A few days later, it was time for the funeral so, we dressed up in our black clothes, and I had bought some black handkerchiefs so I put them in my handbag and went into the bedroom to get ready. Me and gee spent the longest doing our makeup, as usual.

When we were ready, everybody gathered in the kitchen and prepared, i gave gee a hug, it was nice, but all of a sudden i felt this weird feeling. I thought that i loved him; maybe it was just a crush. Or more? It would explain quite a lot, i pulled away from him and ran upstairs, i got into my room and looked through my suitcase until i found the things i had written over the last few weeks during my mild mental breakdown. Sat on the floor of my room scrambling through it i was breathing heavily and tears poured out of my eyes; i heard footsteps rushing up the stairs. I wasn't surprised; i did make quite an exit. Frank rushed into my room and power slid across the floor to me. He put his arms around me and pulled me back, he took the paper out of my hands, and hugged me, gee bent down on his knees and looked at the paper on my floor.

"Is this what you told me about?"

"Yeah, i don't mind you looking at it, that's why i brought it." I said

Frank still had his arms around me so i leaned into him and gave him a hug i was still crying and my makeup had run all down my face, i looked terrible. Gee was still going through my things, reading it, tears formed in his eyes. I didn't know what was wrong, but i just looked deep into his eyes as he looked down at my stuff, his eyes were so beautiful, even when they were pouring with tears.

"You're gonna be late, Gerard, i don't want to steal the day." I said.

"Evie, you are as important as anything! I think this stuff you have written is amazing but i am concerned, look, go fix your makeup and we will talk about this after the funeral."

"Okay," i squeezed Frankie extra tight, i didn't want to let go, and I felt safe. He pushed me back and rubbed my arms as if to warm me up.

"You're going to be okay, trust me, i want to stay with you and help you." He whispered.

He helped me up and i rushed into the bathroom to fix my makeup and try to make myself look a bit less of a mess. I ran my hand through my hair and took a deep breath before making my way downstairs to join the others.

-------------------------------------------------about an hour or two later----------------------------------------------

We all sat in the church, even though i wasn't family or a close friend, the guys insisted that i sat at the front with them. All of them but frank went outside to help with the carrying of the coffins, frank was too short to hold it and didn't fancy leaving me on my own. Sad and slow music began to play and the coffins came in carried by sad looking Ray, Gee, Bob and Mikey and then other friends and family. The coffins were placed at the front and then everyone sat down as a short stumpy man appeared and began saying,

"Good day friends, we are gathered here today to say goodbye to two women, loved by many, never to be forgotten. Please may you all stand, there are leaflets, being handed out please take one and feel free to sing along."

Frank stood up first and then so did the others, they made their way to the front where there was a big curtain blocking off part of the church, they all went behind it, i wondered why when all of a sudden the curtain fell and the bend were stood there. 1, 2, 3...

Long ago
Just like the hearse, you die to get in again
We are so far from you

Burning on
Just like a match you strike to incinerate
The lives of everyone you know

And what's the worst you take
(Worst you take)
From every heart you break
(Heart you break)
And like a blade you stain
(Blade you stain)
Well, I've been holding on tonight

What's the worst that I could say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

Came a time
When every star fall
Brought you to tears again
We are the very hurt you sold

And what's the worst you take
(Worst you take)
From every heart you break
(Heart you break)
And like the blade you stain
(Blade you stain)
Well, I've been holding on tonight

What's the worst that I could say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

well, if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long not goodnight

can you hear me?
Are you near me?
Can we pretend?
To leave and then
we'll meet again
When both our cars collide

what's the worst that I could say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long not goodnight

well, if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

Gerard stepped forward and thanked everyone for singing along, then he began his speech, i turned around to see all the crying people in the church. Just gee's voice saying the meaningful words he spoke brought a tear to your eye. Once gee had finished his amazing speech, little Frankie walked forward and began his speech, it was just as beautiful as Gerard's and his voice was cute and reminded you of a young child crying.

-------------------------------------------That evening---------------------------------------------------------

We were back at home now and nobody seemed to be communicating to anybody. They were all tired and sad and were sat in the lounge going through what they were now going to do with their lives in their heads.