Chapter Seven: Don't Let Go
Shadows above the sand
I waited so long to hold your hand
Familiar road, helpless
just acting like stupid kids
was so distracted, yeah we've been careless
It's not too late
Baby open your eyes and hold on tight
just keep running and we can stay up all night
don't let go, don't let go
flying high as a kite no ground below
Got me up in the sky running
don't let go, don't let go
Sometimes the notion's freight
like the tiny little heart breaks
Something that can't explain
Just acting like stupid kids
I'm so impatient and it's so reckless
It's not too late
But they're a string holding
us together just catch that and here we go
Thanksgiving was apparently right around the corner. Things with Kurt and Adam were still strained. Kurt didn't know what to do about that, and he didn't know how or what to do to get rid of Blaine. He was constantly hanging around now. Two months ago, Kurt would have killed for that. It was just insane. It was like he'd done a complete one eighty. He was always around Kurt. Kurt was kind of angry. Blaine still wasn't actually choosing to be with him. Kurt was losing all of the ground he'd gotten with Adam. Not that Kurt wanted ground with him. He was so incredibly all over the place. Kurt wanted Blaine to man up. But if he wasn't going to, then Kurt wanted to move on with Adam. Adam was a very nice man, and he was incredibly attractive. Kurt let out a sigh. Right now, he was in the process of getting things for Thanksgiving. Kurt was throwing it at his place, so that Carole and Burt could just come over. Rachel and Haili were invited too, and Nick and Jeff, but Kurt wasn't sure if they'd come or not. He was trying to pick a bag of potatoes. That was when Rachel walked up to him, looking confused.
Rachel approached him, letting out a sigh. "Kurt, I need to talk to you. I did something so incredibly stupid." She looked at him, as he turned to her. Rachel tucked some of her hair behind her ear. "I'm... I slept with someone." She said, her voice low. The town was small, and there were ears everywhere. Rachel didn't know how to deal with this. She bit her lip. "A female someone." She said. Rachel missed Finn so much, she wasn't sure that she'd ever stop. That might why she'd slept with Quinn. Trying something new. Rachel didn't want to do it again, but Quinn had called a few times. Rachel wanted to know what Kurt thought about it. "I mean, I don't know that I want to do it again. It just kind of happened. But she keeps calling to talk. About our relationship. We don't even have one. We met up on a girls' night. I can't take this constant nagging thing. What do I do? I have to move on. I just don't think that me being in a new relationship is the best idea right now." That was so very true. Rachel was doing better than she was, but she still shouldn't be getting into something new. Rachel let out a breath. Haili was with Burt and Carole. She hoped Kurt could help her. They were best friends.
Kurt looked at her. Was she seriously talking to him about this? "Are you serious? You are really talking to me about this?" He finally asked, as he picked up a bag of potatoes. "It's not that I don't want to help you, it's just one, we're in the middle of the grocery store, and two, it isn't a good time. I've got a lot on my mind." Kurt said, sighing. Kurt honestly had to admit, he was surprised that Rachel had slept with another woman. He shouldn't have been, she had been raised by two men, but she'd never had an interest in women before. She had always had tunnel vision for Finn. Kurt sighed. Sadly, that wasn't an option for her. So maybe this wasn't such a bad thing. Kurt ran his hand over his hair, carefully. He had spent so much time trying to fix it. Her face was falling. "I'm sorry, Rachel. I know that this is very hard for you. You weren't expecting this. Are you freaked out because it was a woman? That is incredibly weird if you aren't feeling it. But if you are it's okay. Everyone experiments from time to time, you know." Kurt wasn't sure that any of that was helpful.
They started walking again. Rachel had to admit, the fact that it was a girl wasn't a big deal. She also knew that once she told Kurt it was Quinn he'd flip. Rachel knew it was all a complicated mess. Like Peyton Place or something. Rachel didn't think that she could raise a part time child. Blaine had custody, but Quinn got her sometimes. Rachel had her own daughter to worry about. This was crazy. Rachel knew it would be insane to start something with Quinn right now. Rachel sighed again. "No…. the girl thing is fine. If I like girls it's not a big deal. I mean, I was raised by two gay dads, I think I've always been a little open. I just… I still think about Finn all the time. I know that I have to start getting back out there. And I don't regret sleeping with Quinn, I just don't want to be in a relationship right now. I feel like there's so much more that I need to work through before I get serious about someone." It was then that she noticed that she'd said 'Quinn', and she hoped that Kurt hadn't noticed. Rachel didn't want to talk about that it had been Quinn. She let out an inward sigh, and prayed to God that Kurt would just have been ignoring her or something. Sometimes, that tended to happen to her.
Most of that went in one ear and out the other, but excuse her, Quinn Fabray? She'd slept with Quinn? "You slept with my ex boyfriend's baby mama? Seriously? What were you thinking? I mean, oh my God." Kurt said, rolling his eyes. Kurt honestly couldn't believe that she'd done this. "You…. oh my God. You… Rachel. You can't be with her. You can't. I mean…. You know that I want you to be happy, and if you're gay, fine. But you don't have to date Quinn. Seriously. That is going to complicate things so much." She had been going through a tough time, but honestly. This was insane. "You will figure this all out. Just, please. Not with Quinn. We hate each other. We could never double date." Kurt ran his shaking fingers through his hair, no longer caring if it got messed up. That was how much this bothered him. He didn't even know what was going on with Blaine. If there was a future with him, that was. Kurt looked at Rachel. "You will figure things out with time. And when you're ready you'll date. You just, if you know you aren't ready to date, tell Quinn that. And then you go about your life. Please, no Quinn."
Later that evening, Blaine stood nervously outside Kurt's door. He had to talk to him. They needed to clear the air, and he knew that. Blaine knew that Adam had been right when he had said that there were still a lot of feelings him and Kurt. Blaine wasn't even sure what he wanted. He just knew that they had to talk. Maybe once they did, Blaine would know for sure what he wanted. Blaine waited patiently, he knew Kurt was home, he'd already checked the hospital. Of course, Quinn had been there, and it had been so awkward. Not that he had been surprised. They had had a lot of fights about Beth since they'd split. And that had been almost a month ago. Blaine was still feeling strange from having his haircut, too. His head felt a lot lighter. He ran his hand through his curls that he had left, and he finally called through the door, "Kurt, it's Blaine. All I want to do is talk." He really hoped that Kurt would come to the door. Blaine wasn't hiding who he was anymore. He knew that he wasn't bisexual. He was gay. And he had to at least tell Kurt that. He was still angry, but he knew that deep down, he did still love Kurt very much. As much as he loved Beth, his first time should have been with Kurt.
He wasn't stupid. Kurt knew it was Blaine out there. He'd seen his truck drive up. Did he want to open the door? He honestly didn't know Kurt finally screwed up his nerve and went to the door. "Blaine, what are you doing here? We don't need to talk. I said everything I needed to say on Halloween. You either be with me or let me go. Blaine, I am sorry for what I did. Really. But you have to stop punishing me for this. You have to let it go. Especially if you want me back. Is that what you came here to say? Because if it wasn't, you just get back in your truck and go home." Kurt didn't step back to let him in. He wasn't going to let himself get hurt again. Kurt had to admit, he did still have some interest in Adam, too. Kurt really needed Blaine to make up his mind so that they could move on. Kurt folded his arms tightly, and didn't budge. Blaine would feel more at home and comfortable if he'd let him in. Kurt worked on keeping his tears at bay. Kurt didn't want to let him see how upset that this was making him. This was too hard. It wasn't supposed to be this hard. Love was supposed to be easier when it was right.
"I don't know what I want, Kurt. I don't. What I do know is that seeing you with Adam kills me. I am so angry at you for what you did…. But I do still love you deep down. I think about you all of the time." Blaine paused, clearing his throat. "Kurt, I love Beth. She is beautiful. She is my daughter. I could never regret her. But it should have been you. Because of what happened to me, I never wanted sex. But with you, I wanted to. It may have taken me awhile, but I actually wanted it. You don't know how monumental that is. I… Kurt, I don't know if it's just lust because we didn't get to, but I can't stop thinking about you." That was all true. Every last word. Blaine just didn't know where they were going to go from here. Blaine ran his hand over his chin. He got why Kurt was being so standoffish, too. He didn't want Blaine to feel like he could stay. Blaine really hoped that they could come to some kind of conclusion. He was starting to yearn for Kurt. He knew that was a bad thing. All they did was hurt each other. Blaine didn't want to do that anymore. "Kurt, I don't want us to hurt each other. That's all we seem to do, and I hate doing that. We can work past this, Kurt. We can have what we had again. We can be happy. We just have to try."
The answer that came out of Kurt's mouth surprised him. "Um, no, Blaine. I…. I do still love you. But… I want to see what will happen with Adam. I like him. I like him a lot. You are so beautiful, you really are. And amazing and sweet. You are a wonderful catch. But I can't keep doing this. I can't keep getting clobbered. I need to be with someone who actually wants to be with me. You just want to make me feel guilty. You don't really want to commit. You're still angry at me." Kurt let out a sigh, as Blaine's face was falling. He couldn't do this again. Kurt had to move on. It was too hard to be around Blaine. He couldn't go through all of this again. "Look, Blaine, I really do love you. I think that I loved you when I first laid eyes on you." Kurt had started to cry. Blaine had, too. Before they could say anymore, they were kissing, Blaine pushing Kurt into the house, his hands all over him. Kurt and Blaine kissed hungrily, like they'd never kiss again. Kurt's arms slipped around his waist, holding on tightly. Blaine's arms slid around Kurt's neck, his fingers catching in the hair at the nape. He shivered, as Blaine rubbed his length against Kurt's.
Blaine pulled back to take off his shirt, tossing it to the floor. He had been working out a lot since he'd lost Kurt. Blaine and Kurt together both took off Kurt's two shirts, he tended to wear a lot of layers. Even with warm weather. Blaine ran his hands over Kurt's chest, as they kissed again, their tongues wrestling in their mouths. Blaine reached back with his foot and kicked the door closed. Blaine wasn't freaking out at all. This was truly amazing. He would remember this forever. Blaine ran his hands down Kurt's stomach, and unbuttoned his pants. He let them drop to the floor, and was faced with Kurt's underwear. There would be nothing holding him back from sex once that underwear was off. He didn't stop, he took off his own jeans, he was now naked, he'd been going commando. Blaine felt oddly self-conscious, but he stopped when he saw Kurt licking his lips in anticipation. Blaine kissed him again, pressing his body against Kurt's. A soft moan left Kurt's lips. Blaine's hands slipped into Kurt's underwear, gripping his ass. Kurt gasped, arching up into his touch. Blaine pressed closer, their cocks rubbing together. They both gasped at the contact. Blaine's fingers hooked in Kurt's underwear, and slid them off, Kurt stepping out of them.
There were no longer any labels holding them back. In the literal sense. They were both naked. They both stood there for a second, like they might take it back or something. Blaine didn't want to take it back. Blaine wanted this. More than anything he'd ever wanted. It couldn't erase the last year and a half, but it would make up for lost time. Kurt was beautiful. Blaine kissed him so deeply. He pressed up against him, and then there was a silent discussion about if it would be there or not, and it was decided that it wasn't going to happen. Kurt took Blaine's hand and led him up the stairs. He would rather it were his bedroom. Kurt let the door bang open and they fell to the bed, a tangle of limbs. Kurt held him close, with his legs, holding him still against his cock. Blaine moved his hips, and that glorious friction happened again. Kurt was so glad to have him this close. Despite what he'd said. His lover moved down to Kurt's length, and took him in his mouth, sucking hard. Kurt's eyes closed instantly, and Blaine sucked very hard. Long and languid sucks of his tongue. Kurt let out a soft moan. It felt amazing.
The ability to turn Kurt on like this was a big turn on for Blaine. He was so hot. Blaine's hand longed to roam his own length. He took as much of Kurt in his mouth as he could, he didn't have a gag reflex. Kurt let out a moan and his head dropped back on the pillow. Kurt let out a groan, and his hand moving up into Blaine's hair and tugging. Blaine slipped a wet finger inside Kurt's entrance, and Kurt let out a breathless moan. Blaine's finger moved at the same time his mouth did, and Kurt's hips arched up. Blaine lifted his hand, and reached to get a condom. He sheathed himself and pulled Kurt up onto him, and he slipped inside him. They both let out moans. They moved together, their mouths meeting. Blaine shivered, dropping his head on Kurt's shoulder. They moved faster, Blaine's hands stroking Kurt's back. They moved and panted breathlessly together. They kissed again, Blaine's hands scratching at Kurt's back. They were soon coming, Blaine's head dropping back to Kurt's shoulder. He pressed kisses on his shoulder, letting out a sigh. That had been much better then he thought it would be. Blaine couldn't imagine giving that up. Beth was with his brother and sister in law, so he didn't have to go anywhere.
"What did this mean?" Kurt asked, as he pushed Blaine to the side, laying back on the bed. He let out a soft sigh. Kurt was so sexually sated right now. They had to talk about it though. They had to decide what they were. Kurt laid his head on the bed, keeping all of his extremities to himself. Blaine, however, wrapped an arm around Kurt's waist, stroking his skin. Kurt had to admit, that felt really good. He didn't know what else to say. He didn't want to scare Blaine off, and he didn't want to fight. Kurt was scared. He had never been so scared in his life. Blaine was all he wanted. That was scary though. Kurt didn't want to get left again. That was something that he knew that he could never go through again. Kurt let out a breath. "Blaine, I know that this could scare you off… I just, we have to talk about what this means." Kurt didn't know what else to say. It was making him so nervous. Kurt sighed. He didn't know what Blaine was going to say, and that was making him even more nervous. Kurt let out a huge sigh. "You have no idea how much I don't want to have this conversation. I so don't."
That was something that Blaine didn't know how to answer. Blaine didn't want to upset him. He also knew that he couldn't give up Kurt. Kurt was amazing. Even if he was still angry about what Kurt had done. Kurt honestly had hurt him so much. Blaine loved him so much, though. He let out a breath, tracing circles on Kurt's stomach. He didn't know how to start with what he had to say. He didn't exactly know how he felt. He started to talk slowly. He didn't want to say the wrong thing. "Kurt…. I have to admit, I'm still angry. I don't know how to get over that, but I am still in love with you. Seeing you with Adam at your party really hurt. And I know that I had no right to be angry. I was engaged to Quinn. I just… I know that I couldn't stay away from you anymore." Blaine just hoped that it wasn't lust because of them not having had sex. They had had it now. Blaine didn't know what Kurt would say to that, either. He was on pins and needles for sure. Blaine ran his hand up Kurt's stomach, and ran it over his chest. It felt so good, to just be lying here and touching him. Blaine didn't know what else there was he could do. To get Kurt to believe him, that was. Kurt was the only thing he wanted. Besides Beth, that was, and he had her. Blaine sighed.
"Blaine, that is great that you say that. But I don't want you to change your mind later. If we do this, we have to both be all in. I am not getting into this just to be left again." Kurt wasn't going to go through that. "I know I'm the one who dumped you… I just can't go through another breakup. I can't. So you have to be with me. Is that something that you can do? Be with me?" Kurt asked, turning to look into Blaine's eyes. He didn't know how to else to say it. He just wanted Blaine to know that he was serious. That he wasn't going to do this if they both didn't want it. Kurt felt his eyes filling with tears. He didn't think that he could do this. Have this talk. It was so much. He just knew that he couldn't back out now. Kurt would scare him off for good. And that wasn't what he wanted right now. It was going to be good if they could agree. Kurt let out a breath. This was nerve wracking. He put an arm around Blaine tightly. Blaine didn't know what Kurt had really gone through while they'd been apart. It had been bad. Although he knew Blaine had gone through hell, too. They both deserved to be happy. That was all he wanted. To finally be happy. Kurt looked into his hazel eyes. "You have to promise me that this is it. We're in this for good."
Was that what he was saying? Blaine wasn't sure that he was ready for forever, exactly. What he did know what that he couldn't be without Kurt right now. And he couldn't imagine life without him in it. "I can't promise forever. What I can promise is that I want to be with you. Really be with you. I'd be fooling myself if I said that my issues were gone. They aren't. I will never be fully rid of them. But I want to be with you, Kurt. I can't imagine life without you. All I want is you, and Beth. I know that this wasn't how we planned, but we have to make lemons out of lemonade." Blaine said. "We've been given a second chance. We have to take it." That was true. It sounded a little callous, after all that they had been through, and why they broke up, but he meant it. Blaine leaned up on an elbow to look at him, his hand on Kurt's chest. "I am sorry for hurting you, I was angry at you for hurting me. I shouldn't have lashed out at you. Honestly, there was a lot I shouldn't have done. But I don't have any regrets. There's no point in regretting things. You can't change it. I just… I want us to start fresh. Put all of this behind us. Or at least try the best we can. We can take it slow. I need to take it slow anyway." Blaine could tell that Kurt was wavering. "You know that you want this. You know that you want to be with me." Blaine traced a heart around Kurt's chest. He loved him so much it actually hurt.
He was quiet for awhile, digesting this. Kurt didn't know if Blaine really meant what he was saying, but he hoped that he did. Kurt lifted his blue eyes to look into Blaine's hazel ones. "I want to believe you. I really do. I still have reservations about this…. but I want to be with you. Just… promise me that if you start to have doubts, you tell me before we get in too deep. You have to talk to me about what you're really feeling. No secrets, okay? You don't have to tell me anything till you're ready but do your best, okay?" Blaine listened and nodded. Kurt kissed him, just wanting to be with him for awhile. He closed his eyes, and Blaine lay his head on Kurt's chest. They laid there, a tangle of limbs, just holding onto each other. Kurt never wanted to let go. He couldn't imagine anything better than this. He just hoped that Blaine wouldn't have to go straight home to Beth. That was another thing. Could he be a stepfather? He didn't know. He knew that Quinn was going to hate this, too. She wouldn't want him in Beth's life. Not that it was her decision. He knew that Blaine had full custody and Quinn only saw her intermittently. Kurt knew that Beth was still her daughter, though, and she'd hate this. He fell to sleep with that thought on his mind.
A couple of days later, Quinn was walking into the elementary school after school was done for the day. It was officially Thanksgiving vacation. Quinn had to talk to Rachel. They had to settle things. Quinn just couldn't handle her trying to back out of things. Quinn had to know where they stood. If they were going to part ways, she wanted to know. Quinn tucked some of her long blonde hair behind her ear as her heels clicked on the floor. She watched Rachel's classroom, letting out a deep breath before she opened the door. Quinn didn't know what else to do but this. She was so beautiful. Quinn cleaned her throat and Rachel looked up at her noise. "Rachel, we need to talk. You aren't going to keep brushing me off. We have to define what this is. I can't stop thinking about you. I can't sleep, I can't eat…. All I can do is think about you." Quinn hated laying this all out on the table, but she couldn't help herself. Quinn had to know. Once she knew, she could get back to her life. Quinn folded her arms tightly. She knew that Rachel had been through a lot, and she didn't know what to do to help with that. Quinn couldn't imagine going through what Rachel had. She might have killed herself if that had happened to her. Quinn didn't even believe in suicide. She knew so much of her life was contradictions, but she didn't want that anymore. Quinn wanted stability.
Rachel wasn't sure what to say. She didn't want to be with Quinn. She didn't want to be with anyone. She didn't know if she could actually commit to anyone. She had had it all with Finn, and now he was gone. Rachel did admit that Quinn was beautiful. The most beautiful girl she'd ever seen. She just didn't think that she could be in one. She loved her freedom right now, and hated it at the same time. It was unfair that she had it but nice that she did. Rachel couldn't get into another relationship right now. "Quinn, you are a very beautiful girl. I can't be with someone right now. I'm… I lost my husband a long time ago, over a year, but I am still not ready for a relationship. I don't know if I ever will be. I had the love of my life until he was taken from me. I don't…. I don't want to bring someone else in my life right now. All of my problems. You deserve something better. You need to find someone else to be with." Rachel sighed. She didn't want to hurt Quinn, and if they dated, that would happen. Quinn deserved to be happy, and be with someone who could really be with her. Rachel just hoped that Quinn would accept what she'd said and move on.
Listening to all of that, Quinn decided that there was only one way to convince her. She stepped forward, and slid her arms around Rachel, and kissed her. She kissed her forcefully, and Rachel let her. Quinn pushed up Rachel's skirt, leaned her against the desk, and slid her hand up into Rachel's underwear. She slipped her fingers inside of her, hard and fast, as she kissed her. Quinn pressed up against her, their breasts rubbing together. Rachel let out a moan. Quinn wasn't sure if this would really convince her, but she couldn't keep her hands off her. Quinn's other hand slid up an cupped Rachel's breast, groping her through her clothes. Rachel's breath caught, and Quinn's breath caught, too. Quinn didn't really know what to do about these feelings. She knew that if Rachel thought that she didn't want to be with her, then she wouldn't. Quinn didn't know how to change things. She wished that she could know the right thing to do. Right now, she had her arms full of Rachel, and that was the good thing. She moved her fingers, sliding around in Rachel's wet folds, causing her to squeak. Quinn had o admit, she was getting addicted to having sex with Rachel. She kissed Rachel's collarbone, her fingers moving faster. When Rachel came, Quinn stepped back. She didn't say anything, just walked away. After giving her a look.
Thanksgiving morning was a little chilly. Blaine was eating twice, and so was Kurt. They were eating with Kurt's family, and then with Blaine's. Blaine was nervous to be around Kurt's family, but only because he was nervous around new people. Blaine had spent the night with Kurt the night before. Kurt had gotten up early, he was making a few dishes to take with him to each place. Blaine yawned, stretching in the bed. He had to shower. Kurt had laid out his clothes for him. Blaine smiled affectionately, he was so anal. Blaine got up, and headed for the shower. Blaine stepped under the water, letting it run over him. Blaine knew that he had to figure his shit out, for good. They would break up for good if he couldn't figure things out. He didn't want to lose Kurt again. Blaine ran the soap over his stomach. Blaine didn't really know how this was going to go down, but he really hoped that they could work it out. He just wanted today to go smoothly. He had warned Puck about treating Kurt respectfully. He knew Olivia would help with that. Blaine honestly didn't want two of the most important people in his life to fight anymore. Blaine understood why. Puck was so protective, and why he was so angry. Blaine just didn't want to see them fight. They were important to him.
Kurt was making pies. He had already made a potato casserole to take to his parents'. Kurt assumed that they'd need the dish, Carole worked at the hospital. Thankfully, Kurt was off today. He didn't want to miss being with his family. He honestly was nervous about going to Blaine's though. He knew that Blaine had talked to him, Puck, that is, but Kurt was still nervous. He knew that Blaine and Olivia could only do so much. Blaine had promised that Puck would behave, though. Kurt didn't really know how this was all going to go, and that scared him. Kurt liked to know where things were headed. He liked to have a plan. Kurt didn't know if he had the strength for today, but he would try. Kurt was really happy, though. Even if he wasn't sure that he could be what Blaine needed. Kurt heard the shower turn off, and Kurt knew Blaine'd be down soon. He had grabbed some bagels to toast up. Kurt didn't want to have a real heavy breakfast. Not if they were going to be eating twice. He looked up as Blaine came in the kitchen. Kurt gave him a smile. "Hey, baby. I hope I didn't wake you." Kurt said. He honestly didn't know what he'd done to deserve someone as beautiful as Blaine. And honestly, he was. Blaine was far too beautiful to be in a place like this, too. He should be off somewhere in the limelight. Kurt leaned into him when Blaine put his arms around him from behind. "You smell good."
Blaine held him tightly. "Smells good in here, baby." Blaine kissed his neck and then went to get coffee. Blaine poured it, putting a bagel in the toaster, too. Blaine didn't want to eat a lot. "You're totally hot when you cook." He knew that they'd said no secrets, but he knew that Kurt still hadn't told him something. He didn't think it was something super serious, though, so he hadn't pressed. Blaine knew that Kurt would tell him when he was ready. "I've got to stay at home tonight, or bring Beth here. Which would you prefer?" He asked. Blaine wasn't sure how Kurt felt about Beth. He was going to have to deal with her if he was with Blaine, but he knew he'd have to ease him into it. Blaine didn't want to argue with him about it. He knew that it could be hard to raise someone else's kid. Blaine just knew that he would do anything for Beth. He didn't want to be put in the middle of Kurt and his daughter. Blaine pulled his bagel out to cream cheese it. He waited for Kurt to answer, he wasn't sure what he expected him to say. Blaine turned to face him when he was finished. Blaine watched him as he nervously worked on some pies. Blaine knew it wouldn't take that long.
Kurt finally spoke. "I'm…. I want to be ready to be around her. I know it's not her fault that she was born. I just… I need some time to adjust. But Blaine…. I will be in her life, too. She's apart of you, so she'll be apart of me." Kurt looked at him. Kurt didn't think he could see her yet. "So, please, don't bring her yet. I just am not ready yet." Kurt said, putting the pie in the oven. He didn't have anything to keep his hands busy anymore. Blaine was his world, and honestly that scared him more than he wanted to admit. Kurt wasn't ever that attached to men he dated. Not after Trip. When you got in too deep it tended to mess you up. Kurt honestly couldn't handle anymore of the crazy drama. Kurt just wanted t be happy. He thought that after all he'd been through he deserved that much. That was just the truth. He went to get some coffee. He just hoped that Blaine was okay with that. He just couldn't handle it yet. Kurt had to tell him about Rachel and Quinn, too. He knew that I would be better coming from him. Other than someone in town. Kurt just couldn't say the words. It was too insane. He still couldn't believe it had happened. It was insane. Kurt didn't even know that Rachel was into girls like that. But he supposed that there was a first time for everything. Maybe it was just a onetime thing.
"It's okay, Kurt. I understand. I'm not going to make you if you're not comfortable." Blaine stepped forward to kiss him. "I'm going to go ahead and pop by my place, but I'll meet you at your dad's." Blaine said, and kissed him again. "I love you." Kurt repeated the words, and Blaine went to get his keys and coat. He wanted to go and get some of Beth's things before he went anywhere. She was with Puck and Olivia at the moment. Blaine wouldn't see her till they got to their place. He had been planning on it, since Rachel's daughter would be there, but he didn't know if he should. Make things awkward, that is. Blaine also knew that it would be hard for Kurt. So, with his siblings she would stay. Puck was going to be a pain the ass, today. Blaine didn't know how best to handle him. He got into his vehicle and headed to his place. Then he had to go and see his siblings, and Beth for a bit before he had to go to Burt and Carole's. It was going to be crazy. Blaine wasn't expecting Burt and Carole to have issues though. Rachel might, if she was there. That would hopefully be smooth if it was. Although, Rachel no reason to treat him that way.
About an hour later, he strolled into the front door to his brother's place. Blaine stepped in and dropped Beth's bag of things. They'd best be sleeping here tonight for Black Friday shopping with Olivia. Kurt was on call. So he wasn't going to go. He was sad about it, too. Blaine called out to his siblings and headed for the kitchen. Puck was there. "Oh, good, Noah." Blaine said. "We need to talk. You can't treat Kurt like you did when he was at the grocery store. You have to be respectful and polite. I know we had this talk already but I want to make sure that you know the score. You will not do anything. I know that Kurt hurt me, but that's all between us. We are back together, and staying that way. You are an amazing brother for wanting to be protective. But I can handle things. I really can. We've been given a second chance. Not sure why, but we have." Blaine just hoped that Puck would listen. He needed Beth to be okay with Kurt, and her uncle being angry at him wouldn't help at all. He just wanted to be clear to everyone. Sometimes Puck needed to be reminded about things like this. He would still tend to do his own thing, no matter what. You had to remind him of what the right was to do. But he was slowly getting better.
Puck arched an eyebrow. Honestly. He knew why Kurt was being so insistent on this. That's where this was really coming from, not Blaine. Puck didn't really want to agree, but he knew that he had to. Puck didn't want Blaine to get hurt again. He supposed that he got why they had split. Kurt had had a lot going on. That didn't make it acceptable. Puck also didn't want to upset Blaine anymore than he needed to. Puck knew that his brother had been through enough. Puck would want to beat up himself if he hurt Blaine. "I know, B. I won't hurt him, I'll be as polite as I can. But I can't promise that I'll be behind this right away. I don't know that I trust him just yet." Puck said. He just hoped that Blaine would accept that. He didn't know when he'd be okay with Blaine being with Kurt. Puck didn't like the way Kurt had broken up with Blaine. If he didn't want to be with him anymore there were ways to fix that without doing what he'd done. Puck knew that he couldn't imagine what Kurt had gone through, but that didn't make it right. Puck watched Blaine. "I really don't want to get hurt again. But I care about you."
Blaine knew that he couldn't expect more than that out of his brother. Blaine would have to wait for him to be behind this. And that was okay. As long as Puck was going to try. "That's all I can ask of you, Noah. I can't expect you to be behind this right away. I just want you to try. I know that Kurt hurt me, but we're starting over. So we're putting all of that behind us." Blaine didn't really want anymore aggravation. He just wanted to be with Kurt and raise his daughter. He honestly just wanted to let all of this go, and move past it all. It might be asking too much. Blaine really wanted to start putting all of this behind him. Blaine was tired of feeling like he had the entire world sitting on his shoulders. Blaine hated all of that sitting on his chest all the time. It was exhausting, honestly. Blaine knew that he had to get some therapy going. He had had some before, but it hadn't helped much. It might have been the one he'd chosen. Blaine wasn't one to believe in it normally, but he knew that if he wanted to be with Kurt, he had to work on things. "It means a lot to me that you're willing to try. It's all I can expect." Blaine got out some of the things Liv would need to start cooking. He really was looking forward to the day. It was nice to be with family.
The day went smoothly. Kurt was just back at home after being at Blaine's. He didn't know what was going to happen with Blaine but so far so good. Seeing Beth had been so hard. But he knew that he had to get past that. Beth was in Blaine's life for good. It was still hard to comprehend, but it was what was true. Kurt settled on the couch. Life was about to go and get really complicated.
Author's note: Hope ya'll liked! I am hoping that it's gonna get less full of angst soon. The song at the beginning was Don't Let Go, by Lea Michele. If you haven't checked out her album yet, omg do so. XD. Review if you want!
