Screw the romance shit! I HAVE LEMONS. I guess, in a way it's to show that they are really messed up together. That they REALLY have no idea what they are doing. but they still love each other with every fiber in there being.
DISCLAIMER: Even though the man in my head tells me i own twilight, i know i don't because when i open my wallet moths come out :P
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"No Edward! I'm cooking dinner!" I yelled as he slammed my back into the kitchen counter. Me and Edward both had a long day and were fighting over every single tiny thing that could have been resolved within a second.
"Can't you let me do anything for you!" He yelled, grabbing a fistful of my hair and lifting me onto the counter.
"No Edward! I just want to cook! Can't you just leave me the fuck alone!" I yelled back.
"No fucking way! You're mine!" He said before slipping my pants off. This time, I didn't object.
"God Edward!" I screamed as he pumped into me harder. I had finally granted him sex with me and he wasn't particularly being gentle either. And that was more than likely because we were in a fight.
"Shut up Bella!" He yelled. I slapped him across the face, telling him to push harder. I felt a warmth build in my stomach and I knew I was almost at my climax, I gripped harder on Edwards shoulders while my body shook violently and my nerves over took my senses. I slipped off the counter and used Edwards arm to gain my balance.
"I didn't want it to happen like this Bella." He said sadly after we had both calmed down.
"It was bound to happen" I said lightly, pulling my shorts back on. And continuing with dinner. Edward kicked me out of the house for it. I just laughed the whole way home.
"Er hi." I said awkwardly to Charlie as I stepped in the front door. I wasn't expecting him to be home now.
"Where were you?" He questioned rudely.
"Around I guess." I replied bluntly.
"With that Edward kid huh? You know Bells, I don't really like him." I nodded and walked up the stairs, not bothering with any of this shit. I collapsed in my bed and fell into a deep slumber.
**
2 weeks later
"Fuuuck!" I groaned as my alarm clock went off. Another day of fantastic school. Yay. I got up slowly, taking my think blanket with me and walking over to my closet, not bothering to shower. I pulled out some black skinny jeans, brown flat, knee-high boots and a Paramore band shirt, pulling a jumper over the top.
I trudged down the stairs and put together a bowl of cereal, eating it slowly, not really tasting it. Once I was finished I picked up my bag and slung it over my shoulder, walking to the front door. I opened it and saw Edward sitting at my front door, smoke in mouth.
"Hey baby." I said, stealing his cigarette and taking a drag, enjoying the instant relaxation it brought me.
"Hey love." He replied, stealing his smoke back. "Want a lift?" he asked, certainty in his voice.
"Sure thing." I replied, giddy. I jumped into Edward car, embracing his heater. I pressed my face against it and sighed as my freezing cheek got warmer. Edward laughed as he got into the car, poking my other cheek. "Go away." I mumbled sleepily.
"Okay." Edward replied, still laughing at me. "You know, you should've come over last night. I almost ruined all my magazine's thinking about you." I laughed.
"You're so gross!"
The ride to school went quicker than expected, though I was sure I had fallen asleep at some point. Edward opened my door for me like a gentleman, and had his arm around my waist, leading me to our first class together.
As usual evryone who walked past us either swooned over Edward, death glared me or looked utterly confused. Lets just say, as usual I couldn't stop smiling the whole time.
Our first class went by quickly, me and Edward talking quietly in the back. Our teacher decided to ignore us as we were both straight A students.
"Slut." Lauren said as she walked past us on our way to lunch. Just like every other day we both decided on ignoring her and went to an empty table down the back of the cafeteria. I took it as a good sign to check my phone.
Your mother is in town. Dinner tonight. Reservation for four, your mother wants me to go, though it won't be happening. Take a friend. Like Alice.
I groaned as I read the message, the last person I wanted to see was my mother and my bitch of a step dad Phil. "Edward?" I asked, knowing I needed him to be there for me.
"Yeah sweetie?" He asked, stroking my hair.
"Will you come to dinner with my mum and her douche bag of a husband Phil?" I asked groaning.
"Anything for you love." He replied. "Why is Phil a douche bag?"
"He treats me like an idiot." I replied.
"Oh." Edward said, dropping the subject.
After receiving the text from my dad, the day went all too fast. Of course, what I wanted was the complete opposite. I wanted it to never end. I never wanted to see my mum, or Phil again.
**
"You ready?" Edward asked taking my hand. Of course my father wasn't to thrilled I chose Edward to go as my 'date' but I couldn't care less about that issue right now. Because ten minutes away was an even bigger issue. The issue of my overbearing mother and my jerk of a step father.
"Not particularly." I sighed.
"Baby, I understand why you're nervous but I'm right here okay. Remember that even if no one like us being together, or they don't understand our love, I will always love you." Edward said staring into my eyes.
"I know." I said breathlessly. We drove in silence, I was too busy thinking about what would happen tonight and Edward was too smart to distract me at a time like this. I'm sure he liked having his manhood intact. I noticed as soon as we arrived, I was hyper aware of everything that was happening around me. Hyperaware Edward was staring at me confused. Hyperaware I could see Charlie's spare car that he let my mother borrow in the parking lot. Hyperaware I looked like a complete douche bag just sitting there staring at things.
"Bella!" Renee called as we entered the restaurant. I looked up to see her waving an arm, signalling me to walk over. Edward slipped his arm around my waist confidently and led me over to the private booth. "Bella I missed you!" Renee said, hugging me tightly.
"Sure you did." I replied. Edward squeezed his hand into my side a bit tighter, I'm sure to let me know he was there for me. Renee ignored my comment and looked quizzically between myself and Edward.
"Who's this?" She asked rudely.
"I'm Edward Cullen, Bella's boyfriend." Edward said, reaching his free arm out in front of him to shake hands with my mother. The way he said that he was my boyfriend just made me beam with pride of my glorious boyfriend. Me and Edward sat on one side while Phil and Renee sat on the other.
"So how long have you two been dating?" She asked raising an eyebrow.
"A few weeks I guess, officially. But we have known each other for a lot longer." Edward said confidently.
"Having a boyfriend will distract you from school work." Phil interrupted.
"I'm in advanced classes Phil." I spat.
"That's dad to you." Renee scolded.
"No actually it's not. Charlie is my real father, not this stupid hick." I said waving my arm in Phil's direction. This argument was way too familiar for my liking.
"Don't be so rude!" Phil raised. "We have put everything at stake for you to have a good life."
"The only good thing in my life is Edward and you have had nothing to do with him thank god." I objected. Everything went into a very awkward silence and I silently thanked the girl who came and took our orders. We ate in mostly silence, Renee bringing up school every now and again. When the time for the cheque came around I almost jumped out of my seat, luckily Edward was there to restrain me. We walked outside and I shivered at the cold winds whipping around me.
"Here have my jacket, I'm going to go use the bathroom okay?" Edward said wandering back inside. Phil was still in there too, paying the bill. I slid into Edwards jacket, taking in it's scent and letting the warmth fill me.
"I'm glad you found someone." Renee started, biting her lower lip. A habit I had picked up from her.
"But?" I pushed.
"I don't think you know what love is Bella." She said in a gush of air.
"I don't think you do either." I countered.
"Of course I do Bella! Look at how happy I am with Phil."
"Appearances are one thing mother.." I mumbled.
"Bella, me and Phil sent you here for your own good. We want you to be able to concentrate instead of going back to your old self."
"Why can't you just accept the fact that I am finally happy?" I yelled, throwing my arms up.
"Bella, sweetie." She started but I cut her off.
"Don't fucking sweetie me! You send me up here to change, I do and I'm still not good enough! I'm sorry I am not one of your friends from the trashy country clubs friends." I glared. I felt warm arms encircling my waist and knew instantly whose they were. "We're going. You might as well just go back to Phoenix cause I sure as hell don't want to see you around." I said, grabbing Edward by the hand and dragging him along with me.
"Bella, You okay?" Edward asked as we entered the car.
"No." I answered before putting my earphone's in and blasting Paramore.
***
"Baby wake up." Edward said, nuzzling my shoulder. "We're home baby."
"I don't wanna go home!" I wailed. Edward laughed at me and stroked my hair soothingly.
"Alice called your dad, you're staying with me tonight." That instantly made my night.
EPOV
Seeing Bella in her pyjamas, her shorts and tank top almost made me drool. She sleepily walked over and joined me on the couch, snuggling into my chest. I noticed how she smelt like strawberries and lavender. I noticed how she would take in my scent as well, and when she did she would smile slightly. It made my heart ache.
Bella seemed overly quiet throughout the movie, but I knew she wasn't asleep, her breathing was no where near even. It made me worry and I knew I should've confronted her, but I didn't want to make things worse. She had just had a fall out with her mother and jerk of a step father so me confronting her would probably make matters even worse than possible. So being the pansy I am, I stroked her hair until she fell asleep on my lap.
"Is she asleep?" Alice asked quietly. I nodded and she continued, "Edward, what happened, she seemed really withdrawn tonight."
"Her and her mum had a fight. I wasn't really there for the whole thing but when I came back for the bathroom she was yelling profanities at her mother." I sighed feeling good that I could finally speak to someone about this.
"Maybe she didn't have a nice upbringing." Alice said, rubbing her face in thought.
"I guessed as much Ali. But I really don't want to confront her more about it, she has told me most about her past, and I haven't told her jack shit about what happened. I feel like I'm lying to her. Every second of the day, I feel guilty and she hasn't even pressured me about it. I don't deserve her." I whispered, letting a tear fall down my cheek. I was such an ass for lying to Bella.
"Tell her when you're ready Edward. But don't leave it too long." Alice said before leaving up the stairs. After a fair few minutes I decided it would probably be a good idea to take Bella upstairs, she looked cold and uncomfortable. I picked her up gently off the couch after moving out from underneath her and carried her up the stairs, being careful not to jostle her.
**
"Edward." Bella said, shaking my shoulder to get my to wake. "Edward!" she cried. I opened my eyes at the sound of her distress and saw her looking at me with tears streaking down her face.
"Bella? Bella shit what's wrong?" I said cupping her cheek and kissing her tears.
"Ed - hiccup – I – I – missed – hiccup – my – hiccup – period." It took me a few long guesses as to what she was trying to say when finally a slap across the face brought me to my senses. "Will you – li – listen!" She sobbed.
"I am listening." I replied quietly. So what if she was pregnant? Was I ready to be a father? Was I even ready to stay with Bella forever? Of course I wanted to stay with Bella forever. But I should be thinking about her more in this situation. She's only fifteen! "We don't even know for sure if you are so why don't you just wait the day out?" I said nervously. "Girls have irregular periods all the time sweets." I whispered kissing her hair.
"It was due yesterday." She whispered back quietly. Now, this, was a problem.
"Alice might have a pregnancy test in her draw. She always has them just in case. Do you want me to go grab you one?" I said trying to reassure her and stop her crying. Bella nodded slightly, closing her eyes. I kissed her on the lips one more time and went into Alice's room quietly, thanking god she was already on her morning run. I walked up to her bedside table and opened the draw finding more than six pregnancy test packets lying there. She wouldn't even noticed if one left. I grabbed one closer to the back and left the room, shutting the door quietly behind me.
I had never particularly wanted kids. More for the sake of not wanting them to turn out like me. Not for the fact that I didn't like them, I generally got along with Esme's friends children. If Bella was carrying my child. I wouldn't chicken out. If she wanted to keep the baby, then I would be there for her and not run away like a pansy. If Bella was pregnant with my baby. I would tell her my story. The story that haunts my dreams every night of my life.
"Here you go." I said, placing the box in her hand. She looked at it, but made no attempt of getting out of the bed. Instead she just stared at me. "Bella?" I asked, curious as to if she had lost her mind.
"I don't want you to leave me Edward!" She wailed.
"Bella, if you are pregnant. I will be here for you no matter what okay?" I reassured her. She nodded solemnly and trudged off to the bathroom.
So um, yeah. I don't really know what to say. I just feel i want this story to head off in a different direction. THOUGH i am no where near finished so don't panic. I don't know if i want Bella to actually be pregnant yet so REVIEW and tell me your opinion. I will try and reply to each and every review okay?
