Ste woke up to the smell of bacon. He blinked his eyes a few trines to get used to the sun glaring into the window. He heard the squealing of the door cracking open and he sat up straight and looked at who was coming in the room. Brendan walked into the room in a pair of boxers and an apron on; he was holding a tray of food.
"Good morning" said a cheerful Brendan
Brendan put the tray of food on the bed and crawled into bed beside Ste, Brendan leaned in close to kiss Ste on the lips but ste turned his head away and Brendan kissed Ste's cheek instead.
"What's wrong?" asked Brendan
"This is, us, this is wrong" said Ste
"Oh" said a confused Brendan
Ste took his plate of food and didn't look at Brendan
"You're just saying that because you're not over Doug" said Brendan
"No, I'm saying it because of who you are" said Ste
Brendan looked at Ste as if to say what the fuck are you talking about.
"I don't understand Steven" said a worried Brendan
"It's like that tine with you and the other guy, you were both drunk and you slept together, it's like you need to be drunk to kiss someone to fuck someone, well not someone a bloke" said Steven straight to the point.
"That's not fair Steven," said Brendan getting out of the bed.
"I'm worried that you'll wake up and finally realize what we did and bash me" said Ste honestly but all in all lying the truth was Ste was scared of getting hurt emotionality.
"Look at me Steven, just look" said Brendan pleading with Ste
Ste looked up at Brendan
"What?" asked a confused Ste
"I'm not that guy anymore, look at me Steven, for once in my life I'm proud of myself of who I am finally and it started with the night I met you"
Ste didn't know what to say so he ate a piece of bacon.
"I don't understand" said Ste
Brendan sat on the edge of the bed.
"The teasing at the bar, the glances, me asking Cheryl about you, coming over to your home with beers, me running away from you, getting too close"
Ste remembered all too well, he felt it too, the strong connection the flirting. Was Brendan really flirting with him from the start?
"I couldn't sleep that night"
"I couldn't sleep either" said Brendan
"Remember I said that there was one other thing I wanted to do before I died?" asked Brendan facing Ste.
"You said it last night" said Ste
Ste smiled remembering the night before.
"Why?" asked Ste looking at Brendan his eyes sparkling.
"I told you that I would tell you if it happened?"
"I remember, what exactly was it?"
"Being with you" said Brendan as he moved closer to Ste and moved the tray of food away.
"You said that the night we met"
"You are a very slow learner, aren't you?" asked Brendan playfully
"I guess I am" said Ste just as playful
"I've been flirting with you almost since the moment we met, I haven't stopped thinking about you, about wanting you"
"Oh" said Ste with a smile.
Brendan kissed Ste's lips gently.
"I've done everything for you even if that meant never seeing you again"
Brendan held on to Ste tight and kissed the back of Ste's head and upper back.
"What are you doing Brendan?" asked Ste laughing
"Making sure that you're alright. God Steven it Hurt me so much that I hurt you"
"I'm fine really" said Ste hugging Brendan tightly
"Devour" said Brendan
"Thank you for this"
"Your welcome"
Ste ate and Brendan watched him.
"You know it's stupid but I got jealous" said Brendan
"About?" asked Ste after swallowing his last piece of toast
"Your relationship with Doug" said Brendan seriously
"Oh" said a shocked Ste
"I never truly loved anyone as much as you love or loved Doug and seeing the romantic gesture on the wall at the deli I could tell you both loved each other very much and hearing you say all those things at the deli when ye thought ye was alone" said Brendan with a deep Breath
"I appreciate everything you just said to me Brendan"
Ste was in deep thought for a second
"What is it?" asked Brendan
"Did I hurt you?" asked Ste
Brendan looked at Ste confused
"I don't understand"
"I mean did I hurt you when I said I didn't want to be your mate, that I didn't need you for anything?"
Brendan looked away from Ste
Ste touched Brendan's chin to make Brendan look at him.
"Tell me" said Ste softly
"yeah, yeah I was. I signed off my part of the deli and hid in my office at Chez because I couldn't deal with being around you, seeing you, seeing you angry with me"
"Why" asked Ste
"Because⦠because" Brendan took a deep breath
"Because I've fallen in love with you"
