Heey guys, i'm really sorry for the long wait but i went on a vacation for a month then i had some problems with getting back the inspiration i use to write this, but i'm back now and i'll just shut up now and thank you all for reviewing faving and following AND reading, it means so much to me that you guys are willing to make time to read my story . ENJOY
Disclaimer : i don't own btr :'( , but omg have you guys seen kendall OMG that beard is so ... hot, i really don't know what i'm gonna do if i won't ever marry him. (geez i'm talking like i have a chance but anyway read on)
xxxxxxx. rana.
next morning mrs knight pov.
09:16 am beep beep "ugh why do i have an alarm again?" okay so now it's time for me me to make breakfast, wake the guys and katie up and then i'll send the the guys and katie to see a movie or somtething without kendall so that i can talk to him about cutting and how it needs to stop, because i can't have my baby cutting him self. okay i'll make some pancakes, toast , bacon and eggs so everyone can choose what they want, after breakfast was ready i went into katie's room and gently kissed her cheek and shook her shoulder "katie wake up sweetheart" "uggh why? i'm tired" "because i said so, now get your butt out of that bed or else" i said and walked out of her room and straight into logan and carlos's shared bedroom i shook both their shoulders cause they're heavy sleepers "guys wake up" logan woke up but carlos didn't "okay gonna play hard ball again huh?" logan raised hios eyebrows at me and said "who me?" "what? ooh no i was talking to carlos" "yeah but he is asleep" "yeah i know but i was ju-uggh logan, see how hard you let me think on this early morning just go to the kitchen" he nodded and walked away, "carlos i saw a corndo-" i couldn't even finish cause carlos sprung out of his bed and yelled "WHERE?" "you don't even know what i was about to say" i said "who cares i heard you say corndog so that was enough for me " "okay good for you but go to the kitchen breakfast is ready "YEEESSSS FOOOOOODDD I'M COMING WAIT FOR ME MY BABIES" i chuckled and went into my son's and james's room, james was dressed already so he i told him that he could go and join the others in kitchen, i then walked over to kendall's bed and sat down next to him, he lay on his stomach with the right sight of his face on the pillow so that he was facing me i ran my hand through his hair enjoying the view, after watching him for a good 5 minutes i started to massage his shoulder trying to wake him up, he slowly opened his beautiful bright green eyes, "hey baby" "hey"he said back his voice thick with sleep "i wanna talk to you about something later, but first it's time for breakfast" kendall gave me a-what-do-you-want-to-talk-about? look i was just about to tell him that i knew about him cutting but i was interrupted by carlos walking in and sitting on james' bed and he said "i won't leave unless we're leaving together cause if i go to the kitchen without you, then i have to wait longer because you'll probably finish what you were telling kendall before coming to eat". i looked back to kendall "now are you gonna tell me what you want to talk about?" "i don't know if i can tell you here" i said pointing to carlos, "can't you use code words or show me in a way?" i thought for a moment then looked over at carlos who was staring at a poster on the wall, well i can't tell him cause carlos would hear me soo. i looked back at kendall then brought my hand to the hem of his shirt and pushed it a little up so two or three cuts were visible and traced one of them with my finger then i looked back up at kendall and he stared at me in shock as if saying 'OH MY GOD YOU KNOW' i just nodded then pulled the shirt back down so carlos wouldn't see it, "okay carlos let's go eat i said as i raised from the bed and saw carlos running back into the kitchen and kendall still had the shocked expression on his face "let's go baby"i whispered as i walked out of his room and heard him coming after me. "guys here are the tickets for the movie and remember DO NOT let katie fool you and trick you in whatever it is that she may want okay?" "okay" "mrs knight why can't kendall come with us again?" "because i need him for something" "ooh what you wouldnt talk about with me in the room?"carlos asked "uhhm yeah that's why" "ooh okay bye bye kendall bye momma knight" they all said "bye guys bye katie "i said, when the door closed i called kendall over to the couch, he sat as far from me as possible on the couch i sighed and walked over to him so i was closer to him he couldn't take his eyes off of his shoes "kendall" ... nothing "kendall look at me"... again nothing i sighed again i took his chin in my hands and forced him to look up into my eyes "i asked you to look at me"i said "i know" he responded back "baby this has got to stop before it get's worse, i don't wanna lose you it's still my turn to have you and i'm not planning on keeping you for a short time, now you're gonna tell me how many cuts you have so i can be sure that you won't cut anymore, and i will check if you cut or not understand?" i asked him he nodded "i didn;t hear you what did you say?" i asked him "yes" he said "okay how many cuts do you have or anything else?" "19 as far as i can remember" "okay you don't have anything on your back or arms or legs or wherever right?" "no, or actually no CUTS" he told me wait what is that supposed to mean? "what do you mean no cuts?, do you have something else then?" he shrugged "kendall!" ... "KENDALL DONALD KNIGHT YOU TELL ME RIGHT NOWWW!" "okay okay it's only some bruises i still have from where walley hit me it's no big deal" "show me now and who is walley" "i mean wayne wayne, and no i won't show you" "ohh you mean him and i don't have time for being shy kendall, seriously i'm your mother if there is one person you shouldn't be ashamed around then that me, i'm the one who saw you the first when you were born, i'm the one who changed your diappers and should i go on?" he shook his head no "now turn around so i can take a look NOW" i had to hold back a smile that wanted to form itself on my face when kendall turned around really quickly and took his shirt off, i really don't understand why they all are so scared of me i never hit one of them or something else, so i don't get why they're so scared of me but at one point i'm happy about it now. when i looked at his back i gasped softly "ooh gosh and you call this 'no big deal' kendall?" i gently ran my hand over his back as i felt the muscles in his back tense under my touch, i frowned "does it hurt baby" "no, it just burns a bit" "okay lay down on your stomch, i'm gonna get some cremé for that alright" i said to him as i went into my own room to find what i was looking for, after searching for a minute i found it, it's a cooler cremé just like aloe vera after sun but this is not for after the sun but you get my point right?, i walked back over to the couch and sat down next to kendall, i put some creme in my hand and began to smear it over the bruises and after a good 3 minutes i was done, "okay baby you can turn around if you want your back is dry now"i said to kendall he turned around and looked straight into my eyes, he was quiet for some time just staring at me then out of nowhere he hugged me and i wrapped my arms tight around his stil bare back "i missed you sooo much momma" he whispered it was almost impossible to hear him if there were other people in the room but now that it's empty except for us two i could hear him just fine, it brought tears to my eyes "i missed you too baby so much, and please don't ever forget that i love you so so so sooooo much i wouldn't give you or katie up for anything in the world but i would give up the whole world for you and katie." he then let go of me and laid back on the couch, and to lift up the mood again i said "you really don't have to visit the gym anymore for the coming two years"as i slid my hand over his perfect abs, he blushed and grabbed a couch cushion and hid his face in it, yes there it is my sweet baby boy the old kendall who would be ashamed to be seen halfnaked from the waist up especially when it was me who saw him, but i'm pretty sure that he knows that i'm just teasing him "why are you blushing baby?"i asked him as i stopped moving my hand but kept my hand on his belly, he didn't answer me just peeked from under the cushion at me i smiled remembering the times he would do that when he was 6 instead of 16, "no but seriously kendall how many hours have you spend in the gym?" "4 hours each day" my mouth fell open no wonder he is like this. "now baby we have a deal don't we about the cutting?" "yes we do"
short pov kendall
i love my friends and sister but i always have tot ake care of the or help them or when i need their help, i always have to ask and i don't mind that at all but sometimes it's really great and good to have my mom cause she will take care of me no matter what (except for what had happened but i forgave her for that) whenever i forget to take care of myself and fall she will be there to pick me right back up. i love my mom and like she said i wouldn't want to change her for another mother no matter what, even after all that happend cause she only human and she too can make mistakes.
That's it for now but i promise that it won't take this long for me to update again. see you later. xxxxxxxxx please tell me what you think.
