7

I set Natasha down and give her a kiss on the forehead. She stumbles a bit.

"I'm dizzy," she says, before walking into Tom's legs. He laughs and picks her up. She smiles and gives him a kiss on the cheek. He sets her down and she falls onto his feet. I laugh.

"I think you spun her around just a little too long," Tom laughs. I shrug.

"She liked it though," I say.

"Yeah. Again! Again!" she squeals. I pick her up and am just about to spin her again when the judge speaks.

"Let's get this started, shall we?" He glares at me.

"Sorry," I say. I set Natasha down and she clings to my legs. I stroke her wavy brown hair. She smiles up at me. I take her hand and Tom takes the other. We walk together down to the front and sit down.

"First off, let me say how important it is that you two have agreed to do this. Are you in an understanding with each other?"

"Yes," Leanah says. The judge looks at me.

"Mr. Kaulitz?"

"Y-Yes," I say, even though it pains me. But I would rather see Leanah happy and doing this will make her happy.

"We also have to discuss the custody of your child. Have you thought of who she will live with?" I nod.

"She will live with Leanah for most of the year, due to the amount of touring that Tokio Hotel does. When we are not on tour, however, she will live with me. We also agreed that we should spend holidays together."

"That all seems to be in order. Now if you would both sign these I can officially declare your marriage as void." Leanah stands up and takes the pen from the judge. She signs the paper and sits back down. I get up and sign them as well. I want to cry, but that would be wrong. I can shed no more tears for myself. I sit back down.

"You are officially divorced. Dismissed." The judge leaves. I stand up. Tom is playing with Natasha on the floor. Leanah walks over.

"Hello Bill."

"Hello." She looks tired. Black circles are framing underneath her eyes. I probably look twice as bad. Although the black around my eyes is due to the amount of eye make up I put on.

"Natasha, sweetie, it's time to go." Natasha looks up.

"But I want to stay and play with Uncle Tom."

"We have to go. Come on." Leanah picks her up off the ground.

"NO! I want to stay with Daddy and Uncle Tom. No!" Natasha starts crying.

"Hey. Shh… Stop crying. We'll see you soon. And Uncle Gustav and Uncle Georg will be there next time. Okay? Do you want to play with Uncle Gus and Georg?" She nods.

"How about you come over tomorrow and we can all go to the park."

"Okay!" she says excitedly. Leanah sets her down and she runs into my outstretched arms. I hug her.

"Be a good girl for Mommy. Okay?"

"Okay," she says. I give her a kiss. Then I stand up and look at Leanah.

"I'll drop her off at ten," she says.

"Sounds good," I say.

"Bye Bill." And she grabs Natasha's hand and walks off. I pretend that it doesn't hurt to see her walk away and not look back.