Author's note- I Will Follow You Into the Dark by Death Cab for Cutie.


EPOV

The dry heaves of my sobs burned with the salt that should have poured out with the tears I should have cried. My heart had been punctured sending it slithering to my feet. My body felt numb, as if it weren't there. She can't be gone. She can't be gone. My head hummed that rhythmically desperately clinging to the idea that it was true.

Love of mine

Some day you will die
But I'll be close behind
I'll follow you into the dark

I hadn't expected that 'someday' to come so soon. My ribs convulsed painfully, forcing a sharp exhale from my chest. I felt so selfish now as I looked back on my actions. She was simply returning the favor I had done for her, she had left me. I stumbled over a root, crumpling onto the bracken. I beat my fists into the ground, leaving two large potholes of freshly ground earth. The only thing that shoved me away from the ground was that I'd make it in time. That she would hold on long enough to be rescued.

No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark

If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs

If Bella died. I would die. My entire chest drowned in terror at the mention. I would leave this earth by her side; it would be impossible for me to exist without the knowledge of her existing as well.

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

I pictured her so clearly, so perfectly in my mind, I spoke to her. Like a schizophrenic would to his companions. So Bella, if I am too late. My entire body shook violently. Wait for me at the end of the tunnel. Wait for me Bella. I'll come with you. Just wait, wait

In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule
I got my knuckles bruised by a lady in black
And I held my tongue as she told me
"Son fear is the heart of love"
So I never went back

Fear. Fear is what Bella should have had. She should have feared me. She could have avoided everything. Not my love, in the way that I would have always loved her. But we wouldn't have gotten her so tangled up in this dangerous snare that was bound to kill her one way or another. Wait for me, Bella.

If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

You and me have seen everything to see
From Bangkok to Calgary
And the soles of your shoes
are all worn down

Not enough time. We didn't get enough time. Eternity wouldn't have been enough, but this? This wasn't just. It wasn't fair. This renegade love had betrayed us both.

The time for sleep is now
It's nothing to cry about
Cause we'll hold each other soon
The blackest of rooms

I was almost to the cliffs; I could hear Alice's thoughts. I thrust them away from my ears. I'll hold you soon Bella. Whether it's in this world or whatever world waits beyond this. Wait for me Bella. I'm coming for you. I'm coming with you.

If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs

I'll follow you, Bella. Wait for me. I'm coming, Bella. Hold on I'm nearly there. Hold onto me Bella. For my heart never ever let you go. I've held tightly to you in our time apart, and if this brings us together again, then I welcome it with open arms.

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

The wind flew past my ears, whistling. The water enclosed me totally, the light of the day suddenly snuffed out.

Then I'll follow you into the dark.


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