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"Hangover haze"
Groaning I rolled over tangled in Alice, smacking into Rosalie. When did I get in the middle? Sitting up I grabbed my forehead, my brain was throbbing. I made my way over Alice and landed on the floor with a thud. ugh! Walking into the main part of the hotel room I looked around noticing it was in shreds, considering we had just cleaned it right before we left last night.. Last night!
Memories slowly made there way back into my head. I remembered admitting I was still in love with Edward, which was true, I don't think I ever was out of love with him. Pissed yes, out of love no, it was hard not to forget everything we had; every time I looked at Jackson I was reminded of what once was.
But there was something else that happened. I looked at the door out to the hallway and smacked my head, ow shit, the guys had come over. Looking closer, I noticed there was a folded piece of paper sticking out from under the door. Bending over to pick it up my head throbbed more.
Sorry about last night, we are dumb. Beach tomorrow? Room 307
I laughed, I didn't understand why they didn't sign their names instead deciding to just put there room number. It didn't look like Edward's hand writing. It looked as if it was part Jaspers and the other half Emmett. I tossed the note on the table and started to looking around for any food.
I needed time to silently think of everything that happened over the past day. I bumped into Edward and his posse, I felt some relief seeing all of them but at the same time it stirred up so many different emotions I had bottled up for so long. A million questions and thoughts were running in my head. What if Edward figured out who I was? Would he want to go back to Jacksonville with me? Should I tell him about Jax? What kind of father would he be? And that depended on if he even planned on sticking around. It was so obvious that the past years hadn't been easy for him, not that mine had been a cake walk, but still none of that really mattered when I looked at how broken he was. I hurt for him even if he was the one who got us in the situation we were now in.
Rose slowly made her way out of the room gripping the doorway with one hand and her head with the other. "Holy shit it's 3." I looked around to noticing the clock.
I didn't remember what time I fell out of bed, but it seemed that this day was not going to be a productive one. I was relieved Aro basically gave us today off; I think he knew we'd need it from all of the drinking we had done last night.
"Ha, I guess it is. There is a note on the table, you should read it." I motioned towards the slip of paper and grabbed the can of cheese I had previously made fun of Rose for. Tipping my head back I filled my mouth.
"Hmm, thank god they didn't say today. I don't think I could stand to be outside right now." She rubbed her face, I could only assume her head felt as well as mine did, we had definitely drank way too much. "What should we do call their room? Slide them a note?"
"Weh sould rit em ah no." I responded my mouth still caked with fake cheese.
Rose grinned knowing what I meant. She headed to get a piece of paper out of the night stand to write them back. "So what should we say to Jasper, Em, and Eddie boy?"
I thought it was cute how she called Emmett Em, wait, Eddie boy? The memories of what happened in the doorway slowly started to flood back.
"Eddie boy?" I choked out around the lump of cheese now taking residence in my throat.
"Ya, remember you questioned his control and then Emmett commented about how Eddie hasn't gotten any in three years, Edward got pissed, apologized for over reacting and interrupting us, and then stalked off."
Now that she had mentioned it I remembered all of it. All I could do was nod.
He hadn't been with anyone for three years. Clearly he hadn't moved on. And with the tattoo he had it seemed as if he really was fucked up from me leaving, not that he didn't deserve it, but it still didn't help make the hole in my chest feel any better. The more I found out yesterday the more it seemed to make it grow.
I really wish I could just tell him who I was, yell at him, and get it all out on the table, but that was impossible. If I did that I would have to tell him about Jackson, and I wasn't about to introduce him into my sons life and have him up and leave. I didn't want Jackson to ever be hurt, and I felt that if I was to bring Edward into his life ultimately hurt would be inevitable.
"Well what should we write?" Rose asked breaking me out of my trance. "I know I wouldn't mind hanging out with them and Aro said last night that we didn't need to do anything until Thursday."
Last night it had been decided that since Aro wanted to see the workings of a big city club, we were free to do what ever we wanted, until Thursday, that's when Aro had worked in for us to dance at the club. The only stipulation was that we had to let James know where we were if he called to check on us.
"Um, write something about last night not being a big deal and that we'd love to meet them to go to the beach."
"What the hell are you two yelling about?"
We both turned to see Alice standing in the doorway to the bedroom with one hand over her eyes the other raking through her hair that at the time looked more like a birds nest.
It was hard not to laugh when you looked at her. She looked like she felt like a piece of gum stuck to the bottom of someone's shoe. I put my hand over my mouth trying to stop myself from laughing out loud. My shoulders shook with the silent giggles. I looked over to Rose and she was doing the same, stifling her laughter with the paper. I could guarantee if she could have seen herself she would have been laughing too.
"It's not funny, my head is pounding and all I really remember was Bella calling Edward Eddie boy."
"Oh ya Al, we all feel like a million bucks too." I said reading over Rose's shoulder to see what she decided to write when she decided to put down the paper. "Look we got a note from our neighbors, saying sorry and that they want to meet up tomorrow."
I looked up to see Alice clapping and hopping up and down slightly, a way lesser then normal display for her.
"Who wrote it? Lemme see." she made her way across the room reaching for the note.
"None of them signed it, they just wrote there room number." Rose said handing Alice the note.
"Jasper wrote the sorry part and Emmett asked about the beach." I saw Alice and Rose stare at me wondering how I knew. Alice started to open her mouth and I held up my hand. "What? I spent almost three years with them, practically everyday and when we were in school I usually had to help them with their homework."
"Oh, so Edward had nothing to do with it? Hmm, if I remember right he got pissed off about something last night."
Alice had made the understatement of the year, Edward was pissed and hurt. I could tell because he usually pinched his nose and rubbed at his face when he was hurt and tugged at his hair when he was angry or thinking. And it seemed that he had also now picked up a new tick, whenever he thought of me his hand rubbed his tattoo. He was obviously still hurting from everything that happened and Emmett had rubbed salt in a three year old wound bringing it up.
"There, it's all done. How about this? No worries guys, we barely remember what happened as it is. We'd love to go to the beach tomorrow with you! When? Room 305, and I drew a little heart. I also decided to add a p.s." Rose said holding up the note so we could read. p.s. don't worry there will be no ruckus tonight; we need to recuperate, especially if we are spending time with you all, and she drew a winking face at the end. Only Rose, she had a worse mind then a teenage boy most of the time.
Alice took the note to their room and left it underneath the door like they had done with our note some time during the morning while we were still passed out.
Collectively we decided that it'd be best to just stay in our room so we wouldn't have to deal with anyone. We ordered room service and sprawled out on the full sized bed, watching a CSI marathon.
Eventually we heard a piece of paper slide against the floor. Alice hopped up and flitted across the room. She grabbed it and waved it in the air like she had found a golden ticket. She unfolded it and read it seeming confused and excited at the same time.
"What's it say Al?"
"Uh, it says to meet them in the lobby tomorrow at eleven, and that we can ride with them in Emmett's jeep so we don't have to get a cab."
"Well, that'll be fun, six people crammed in a jeep…." Rose replied sounding slightly annoyed at the riding arrangement.
"Rose, I don't think that's what they planned, I think someone was going to be sitting out on the fun tomorrow." I looked over to see the realization hit Rose, I had a feeling Edward would be the one sitting out.
It hurt, especially considering it was all because of me. Not that he didn't deserve to be hurt, but I thought by now he would have moved on, especially since he technically had already done so while he was with me. I could feel the tears pooling in my eyes, it was all becoming too much.
"I never would have thought, I figured, god why didn't he just move on?" both Alice and Rose wrapped there arms around me.
"Probably the same reason you never really moved on." Alice said trying to sooth me while playing with my hair.
"Please don't let him ruin this for you! You should be having fun; you deserve to have some fun after everything you've been through." Rosalie added pulling her face back from me and looking me in the eyes.
They were both right, who was I to bitch about him not moving on, I hadn't and really had no intentions on doing such until this trip. And really he didn't deserve to have this much power over me. But it was still so hard not to feel that pull towards him, I just couldn't let it get to me. "You're right, both of you," I sighed wiping my eyes from the tears that managed to pour over. "Fuck 'em."
They both laughed and rubbed my back. I looked over to the clock and saw that it was after 8. "Now if you guys don't mind, I have to call the most important man of my life." I made a move to get up off the bed and they both gave me a thumbs up.
Regardless of how shitty Edward could make me feel, I still held a spot for him in my heart, even if he didn't deserve it, he had it. I just had to learn how to deal with it. I could manage to act like nothing was up for a few days, after that the chances of us ever bumping into each other ever again were slim to none. Isn't that what you thought before too? Either way, I had to make sure he didn't figure out who I was or who was at home waiting for me, if he figured it all out I'd have no clue how it would effect my world.
Scrolling through my contacts I found the number I needed, it rang a few times and eventually I heard the other end pick up.
"Hello?" Renee's voice reverberated through the ear piece.
"Hey mom it's me"
"Bella! How are you? Are you having fun? Meet any cute boys?" if only she knew I had run into THE boy.
"I'm good. I'm having a lot of fun. Do you really think Alice and Rose would let me not? And the boys are ok, I guess." I couldn't tell her the truth; if I had, she would probably ship me back to Jacksonville for a psych evaluation. "Is Jax around mom? I really wanted to tell him good night."
"Ya, he's watching some sports show with Phil. Hold on lemme hand him the phone."
"Hello?"
"Hey little man, what are you up to?"
"TV, I got to go bed soon, Grandma told me."
"Haha, I know that's why I called. I wanted to tell you goodnight and sweet dreams."
"Mommy, miss you, bye mwah." and with that he hung up.
I was glad he hung up so abruptly. I wanted to tell him about everything that happened, not that he would understand. I always made a point to talk to him while he was asleep after I got home from work. I'd usually tell him nonsense stories about me and Edward when we were together. Jax was the one reminder I had of my time with him.
I shook my head walking back into the bedroom chucking my phone onto the night stand. Tomorrow was guaranteed to be an interesting day, hanging out with just Emmett and Jasper.
Alice and Rose were already curled up, looking towards me. I climbed in and we all cuddled, simply as friends who were there for each other no matter what.
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