I stared to the ceiling from my bed, I had been laying for some while but I still felt horrible. I had tried to sleep but I couldn't, every time I closed my eyes, the image of Andrew kissing that girl went through my mind. I wanted to cry, I didn't even know why. But on the other hand, I didn't want to. Not over this.
I had hardly noticed the party was over till John knocked on my door.
"Hey", he said a little unsure, closing the door behind him, "The party's over". Hesitantly he sat down on my bed. I looked at him, he looked genuinely worried.
"Okay, I'll help you clean up", I said getting up, I really didn't feel like cleaning up but I didn't want to make John do it all by himself.
"No, it's already cleaned up. Andrew helped me", John said and he opened his mouth like he was going to say something, he hesitated a moment, "He wanted to talk to you, he seemed really.. down, I guess. I told him it would be better if he went home. I hope that's okay, but I saw you guys having a fight earlier and I figured you probably wouldn't really want to talk to him."
"Thanks John", I smiled, "You were right, I didn't". For some time, we both just sat there in an awkward silence. Suddenly John broke the silence.
"You seemed quite upset, do you want to talk about it?", John asked quietly and I looked up at him. I knew I could trust him, but how could I tell him what had happened if I didn't know what had happened back there?
"Not right now. I just ..have to figure out what happened there for myself first, okay?", I said to him, "Thanks though"
"Still, I'm here for you. I know we haven't hung out as much lately as we used to, but you're still one of my best friends.", John said seriously.
"I know, John", I said quietly, I felt a little guilty for not hanging out with him so much lately. "Goodnight"
"Okay", John smiled timidly, "I'm going to bed then, goodnight". He stood up and walked to the door, he turned around.
John left the room and I laid back down on the bed. After quite some time, I finally managed to fall asleep.
The next morning, when I finally got myself to get out of bed, I got some cereal and sat down on the couch. I turned on the TV, but didn't really pay attention to what was on. I didn't quite know what to do with myself. John was already gone to do some gardening, and I obviously wasn't going to call Andrew. I realized that I had hardly hung out with any of my friends lately. It took myself some time to get myself to call someone, but I finally decided to call Lisa, one of my friends from school.
I called her, and she asked if I couldcome over. She'd call some friends and we'd all hang out.
I didn't really feel like hanging out, but I most definitely didn't want to think about Andrew either.
I took a shower and got ready to go. I got in my car and drove to Lisa's house. I knocked on the door to find a very excited Lisa standing there.
"Hey you!", she said hugging me, "I feel like we haven't seen each other in ages!"
"Yeah I know, it has been too long", I said and I felt happy I had come.It had been too long.
"Oh well, you're here now! I called some friends, they all really wanted to see you!", she said pushing me into the living room. It was good to see everyone again. I went around the house greeting everyone when I saw Andrew. He came up to me a little hesitant but I walked away, out of the house, out of the garden. Soon Lisa followed me.
"What are you doing?", Lisaasked a little surprised
"I have to go, I do not want to hang out with him!", I said angrily, "I came here to not think about him!"
"Okay, okay. Calm down. I thought you guys were friends, but I'm guessing you don't want to talk about it, so let's go. We'll go somewhere else", Lisa said
"Yeah, that sounds good", I said, relieved I wouldn't have to face Andrew. Luckily Lisa wasn't really the talking type either, so at least she wouldn't keep going on about it.
We ended going to a bar, where we got a little carried away. Suddenly I heard my cell phone go off.
"Hellooooo?", I said picking up
"Hey, it's John. Where are you man?", I heard John's voice say.
"Heeeeey buddy! I'm with Lisa! Just hanging out, having a little drink", I said whilst trying to drink my drink at the same time, but spilling it all over my shirt instead.
"You're drunk, aren't you?. Where are you Justin? It's 3 AM!", John said a little worried.
"We're at Bliss. Cool huh? But we were just about to leave, weren't we?", I replied trying to stand up from the barstool.
"I don't think so. Stay there, I'm coming to get you two! Do you hear me? Stay there!", John said hanging up.
"Johnny said we have to stay here", I said giggling, "Might as well have another drink then!"
Shortly after that, John arrived at Bliss. He came up to us, rolling his eyes laughing.
"Never thought I would pick you up from a bar drunk", he said looking at me.
"Hey Johnny! There you are! You see? We waited!", I said grinning proudly whilst putting my arm around John.
"Yeah yeah, very good of you. Let's go", John said laughing at my drunkenness.
"But I haven't finished my drink yet!", I said objecting, but John pulled me and Lisa towards the exit anyway.
"I think you two have had enough drinks already", John said chuckling. We walked up to the car and after some trouble he finally got us to wear our seatbelts. After several minutes Lisa and I both had fallen asleep on the backseat. Everything else after that is pretty much a blur.
When I woke up the next morning my head hurt like hell. I moaned and tried to sit up, but I quickly laid back down again. I pulled the cover over me head and just laid there for a while, until John came in.
"Hey buddy", he said annoyingly cheerful, he sat himself down on my bed and pulled the covers away.
"So, you were pretty wasted last night", John said grinning, after all, it wasn't him with the hangover for a change
"Don't remind me", I groaned in annoyance, I tried to pull the covers back up but John wouldn't let me. I could hear John laugh and it painfully echoed through my head.
"Hey Justin", John said suddenly, sounding a little hesitant, "Andrew is here". My head immediately shot up.
"What?", I said annoyed, "Why? You know I don't want to talk to him"
"Don't you remember? Hewas in the car too yesterday, in the front seat", John said raising his eyebrow, "And I do know you're mad at him, but he was really worried about you yesterday. He waited here all evening for you after you stormed out of Lisa's. He insisted I'd call you and he insistedI took him with me tocome pick you up at Bliss. I don't know what you two were fighting about at the party, but whatever he did, I think he's really sorry Justin. I think you should give him a chance to explain"
I was surprised, Andrew had waited for me all evening? It seemed so.. unlike Andrew.
"Fine", I sighed, "I'll talk to him", I stood up slowly, trying to limit the pouncing in my head. I walked towards the living room when I saw a sleeping Andrew on our couch. He looked so cute sleeping. Wait, no! He did not look cute! This was Andrew, my supposedly best friend who had totally sold me out. I sat down in a chair and by that time Andrew opened his eyes.
"Justin", he said surprised and he immediately sat up.
"What do you want from me Andrew?", I said sighing
"I want to explain,what happenedthe other night", Andrew said looking down, I was a little shocked, I had never seen Andrew look so.. vulnerable before, "I know you're mad, and you have every right to be. But that kiss with Tesse, it didn't mean anything!"
"Just like ours didn't mean anything to you?", I said angrily, I felt the anger I had felt that night all over again.
"Come on Justin, you know I didn't mean it like that!", Andrew said looking a little helpless. I stood up angrily.
"You know Andrew, I'm so over this. You and your pathetic need for attention!", I saidto him and Andrew stood up as well.
"Justin, I'm sorry! It wasn't my meaning to hurt you! We were just playing truth or dare, it was just a game!", Andrew said, looking at me pleadingly.
"Yeah, that's kind of the problem, isn't it? Everything is a game to you! You don't care about other people's feelings!", I shouted at him when I suddenly realized that John was still in the apartment – he had tactically stayed in my bedroom though- and I lowered my voice, "And you obviously don't care about this friendship"
"Of course I do! You're my best friend!", Andrew said, "Can't you forgive me? I just want things to go back to normal for us!"
I looked at him and sat back down again. I put my head in my hands, my head was hurting like hell. I could feel Andrew sitting down besides me.
"Please forgive me", he whispered and I looked up to him, I had never seen him like this before. I still felt angry, but he didlook genuinely sorry.
"Fine, just don't play me like that ever again Andrew", I said curtly. I wanted to stand up and go back to bed when Andrew stopped me.
"I won't", he said quietly and suddenly he sat himself down on my lap. He slowly leaned in and I could feel his breathe on my skin. His hands moved over my chest and he rested them on my hips. He looked at me and was just about to kiss me, when I pushed him away.
I quickly stood up, "Let's not go there", I said curtly.
"I'm sorry. It's too soon, I know", Andrew said standing up.
"No. I mean; let's not go there, ever", I said harshly and Andrew looked at me surprised
"I thought you said you forgave me", he said confused.
"I did, so now we're friends again. This is us being friends", I said looking at him, his face looked blank.
"Okay, if that's what you want. I should probably go anyway. My mom is probably really freaking out by now.".
There was an awkward silenceand Ilooked around the living room, just so I wouldn't have to look at Andrew. Hesitantly Andrew broke the silence.
"Do you want to hang out some time this weekend perhaps?", he said still looking a little confused.
"Yeah sure", I simply said and Andrew nodded, he moved to the door and looked at me one last time before leaving. I sighed and went back to my bed, my head was hurting like hell.
