Words From The Heart
Katie walked into the school Monday morning, a shell of the person that she had been on Friday. She had hardly slept all weekend. All she could think about was Jessie. She had to fight the urge to call Jessie and apologize, convincing herself that she was right and that she had to stand her ground this time. She reached her locker and turned the combination slowly, pulling the locker open. When she saw the envelope with her name on it, her breathe caught in her chest. With a trembling hand she reached out and picked it up, opening slowly. Her heart began to pound as her eyes scanned the tear-stained letter in her hand. Katie took a deep, ragged breath, and started to read.
Dear Katie,
God, I am so scared right now. I feel like the world in about to come crashing in on me and there is no way to escape. Like, if I take one wrong step, I will fall. Life is so scary without you Katie.
All I can think about is what we said to each other and the hurt in your eyes. I've always known that going public with our relationship was important to you, but I guess that I thought I could keep putting it off. And you're right, I do care what people think. Or at least, I did, until I thought that I could lose you.
Without you Katie, nothing matters. Life is just a cheap imitation when you're not around. you saved me Katie. You saved me from the loneliness of life. When I'm with you, I feel so complete, like you are the missing piece to Jessie.
I am so sorry that I ever doubted that the two of us being together was enough. Because I now know it is. I need you Katie, and if you'll let me. I want to make it up to you.
I know what you're thinking right now. You're thinking that when you love someone, you shouldn't have to make up for anything, and you're right. What I really want is just to be with you. Completely. Forever. Just Katie and Jessie. Fuck the world, right?
I'm so sorry that I hurt you Katie. And I'm even sorrier that I pulled you into all of my confusion. But I'm not confused anymore, Katie. I love you.
All my love,
Jessie
Jessie's heartfelt words began to blur before her as Katie's tears finally came. She held the letter tightly as the tears fell. She couldn't believe that Jessie has put all of that love and honesty into her letter. She felt so much lighter, knowing that Jessie wanted to be with her.
Suddenly feeling that she was being watched, Katie looked up and her heart leaped. Jessie was standing right in front of her, watching her intently. Her blue eyes were swollen with tears.
"Oh Jess." Katie said softly. No other words were needed at the girls rushed forward. Hugging each other tightly.
"Katie, I'm so sorry." Jessie whispered through her tears.
"Shhhhhh, it's ok honey. It's ok." Katie soothed holding Jessie tightly.
"Please say you forgive me." Jessie pleaded, softly.
"All is forgiven Jess. I promise."
Jessie pulled away slowly and looked up into Katie's shimmering, green eyes. Her arms were still around Katie, and she gently pushed her forward, backing her up against the locker.
"You know that people are looking, right?" Katie asked, gently. Her eyes searching Jessie's. Jessie simply smiled back at her, and her face relaxed.
"Let them look, Katie. I don't care anymore." Jessie said softly, as she leaned forward into Katie and brought their lips together.
