"Anna... Rogue. Please let me come in. I'm sorry okay. Because you're right. About everyt'in. But I'm here now and I ain't giving up. I love you."
That is how I have been going to sleep the past two weeks. But my doubts are right. We attract what we fear most and what I fear most is falling for Remy because I know if anything bad was to happen we'd be done. Forever.
I get up and get dressed for school. But there is one thing standing in my way when I open my bedroom door, "Remy. Move."
"Someone ain't in a good mood today."
"Am I ever in a good mood when I wake up with you on my door step?"
"So Belladonna was technically cheating on me when we broke up but I am here now Anna. Just waitin for you to give in."
"Well, you can stop waitin now."
"Does that mean you're gonna ask me on a date?"
"Why do you think that stupid charm will work on me right now? You don't get it do you! I am in love with you! I... was in love with you and you ruined it."
"When are you gonna take me off a damn pedestal! I messed up chere! I GET IT OKAY?"
I was going to give in but not yet. I can still picture Remy kissing Belladonna. I still remember her texting me after I left the hospital, 'Remy didn't give me a goodbye kiss :(' and I didn't respond because I was a horrible person. I kissed her boyfriend. And she asked me flat out when we met if there was anything going on between us and I lied.
A few more weeks after that she texted me or called and I ignored them to focus on my new life in New York that was falling apart before it even started. A part of me still felt guilty. Belladonna really loved Remy and its not her fault he never really loved her back. Sometimes I think he should have stayed in New Orleans. "Maybe you should have stayed in New Orleans with Bella." Why did I say that out loud? To gauge his reaction? What ifs wouldn't matter now.
"How can you say something like that?"
"I want you to be happy. I want to be happy."
"And we can kill both of those birds with one stone if you would just go out with me."
"Anna..." Kurt exited his room that was just across the hall. Whoever thought of that idea was just plain mean. It musta been Logan.
"I'm gonna go to my own bed now but same time tonight? Unless I have a date or somet'in."
"Well it ain't gonna be with me thats for sure."
"Yeah, unfortunately." Remy hushed.
"What is that supposed to mean?" ...What the hell? Was he serious right now?
"Goodmornin' chere," Remy said as he left.
I addressed Kurt, "I'm leavin. You don't have to worry about teleportin anywhere to avoid me."
"Actually... I don't want to avoid you."
"You don't?"
"I have been working a lot with the Professor to recover my lost memories. All I seem to remember was my life in Germany. I guess I never really thought about my childhood before until I met you. Everything was so fuzzy every time I tried to think of my first memory, something was wrong."
"Did you find out what?"
"No, but I don't know if I want to find out. Why didn't we grow up together?"
"I... I don't know. We spent a lot of time together when you were first born but if it wasn't summer I wouldn't see you and I don't know why. Then it started getting less and less. Mystique gave you to the monks in Germany. I know that but I don't know why. I never saw you after that."
"Mystique didn't want me."
"Maybe in some sick way... she was protectin yah. I mean... my childhood wasn't all daisies with her around."
He looked away, maybe thinking he shouldn't take so much pity on himself and give a little to me. I was the one that was raised by her for reasons that had nothing to do with motherhood. "Its kinda weird to think I have a half sister."
"Lets not overwhelm anythang. Lets start out tryin to be friends."
"That sounds good."
...
So first my day started out annoying with Remy being the first person I see as soon as I wake up but it got better knowing that Kurt knows who I am and isn't completely freaked out by the idea of us being related. He is the one that is blue for crying out loud, I should be the one freakin out. I got an A on my English essay and I was starting to think this was a pretty good Friday.
Until Jean shows up at my locker after school. This girl is like gum on a shoe and it is startin to annoy the hell outta me!
"What," I said coldly as she approached.
"Jeez, why are you so upset?"
"Because you're HERE! When are you going to realize I am not tellin Scott a thing about you and just leave me alone!"
"I thought... we were friends."
"No, we aren't."
"Well, I'd like to be your friend."
"Befriending the cheerleader is going to bite me in the ass. Again. So I'd rather not."
"Huh?"
"If you wanna know what I really think just look in my head and you'll find out what I really think about you."
"I would never do that! I don't just go into people's head whenever I need something. Besides your head is way too complicated. Half of it isn't even you in there."
"So, you have looked in my head."
"Well, uh..."
"I thought you were only supposed to do that with permission?"
"We are getting off topic here!" Nice try. Looks like Jean isn't so perfect after all. That makes this encounter a little easier to manage. "I was wondering if you were going to the bachelor auction tonight?"
"The what?"
"The bachelor auction tonight. I just figured since your boyfriend is in it..."
"Who... What the hell are you talkin about?"
"Remy! He is on the basketball team so he is going to be auctioned off tonight for a date. Its not really an auction because you can only bid up to two hundred dollars but its still gonna be fun with all those hot guys around. Its raising money for our athletic department and I'm hosting the event so Scott has nothing to worry about."
Like I care if you cheat on Scott again! Ugh. Wait... more important: Remy on the basketball team? Since when? So that's what he meant by having a date tonight. Why didn't he think I'd go? That I'd be his date... Oh right because, "He is not my boyfriend."
"Oh he isn't?"
"No!"
"Well if he isn't your boyfriend you should come anyway."
"Why?"
"Kitty is going after this guy John. She doesn't even care that he is with the Brotherhood. I just thought maybe you could give her a run for her money."
"What do you mean?"
"Bid on John! You know she did the same thing stealing Remy right from under you."
"Remy is not my boyfriend! I have no romantic feelings for him!" Lying. But who cares. I can't just give in to him. I have to make him work for it. Maybe I should go to this stupid thing.
"Riiiiight. I just thought it'd be fun."
"You know what? Sure, I'd love to." You know what would be fun? Getting Remy jealous. Because he'll have me, just not yet. I can play his games.
xxxx
"Next up, All Star John Allerdyce!" He was pretty cute. I could see what Kitty sees in him. You could see hints of red in his crazily disheveled brown hair; He had that rebel aura that sweet little Kitty would go after. "The first bid begins at five dollars!"
Sure enough Kitty is the first to make her bid, "Five dollars!" She jumped up and raised her hand as the crowd cheered and whistled.
"Ten dollars anyone?"
I stood and I felt like the whole room was watching me, "Twenty dollars." I ditched the goth makeup today, keeping my black eye liner for an edge. (I can't go cold turkey! Need to have something dark to me.) My hair was a curly mess and I was wearing jeans I put in the dryer twice before putting them on. Black ankle boots gave me the sexy height and my long sleeve grey thermal had a deep V to show a little cleavage. I looked good tonight. No, great. I am gonna have fun tonight.
Kitty immediately countered, "Fifty dollars!"
Okay so I get an X-men allowance off $200 dollars, only if necessary. Am I going to blow all that on this date? This is a necessity, right? Kitty has been playing me since I got here. Taking advantage of me as soon as she found out Bobby and I were friends so she deserves it! I can act like a petty high school girl once, can't I? "One hundred and fifty dollars!" I tried not to wince as I said the words. This is a lot of money, that a few months ago I never had.
"One hundred and fifty dollars! Going once! Going twice! ... SOLD!" Finally I win something for once. "Next up is the charming Cajun: Remy LeBeau! Those eyes, huh girls!"
Kitty stood and proclaimed the final bid of two hundred dollars. That was too quick. Remy smiled as he stood on the stage. He looked down at the crowd catching my eye contact. His smile faded.
This was a set up. I can't believe I fell for this. I can't believe I was so stupid! Kitty probably told Jean to tell me she wanted John so she could take Remy. Wow, I feel like I'm the unpopular girl in a movie. The one that never gets her guy.
In a fury, I bolted out of the auditorium.
After thirty minutes, I wasn't sad or mad anymore. I played into Kitty's silly plan and I deserved it. What happened to ignoring her? Being the better person that I know I am... Bleh.
"Hey, I guess we have a date." John said as he approached me.
"Yeah..."
"Why'd you leave the auditorium? You seem upset..."
"Honestly, I am tryin to make this guy jealous. I'm sorry. I'm a bitch."
"That kinda sucks. Cuz if you want honesty... I kinda have this crush on you."
"What?" I have never seen this kid before in my life. Well, only in run ins with the Brotherhood.
"That time in the construction site... when we were fighting you X-men... some debris nearly fell on top of me and you pushed me out of the way. It was nice. Ever since then I... I'm in your English class."
"Wow, now I feel like... crap."
"Its okay. I'm not heart broken or anything. I've seen you around with Remy and the tattoo..."
"What tattoo?"
"Remy has your name tattooed on his chest. Your name is Anna right?"
Remy has a tattoo? Since when? "Yeah, well... we're complicated."
"Pretty girls always are." I'm oblivious. I'm an idiot. "Really though, don't even worry about it. I had to smoke a joint before I even came out here to talk to you. I never would have said all this crap without that hit. I know the situation with you."
"So thats what that smell was." We laughed and I realized it was okay. "You must be hungry."
"Starved."
"You know, I'm no good. You seem like a really nice guy."
"You're not the only one that is complicated. My ex girlfriend is in there and is probably furious."
"Your ex?"
"Wanda."
"WANDA!" Thats great. Why does this keep happening to me?
"Hah, yeah... So that's why I'm not mad at you for rejecting me."
"Rejection? That is a harsh word."
"Yeah, you're rejecting me. The least you could do is take me on this date to buy me pizza."
"Pizza sounds great."
xxxx
"You're in late."
"Remy..." Of course, just like he said he would be at my doorstep here he is... on my doorstep.
"You know Kitty and I didn't go out. She ditched me for Bobby and spent the whole night with him."
So they are back together? Maybe they never split up and I was just an obstacle. Thats great. Did Bobby even care about me at all? Our relationship was a joke? He would never accept the lack of physical ability between us and now... you know what? It doesn't even matter. "Oh."
"Oh? Yeah and I see you had fun on your date." He glanced at the pizza box I was carrying.
"I was tryin to make you jealous."
"It worked."
"Good."
"Enough of this Anna. Enough! I want to be with you and you want to be wit me so lets skip the dating and just be together. Because I already know you don't like raisins but you will eat dem in your oatmeal. I know you secretly watch Big Time Rush and you still don't know if they are cute or not. I also know that you don't care about politics and you hate gifts. You know dat I'm a huge New Orleans Saint fan and I never miss a game on TV. You also know that I play the guitar and will not eat broccoli. We already know everything about each other so why can't we just BE TOGETHER! Because dis is it: we are perfect for each other."
"You're right."
"And I don't care what excuses you make-"
"Okay..."
"Because I love you-"
"I love you too."
"This is-"
"SHUT UP! I'm in love with you! But I won't be if you don't shut up."
"Finally chere. Come here..."
This embrace... So this is what destiny feels like. He spun me around the room and I felt like I was in a fairytale.
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