didn't stop my tears from falling or keep Natsu noticing. Unlike every other time where Natsu had coddled me and in the end made me stop crying, he let me cry. He knew I needed to cry. I cried and it felt amazing.

I felt all my anger, embarrassment, and frustration flow out of me alongside my tears. I cried and I cried and I didn't care about what a mess I looked like. There are so many things that will change because of this. I won't be able to go on missions. I won't be able to see the world around me. I wouldn't be able to write or read anymore. I won't be able to see my friends, to see Natsu. He meant the world to me and I'll never see his infectious smile, wild pink hair, or deeply passionate onyx eyes. It sounds a bit shallow to think about someone's outward appearance this way but he was my favorite thing to see. He was the sun in my sky.

I would be like this for the rest of my life and there was nothing I could do about it. It would make my closest friends take care of me, I would be their burden for the rest of my life. Why did this have to happen to me? I wanted nothing more than to close my eyes and when I opened them I would get to see the man sitting next to me blaming myself for my condition.

I wanted to run. I wanted to run away so the people around me wouldn't have to have me as their burden but I couldn't do that. I know how much Fairy Tail members, how much my family, has lost in the past and I wouldn't try to run from my problems, not when it would hurt them, especially not Natsu. I would never forgive myself if I left them to worry about where there newly blind friend disappeared to because they needed me as much as I needed them.

After my crying died back down we sat on the couch for a little longer listening to the awkward silence accompanied by my sniffling which resulted from my crying. I was startled though when Natsu sighed loudly and then began to talk. "I know what you are thinking right now and not one of us will ever think you are a burden, especially me, we never have and we never will. Fairy Tail is there to be a family and families are always there for each other. So what if you can't see anymore, it just means I'll be able to sneak up on you better now."

I giggled a little being able to hear his attempt at making me laugh even though I knew that he was hurting at the moment. He always knew how to make me feel better when I was down and he had done just that right then. I took a deep breath and in that moment, I felt better. I knew that it wasn't going to be easy but I would get through this and I knew I'd always have someone there to support me. I would always have Natsu.

I waited a moment before I decided I didn't want to sit anymore. I knew it would be forever before I could really navigate on my own but I wanted to at least start trying to figure this all out. At this moment, I was incapable of even standing without losing my balance. I reached out to the left and felt around for Natsu's hand which I found quickly, though I do suspect that he helped by moving his hand, and turned my body to face him. I took a deep breath and as I released I gave up the last bit of pride I was holding onto. "Natsu can you help me? I want to try and figure out how to better gain my balance when standing and try to start learning how to move around my apartment on my own. I know I'll never be able to adjust if I keep letting you guide me around." I know even though I was trying to sound confident I still sounded unsure but I knew that sitting around would never get me anywhere.

"Of course I'll help you, Luce," Natsu stated softly as he gripped my hand tighter. I felt the couch shift beside me as Natsu shifted to stand, my hand still in his. Once he was up I felt him shift to where he was standing right in front of where I was sitting on the couch. "Give me your other hand," he said to me gently, as if I were a small child but I reached out with my right hand anyway. He now held my hands firmly in his own larger calloused ones, he gave me a moment to prepare and then said "on the count of three you're going to stand up and I'm going to help stabilize you. You ready?" No, I thought to myself but nodded my confirmation regardless. "Alright, here we go. One, two, and three," I stood on the mark and immediately felt as though I was going to faint. I felt like the world was shifting beneath me and that I was going to fall in every direction, though I knew that wasn't possible. I could feel my body swaying and hear my ears ringing from my intense vertigo.

I suddenly felt strong, warm arms wrap around me and the vertigo began to fade. I had something to focus on. I heard quiet whispers in my ear and as my head cleared I could tell that it was Natsu's voice telling me to breath and so I did just that. I felt my body become steady and decided to hug Natsu back to show him that I was doing better, his response is a sigh of relief. He released the hug but still held my hands firmly, "What happened?" he asked me in a concerned tone and I just shrugged.

"I don't know why but every time I stand and get this intense sensation of vertigo. I feel like the world falling around me or maybe I'm the one falling. I can't really tell which is which. I get nauseous and faint as well." I didn't know how to explain it to him.

"You know that's kind of like my motion sickness." He said quickly, so quickly that I only just caught what he said.

"Really, that's how it feels for you when you have motion sickness?" I asked him, not really expecting an answer. "If it is then I'm so sorry for being so mean about you not wanting to ride on trains," I tell him with a guilty tone.

"Yeah, it's similar," he said clearly then continued by saying "though I do know how to make it a little easier to dealt with now," he said in a thoughtful tone as though he didn't really mean to say all that he said. So, I asked him what helped him the most and I could hear his surprise which meant my hunch was right. "W… Well… um… when I'm riding on a train if I have something to physically focus on, it becomes a bit easier" he again said clearly. I then heard him say "though laying in your lap helps the most or even you playing with my hair," though when he said that it had that thoughtful tone again as if he didn't actually say that.

Though the statement was sweet and forced a blush upon my face, I was curious about whether her really meant what her said so I asked him "Does laying in my lap and me playing with your hair really help you?" and again I heard a surprised gasp as if I wasn't supposed to hear something but did anyway. I wait a moment before I ask "Are you okay?" to which his response was a nervous laugh before he assured me that he was fine. So, I repeated my question "Do I really help you that much?"

"Yes," he answered slowly and I could feel his hands heat up in my grasp. I nodded and stood there in thought for a moment. While I was thinking, I wondered if there was a way that I could use his advice to help my situation.

When I finally thought of an idea I shouted: "Oh, Natsu I have an idea!" To which he simply asked what it was. I replied, "Well I don't know how to explain it just help my sit back down for a moment." Once I sat down I let myself adjust to my balance there and told him that I wanted to try standing up on my own again.

"Alright, I'll count to three again, just like last time." I nodded and focused on his hands. "One, two, and three." As I stood I focused on his hands and once I was up I moved my hands up his perfectly tone arms so I could get better support. Once I was comfortably standing I remained focused on Natsu. I focused on his warmth, his presence, and his actual physical touch and it worked. This time when I stood up I was able to balance myself.

"It worked!" I yelled and I could actually feel a smile slip onto my face. My plan actually worked.

"What worked?" Natsu asked me with genuine curiosity in the tone of his voice. I continued to smile in his general direction. I was about to tell him when I started to feel the embarrassment of the situation. I had just held onto him and used him in such a personal way but my embarrassment was ended when he started to pout, or at least I think he was pouting. "Luuuce… don't keep it to yourself. Tell me what worked!"

I sighed deeply and then I began talking, "well you know how you said I helped you with your motion sickness by being a physical anchor of sorts?" He made a noise confirming that he understood what I was saying so I continued by saying "well I thought about it in reference to my situation and thought that maybe a physical ancho might help me as well so when I sat down I focused of your hands. While I was standing up I continued focusing on your hands and your warmth and then moved to use more of your arms once I was standing. I used you as an anchor that could help me focus on my balance. You helped me so much." In the spur of the moment, I wrapped my arms around him and hugged him tight as a way to thank him. "You helped me so much."

He hugged me back and said, "I'm happy to help." As we stood there just hugging by my couch in silence I once again heard that thoughtful almost personal tone that I have been hearing from Natsu saying "You help me more than you will ever know Luce." I didn't reply to him because of the moment but as I heard that I felt him squeeze me just a little tighter as he put his head in the crevice of my neck and in that moment I thought that as long as he was here with me this everything will be fine even without my sight.


So I simply had no motivation. I couldn't bring myself to sit at my computer and put out a chapter. I actually had half of this chapter finished when my crippling lack of motivation hit but because of the long wait, I had forgotten where my story was headed and had to fight the lack of motivation and forgetting where my story was headed to get to this new chapter. I'm sorry for the long wait for some but at least you got a new chapter.

As always I am open to constructive criticism so if you have any feel free to comment away... or just comment if you feel like yelling at me for making you wait four months. Also, I'm starting college now so who knows when I will post next. Anyway I hoped you Fairies enjoyed! Seeya next time.