Chapter 6:- I Love You.
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A/N:- Thanks to my wonderful Beta's Kriss and Becky =]
Bella's POV
"Jasper?" I asked when I knocked on his and Alice's bedroom door.
"Bella." He said when he opened the door.
"What can I do for you?" he asked knowingly.
"I need your help.
"Okay.
What with?"
"My feelings."
"Okay Bella, what do you want to know?" Jasper asked.
"Well I'm just wondering, because this is so hard for me, but how was Edward feeling before he left me?" I had no idea where that came from.
Jasper looked shocked, probably because I mentioned Edward. Oh well, I'm full of surprises now.
"Edward felt like he usually did, there was nothing there in his feelings to indicate anything else. I must say Bella, I'm rather surprised that you asked about Edward after what's happened in the past couple of days."
"What's that meant to mean?"
"Well you spend so much time with Emmett and I'm surprised of your feelings about Emmett."
"What feelings? He's my brother just as much as you are."
"Your in love with him Bella."
I'm what? I can't be in love with Emmett. It's Emmett. His brother just leftme and Emmett fixed me. Maybe I do love him, I don't know.
"What?!" Disbelief claiming my voice.
"Your in love with him." This wasn't a question it was a statement.
"But... How?"
"How what?"
"How can I love him? I've just been heartbroken by Edward and now I'm 'in love' with Emmett. I don't get it, how can it happen? Seriously Jasper if your saying this and it's a load of poo I'll kill you."
"Very funny Bella. You can't kill me, your human and I'm a vampire."
"Well then I'll wait till I'm turned."
"What do you mean?"
"I spoke to Carlisle and Esme earlier. I'm going to be changed after graduation."
"Seriously?"
"Yup." I replied, popping the 'p'.
"I have to go.... Think about some things. Thanks Jasper and please don't tell Emmett. I need to sort this out myself."
I left the room before Jasper could say anything. Now what? I thought to myself.
I walked out to the garden and sat down on the bench that's by the wall.
Do I love him? I can't possible fall in love with someone so quickly after Edward, right? But Emmett's by brother. He's just caring about me like a brother, I can't possibly love him, and he doesn't and won't ever love me, he loves Rosalie so I have no idea why I'm even contemplating this. Nothing will happen. Ever. Maybe I should leave Forks. Go to Jacksonville and stay with Renee and Phi.
"No you don't Bella." I heard Alice shout at me. She must of seen what I was planning. Okay now that notion is in the bud before anything could happen.
I wonder what Emmett's up to. Maybe I should try and find him. Hang on. Why is Emmett on my brain all the time? He's all I ever think about. I dreamt about him last night too. Just like I dreamt about Edward. And when ever I'm with Emmett I have the same feeling towards him as I did with Edward but it's so much stronger with Emmett then anyone else I've felt about. What is it? Could it be. Love? OMG I love Emmett. There's no other explanation for it. What do I do? How do I act around him? I can't carry on being around him, he'll figure it out. Oh god he lives with me. There is no way out, I either have to get over him, carry on as normal or tell him. Which one should I do? I'll get over him, I have no other choice he's hung up with Rosalie and besides who would go from Rosalie to plain Jane? Emmett wouldn't he'd be stupid if he did. Now then, how do I get over him? Wouldn't it just be easier to see how things panned out. He could like me too, we could have a chance. A very slim chance of it ever happening but it's a chance none-the-less. That's what I'll do. I'll let things pan out. I won't tell him, I won't act any different, it'll just be us two. The way we usually are.
I heard someone walk out of the house and sat down beside me.
"You okay Bella?" Emmett asked.
"Yeah Em, I'm fine. Just thinking."
"What about?"
"Stuff."
"What kind of stuff?"
"Everything. Life, love, friendship, family. It's too complicated to explain I don't even know what I'm thinking about to be honest."
"Oh. Well if you ever need to talk Bells, I'm always here for you. You know that right?"
"Yeah I know that Em. Thanks." I gave him a hug, my heart double flipped and stuttered. I blushed as I pulled away. He must of heard that. Oh god.
"It's okay Bella. Any time. And don't worry about your blush. It's beautiful."
"Beautiful? There's nothing beautiful about me Emmett."
"Yes there is. You are beautiful. You don't see yourself clearly."
Oh my god, that's what Edward said. I flinch at the memory.
"What's up Bella?"
"Edward used to say I never see myself clearly."
"Well it's true. And I know you hate his guts at the moment, I do too, but he's right in this sense at least. Otherwise he's still a douche for leaving all of us behind not just you."
"I know that Emmett."
Thinking of Edward brought up the memories. I began to cry.
"What was so wrong with me? Why doesn't he want me anymore?"
"Bella, there is absolutely nothing wrong with you. There's something wrong with him if he doesn't want you anymore. Don't worry about why he isn't here. You have all of us Bella to look after you. Me especially." I looked up at his face and saw that he was being honest.
"Thanks Emmett. I just don't know what I would of done without you. Or any of the others."
"It's okay Bella, it's what family is for."
"I know that, but the weird thing is, I feel more like your my family more then Charlie and Renee are. I always had to take care of them, and here I get taken care of. It's nice not to be the parent for a change and get the proper experience of family that I should have had all my life. It's nice I love it."
"Thank you Bella. You know you will always be a part of this family whether your with someone or not. Your a Cullen. From the moment you stepped through the threshold you were a Cullen. For eternity, whether you live for eternity or not."
Wow I never thought Emmett could be so deep. I guess we all misinterpret him. He's amazing, he's thoughtful, deep, caring, loving. Wait? Loving? Oh god there's that word again. Gah think ghastly thoughts Bella. Hurry.
I must have zoned out a bit because the next thing I know is that Emmett is waving his hand in front of my face trying to bring me back to the present.
"Sorry Em. I was thinking."
"It's okay Bella. What about?"
"You."
Oh god. Did I just say that?
"What about me Bella?"
"Just stuff. How nice you are and that."
Please don't ask me anything more about it. Please! I was pleading in my mind.
"Come on Bella. Just tell me."
Seriously how can I possibly tell him that i'm in love with him. 'Hey Emmett. I love you.' like that would ever work and like he would ever reciprocate those feelings. I need to think of something quick...
...
Nothing.
God help me now.
"I...um. Can't."
"Why not?"
"Because, whatever I have to say will spoil things between us. And I don't want that. Your my guy best friend Em. I can't do it, and I won't."
"Okay. But whatever it is Bella, it won't change our friendship at all for the worse. It can change but only for the better."
"Okay. Well I might tell you. But just not now."
"Whenever your ready Bella."
"Thanks Em."
"It's okay."
I stood up and walked back into the house when I came face to face with Jasper and Alice.
"You didn't tell him did you Bella?" Jasper asked.
"No I couldn't."
"Tell me what?" Emmett said when he entered.
"Oh urm nothing."
I walked past Jasper and Alice but Emmett pulled me towards him by grabbing my wrist.
"Bella. Please."
"I...." I was actually going to tell him and then the phone rang.
"I'll get it" I said.
"Nah you won't Bella. Jasper can get it. Tell me now. Right now."
"I...I can't."
"Yes you can. Come on Bella."
He pulled across the room and sat me down on the sofa. I can do it. I can do it. Okay I can't do it. Maybe I should just show him.
I leant towards him and pecked him softly on the lips. He froze. I pulled away and ran out of the room before he could say anything.
I am so stupid I can't believe I just did that. I ran up the stairs towards Jasper and Alice's room. I knocked on the door and Alice came out giving me a hug.
"What happened?" she asked as she pulled me to sit down on their bed.
"I kissed him. He froze. I pulled away. I ran out of the room." I said, tears streaming down my face.
"Aw Bella."
"Seriously. How can I be so stupid. I love him and..."
"You love me?" a deep voice said behind me.
I turned around and Emmett stood in the doorway.
"Yes." I answered quietly.
"How long Bella?"
"I don't know."
"I love you too Bella." he said lovingly.
