I don't own gravitation or any of its characters.


Eiri

" Eiri, it is me Shuichi. I was just wondering if you would like to meet me at my gig in a week at club Pandemonium. I would really appreciate it and besides we really need to talk. Okay bye,"

Eiri listened to the message and he wasn't sure if he wanted to go or not. It seemed to Eiri, that he did not know what he wanted anymore. He wanted the boy and he wanted the sex, but he didn't want the emotions that came with that package. He was suffering and to top it off, he had not left his apartment in a week. Although he needed to get out, he just couldn't leave. He couldn't leave until his thoughts were clear and he knew exactly what he was going to do. You see, he was an extremely planned person. He always knew what he wanted to do, before he did it. But it was strange that the one time he needed that skill he couldn't use it.

" Shit," Eiri swore as he looked up at the computer screen and realized that he had been writing down what he was feeling.

" Damn it, Shuichi," Eiri swore as he erased everything that he had written. He was so mad at that stupid brat. How could he walk out on me? Me?? Eiri Yuki?? Even though I forced him to leave. But he was going to leave any way, right? Eiri didn't seem to know the answer and that pissed him off even more. He always knew the answer. He always knew what to do. Why was it that when that stupid brat was in his life, he forgot. He forgot how to do everything that he had always been able to do.

" I have to get out of this fucking house before I do something stupid, like call that brat," Eiri said aloud to himself.

The next thing he knew he was in the park sitting on a bench, thinking once again. He felt like he needed to just stop thinking. Stop thinking about everything, and just live his life, but he knew he couldn't do that. He couldn't forget about the boy, but he was at least going to try. Maybe Maiko can get Shuichi off my mind.

Shuichi

Shuichi had classes today. It seemed like his life was just so busy. With school, trying to get Eiri to talk to him, and working for Bad Luck's gig in 5 days, he felt exhausted and worst of all lonely. He wanted to talk to Eiri, no he needed to talk to Eiri and the only way he was going to, was probably as Maiko. That was exactly the reason he was dressed as a girl, even though the bet had been finished yesterday. The only problem was that he didn't know if Eiri was going to show up. You see, Eiri hadn't been on the campus for the last week and he hoped he would be there today.

" Shuichi will you stop staring out the window?" Hiro scolded.

" Sorry, I was just looking," Shuichi turned away from the window and looked at Hiro.

" Shuichi, You know you have to tell him," Hiro stated in a motherly tone.

" I know."

" How long do you plan like dressing up like a girl?" Hiro asked.

" As long as it takes," Shuichi said determinedly.

" Fine, just try not to get hurt. I don't want to see your heart broken," Hiro was worried for his friend.

" Well you might have to turn away soon, because it is almost there," Shuichi said and then turned back to the window with hope in his eyes.

Hiro just looked at his friend and could only hope that it would turn out okay.

Eiri

Eiri was sitting in his own writing class, hoping that Maiko was here today. He needed to get his mind off the boy, and hopefully Maiko could do that. As Eiri waited for the class to end, he thought about the boy. He had never wanted and thought about someone as much as he thought about Shuichi. It was utterly ridiculous and it needed to end. As Eiri was thinking this, he didn't realize that bell had rung and when that realization struck he was running out of the class looking for Maiko.

It had been five minutes before Eiri gave up on looking for Maiko, he couldn't find her anywhere. He figured that she wasn't here today, so he was going to go home. That was the only reason he had gotten out of bed. He needed a distraction. Just as he was going to turn back, he saw Maiko.

" Maiko!!," He screamed hoping that she heard him, but she didn't seem to.

Shuichi

" Maiko!!" Someone screamed, but the name didn't register in his head. It took a couple moments before he realized it was Eiri calling for him. He was so excited, he knew dressing like this would get him some where, other than being uncomfortable.

" Yes," Shuichi turned around as Eiri walked towards him. He was looking forward to this minute. He hadn't seen the blond in so long, he missed him.

" I was wondering if you want to go somewhere with me?" Eiri asked, putting on his fake charm that he rarely used with the real Shuichi. Probably because he didn't need to when he was with Shuichi. Shuichi would do anything he wanted and all he had to do was ask.

" It depends on where we are going," Shuichi was trying so hard to not run up to Eiri and kiss him.

" Where ever I take you."

" What if I don't like where you take me," Shuichi told Eiri, but it was a lie. The real Shuichi would have gone anywhere with Eiri, but right now he was Maiko and he couldn't just change his personality that he had built up.

" Well then I guess we won't go together," Eiri wanted Maiko to stop being so difficult and just come with him. He wanted the girl, because he was the closest thing that would help get the boy off his mind.

" Ohh well I guess I will come," Shuichi said quickly not letting the chance go by.

The next thing he knew, Shuichi found himself walking next to the blond in a park nearby. There was an uncomfortable silence and Shuichi found him self staring at the trees surrounding them more then the blond. Shuichi didn't know why the walk had seemed so awkward, whenever 'Shuichi' was with Eiri they had always been comfortable around each other.

" So" Shuichi broke the silence and looked at the blond for the first time since they started the awkward walk.

" So," Eiri just repeated the word looking as uncomfortable as Shuichi.

" So how are you?" Shuichi felt stupid but he didn't know how to start a conversation.

" Fine," Eiri decided to go along with this for a while before he dropped the girl. She didn't seem to hold his attention. He wanted the boy.

"Well that is good. Have you talked to your family recently?" Shuichi asked.

Family, Eiri thought. He just remembered that Maiko was Shuichi's brother. Maybe he could get information out of her.

" Nope, how about you? Have you talked to your brother?" Eiri asked, but Shuichi really didn't know how to answer.

" Yeah. Why?" Shuichi suddenly realized that maybe Eiri was interested in him. Really interested him. He was so excited.

" Just wondering," Eiri didn't know how to ask with out giving anything away.

" Oh," No, Shuichi thought. He needed to get Eiri to talk about him. He wanted to know where he stood, " Well my brother has been a little strange lately."

" Oh really?" Eiri's eyes lighted up, even though he didn't mean to.

" Yeah. I think he met some one."

" Do you know who it is?" Eiri asked he didn't want Maiko to find out that who he was seeing, well sleeping with, was her brother.. She could still be use to him and he didn't want to ruin it.

Thinking about either saying yes or no, Shuichi decided with no.

" No, but I do know it is a guy."

" A guy. Your brother's gay?" Eiri asked, but he already knew the answer.

" NO I," Shuichi paused he almost gave away his cover, " I mean I don't know, I could be wrong."

" But you just said you know it is a guy," Eiri questioned his sister.

" Well it could be a transvestite for all I know," Shuichi laughed inwardly. Eiri was definitely not a transvestite.

" I AM NOT A TRANS…,"Eiri cut himself off. He almost gave it way that he was seeing Shuichi .

"Your not a what," Shuichi smiled, he knew what Eiri was going to say.

" I meant to say that I am not transparent, to this issue," Eiri sentence didn't make sense, but he said the first 'trans' word that he could think of.

" What?" Shuichi laughed.

" Never mind. Anyway ,continue about your brother."

" Oh well he got a contract with Ng and he has a gig this weekend," Shuichi smiled while he was talking about himself.

" Sounds boring."

" It is not boring," Shuichi said defensively.

" Well are you going to go see him?"

" Of course, he is my brother."

" Well maybe I will see you there," Eiri said and Shuichi once again found himself in a situation, " But for now how about we go back to my place."

" Umm I would love to, but I can't" Shuichi knew where Eiri's place would lead and he couldn't go down that path.

" Why not?"

" Well I have to go meet my brother," Shuichi said as an excuse, but it didn't seem to work.

" Well then I will come with you. I want to meet this famous brother of yours," Eiri said, wanting to see Shuichi. Maybe if he hurt the boy, it would make it easier for him to get over him. And what better way to hurt him, then to go out with his sister.

" NO!!," Shuichi practically screamed.

" Why not?" Eiri asked.

" Because…. Because he is….," Shuichi needed an excuse and he needed it now, " Because he is sick."

" Sick?" Eiri was starting to worry about the boy.

" Yeah, he doesn't feel good at all. He has a really really really bad cold."

" Oh well I will let you see him," Eiri said. He was worried about the stupid boy. He wondered if Shuichi was going to be okay before the concert.

Eiri later that night.

Eiri was pacing around his living room, worrying about Shuichi. He didn't understanding why he was worrying over the stupid boy. It was just a bad cold, it was not like he was going to die. But still he wanted to make sure the boy was okay. So he decided to call him.

The phone rang two times before Shuichi answered, he could tell by his voice.

'" Hey," Shuichi knew it was Eiri by the caller I.d.

" I heard you were sick brat," Eiri stated.

" What are you talking about I am not sick," As soon as he said that he remembered that he told Eiri that he was sick.

" Really?" Eiri asked, but he didn't get why Maiko would have lied about Shuichi being sick.

" No, what I meant was that I am not feeling sick right now," Shuichi countered. Man was he getting sick of the lies, that he was practically wrapped up in.

" Oh well I am going to come over brat. We need to talk," Eiri told Shuichi before he hung up the phone.

20 minutes later

Eiri was outside, thinking about why he was here. How did he get himself in this predicament? How did he find himself falling for the boy? He knew he was falling, but how? He didn't understand, he was always very protective of his heart. He never let anyone close, but how did the boy manage to slip by his defenses. It was ridiculous and he wanted to stop the feeling, that he felt every time he looked at the boy.

Eiri thought about all this, and was still thinking when someone knocked on his car window.

It was Shuichi, the brat, and the cause of all his problems.

" What?" Eiri asked.

" I was wondering if you were going to come in," Shuichi stated.

" Sure," Eiri said as he rose from his seat and opened the driver's side door.

When they reached the apartment , the only sound that could be heard was Shuichi opening the door and then silence. Although as soon as Eiri walked inside, Shuichi ran and kissed him. He had missed him so much. Shuichi felt a deep connection with this man.

" Shuichi," Eiri said and Shuichi went to kiss him, but he was pushed away, " We need to talk."

Shuichi sat down on the couch and watched as Eiri followed, but there was still distance between them.

" I know," Shuichi whispered, but he knew Eiri heard him.

" Shuichi, I am going to tell you this and I know I will probably regret it after saying it but I have to tell you," Eiri stated in a serious tone. His voice was calm and nothing about it was it's usual tone. Shuichi thought that Eiri was going to break up with him, well at least end their 'relationship'.

" Shuichi, I like you. I really like you and I think I want to make this work," Eiri whispered, not wanting to say the words aloud, but Shuichi heard him.

" Me too. I want to make this work too," Shuichi was about to cry. He was so happy.

" Well let's start over. Let's make this a real relationship," Eiri told Shuichi, but he couldn't believe the words that were coming out of his mouth. Although needed to say them. That was whole reason he had been in his car thinking. He was thinking about the boy, and while he was thinking he found the answer.

" Okay," Shuichi was on the verge of tears. He just couldn't believe that Eiri had said those words to him. Shuichi was so happy that he went up to Eiri and kissed him.

" So does this mean you will come to my concert on Friday?"

" Of course brat."

Shuichi

Shuichi was so happy, his gig was in 3 days and he couldn't wait. Also, Eiri and him had finally become a couple. The only problem was that Shuichi had to tell him the truth. The truth about Maiko and he had to do it before it was to late and they both ended up getting hurt. So Shuichi planned on doing it tonight. He was going to tell Eiri about his secret tonight, when they went on their date together.

" Shuichi, get working," K screamed at him. So far he didn't like his new manager from America. He was bossy and quite crazy. The man used guns to get what he wanted and Shuichi sure wasn't going to deny him. After all he had a date with Eiri.

Couple hours later

Bad Luck was done with their work today. All three members were exhausted, especially Shuichi, but he wasn't going to let that stop him. He had a date with Eiri in about two hours and he needed to start getting ready. Well at least in five minutes.

" Man I am so tired," Shuichi told Hiro and Suguru as he sank onto their couch.

" I know, but don't you have a date with Eiri Yuki?" Hiro teased Shuichi as he sat down next to him.

" Yeah. I wonder what they will be doing, having sex or having sex," Suguru piped in as he sat down on Hiro's lap.

" Shut up you guys, for your information we are going to go to eat and then…," Shuichi was cut off by Hiro and Suguru who both said, " Have sex."

" No, Okay maybe," Shuichi blushed.

" Well have you told him yet," Hiro asked, turning the conversation serious.

" No I am going to tell him tonight," Shuichi told Hiro and Suguru.

" Oh," Hiro said he couldn't find the words to help comfort Shuichi.

'" Yeah hopefully he doesn't get mad," Shuichi said.

" Well he is going to get mad, but he won't stay mad," Suguru told Shuichi, but his words weren't exactly comforting.

" I think he means, that he won't be happy but he will still love you," Hiro corrected what Suguru said.

" Ohh well hopefully," Shuichi told them as he got up to start getting ready. He was so nervous and scared. What if Eiri rejected him? What would he do? Shuichi hoped he would never have to find out. Shuichi just continued to think about how Eiri would react when he told him the truth, as he got dressed. He wondered if it was really that big of a deal? It wasn't like it was really bad, was it? Shuichi didn't know and he was so nervous. He wanted to see Eiri and then he didn't because he would have to tell. He had to tell him the truth, but even though Shuichi told himself that he didn't really feel like doing. Why couldn't Maiko disappear? Then Eiri would never have to know. The only thing that would stop him was that he, Shuichi, did know. He knew and that was all that counted. If he didn't tell Eiri he would have a guilty conscious .

In Eiri's Car

Shuichi had just been picked up from his apartment, that he shared with his roommates; Hiro and Suguru, and was now sitting in Eiri's car. He felt ten times more nervous than before especially with how good Eiri looked. It wasn't fair that the man was everything he ever wanted and Shuichi could everything by telling the truth. But if he didn't tell the truth he would ruin everything and more, by having it come back later. He had to tell Eiri, he had to!!

" Eiri," Shuichi said as he looked over at Eiri for the first time, " I have to tell you something."


I hope you liked it. I should post ch.8 sometime soon because I am on spring break. Yeah since I am not one of those sweet people who go somewhere, I will be home writing chapters. Sucks for me, but good for you!! Lol, j/k I love writing ch.s to please my fans. Speaking of fans I want to thank all of you for reviewing my story I deepy appreciate it!!