Gabriel blinked sleepily. He was warm, almost too warm and there was something tickling his neck. He rubbed his eyes trying to gather his surroundings. He knew he was in Sam's room because he'd seen it before. After waking up here three mornings in a row he knew how to tell that it was Sam's room. He realized the tickling feeling was Sam's breath. They'd fallen asleep in the blanket nest last night. He was still in Sam's lap cuddled into him. Sam was curled around Gabriel, face buried in Gabriel's neck. Gabriel smiled and slowly reached out to stroke Sam's hair. He didn't think he'd be punished for this, but he'd been punished for less. He wasn't a fool. He knew Sam would punish him sometimes. He'd seen the flash in Sam's eyes when he'd put the bubbles in his hair. Even in Little space Gabriel understood that Sam did not like having bubbles in his hair. Sam started to stir Gabriel let go of his hair so Sam could pull away and wake himself up. "Morning Sam." Gabriel said softly. He was studying the bed sheet so he missed the giant grin that crossed Sam's face at the realization that Gabriel was himself now. Well, himself being a loose term. Gabriel didn't think he could ever get back to being the person he was when he was younger. The person Castiel knew. He was to broken for that.
"Morning Gabriel." Sam said smiling. He wrapped his arms around the smaller man happy to hear his voice. He hadn't really talked in Omega Space, and he had a different way of talking in Little Space. Sam was incredibly happy to hear Gabriel's real voice. "How are you feeling?" he asked rubbing his back lovingly.
"I feel..." Gabriel struggled to come up with the word he wanted. "Okay? I guess?"
"Do you feel up to talking about things?" he asked rubbing his back still. He wanted Gabriel to feel safe when they had this talk.
"What things?" Gabriel asked picking at a piece of skin on his hands. Sam moved and covered them, rubbing them soothingly.
"Rules. Expectations. Aspects of our relationship." he said, drawing Gabriel close. He felt him tense at first, slowly relaxing as he realized Sam just wanted to hold him.
"You own me Sam. There's not really anything to talk about." He said tiredly, not meeting Sam's eyes. "I'm here for you to do what you like with me."
"Gabriel..." he said softly. He had tears in the corners of his eyes. It killed him to see Gabriel talking about himself like this. "I don't want to treat you like your nothing...I want us to have a real relationship the way Cas and Dean do. I want us to be Sam and Gabriel first and everything else second."
Gabriel sniffled. "You don't want me. Some two bit whore."
"You're not a two bit whore Gabe." he said wrapping his arms around Gabriel, wishing that he could show him, make him understand how much Sam already loved him. It was like they were made for each other.
"Sam I'm not someone you want to be with." He said miserably. "I'm just the piece on the side."
"But I want to be with you." Sam said gently. He lifted Gabriel's face up so he was looking at him. So that Gabriel could see the truth in his eyes. The sincerity.
"Why?" Gabriel whispered when he saw how much Sam meant it.
"Because I love you." Sam said. Gabriel broke down sobbing at those words. Sam pulled him close whispering sweet nothings and caring words into his ears. Gabriel had waited for so long to hear someone, not his family, say those words. To feel like someone actually meant those words. To feel wanted. After everything he'd been through he thought no one would want him anymore. That he was over. But then Sam came along. Sam saved him. Sam wanted him. Gabriel couldn't begin to comprehend it. So he just clung to Sam crying, not really sure if they were happy tears or sad tears. Sam just held Gabriel waiting for him to calm down. He knew this must be pretty overwhelming for him. Sam hadn't meant it to be, but...it was. He stroked Gabriel's soft hair lovingly. "It's okay sweetheart. I've got you." Slowly, Gabriel calmed down.
"Are you okay Gabriel?" Sam asked gently as the crying subsided. Gabriel nodded, still cuddled into Sam. He didn't want to move scared that he might ruin this illusion. "Do you want to talk now?"
"Yes please." he said softly. His voice was thick from crying. There was a knock on their door.
"Who is it?" Sam called.
"It's me." Castiel said. "I brought up some food. I thought you two might like some breakfast." Gabriel's stomach growled. Sam chuckled. "Sounds like a good idea Cas. Bring it in please." The door opened and Castiel came in carrying a tray with a bowl of cereal for Gabriel and oatmeal for Sam.
"It's Lucky Charms. I remember they were your favorite." he said smiling at Gabriel, who slowly sat up to take the cereal.
"Thaks Cassy." he said giving his brother a small smile. Castiel's smile seemed to grow ten fold as he realized that Gabriel was himself again.
"Maybe later we can spend some time together?" Castiel asked hopefully, looking back and forth between Sam and Gabriel. "Dean has found a hunt."
"I'd like that Gabriel said, "As long as..." he looked at Sam.
"Of course you and Castiel can hang out." he said, smiling. "I'll probably have to help Dean anyway. Will you be okay?"
"Yes Sam." Gabriel said, taking a bite of his cereal. He felt like he was on cloud nine right now. He didn't want to come down. But he knew as Castiel left that they would have to talk about things now.
"Where do you want to start?" Sam asked gently. He wanted Gabriel to be comfortable.
"Um...what's expected of me." he said, taking a nervous bite of his cereal.
"Well I expect you to be monogamous, but that ones pretty simple since Cas and Dean are married and Cas is your brother. I expect you to listen and follow the rules. To always tell me the truth. To come to me if you have concerns. Or if anything happens. And we are a family so I expect you to do your share around here. Do those expectations seem reachable and fair to you?"
Gabriel floundered for words for a minute. He'd never been asked his opinion on matters like this before. "Yes." he finally said after a while. "The seem fair and reachable."
"Alright." Sam said with a nod. "I think rules next would be good."
"O...okay." Gabriel said, wanting to make sure he listened well so he could memorize them. In the past he'd never been given a list of rules more than once. And rules were added or changed a lot.
"So rules are pretty simple. Tell the truth. Do your part. When your in little space Be careful. And no going in the library. Ask permission before you go somewhere. Tell me if you need anything when I'm going out...I think that's it for now. I'll let you know later if I think of more. And I'll make a list for us to keep somewhere so you can look it over when you need to."
"Really?" Gabriel said a little in awe at how perfect Sam was. Didn't he know that most Alpha's didn't do this?
"Now for punishments." Sam said. Gabriel tensed. He hated punishments. They were always the worst things Alphas could think of. They were often cruel and twisted. In his experience given without warning and without reason as well. Sam drew Gabriel into his arms again, setting the bowl on the bed stand next to him. He rubbed his back soothingly. "It's okay sweetheart. I think for now punishment when you're yourself or in Omega space will be lines, and in Little space it'll be corner time. We'll see later if we need to or want to adjust it."
"Okay." Gabriel said curling his hands up in Sam's shirt. He was waiting for the other boot to drop. The only subject they hadn't broached now was sex, but Sam didn't seem to notice he forgot anything. He was just rubbing Gabriel's back humming a nameless melody. Finally, Gabriel broached the subject. "What about sex?"
Sam stopped what he was doing and Gabriel waited in dreaded anticipation. "We won't have sex until we're both ready." He said. "So we don't need to discuss it now." Gabriel couldn't help himself he threw his arms around Sam hugging him tightly, scared he might disappear. Sam kissed his cheek and picked him up. "I'll take you down to the library to see Cas. Then I need to go find Dean okay?" Gabriel nodded his affirmation and they headed downstairs.
The library was one of the biggest rooms in the bunker. It was the closest room to Sam and Gabriel's room because normally it was where Sam spent most of his time. He planted Gabriel's feet on the floor just outside the door to the library, figuring he wouldn't want his brother to see him carried in. Gabriel slowly walked into the library still getting used to walking again after the pound.
"Gabriel!" Castiel said, looking up from the book he was reading. He got up and hugged him. Gabriel smiled and hugged his brother back tightly happy to see his little brother again.
"Hey Cassy. Glad I can actually talk to you now." he said, smiling.
"Yes!" Castiel said motioning for Gabriel to take the other chair, which he did. "We have a lot to catch up on!"
"Yeah, starting with how you ended up here." Gabriel said. "The last time I saw you you were twelve!"
Sam smiled seeing the two of them would be just fine and went to find Dean about that case he found.
"Well I met Dean in high school." Castiel said. "I thought he was very attractive. I was friends with Sam. We're the same age."
"Wait Sammy's only 23?! Really?!" Gabriel said in shock.
"The height adds many years." Castiel assured him. "But anyway Dean is your age. So he was a senior when I first met him. We all hung out a little. They told me they were hunters and I told them I was an angel. We started hunting together. Dean and I grew close. We found out we were compatible as far as our Alpha and Omega sides go and we've been together ever since."
"And Michael never touched you after I left?" Gabriel said worriedly.
"Never." Castiel said frowning. "Why would Michael have touched me?"
Gabriel sighed, "I guess now's the time to tell you my story Cassy..."
