AN: I am so sorry guys. I haven't been writing that much. I just came off of my Annual Training for the National Guard, and then I had to cook for a class. Things have been crazy hectic and I just hadn't had the time to write. I know that A may seem a little more violent than in the show but I mean, how much more violent can a person be to try to push people off of trains or hit people with cars. Lol. But it's just how I picture A to be in my story. I hope you guys enjoy. Its been long overdue for a new chapter. Here we go.


About a week after the incident at the sorority party, Emily and I found ourselves getting ready to head to Rosewoods for Paige's funeral service. Emily was nervous, of course. Actually nervous isn't even half of the emotions that she was feeling that day. She was sad, nervous, uneasy, anxious. It's just hard to describe her emotions that day. She couldn't even explain them to me. I tried to help her out as much as I could. All she wanted from me was to be there to support her. After the four hour car drive, we finally reached the church. I started getting out of the car but started having trouble. Emily came around from the drivers side and helped me out. I held onto the top of the car as she got my crutches from the back seat.

"Em! San!" We saw the three girls walking over to us.

"What do I tell them about my leg?" She shook my head.

"Don't say anything about it yet, we don't want to get them all riled up before the service." I nodded in agreement.

"Whoa, San what happened to you?" Aria helped me away from the mud puddle I nearly stepped in so I could get onto my crutches.

"It's no big deal right now, we'll tell you guys about it later." Emily shut the door to the car and we walked up to the front door. The usher at the front gave us the program for the service.

In loving memory of Paige McCullers was in big italicized letters on the front above a picture of Paige from their senior year. I watched as Emily's demeanor changed in an instant. I guess everything started to sink in, because I could see tears filling her eyes. We moved into the church trying to find a place to sit. It was packed, so we decided to walk up to the front to see Paige's parents and the body first. As we move closer, Emily started walking slower. I stopped with her as we reached closer.

"It'll be okay, Em. We're all here for you." Spencer reassured her as she rubbed her back. She nodded and started walking again. But right as we could see her body in the casket, she turned around.

"I can't do this. I can't. I can't see her like this guys." She started crying. She gripped the rose she was holding tighter. I grabbed her hands, nearly dropping my crutches.

"You can do this, Em. I'll be with you the whole time okay?" I kissed her on the cheek, and had her look up at me. "You'll be just fine."

"We'll go up first, if that helps you Em." Hanna gave her a reassuring nod.

"Yeah. You guys go first." Emily wiped her face and stood up taller. I could hear her whispering I can do this to herself. The three girls walked up to the casket and held each other for a minute and then walked to give the condolences to Paige's parents.

"Are you ready babe?"

"As ready as I'll ever be for this." We started walking closer to the casket and finally we were right up next to it. I could feel her body shaking. I turned to see streams of tears running down her face. I moved my left crutch from under my arm and held it in my right hand so I could put my arm around her. I felt my crutches slip from my hands but realized that Aria was just taking them from me so I could hold Emily. I mouthed the words thank you to her, and held her close. She was breaking down. I had never seen someone so torn down like she was at that exact moment. I could only imagine what was going through her mind. Her ex girlfriend that she loved, was now laying in a casket lifeless. There wasn't any way that she was coming back. Just a lifeless corpse there for a viewing. It would be the last time Emily would see her for the rest of her life. I could just imagine the pain and hurt that she was experiencing. I know that if that was Brittany, I'd be losing my mind. I did everything I could to try and comfort her. She places the rose in her casket and touched Paiges face. She bent over and kissed her on the forehead, then started crying even harder. In an instant, Emily's face was buried in my chest. I knew at that point that I wouldn't be able to hold her up on my own. It was a horrible time to be injured. Hanna and Aria came up to us.

"C'mon Em, it's okay. Let's just go off to the side." She held Emily up as they walked away. Hanna handed me my crutches and helped me off of the stage.

"I'm trying to comfort her, I really am." You could hear the dissapointment in my voice.

"We know, San. And trust me, you're doing a way better job than any of us could. It's so heartbreaking to see her like this again." We sat down in the middle of the congregation. The service wasn't too long, it was short, sweet and simple. The family requested that the last and final viewing was just for family, and that they would be heading to the burial after. They also asked for Emily to stay as well. I looked at her, mascara and make up all smeared from crying. I picked up my crutches and started to stand. She stood up and made her way up to the front of the church without saying one word. I followed the three other girls outside. When we got outside, I leaned my crutches up against the wall and put my hair up into a ponytail.

"So are you gonna tell us what happened to you yet?" Spencer's voice sounded very anxious.

"I don't think Emily would want me to say anything until we were all together, and somewhere where there wasn't so many people."

"Spence she's right, why don't we go back to Emily's house after this? That way, Santana can get off of her feet and get comfortable." Hanna walked over to me and offered to take my purse and Emily's as well. "Do you think she's all right in there?"

"I'm sure she's alright. Em's a strong person." Aria didn't sound so sure. We all knew that Emily was the most emotionally vulnerable out of the four of them. She's so caring and lovable. I turned to look into the church and saw her walking back towards us. She was wiping her eyes off with the handkerchief that she had.

"How are you feeling, Em?" She walked up to me and put her head on my shoulder.

"I'm alright. It's just a lot to take in, you know?" I rubbed her back. "I'll be okay though. Let's just head to my house. I don't want to go to the burial. I just feel so exhausted."

"Okay that's fine. Do you want one of us to drive your car?" Hanna asked. I mean, she might as well since she had our purses.

"No it's okay I got it. We'll just meet you guys there okay?" They all nodded. Emily grabbed our purses from Hanna and we started walking back to her car. When we finally got there, I sat down and she slowly took my crutches from me. She put them in the backseat and made her way slowly into the drivers seat.

"I can't believe that I'm at Paige's funeral service. Her funeral. I never thought that it'd be this soon. You know what she used to tell me? That when I went to her funeral, I wasn't allowed to be sad. That I wasn't allowed to cry or be sad. She wanted me to be okay. To accept that now she would be in a better place. She'd be looking down on me and that she would always protect me. But I didn't think that only a year after telling me that, she would really be gone. It makes my heart hurt. I don't know how I'm supposed to feel." I looked at her. I could feel the sadness radiating off of her. I grabbed her hand and held it tightly.

"I'm so sorry babe. I can't imagine what emotions are going through you. I think about what it would be like if it were Brittany in that casket, and I would've lost my mind. She was a big part of your life and you two have lots of history together. Just think of it this way, you have your very own guardian angel now. You have to be strong. I bet that's what she would've wanted." I looked up and saw the three girls in Spencer's moms car driving past us. Emily started the car and followed behind them.

Once we reached Emily's house and got settled, we told them the story. That's when the questions started coming.

"Do you remember anything distinctive? Sounds that may have put you close to like, the train tracks, or the hospital or something? Maybe that way we can find the place they took you and that's where A would be hiding." Spencer's voice was fast and straight to the point.

"Or maybe the drive back?" The questions didn't stop.

"Guys relax. It was a terrifying situation for her. Don't overwhelm her with all the questions." Emily was getting protective. It was so sexy when she did. I loved it.

"We should get going, it's pretty late already. We hope you recover really quick Santana. I'm sorry you went through that." Hanna said as she hugged me. I sat up on the bed.

"Thanks." I replied. I didn't really know what else to say. They all said their goodbyes.

"I'll be right back okay? I'm gonna walk them out, and then come back upstairs. Do you want anything while I'm down there? Are you hungry?" I smiled.

"No I'm good baby. Thanks though." She kissed me on the cheek and followed her friends out the door. I laid back on the bed and got comfortable. I turned onto my left side and spotted Emily's senior year book. I started going through it and saw that she had a lot of signatures in it. She was always that popular pretty girl. I found her senior picture. It was so beautiful. As I kept looking through it, I noticed a page that was filled with handwriting.

I love you more than I can put into words. There are so many things I could write down on this page but it would just be easier to show you. We have been through so much together. From almost being hit by cars, to being held in a cabin by Maya's stalker. We've been through more things in one year than other people can say they've been through all their lives. If God gave me the choice of starting over, I wouldn't change a thing. I've loved every second with you and I know that I'll enjoy every second to come. Nothing can tear us apart. Not even A. Maya was right, you do have a old soul. I love you, Emily. And I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with you.

I was so into reading her yearbook that I didn't see her standing in the door way.

"I'm sorry." I shut the year book and put it back down where I got it. "I didn't read much, don't be mad."

She shook her head and came to lay next to me.

"It's alright, San. I was going to show you the yearbook anyway." I felt her gently kiss my cheek, and cuddle close. "I feel so exhausted."

"I know, it's been a very eventful day for you." I started to feel hesitant. I've been wanting to ask her about what happened between her and Paige but I never found the right time. " Em, what ever happened betw..."

"Between me and Paige? I was waiting for you to ask."

"I just never found the right time. You don't have to tell me right now." She hugged me tighter and then sighed.

"No it's alright. It all happened right before she left for Stanford."


Paige was packing for college, and as usual I was sitting on her bed trying to get her to unpack her bags.

"Why do you have to leave so early? It's cutting into spending time together." Paige stopped folding her clothes to look at me.

"You know I have to go, Em. The freshman orientation is the day I get there and plus, Coach Earl wants me there so that I can start practicing for the season opener. I don't want to have to leave you, babe. But I don't have an exact choice right now." My heart dropped.

It wasn't the easiest thing for me. I was going through rehab after my shoulder surgery. I was disappointed because I should've been going with her. But after the surgery, the doctors told me that it was a long shot for me to start swimming again. It was like my world crumbled before me. Paige was there for me step by step. She came to every rehab session I had. But she was leaving in three days. In three days, my girlfriend would be leaving and going all the way across the country. It was a crazy thought. But none the less, I was happy for her. I'd be her number one fan.

"I just don't want you to go okay. I already miss you and you're still here." She looked at me. The expression in her face said it all.

"I already miss you too. But everything is gonna be okay." She stopped what she was doing and came to sit next to me on my bed. "You and I, we're indestructible. Nothing can come between us."

Those three days came and went, and before I knew it I was at the airport with her saying goodbye. I cried so hard, I didn't know what to do. I watched as she walked away, until she was out of sight. Our relationship was strong for the first couple of weeks. She'd tell me all about college swimming. And how if I were there we'd be kicking some major ass. At that moment of time, rehab was going great and I almost had a full range of motion in my shoulder. I was ecstatic. The next weekend was Paige's first swim meet. Spencer and I decided to take a trip to Cali to surprise her. The plane ride there was long and miserable. Babies were crying and the kid sitting behind me kept kicking my seat. The car ride over to the college was full of anxious feelings. I never felt like that for a long time. Spencer and I sat in the stands waiting for the Stanford team to come out of their locker room. As they walked out, I started to look for Paige. I hadn't seen her in over a month, and it was the longest time we were apart. I couldn't find her, so I was confused as to where she was.

"Em I think we should go." Spencer stood up from her seat and tried to get me to stand up.

"What? Why? I still haven't found Paige. Plus I want to watch the meet." I got out of her grip and got comfortable in my seat again. When I looked over at where the Stanford team was, I spotted Paige. She was holding another girls hand. I was so upset. She had been lying to me the entire time. I got up from my seat and stormed down to the side of the pool. Spencer got up and quickly followed me.

"Don't do anything, Em. I know you want to but it isn't worth it." I looked at her.

"At this moment, I don't care about anything." I walked straight up to her and pushed her.

"What the hell is this Paige? Who the fuck is this bitch? I come all the way here from Rosewood to see this bullshit? After all the 'I Love You's and the fucking times you told me that you would never do anything to hurt me. And then you do THIS. This, this by far. Is the worse thing I have ever been through. After everything that happened to me, to US. And you go and do this. I'm done, Paige. You can have this fucking bitch. Have a nice life. Let's go Spence." Before Paige could get a word in, I was gone. I didn't say not one word on the flight home. I didn't say much really for the next couple of weeks. Paige tried calling and texting but I didn't answer or reply. I found no reason to. The girls didn't know what to do with me. I barely talked to them. Eventually I came around, and everything started looking up. I applied at Penn State, and got in. The girls are the ones that brought me to campus. Things were looking up.


She literally had been through everything. I hugged her tight, and kissed her forehead. I could tell she was crying again.

"We didn't talk for a while. Until my birthday came around and she called me. We talked for two hours. After that we'd talk a little here and there, but things were never really the same between us." She sat up and wiped her eyes. "You know, by this time I would've thought that I ran out of tears."

"Do you still love her?" She turned to me and grabbed my hands.

"Yes. I do love her. Just like how I know you still love Brittany. But as of now, you're the one I love." She smiled.

She loved me? I had been thinking about that too. We clicked from the beginning.

"I love you too Emily." I kissed her. "I would never do anything like that to you. I would never do anything to hurt you."

That night, we went out to dinner with Emily's parents. We had a great time, her dad kept talking to me about nationals. Apparently he was in the glee club at his high school. After dinner, Emily and I went to the movies and saw Pacific Rim.

"That movie was the greatest movie in the entire world! I'm so amped up I wanna be a pilot. I want this movie to be real." She giggled.

"You're so silly, San." She locked her arm in mine. "I would be your co pilot. Our connection would be so strong. The Kaiju's would stand no chance."

"We'd kick some ass that's for sure." I walked up to the drivers side of the car and got in. We drove home and made sure to not make any noise so we wouldn't wake her parents. We walked quietly into her room and shut the door.

"I hope you had a good time tonight." She started taking off her shirt and shorts, then laid on the bed. I proceeded to do the same. As I laid down, I heard Emily's phone vibrate.

"Just when I thought A wasn't going to bother us this weekend." I picked up her phone and saw that it wasn't A. It was Hanna.

Hey I don't know if you guys are still awake, but we have a problem. My house, ASAP.