Author's Note #1: So I don't own Soul Eater, not sure how I feel about this ending, I know it might piss some of you off and it's short. I'm going to PM anyone who signs in and reviews to the last chapter. And then I've got when an unstoppable force meets an immovable object to do, which I'm super psyched about.
It's All in Your Head
by: Setkia
"It's okay," I say. "I trust you, Soul."
Something flashes in Soul's eyes and before I can fully process it, his hand is wrapped tightly around my neck and I can't breathe.
"Still trust me, Maka?" he asks.
Previously:
"Do you want to stay with me, Soul?"
Soul gulps. "I … I love you Maka, I just—"
"Stop telling me and show me. Prove it. Do you want to stay with me?"
Soul closes his eyes briefly, pain flickering in them. "Yes. But—"
"But nothing. What are you willing to do to stay with me?"
"Maka, you know I'd do anything for you—"
"So do anything for yourself!" And I know that peaking into his mind was wrong but I feel as though I have a better understanding of him now and I know what else is holding him back. The very thing that has been consistent in his mind. Soul has no self-esteem, he has no belief in himself. He doesn't think— "You're worth it, Soul."
Soul stares at me, wide eyed as though he's never heard such words in his life.
Wes is a good brother, that I'm sure, but I feel as though there was always something missing. Wes was never so direct with his affection, he let his actions speak for him but sometimes the most affective thing to do, was to say it. Sometimes someone just needed to hear it, they could know it was true but could never be self-assured until it came from someone's lips.
"I love you Soul. Your brother loves you, Black*Star, Kid, everyone at the DWMA is waiting for you. We all think you're worth it. I think you're worth it. And so should you. I can't help you if you don't want to help yourself." I reach my hand out to him. "Do you want to get better?"
Soul stares at my hand, his arms falling at his sides. He licks his lips and I can see the doubt clouding his mind. And then he leans forward and kisses me slowly, gently. It's hesitant, but he's reaching out and then his hand is in mine.
"Yes." He leans his forehead against mine, his eyes staring directly into mine, holding onto my hands with his. "I want to get better."
And I know he will.
Chapter 7
"I love you. I hate you. I like you. I hate you. I love you. I think you're stupid. I think you're a loser. It think you're wonderful. I want to be with you. I don't want to be with you. I would never date you. I hate you. I love you … I think the madness started the moment we met and you shook my hand. Did you have a disease or something?"—Shannon L Adler
Stein stares at the two of us. Clearly, he's in shock.
I hurt all over and I feel as though I'm still covered in blood but I don't care about that now. Soul has to be okay now. He has to be, after everything that happened he has to be okay.
Stein says something about telling the Headmaster that we're okay and then I turn to Soul.
"So—"
"Forget everything."
I stare at him. "What?"
"Forget everything," he repeats.
He can't be serious. Forget about what happened? Forget all his memories, forget his confession, his feelings? What is going on? Now that I'm not in his mind I can't tell what he's thinking anymore and I realize just how important talking to him is, he can't just get everything and I can't just understand everything either.
"But—"
"I nearly killed you!"
"And I'm telling you I trust you!" I say. I'm tired, feel gross and Soul's just come back from the brink of death. Shouldn't he just be happy to be alive? "Don't you get it Soul? You can't pull away from me, I'll always keep pulling you back."
"But—"
"No, it's time you listen. I spent so long listening to you, getting to know you, I think you should listen to me. You haven't even asked me what I think of this, you've just assumed! So I'll tell you right now what I'm thinking and save ourselves the time."
Soul's shoulders slump and he looks even more beat up, if possible. He thinks I'm going to reject him, and he's disappointed? Right after he's told me it's impossible? What is with this boy?
"You're so stupid," I say.
"Gee, thanks—"
"My turn to talk, remember?" I cut him off. "You're stupid and infuriating and you do so many things impulsively but we don't really fight, do we? I mean we banter, but that's normal, everyone has a bantering partner. The only times we ever get into real arguments are when you're protecting me because you don't even realize that I care about you so much more than a weapon, you're my friend Soul, you're my partner! I trust you, which isn't nothing and I know that you trust me too. You drive me absolutely crazy and you make fun of me and do stupid things all the time, but I like that about you. I like you, Soul. Maybe I don't love you like you love me, but I could easily come to that. You're different Soul, you're not my Papa and we're not going to make the same mistakes Papa, or maybe we are but I'm willing to try Soul! I'm willing to try, but you'll screw this up if you stop this before it even starts! You tell you almost killed me? I could get you killed in battle, I've nearly killed you so many times! We could be … we could be so good together, if you'd just …"
And Soul starts laughing. I want to yell at him, tell him that he's being stupid but his laughter's contagious and as much as I want to yell, I'm laughing too.
"I got it, Maka," he says and worry seems to disappear from his eyes. I've missed that smile.
"Do you?"
"Yeah, I get it." Soul smirks. "We'll both kill each other, alright? I'll cut you open, so long as you do the same to me."
And it doesn't make that much sense, but at the same time it does.
"I'm not going to screw this up," Soul whispers softly, pressing his forehead against mine. "I've screwed up too much already and I can't promise this is going to be easy, but I'll tell you right now I'm going to spend every moment I have making it worth it. So … Maka Albarn, what do you say? Do you trust me?"
I grin.
"Always."
Author's Note #2: The thank-yous, but first: I think I should've just called the story "Trust Me", just a random thought i've had.
HartshornN: So I want to say that it's pretty hard to avoid those tropes, and sometimes I just have to fall into them. I try to put my own personal twist on it, but really, it's kinda hard to avoid them. So long as the author can pull them off, I don't mind and I hope I can pull them off. I have a weird sentence structure, I know. I really like your constructive criticism so I hope you read and review to when an unstoppable force meets an immovable object so I can keep improving!
Otaku-neesan: Thank you. This is the last chapter, if you want to check out my other Soul and Maka stories, feel free, I'm about to buckle down for an 18 chapter (non-epilogue including) story for them.
Soul-3ater: Thank you!
08: Thank you. I read at that time too and I can never hold it in and end up suffocating myself with a pillow. And aren't all fangirls insane? At least just a bit?
deviedra: Yeah, Pokémon Go has taken over my life.
Destiny246: Wow, um ... I hope it goes well?
Chloee0x0: Yeah, there was one more chapter. Here it is.
Alexa60765: Well, now I've got when an unstoppable force meets an immovable object, but after that I might try it. (And I've got a lot of One Piece I gotta work on).
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