Chapter 7
You Have To Want It
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Night had fallen and I was sitting alone by the water, staring at nothing, thinking more then I should.
I was getting cold but I didn't move, I couldn't bring myself too. My thoughts were lonely ones.
"You wanna scoot over there, freckles?"
I turned at the sound of Sawyers voice as he trotted up to me. I sighed as he sat beside me, leaned back on his elbows. I didn't look at him but could feel his gaze on my profile.
"Who'd I kill here…that got you so mad at me?"
"I'm not mad at you," I said in a soft voice.
I felt his hand on mine. His voice was kinder when he spoke again.
"You still got guilty thoughts?"
I bowed my head, nodded, could feel the tears coming. I was glad that it was dark and in the light of various campfires he could just about make out my face. I sniffled.
"You crying?"
He seemed puzzled, concerned, the grip on my hand tightened.
"Just leave me alone," I whispered, a knot in my throat as I tried to compose myself.
"It's the doctor, ain't it?"
There was the sound of defeat, weariness in his voice.
I couldn't speak, couldn't get the words out, I tried and all that came out was a choked sob, that I stuffed my fist into to stop.
He slid his hand away from mine.
"I see - so what was it to you, freckles, huh - a pity lay?"
The bitterness in his voice hurt. I didn't want to hurt him either. This was so messed up and there was nothing I could do to make things right.
"Please - Sawyer, I…"
He got up abruptly, and glanced down at me.
His eyes were a harsh blue in the meager light, pain etched in his face.
"Save it…"
He turned and hurried away from me, swinging his hands by his side, clenched into fists.
He was heading right for Jack.
I jumped to my feet as Sawyer walked over to Jack who was standing with Hurley and Charlie.
Claire sat near by with baby Aaron.
I raced over as Sawyer stepped over Claire who looked surprised and grabbed Jack by the shoulder, spinning him around.
"Sawyer…"
Jack didn't get a chance to say anything else as Sawyer hauled off and hit him, square in the jaw. Jack stumbled back, nearly falling into the fire pit that Charlie had dug for Claire.
I was running towards them when Jack came back up and hurled Sawyer to the ground.
The fight was on as I came up upon the scene before me.
"Stop it," I shouted as Hurly tried to pry Sawyer off Jack.
"What the bloody hell…" I heard Charlie mummer as Jin and Sayid raced forward and with Hurly pulled Jack up and on his feet.
"What the hell is the matter with you?" Jack shouted at Sawyer, who stood and with a cocky assurance, spat out a mouthful of blood and eyed Jack with a look of pure hatred.
"You want her, huh…?"
He shouted advancing on Jack. Jin put himself between Sawyer and Jack.
"You want her…well, then…you go on…"
"This is about Kate?" Jack shouted back almost surprised.
"You know any other her?" Sawyer spat back.
"Caught it out, Sawyer," I said.
Everyone turned and looked at me as I approached.
"Stay the hell out of this…" Sawyer said, pointing a finger at me, "This is between me and your hero boyfriend."
"This is not between anyone, just calm down."
"Calm down, he got you over their crying your eyes out, hurting you - and you want me to calm down, well hell, freckles ain't that a kick in the pants," he drawled.
Jack shoved Sayid off him and turned and started walking away from us all.
"The hell with this," he muttered as he started away.
"What you ain't man enough to fight for what you want?" Sawyer taunted to a retreating Jack.
Jack stopped and for a second, I thought he was going to come after Sawyer, I could see the way his shoulders stiffened at the sound of Sawyers words.
He turned around slowly and when he spoke, he addressed me not Sawyer.
"You have to actually want it first," he said, "and I don't."
Yep, a little fist fight to spice things up…don't worry Jack wants it alright, you'll see…
