What was Lost, What was Gained
ch. 7
Sakura POV
I'm not sure how far I went until the rain began pouring down causing me to slip off the tree branch. Landing right in a mud puddle, I sat there. My tears fell just has hard as the rain, I didn't have the energy to get up. Sasuke's cruel words playing in my mind.
"I've been a fool, for...so long."
My body began to tremble as the ice like rain dripped down my face. I was always the one to misjudge. I did it when Naruto when I were young, thinking he was useless when I was really the useless one. I did it with everyone, why was I always the one playing the fool?
"I thought you were over crying for me?"
A deep voice said gently behind me. My body flinched in response but I didn't turn around.
"I thought I never had to again."
I quivered, my lower lip trembling. I didn't want Sasuke to see me cry, the best chance I had was to just keep walking and tell him to return to camp. That was silly, Sasuke wouldn't listen to a command from me, he would proably laugh at me. Somehow I found my strength again and got to my feet. I made it under a large weeping willow when two familiar arms encircled me, pinning my arms to my side. I didn't try to break away I stood, my body frozen, either from the freezing rain or Sasuke's warm breath on the back of my neck.
"You shouldn't be crying over me anymore Sakura. ."
His voice was calm but it sounded so sincere, it broke my heart.
"I can't help it. I love you Sasuke, and when you act so cold, so hateful. It hurts."
I was sobbing by this point, my body shaking from my gasps. He held me closer against his chest.
"I told you Sakura-"
"I know. Itachi is you goal. I know that Sasuke and I've been trying my best to help you. I thought I was strong enough to wait for you in your own time, until you're dream was accomplished...but,"
I tried shaking my tears away.
"I can't anymore. I'm still weak, I need to know that you love me, I need to have that sercurity that you won't leave me again...I want to come before Itachi. At least just once...just once...I'm on your mind first."
I turned swiftly and cried into his shirt, his arms snaked around my waist.
"Sakura, you're so innocent. You don't know what it like, the pain I feel in my heart. Their are few in this world that do, like Naruto. Sakura. I'm happy you don't know that pain, I never want you too."
I still didn't stop crying in fact, my cries grew louder and deeper. In so many words Sasuke was telling me I could never relate to him, how can I have the love I always wanted to if we would always be on another plain. Sasuke pulled me away from his body removing my hands off his shirt. His hand glided to my chin and forced me to look into his eyes.
"Sakura I told you that my brother would always come first until he's dead...but at least right now I can try and forget about my past. Right now this is all I can give you Sakura, these moments are the only thing I have to give."
Before I could think of some kind of response Sasuke's lips descended on mine. I could feel his lips moving with such gentle pressure on my own My mind left me and the memory of when Sasuke had gotten me out of Oirchimaru's hideout came back. When we were in the field together, when we shared our real kiss. This kiss was similar but still very different. Sasuke was urgent in the field, right now he was gentle, as if careful not to break me. Or break me farther.
"I'm sorry,"
He whispered into my ear. We locked eyes again.
"Sasuke I don't want to ask anything from you, that's what I want, but what I need..."
Sasuke cut me off again. His lips moved against mine once more this time I kept my mind on this. I kissed back. Unlike before, this kiss was easy and sweet, gentle. Our lips danced together, his lips tasted like fresh spring rain. His hands reached up to my face, caressing my cheeks with his thumbs. My arms wrapped lightly around his neck, mostly just to support myself. We parted slightly, each other's breath on our lips.
"Sasuke I think you should leave me."
Sasuke tensed and looked both confused and angry.
"Why would I do that?"
He almost growled.
"Sasuke I will only hold you back. Both you and Naruto always say never let anything hold you back from your dreams."
He kissed me lightly on the lips again.
"Sakura, I will never leave you again. People can have more than one dream. My dream of killing my brother is just my current one."
He kissed my lips again very lightly, they felt like a butterfly's.
"My other dream is...after I kill Itachi, I want to marry you. Maybe then you'll know I'm serious that I won't leave you again."
I almost jumped when one of his hands slid into mine but withdrew immediatly. My fingers wrapped around the object left behind. I looked down and saw a sliver band with small diamonds on the top.
"Sasuke...this...is..."
He tilted my chin up again.
"I told you Sakura, Itachi is my goal for now, but that doesn't mean he will be forever. I hope he won't. I want him gone so I can move on, so I can let go of my hate and revenage. We'll move on, after I rip out his eyes."
I touched Sasuke's face, tears swelling in my eyes. Yes I was foolish. All this time he wanted what I did but he knew he couldn't have it until his heart was at peace.
"I'm unworthy for you."
I whispered, running my thumb across his lips.
"I love you anyway."
He leaned in and kissed me, I kissed back. Another sweet kiss but it had the most passion behind it than what I thought was possible. His love, my love, the love that would blossom when he had Itachi's blood on his hands.
