I feel so bad I never wanted her to get hurt. Thankfully she didn't have to wait long to be seen by the doctor. Right now we're waiting for the results for the x-ray she took. She's really in pain, and it's all my fault. She's laying in bed with her good arm cover her face, she's crying and jane never cries unless she's really in pain. I'm standing beside her bed petting her head, trying to soothe her the best way I can.
"Do you want pain medication baby?" I asked softly
"I don't regret it, Maur," she said completely ignoring my question "I'm just scared to give it my all because I'm afraid it's gonna happen again. You can understand that right?"
"Shh sweetie, we don't have to talk about that right now"
She removed her arm from her eyes and looked at me. Her eyes were bloodshot red and puffy from crying. It broke my heart to see her that way. It hurt to know I caused her this pain, both physically and emotionally.
" I don't regret giving us another chance. It's just.." she pauses and takes a deep shaky breath" I love you more than anyone and anything on this earth. I love you more than I love me, my family, anyone Maura. And when I saw you with that asswipe and you told me to get out like you didn't give a shit about me it hurt meMaura. I have never felt that much pain in my life. It hurt more then me shooting myself, more then what fucking Hoyt did to me, it hurt more than what my father did to me and my family," She said with tears running down her face "And now that Ian fuckner, the Australian dickhead, walked out on you, you want me to jump right back into a relationship with you, and you want things to go back to normal like nothing happened. I can't do that Maura, I can't give my all anymore at least not right now. But I don't regret it at all you have to understand that. I just need to to get over the betrayal and we just have to work at it"
"I know I hurt you, I shouldn't have done it. You May think that I'm perfect but I'm not, I make mistakes too. I regret ever opening the door for him, I regret ever meeting him. I regret breaking your heart, I wish I could take it all back. I was wrong and I'm so sorry," my voice cracked" I'm so sorry, I love you, rather you believe it or not. I love you with my heart and soul, and I want us to move on from this. But I understand why you feel the way you feel, and I respect it" We sat in an awkward silence until the doctor comes in the room with her results. Her wrist isn't broken thank god. She's just going to be in a lot of pain and she can't work for a few days which she was not happy about. She didn't want any pain meds but they gave her a prescription for some anyway. After the doctor wrapped her wrist in an ace bandage and she signed her discharged papers we went back to my house. She said we had to talk so we decided to sit in the living room on the couch.
"Look, Maur I want to be with you I really do. I also want us to try to work this out. I'm just really scared, I don't want to get hurt again" she said getting teary eyed
"I understand why you're scared. And I know my words isn't good enough right now, but I promise that I will never ever hurt you like I did. I promise, just give me a chance, give us a chance. I love you so much" I said with tears rolling down my cheeks
"But how can you tell me you love me! Maura 24 hours ago you was telling Ian the same thing" she said through her tears. I can hear the hurt and anger in her Voice. That makes me cry harder
"I was forcing it, Jane! I don't love him, I never did. I wasn't listening to my heart. I was trying to force love that wasn't there" I sobbed, "I don't want anyone else, you're it for me. God all of this is all my fault. I just want to make it right tell me how and I will do it." I put my head in my hand and sob
"Come on don't cry. Come sit on my lap" she said and I stood up and straddle her lap and she wrapped her good arm around me. "Look at me" I hesitated for a second but I look her in the eyes "I love you and even though I'm hurt and angry I want us to work." She pulled me down for a kiss"I love you"
"I love you too" I grabbed her face and gave her kiss that quickly turned passionate. Her hand moved to my ass and she squeezed it I moaned in her mouth. I started grinding on her and both of us moan, Jane broke the kiss and I'm glad she did because my lungs were screaming at me begging for air.
"Fuck, I want you so bad right now" she bucked her hips which cause a wonderful sensation between my legs.
"Oh Jane" I moaned "you can have me any way you want" I moved to her neck and started sucking. We were so wrapped up in what we were doing we didn't even hear the back door open.
"GET AWAY FROM MY DAUGHTER YOU SLUT"
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