Chapter 6
The talk
(Edwards POV)
Bella was to ride home in Rosalie's car, with only Rosalie. Emmett was riding with me in the Volvo.
I can't say I was happy about this. I could hear what Rose was thinking, and she was going to be talking about some incredibly touchy subjects. I could also tell that both Rose and Bella wanted to do this. But I wanted to be with my fiancée. (Edward makes a pouty face.)
"Don't worry, Edward. You'll have her to yourself all night," Alice said. Out of everyone, Bella excluded, I was the closest to Alice. She was also (sometimes very annoyingly) very perceptive.
"c'mon, my brother, let's get home. We've got a wedding to plan," Emmett said. I groaned inwardly. I swear Emmett could be almost as bad as Alice sometimes. The only downside to the wedding. Plans. cringe. And of course it would be worse for Bella. Lots of shopping. With Alice.
(Bella's POV)
After an awkward moment of silence in the car, Rosalie finally blurted: "Bella, I'm so sorry!! I've been such a grouch and I had absolutely no reason to act in such a rude manner."
I cut her off. "Rosalie, there's no reason to apologize. You didn't really do anything wrong," I said. Although I didn't really believe what I was saying, I wanted desperately for Rose to like me.
"You can't honestly believe that, Bella. You cringed every time I glared at you , you had to run off and face a coven of human-killing vampires to save your boyfriend and a whole lot more because…I was jealous of you," Rosalie sighed.
"You…were jealous…of…me?" I gasped. She probably thought I was mentally impaired by now.
"Still am," she replied.
"…"
"Bella? Say something, please!" Rose begged.
"Why?" I finally gasped in astonishment.
"Wow. Edward was right, you don't see yourself clearly. Because…you have real parents who love you. You have the chance to become a mother, a grandmother. To eat real food, to blush, to be warm, to sleep, to trip and be clumsy. You have your 'human minutes'. And these are all things Edward loves about you and doesn't want to lose."
"Wait. Let me get this strait, you are jealous of me because of my human minutes?"
"Exactly," she said, "But you want to give all of these things up for your one true love, your soul mate, my brother, Edward."
"Yes. Those things mean nothing to me if I can have Edward for all of eternity," I said truthfully.
"I know that now. You and Edward are meant to be together. You share a bond that cannot be broken by time, distance, or anything else that could possibly harm your relationship. Even death. If it makes any difference, I'd like for you to be a vampire very much. I just want you to know everything you are giving up, and taking on. I would not have chosen this life if I had had a choice. This life is very hard," Rose explained.
"I understand what I am giving up and how hard your lives are. I know that I probably won't be able to see Charlie, Renee, Phil, or anyone else I might have once known again. That will be very hard for me, but I know that as long as I have Edward I can get through anything," I really believed everything I was saying. I didn't even care if Edward was hearing everything I was saying. Maybe he would understand that I actually knew what I was doing. "I don't even care about my soul. Edward can have it. I couldn't imagine a heaven without him anyway. I don't even really think that you lose your soul. How could there not be a heaven for one such as Edward? Or any of you. You all try so hard to be good. Harder than anyone I know," I said.
(Edward's POV)
I could hear everything Bella was saying to Rosalie. I was gripping the stearing wheel so tightly I was surprised it hadn't crumbled yet. I wasn't sure which I would rather do—scream, or 'cry'. Bella wanted to give up all of her life up for me. It was all my fault.
I didn't agree with anything she was saying, but I knew I would have to change her eventually. I just had to grasp the fact that my Bella would be losing just about everything that she cared about. And that she was giving up her soul for me.
What Bella was saying about me only made it worse. She didn't understand the demon that raged inside of me every time I was around her. She had it all wrong. How could there not be a heaven for one such as Bella? This thought was the only reason I had hope of heaven for our kind.
Bella was right about one thing, though. We did have to try very hard to be good. Harder than she thought.
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