"Dr Brennan would you please sit down. Im sure that one of the interns could handle that. "
"Cam, although I am pretty sure that I as well can handle this, I will let one of the interns take over. My feet are killing me. I am going to my office to sit down for a moment"
Brennan slowly walked to her office, massaging her lower back. When she finally was able to sit down at her desk she let out a sigh of relief. Pulling a folder from her drawer she opened it to a specific page, that had been read and reread so many times.
"Hey Bones!"
Raising her head at the interruption Brennan smiled.
"Hey you."
"How is the baby doing?"
Brennan looked down at her stomach. At eight month pregnant she was huge. She couldn't see her feet anymore, and was constantly worried that she was wearing shoes that didn't match.
"We are doing just fine today."
"Can I feel, I wanna feel a kick."
"of course you can."
Brennan swiveled her chair allowing access to her protruding stomach.
"I cant wait to teach him the perfect spiral football throw."
"How are you so sure that it's a boy?"
"I just know."
"Let me guess, you can feel it in your gut."
"exactly."
Brennan smiled. It had been exactly 429 days since Booth had died. And a day didn't go by that she didn't miss him. Brennan reached out and ruffled Parkers hair.
"Do you have any homework Bub?"
"Not much, but before we leave I want to ask Angela to help me with my art project."
"Ok why don't you go and do that now, I have to finish some things up and then we will go. You know what today is right?"
"yah I know its dad birthday, we are going to visit him right?"
"Sure are, ok get going, and by the time you're done I will be ready to go.
Brennan watched the little boy bound away. She was still in awe at how much he was like his father. Some days it made her miss Booth more, but most days she was just glad to have him around. She looked back at the paper she had pulled out before Parker had gotten there. It was from the folder that Booth had told her about in the hospital. In it had contained his will, and a letter to her. She read it everyday. Even though she knew it was illogical it made her feel closer to him somehow.
Bones,
Considering our jobs, and how close I have come to death in the last couple of years, I thought it best that I make one of these things up. I have Parker to think about now, I am just trying to do the right thing. I know that if I talk to you about this, you will simply argue with me, so if you are finding out then it is in the unfortunate event that I have died. Upon my death, you will be rewarded all of my parental rights of Parker. I know he loves you, and I know that you will be good to him. You will make sure that he grows up to be a good man, and I know that I can count on you to make sure he knows about me. Or that he doesn't forget about me. Rebecca has agreed to his. I also want you to understand that if something happens to both Rebecca and I that you will have sole custody of Parker. Rebecca does not have a significant other, and you are the closest thing that I have to one. I don't want him in the system Bones, so I am counting on you to do this for me. Also as I discussed to you before going into surgery last year, I want you to use my "stuff" to have a baby. I know you are probably thinking that if you have Parker you don't know if it would be best to have another child. But I can guarantee that it is the best. Not only will you be giving Parker a little brother and sister, but you will be helping keeping a part of you and I together forever. You will be a great mom, to Parker and to our little boy or girl. I am sorry that I wont be there in person to help you raise them. But I will always be watching over you guys. I know you don't believe it, but I do, so for that reason alone you should know that I will be there behind you every step of the way. Also I have put your name as my next of kin, in my FBI forms. So you will be getting the "widows pension" from them. I know you don't need the money, but Parker is my son and I should help in supporting him. This has all been dealt with through a lawyer, so you don't have to do anything but take care of my son, and make a new baby. Although I would like to be there for that part, that's apparently not in the cards for me. And if I haven't told you yet. I love you Bones.
Booth.
Brennan looked up just as Parker came bounding in the room.
"Ok so Angela said that she will come over with all her stuff on Saturday and help me. Is that ok? Is Saturday ok?
"of course it is, it will be fun. Maybe we will even go for a movie and dinner after with Angela."
Parker smiled a smile so like his fathers and leaned out the door.
"Hey Angela Bones said it was cool that you come over Saturday. "
Brennan shook her head, and stood up.
"Alright Bub, lets go. Its getting late. Lets get some dinner, and then go and visit your dad."
Brennan stood in front of the stone, starring at the name that she had hoped she would never see there. Kneeling down next to parker they placed a bouquet of flowers on the ground.
"do you have anything special to say to your dad?"
Parker nodded his head.
"ok Im going to go stand over here and give you a moment ok?"
Parker nodded again, and Brennan slowly walked away. When she turned back she could see Parkers telling a story. A very animated story. With big hand gestures. Brennan smiled to herself. He was so much like his father. Just his presence could make her feel better. And for a 9 yr old, he sure knew how to always say the right thing. As she watched Brennan felt the tears come to her eyes. As the first fell, Parker looked up and motioned for her to come over. Brennan swiped at her cheek and smiled making her way over to him.
"You all done Bub?"
"yup, I was telling Dad about the baby and how big your belly is. I was telling him how I am going to be a big brother, and that if he was here how he would be a dad again."
Brennan chuckled to herself realizing that the big hand gesture he had made were in reference to her stomach.
"Bones are we going to bring the baby here, to visit dad?"
"of course, the new baby will want to talk to your dad too."
"Bones how come you never talk to him?'
Brennan didn't know what to say, she had different beliefs than Booth and booths beliefs had been instilled on Parker. She didn't want to tell him that she didn't believe in the afterlife, and crush his hope that his father was out there watching over him.
"Bones, I know its cause your scared. Its cause you miss him. And your mad that you don't get to talk to him to his face. Well I think you should just try. It helps, almost like writing a letter it takes a long time to get a response but you know they got it, and smiled when they read it."
Brennan looked into the eyes of the boy, and smiled. So wise for such a young age.
"Alright Parker, I will say a few words."
"Ok, I will leave you alone for a minute."
Brennan watched him walked for a moment before looking back down and the stone.
"Booth, I don't know what to say to you. I want to believe so badly that you are here with me. "
With tears running down her face Brennan knelt down and ran her fingers over the words on the stone.
"im having our baby. I just want you to know, that even though this baby was not made the traditional way that I still believe that this baby was made with our love. Im sorry I never told you Booth, never showed you how much I love you. But I promised that I will show your children every day. They will never doubt for a second how much I love them and how much I love you. I miss you Booth.
With a final sigh Brennan stood up. Closing her eyes she mouthed the words I love you, as a warm gentle breeze flowed over her ruffling her hair and smelling of apple blossoms. Smiling she looked over at Parker who was watching her with a big smile on his face. Brennan walked over to him and held out her hand, Parker immediately took hold, and they started to walk back to the car.
