Nothing really happened after our confessions though. No more hugs and kisses, it was as if it never happened. A few weeks later, it was my birthday. After a round of ootoro at Russian sushi, my treat, I decided to sneak into Raira academy. Shizu chan didn't question me and followed.
On the roof I turned to him and took a few steps closer to him, till we were only inches away from the other. I leaned in and kissed him on the cheek, leaving a shade of scarlet sweep across his face. Smirking I came to the edge of the roof and stood close to end, spreading my arms beside me, I leaned back and fell. As I closed my eyes I saw my monster with a horrified look on his face, running towards me. I felt his arms wrap around me in mid-air and we fell.
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We landed on the giant mattress I set there but Shizuo still refused to let go of me.
"Shizu chan, you can let go now. I can't breathe."
"What the fuck was that you flea?! Why did you do that?"
"Ever heard of the trust exercise? I kicked it up a notch." I smirked as I enjoyed this mixture of anger and worried expression this protozoan gave me.
"You-" I cut him off with a kiss, his tender lips on mine and that furious blush on his face. I loved it all. I pulled back and said those three words that were never heard after that time when I was shot. Those words that the two of us knew was there but never voiced out.
"I love you Shizu chan."
He pulled me into a tight hug. As if if he ever lets go I'll disappear.
"Hey Izaya, I-"
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I screamed. In a cold sweat and shock. I looked around and saw that I was in my apartment. I checked my phone, a minute passed midnight, forth May, in the present. It was all a dream huh? I stared at my reflection in the mirror I had beside my bed and started laughing at nothing in particular. I held my knees to my chest and started weeping, the dam broke and I was reduced to a sobbing mess. Screaming at the pain in my chest.
It hurts. It hurt so damn much, it's unbearable.
"Shizuo! Shizuo why?! WHY GODDAMMIT?!"
I can't take it. I can't take this pain. I just-
BANG! BANG! BANG!
I must've tuned out the sound of the door knocking because as soon as I realised, my door was kicked down.
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... Shizuo?
No, he can't see me like this. He just can't-
"Flea! You stirred up some mess in Ikebukuro again didn't you?! If you're hoping to live through your birthday today you're wrong." Ah here's that hatred again. It hurts.
I put on my usual facade and forced a smirk which was far from breaking, or so I thought.
"Shizu chan, you remembered my birthday, how nice. But I'm sorry to spoil your mood because I don't plan on dying anytime soon, so I would appreciate it if you left my house." Just leave. It hurts too much to see you, to see your bubbling hatred for me that will never change. Will it ever change Shizu chan?
"No way flea, I'm killing you here and now." Guess not.
He grabbed my neck and held me up till my feet couldn't touch the ground, and somehow, something inside of me snapped. I started laughing hysterically and screaming. The pain overtook me, I couldn't stop. Shizuo let go of me, I fell to my knees and started crying. Breaking down all over again as I had just a few minutes ago. I let all of my long kept emotions overflow and pour, not caring about the man watching in front of me nor the fact that I had just shown weakness to my greatest enemy who was also my first love.
I don't care anymore. It's all gonna end anyway. I've had enough. I can't take it anymore.
"I hate you Shizu chan. I never want to see you again."
My heart broke and so did my spirit. I darted for the roof, Shizuo was chasing after me. I ran as fast as my legs could take me and soon I was on the edge, taking one last look at Shinjuku, wishing that it was Ikebukuro before turning my back to face Shizuo who had just reached the top.
"Monster." I said with as much hatred as possible. I took another step back and fell. Plummeting to my death. Bye Shizuo. I don't think we'll meet again.A/N:
I am NOT ending it here. So... stay tuned?
