Disclaimer
I don´t own any of the Lexx characters…Atlantis Alliance does. I don´t want to earn money with the stories etc., it´s just for fun.
The story takes place after season 3, didn´t bear the 4 season in mind. I reprogrammed 790 to be in love with Xev again, cause it fits my story better. But you´ll see when you read….
Please review if you like the story, I plan to write a LOT…so it´s always important to get a little feedback!
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Have fun!
Chapter 6
To love and be loved
WARNING:
THIS CHAPTER CONTAINS SEXUAL TOPICS!
PLEASE
DONT READ THIS CHAPTER IF YOU ARE UNDER 17 (OR DO IT ON YOUR OWN
RISK); OR IF YOU FEEL NOT ADULT ENOUGH, TOO PRIM OR WHATEVER...
She must have slept some hours, Xev thought, when she woke up. Kai was still sleeping next to her. He had let go of her hand anytime and placed it under his head, his other hand rested on his belly. Xev smiled and observed his shape lovingly. It was still strange for her, to have him here in bed. He acted so innocent and vulnerable in his sleep. Xev turned onto her belly, put her arms under her chin and watched him steadily, listened to his deep, constant breath. He would need a lot of time and benefit, to accept his past, that was now clear to her. Only time could heal the worst. She wanted to give him all time he needed, no question, the only thing counting now, was that he didn´t break under this burden. She had waited such a long time – what meant time to her now? Xev sighed soundlessly. Her accelerated libido had an opinion of its own, she knew that, but what could she do? In moments like this, she cursed her transformation.
Her gaze wandered over the attractive BrunnenG. His beautiful, thick, long dark hair surrounded his head in a snarl. Xev reached out for one of his streaks and let it glide through her fingers. Kai murmured something in his sleep and moved a bit. His blanket slid down a bit and gave her gaze free access to his strong right thigh. Her unbelievable strong longing for him came back at once. Her reaction frightened herself a bit, she couldn´t explain those strong feelings towards him, it wasn´t physical attraction only. She felt so close to him like to no one else. Not that she met many people, especially men, in her life…but something between her and Kai was different. Even when he had been dead, he was the only one she could talk to in a reasonable way. After he got his life back now, this invisible bond deepened. She could feel his pain, his brokenness, and his agony so very intensely. The sadness surrounding him was nearly visible for her. And – of course – there was this deep, overwhelming love for him. It was such a strong sensation that often caused her to cry. Days had gone by since their first kiss, but she could still feel this intense sensation on her lips. She smiled, when she thought back.
Her attention suddenly turned back to Kai, who moved uneasy. Beads of sweat formed on his forehead, his body was suddenly covered with perspiration. He groaned slightly. Xev propped herself up worriedly. She took a cold, wet cloth and cooled his face with it. It was a short fever attack. She pulled the blanket back over his body and waited for the fever to draw back. After a while he got calmer, the crisis was over. Xev wiped a last time over his forehead, when she suddenly felt fingers wrapping her wrist. Her hand was softly pushed aside. Kai opened his eyes and looked directly into her face. Their eyes locked and Xev froze. She let her hand fell down on his chest. Kai´s hand rested loosely on hers. His other hand touched her cheek, stroke a restive curl of her hair back behind her ear. "You´re so beautiful, Xev…" he whispered, Xev flushed and smiled shyly, she dropped her gaze. His glance was very intensive and seemed to touch her soul. The air crackled again.
Xev felt her libido kick in once again and breathed deeply.
Kai felt her unease more concrete than before. Her sexual attraction had grown over the last hours. Once again he wondered why she was so attracted to him. What was it, which made him so attractive to women? He couldn´t explain it, he only knew that it was a fact since his birth. Even during his undead existence he hadn´t lost this attractiveness for the female sex.
But he also felt more than physically attraction for Xev. It was her unmistakable character, her inner beauty that made him feel something for her. Besides his first love on Brunnis 2, he never met a woman, who attracted him so much. Well, the last 6000 years it really hadn´t been an issue.
He let his finger playfully slide down behind her ear, down her neck. Her skin was soft and tender under his fingertips.
Xev had closed her eyes and she swallowed. Excitement filled her and let her body tremble. She enjoyed every moment of this unique sensation to be touched by him. She hadn´t expected that so soon.
It was overwhelming for Kai to feel her like this. Long lost sensations showed up again. Warmth spread over his body and for the first time in his new life he felt only positive feelings running through him. He felt his injured soul touched with them, they comforted, and they soothed his pain. Kai dared to believe, that he had found a possible way to heal his soul…maybe one day that will happen. For now, he was thankful for the comfort Xev gave him with it.
His slim fingers reached her shoulder, stroke over her collarbone to the middle, rested in the small dip between both collarbones. Xev felt a new shiver ran through her body. "Xev?" he whispered. She opened her eyes and looked inquiring into his truly handsome face. She swallowed, when she saw his eyes shone full of desire, his expression slightly confused and uneasy at the same time "I´m … a bit out of practice, but…" Xev stifled the rest of his words in a passionate kiss. She softly plunged her tongue between his lips into his mouth. She felt a hot wave running through her, when their both tongues met. She gave a groan and began to explore his mouth, as he did too. Softly she caressed his lips with the tip of her tongue, only broken by sweet, deeply passionate kisses. After a while both stopped, out of breath. They had edged closer to each other. "Out of practice?" she asked breathless. "Hmm?" Kai asked innocently, raising his brows. "I just want to know how it is, when you were in practice !" she teased him. His kisses were the best she ever experienced in her life. Kai smiled, he felt passion and desire rushing through his veins. With all his reawakened senses he knew that he hadn´t forgotten anything from his first life. "Then let us find out,…" he whispered keenly. His finger slid between her breasts. He softly stroked her visible curves over her clusterlizard top. Xev gave a loud groan, her fingers clutched around the cloth on her bed. He touched her cheek with his left hand and gave her a new kiss, his right hand followed upwards, too, rested on her shoulder. His left loose from her cheek and slid downwards her neck, guided slowly to her left shoulder. His both hands wandered simultaneously under the straps of her dress, slid them down over the side of her shoulders. He leaned forward and kissed her neck and throat tenderly – his hands moved to her back and unzipped her top. The long hair stroked gently over her bare shoulders. He freed Xev of the top and let it fell aside. His lips caressed her skin softly and he looked up into her face, sharing another kiss with her. She could feel his free hair tickling her skin, her now bare breasts. Her body started to burn of desire. His hands climbed up again, to her firm breasts. He cupped them with his hands, stroked over her curves, over her nipples, which hardened immediately. Xev groaned impulsively and threw her head back. Kai smiled delighted about the success of his endeavors. He bent down to her breasts and kissed her erected nipples. He touched them with the tip of his tongue, circuiting them lazily. Xevs desire grew. She sank backwards down, twined ecstatically under his touch. Kai´s palm stroke over her belly, continued the way of his kisses downward. He stopped for a second at her navel, circuited it with his tongue, before his hands slid down to her well-formed thighs – to the end of her mini skirt. He let them glide up on the inside of her thighs, until they reached the soft, sensitive skin, directly next to her abdomen. Xev let out a gentle clusterlizard growl. Kai had to smile, he nearly had forgotten this special part of her. With one fluent movement, he caught her skirt and with it her underwear and removed it. He dropped it next to her boots, she put out before they went to sleep. Xev gasped, she lay completely naked in front of him, her legs slightly straddled. Her chest moved up and down fast. Arousal spread over her whole desirable body. On his way back up, his hand caressed her pubes, his palm pressed slightly to her cunt. Xev moved her hips and pressed harder against his palm. She felt a well-known throbbing deep there. She wanted him to silence it, but not yet – not yet. She let out a cry of passion when he felt his finger exploring her hot wet depths, touching exactly her tender spot. He nearly brought her to the edge of ecstasy. But before he admitted her this release, he drew back. He lay down next to her, kissing her again, another endless passionate kiss. Her arousal carried over to him long ago. But he waited for Xev to cool down a bit. He could see the passion burning in her eyes. Her wonderful green eyes shone full of love and longing for him. He had still recognized, that only the slightest touch of him was enough to arouse her. Long suppressed craving, now unloaded in waves over and over again. As evil his lack of emotion had been for him, as bad must have been Xevs constant fight against her hyperactive libido. Xev breathed deeply and turned to Kai. It was her turn now. She pulled away the blanket, which still was somewhat draped around his abdomen and started to explore his absolutely amazing body. Her fingers stroke over his strong, wirily muscles all-over his upper body. Softly she caressed his explicit strands of muscles, clearly visibly under his smooth, warm skin. She placed a few kisses down on his belly, leaving a small wet trace with the tip of her tongue all the way up. Their lips met again and their tongues fought another duel. Xev gasped for breath and looked deeply into his greenish-hazel eyes. She saw the soft light of love and passion gleaming in them, but also this echo of sadness, that inhabit him, that would forever be a part of him. She hoped, that she was able to take away this deep pain of his, at least for this moment. Her hand wandered down again and found what she looked for. She broke eye contact, before she could get lost in his eyes. There was anything undeniably mysterious and ancient in his gaze, what attracted her. Her palm pounced on his erected member. Xev stroked tenderly over its tip and took it in her hand. Kai closed his eyes, his reaction similar to hers not long ago. He groaned loudly when he felt her warm hand wrapping his cock. His lust grew and he felt something new, electrifying warmth exploded from the depths of his stomach all-over his body. And there was something else he sensed. After 6000 years of loneliness and numbness, he felt a part of him – completed, united, reconnected. His body started to burn of longing for Xev, and he completely forgot his past and his pain for this moment. Xev´s impatience alienated to him and he started again to touch her. Together they let ran their hands over their heated bodies. Their joint breathing and moaning filled the chamber, as their exploration went more and more passionate and intense. He massaged her breasts, stroked hard with his thumbs over her nipples, and squeezed them. Her reaction was fiercely, she screamed in excitement and straddled her legs and sat down on his thighs. When the tip of his member stroked her cunt, both groaned with pleasure. He slid his hands down to her butt, pulled her closer. He kissed her breasts, sucked her nipples. Xev gasped hard, arched her back. The craving inside her, went to the limit, the throbbing between her legs went beyond all bearing. She couldn´t hold out very much longer, especially when her hip movement pressed his cock closer to her opening. "Kai, please…I….ahhh…" She wasn´t able to speak a comprehensible word. One hot wave after the other rushed through her, let her cry out again – another clusterlizard growl followed. Kai seemed to understand, he pulled her close, pressed her tightly to his body and rolled them over. Xev straddled her legs widely and Kai lowered himself down on her. Carefully he slid his cock into her hot, wet opening. For a moment they held their breath, none of them wanted to miss this magnificent moment as their hungry bodies united. But not only their bodies connected – their souls as well - two souls, which craved so long for true love in so different ways, which didn´t get the love they needed or wanted. Xev gasped heavily, looked deeply into his eyes, as he did the same.
If someone had told her, that this would ever happen, she had laughed at him. But now, now it happened…
She was lost in his eyes. Eyes that had seen far too much – never wanted to see the most of it. Eyes, which screamed hungrily for love. Sweat covered their bodies and she loved to see them glinting in the pale light. She felt his member filling her completely, how it made them both one. She heaved her hips, twined her legs round his waist, when he started to thrust slowly into her. He gave her time to show him her rhythm, kissed her luscious lips. Xev groaned loudly as their bodies started to move rhythmically. Ecstasy washed over them and after a moment, both closed their eyes overwhelmed. Kai stroked over her body, her breasts, sucked them tenderly and drove her to the edge of ecstasy. With every thrust Xev gave a loud groan, she felt her climax near, but she didn´t want it happen so early. She let go of his waist and broke their connection. Kai allowed her. She propped herself up and pushed him tenderly onto the bed. She straddled her hips and sat down on his thigh, gave him newly access to her opening. Kai let his cock slide in and both continued their amorous play. When she was riding him, he cupped her breast, send new shivers through her body, whilst squeezing her sensitive nipples. She moaned and arched her back, pressed her abdomen fiercely against his, when she pushed down. He felt her strong contractions massage his shaft as they shorten more and more. Kai pressed his lips together, controlling the urge to cum. He grabbed her shoulders and rolled their sweated bodies over, with him on top. The sweat allowed them to let their hands slide fluently over their bodies. Xev was near the edge of sexual ecstasy. She reared up under him, put her legs around his waist again and tried to get him deeper inside her cunt. Kai doubled his efforts and thrust harder and deeper into her, until she came in a vast explosion. Her hunger for sexual satisfaction was immense, and she took what she lacked of. Xev was prancing underneath him for a last time – let their fusion go beyond their deepest depths and screamed and groaned his name as her orgasm shot through her perfect body. Kai climaxed the same moment, when his member entered her so deeply, and he moaned loudly as their shared climax let their bodies tremble.
He collapsed onto her. Xev loosed her grip around his waist and threw her arms around his heavy breathing body. He shifted them to one side. Xev put a leg over his thigh and let them experience the aftermath of this precious moment. Huddled together, they waited until their bodies calm down. Xev felt a tear of joy ran over her cheek, she was so unbelievable happy, it had been her biggest wish for years…and now it came true! She smiled and cried the same time. She loosed the grip a bit and touched a strand of his dark hair, wrapped it around her finger playfully. She loved his silken hair. Kai smiled and stroke some of those unruly streaks back. Xev sighed when she looked at him. She could forever look into this angelic face. He was so beautiful. Especially when his raven black hair was down. It underlined his beauty a lot. She touched his full lips with her fingertip, felt him kissing it. "Thank you,…" she finally whispered. "I love you with all my heart!" Kai´s lips curled with a new smile. He kissed her softly on her lips, nose and forehead. "I will love you forever, Xev, I promise." It was the first time he said those magic words, and it sounded like an oath. He kissed her again, less passionately, but endless lovingly. The kiss of two lovers.
Kai felt a relief he never expected. There was a peaceful feeling inside him he thought he would never have again. He was so grateful, their love was something that soothed his pain, something that put parts of him together again, gave him new strength. Strength he bitterly needed to adjust his new life. He looked at her lovingly, thanks to her this all was rendered possible. Because of her hope and her stubbornness. She had done so much for him – he felt guilt for his behavior towards her, dead or not. He reproached himself that his lack of emotion had hurt her like this. The exigency to apologize again to her was keen. "I…often hurt you Xev, I´ve been very unfair towards you … I feel so sorry for that. I wish I could change it. Even if I had no control over it – I´m sorry…" He dropped his gaze ashamed. Xev swallowed, yes, he had hurt her a lot, he had, but she didn´t blame him. He haven´t had any sense for something like that. But this was the past. She concentrated on the presence, and a now more promising future. "Let us leave the past behind, Kai. Everything that counts is now - and the future," she said warmly. Kai kept silent for a moment. The past – something he couldn´t leave behind that easy, there was too much to work out. "My past will forever be a part of me, Xev, but maybe, anytime, ….I´ll be able to accept it. I don´t know!" It cost him quite an effort to say this. He lacked the faith in it. Xev smiled encouragingly at him, she knew that he would forever be marked with this melancholy, this cruel past, but it would be wrong to ignore it. That wouldn´t help him. "You´ve all the time you need!" she said fondly. Kai raised his eyes, his voice softened and went more serious: "I know, Xev, I´m deeply grateful for your patience," he stroke gently over her cheek. "I´ll always be there for you, I won´t admit anything happen to you – I never had, and I never will. Xev, if necessary I would die for you…!" Xev shivered: "I hope this won´t be necessary." Only the thought about one of them to die was terrible. Now that Kai was mortal, it wasn´t ruled out that he may die sometimes. She shook off the thoughts about such a scenario. There was no reason to think about such circumstances, he was alive, and so she bent forward to kiss him. She wanted to feel him close now, as long as possible.
Their kiss turned more passionate and soon their bodies inflamed anew with longing. They took up time to explore and get to know each other deeper. After they reached another, high passionate climax, they lay down to sleep, totally exhausted, cuddled closely together.
Stanley, on his way to the bridge, sighed deeply. He couldn´t miss their second climax. They didn´t care about. Ok, why should they? 790´s cant was some kind of comfort for him. Besides, he granted them this release. Especially Xev. Now she finally had what she wanted. Stan wondered about all those changes going on here. He often thought about how blue Xev had felt, if Kai was around and acted so dead. Well he was dead. Had been dead. Her visits to the cryochamber, how she often had declared her love to him – exactly knowing that he didn´t return it. Unfulfilled love could be horrible, he should know this. He felt a bit sorry when he thought about his, sometime, really rough words at her. Maybe he should talk to her anytime. He reached the bridge and Lexx reported to him: "I have received signals, Stan, should I follow them?" Stan climbed on his pedestal. "Can you show me the signal?" "I´m sorry Stan, it´s too weak, we have to get closer!" Stan sighed. Signals, this could mean everything, a ship, a planet. Both of it could mean trouble or … variety. "Oh, the heck with it! Follow those signals, Lexx, keep me updated!" "Yes, Stanley!" Maybe, with some luck, there were a few nice females which weren´t allied yet. 790 hadn´t said anything so far, and he wondered about that, normally he didn´t miss the chance to throw some insults at him. But the robot head was to busy to moan about Xevs absence. He was about to leave, as 790 finally broke the silence. "Tweedle…where is my Xev? Answer me you wrong programmed individual!" Stan turned, a smirk in his face. "Hm, I miss some courtesy in your tone, 790, so I´m not in the mood to answer…" "Grrr…." he heard 790 growling. "Tweedle, tell me in an instant where she is…!"
"…p-l-e-a-s-e!" "What?" "To be polite, you need this little word," Stan nearly chuckled. 790 curled up his digital mouth. "Please," he finally snarled. "She´s in bed," Stan answered, lifting him from the floor. "Such a long time?" the head asked suspiciously. "You hide something, Tweedle!" "I´ll admit, she´s not a-l-o-n-e in her bed." "Waaaaaaaaahhhhhh…!" yelled 790. Stan put 790 back and smiled benignly. He turned to leave, but before he stroke out for the deathblow. "Ah, by the way, they sounded v-e-r-y busy, if you ask me!" 790´s following wails surely had drown Kai and Xev out, at least it followed him far down the passageway.
He felt better now. Before he reached his own bed, he couldn´t resist to sneak a peek into Xevs bedchamber. All was silent and he saw them sleep like spoons. Stan sighed, if he ever would have such luck…! It comforted him a bit, that he triumphed over 790 recently. He chuckled to himself when he lay down on his bed. With a giant yawn he outstretched and started to doze, if something happened…the Lexx would attract attention to oneself.
