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A: Eliza, sorry! I left my phone in my office and I forgot you were waiting for me. Please call me back.

A: My surgery went well but… It's complicated… I can explain.

I had sent these two texts half an hour ago and I still hadn't received any texts back from my girlfriend. I tried to ignore her 'bye' and not to mention it in my texts but I couldn't stop thinking about it. What if she really broke up with me? I really liked her though I had hesitated before I had started this with her. She had made me happy and I had enjoyed being with her. It wasn't as scary as I had thought it would be. Losing her? It sounded scary. I was so up for this amazing journey with her and we had just started this. There was no way she would do that. Please.

I decided to pop by her house and hoped that I could see her. By the time I arrived, it was one in the morning. Her car was here so at least I knew she was safe in her house. I wanted to ring the bell but I could see that her bedroom was dark. I didn't want to wake her up so I left and planning on coming back in the morning.


Tossing and turning in my bed, I just couldn't sleep. After today's surgery and what happened between me and Eliza, I couldn't keep my mind off of anything. There was so much going on in my head. If I hadn't started this with Eliza, I would be doing whatever I liked now and I wouldn't bother Eliza's feelings. Now I was worried that I would lose her. If nothing had happened between us, I wouldn't be having so much in my head. Was it a wrong call? After all, I had been on my own quite a long while and maybe I wasn't used to having someone in my life that I sometimes forgot that I needed to be considerate and think for Eliza.

I knew Eliza usually left for work at half eight so I made it to her house before that, hoping to catch her before she left. Her car was still here when I got there. I leant against my car for a while and I saw her coming out from her front door. I immediately walked to her. Her eyes were a bit swollen and I could tell she had cried.

'Hey babe, I am so sorry. Can you let me explain? We can go out tonight and do what you have planned for us.' I said as she was walking towards me.

'I don't think you have the time. You were busy enough to have completely ignored me.' She was emotionless. Okay she was still pissed.

'I didn't mean that. I had so much to deal with and I just forgot…' I tried to grab her hand but she refused to let me.

'You know I was so worried? I know you don't like me being pushy but I still had to know that you were okay. At least you had to tell me that. How could you completely ignore me?'

'I didn't intend to and I said I had so much to deal with. Don't I deserve some private space? I needed some alone time to handle all my emotions! Why can't you understand me?' I was being annoyed and I just wanted her to understand my situation.

'Oh, sorry then! If being worried about you is too intrusive and replying my texts is too much to ask for, I'm now giving you all the space you need and please don't talk to me again.' She left and went to her car.

She didn't even give me a chance to explain and try to understand me! All she did was blaming me! I didn't mean to ignore her texts yesterday. I hated it when no one understood me. She had no idea how I had felt yesterday. All the Herman and Callie thoughts and feelings were horrible. They reminded me of myself at that time and everything I had been through. I was over my failed marriage already but sometimes old wounds hurt. They were like evidence of what I experienced. I thought Eliza would understand. I was sorry for forgetting that she had got plans for us but I had already apologised and honestly not replying texts wasn't that big of a deal, was it?

That was why I had been hesitant. The beginning was great and we both enjoyed having each other's company but problems existed pretty soon. I should have seen this coming. Being in a relationship always stressed me out as I couldn't live my own life. I had one more person to take care of now. Maybe I wasn't ready or Eliza wasn't the one for me. I wanted someone who would get what I thought. But Eliza didn't seem to do so.

What should I do now? She wouldn't even try to understand me. Was this over then? I deserved a clear explanation and a calm talk! But right now wasn't the time. I didn't know how to approach her again unless she calmed down and let me explain to her.


It had been five days since the fight that morning. I thought giving ourselves a bit of space would do us good and I just hadn't known what to say yet. Thankfully, I hadn't bumped into Eliza at the hospital, or else it would be so awkward before we were ready to talk again. I knew I had wanted to see her though, her beautiful face, very pretty green eyes… My girlfriend was just gorgeous and attractive. Hold on… my girlfriend? Was she still my girlfriend? Sigh…I would need to face our problems and talk to her eventually. We couldn't go on like this. If we were not good for each other and it really had to come to an end, it might be good for both of us. But right now I needed to find her first. Searching all the floors and her department, I couldn't see her. I texted her and asked where she was but she hadn't replied. I asked the nurses in her department and no one had seen her in these few days. Omg, had she gone already? I knew she had a habit of coming and going but there weren't any signs of her leaving. If she really had gone, I couldn't even say goodbye to her and hold her for one last time. I would miss her so much and I probably wouldn't be able to see her again. Was it really an end then? No wonder she said 'bye' in her text and she really meant it. Thinking of this, I suddenly had an urge to see her. I just wanted to pull her into my arms and stroke her hair. I didn't know what I would say to her. Even if we really had to fall apart, I would love a nice goodbye kiss.


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