Disclaimer: Okay, so I own nothing. Nothing at all. Which is quite sad because I love Max and would love to own him, however I don't. So anything you recognize I do not own at all. Please don't sue. I'm not a big fan of courts, or judges, or lawyers or anything of that sort. Thank-you.
Pairing: Max/Lulu and other pairings and allusions to other pairings.
Summary: "Why are you really helping me?" She asked quietly… Max sighed. "Because you don't want to be alone and right now neither do I."
Note: Max is 26 in this story. I don't know his age in the show and I'm sorry if that makes other people mad. It really isn't my intention.
A Bodyguard's Heart
Chapter 7: Crimes of the Broken Heart
She was closing up Kelly's on her own. Georgie had left with Dillon and thankfully Lulu was in the kitchen putting the dishes in the machine when they came and then left, Mike had to leave due to an appointment and Penny was sick so that left Lulu Spencer to close the diner all by herself. It was fine with her because that meant that she would be able to think in peace without fear of getting of asked what she was thinking about. Well…who would be more appropriate.
It had been three weeks since she kissed him. It had been three weeks since he kissed her back. It had been three weeks since she last talked to him. She had given up calling him because he wouldn't answer. She had tried to get his attention when she would see him on the street but he would just duck his head. She sighed and started to put up the chairs.
There had to be a reason for all of this. She knew Max would never intentionally hurt her. She figured that he was stressed or that he was just tired because really when she thought about it, his job wasn't exactly the easiest thing to do.
Three weeks. That was a long time in her books. She sat down on one of the remaining chairs that she hadn't put up yet. She put her head in her hands. 'Everything was going to be just fine' she kept repeating to herself. Max was going to call her and they would talk. They needed to talk. She had nothing to worry about. Of course that never stopped her from actually worrying. Different scenarios went through her head. He never wanted to see her again, he never really liked her in the first place, he thought she came off to strong or that he hung out with her just out of pity.
She jumped as if someone shocked her. She was going crazy. She was going to end up staring at the wall just like her mother. He didn't pity her, Max didn't pity anyone. But then why hadn't he called back? What if he found someone new? What if Carly finally realized what she had right in front of her? She felt a ball drop in her stomach. Would he jump at the chance at being with Carly if the opportunity presented itself? Would he just drop her?
Her heart said no, her head said yes and her eyes started to water. She pushed the tears back. She knew Max, he would at least call before he decided to do anything. She got up and rubbed a hand over her face. She looked at the clock. Ten o'clock was rolling around and she put up the last remaining chairs up and grabbed her coat. She breathed in deeply before slipping her jacket on. He wouldn't hurt her. He couldn't hurt her.
She wasn't ready to get hurt again.
She buckled her jacket and turned off the lights. She slipped out into the frosty air and locked the double doors behind her.
She saw an elderly woman walk down the street talking on a cell-phone. Her voice came out clear and strong. Lulu strained to listen and caught the accent flowing from the older woman. Lulu frowned, was it British? No, it sounded more Australian. "Darling, you must get home soon." The woman paused. "Well, if you need anymore initiative Carly just asked that lovely bodyguard, Max his name was," Lulu's eyes widened and she felt her heart rate start to speed up. "To marry him. Why, the poor man was flustered to death."
Lulu felt her lip start to tremble and she quickly walked past the woman towards the docks.
She didn't even realize she was crying until she got to the docks and sat down on the bench. It was then she realized that her vision was blurry.
Her cheeks were frozen, her eyes were swollen and her head was starting to hurt. None of that matter though. All that mattered was that her heart was shattering into a million pieces and she couldn't find the strength or courage to get up and go home.
It was official she was bound to be lonely and hurt for the rest of her life. However short or long it was.
She kissed him and he kissed her back. She told him things that she didn't tell anyone. She did things for him that she normally wouldn't do. She put her heart on the line and he crushed it.
She was starting to grow numb but at that point she couldn't bring herself to care. All she could hear was that woman. 'Carly just asked that lovely bodyguard; Max his name was, to marry him.' Lulu felt tears well up again and she didn't bother holding them back. 'Why, the poor man was flustered to death.'
She could see that it was getting late and despite the time she heard music. She kept her head bowed, she didn't know where the music was coming from and at that point she didn't really care.
Leave me out with the waste
This is not what I do
It's the wrong kind of place
To be thinking of you
It's the wrong time
For somebody new
It's a small crime
And I've got no excuse
She groaned. This was exactly what she needed. A depressing song to make her own depressing life even more depressing. She was starting to get pathetic but could she blame herself? Her heart was broken and she was on the docks late at night. She knew what happened here late at night and at the moment it didn't matter to her.
She shut her eyes. Even when she closed her eyes she could see him. She cried some more. Why had this happened to her? Why did Carly even do it? Was it wrong of Lulu to kiss Max? She shook her head. She didn't do anything wrong. This time she was innocent.
Is that alright?
Give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright?
If you don't shoot it how am I supposed to hold it
Is that alright?
Give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright
With you?
Her head was pounding but that was to be expected. She was experienced in crying. She knew all the symptoms that came afterwards. The headache, the stuffy nose, the red eyes and most of all the fragile heart.
The stars were out and the moon was so bright that it cast a shadow across the docks.
At that moment she didn't care.
Leave me out with the waste
This is not what I do
It's the wrong kind of place
To be cheating on you
It's the wrong time
She's pulling me through
It's a small crime
And I've got no excuse
She had no reason to be feeling like this. Max wasn't hers. He was a friend. She would have to learn to accept that. He was a friend that would probably be married to her cousin. She felt her heart break even more. Was Carly suddenly over Jax? Were people in this town so opposed to seeing her happy? She had actually felt happy when she was with Max and now it all seemed like a dream just drifting out to sea and not coming back.
She sniffed again. She pressed her numb hands to her face and wiped off her tears. There was no use of crying over spilled milk. She would be fine. She would be just fine.
Well…that was a lie because she couldn't stop crying.
Is that alright?
I give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright?
If you dont shoot it, how am I supposed to hold it
Is that alright?
I give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright
Is that alright with you?
Is that alright?
I give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright?
If you don't shoot it, how am I supposed to hold it
Is that alright?
If I give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright
Is that alright with you?
She stood up slowly. Her mind began to swim with memories. She became vaguely aware of footsteps and boats out in the Harbour. 'There's so much right in front of our faces and we don't see them until they drift away.' She had said to him when they were in Central Park that day. She was in front of him. Couldn't he see that? Couldn't he see that she was right in front of his face?
Was New York just an act of pity? Was this all for Carly?
The footsteps became louder and Lulu realized that there was more than one pair. She closed her eyes and opened them again. She looked up at the moon. It seemed to be staring at her with sadness. Voices carried out across the silent night and disrupted the song. She went to move. One foot was in front of the other when she heard and felt it.
The sound was a loud 'pop' she let out a loud strangled cry as it pierced through her body. She was on the cold dock as more bullets flew over her head. She rolled over and started to cry even more. She pressed a cold hand to her stomach. She felt liquid seep through her finger and she knew at once the color would be red.
She heard footsteps hurry towards her and she sent up a prayer that this wouldn't be where she died.
There were so many things that she had to do. So many things she had to say. She fought hard to stay awake. Her eyelids were dropping and she felt herself grow weak. Everything seemed blurry and going by in slow motion.
Is that alright?
Is that alright?
Is that alright with you?
The music kept on going from above her and all she could do was shiver. She had remembered making him promise not to get hurt. It hadn't occurred to her that she would get hurt.
"Lulu?!" She heard her name. She felt someone kneel beside her. "Lulu? Can you hear me?"
Milo. She had never been so happy to hear his voice. "Max." She croaked out. She didn't know how much time she had left. She was beginning to get tired and her body felt sore. She was colder then she was before.
"He's here." He said hurriedly. He shrugged off his jacket and pressed it against her wound. "Lulu, you need to stay awake." He told her when he saw her eyelids dropping. "Come on Lulu, stay with me. I'll get you to a hospital-God Lulu what were you thinking? What were you doing here at this time?" He took a deep breath. "Max!" He shouted. "Sonny! Jason! Max! Somebody!"
He bent down and picked Lulu from the ground. "Stay with me." He ordered. "I swear to God Lulu if you die on me Max will kick my ass." He looked down at the now pale blonde. He could see that she was struggling to stay awake. "He loves you, you know that? He may not say it but he does."
'Does he?' She wondered. 'Well, that's good. I think I love him too.'
Milo walked with her in his arms. "Max!" He called out to his older brother. Max turned around and frowned at Milo. His eyes widened when he saw the girl in Milo's arms. "Lulu's been shot."
Is that alright?
Is that alright?
Is that alright with you?
No...
Guys, I'm in a really big angst full mood today and that's where this came from. I know you all will hate me but seriously today was beyond crappy and I had to vent somehow. Better this than my pillow. I love my pillow. Anyways don't worry everything will work its way out in the end.
Onto my reviewers:
IlovetowriteSMP: I had to add something funny in there. I think that's a line that Lulu would say. I wanted to capture Carly's mind because seriously, Carly has to be frigged up in the head after everything she's been through. I was really pissed when she asked Max to marry him. Just marry Sonny. We all know they're going to get back together anyways. Max is confusing. I love him to death and I think that there is so much that could be written about him. Milo is just a goof. He doesn't like Sam because right now, I don't like Sam. I liked the kiss part too. Thanks for reviewing hope you liked this chapter too!
Little Miss Michelle- Isn't Marlon Brando amazingly hot? Because I love him. He's gorgeous. It's one of my favorites too. It was so good. I hope you liked this chapter. I hope it was worth the wait. Thanks for the review!
Jen Drake- I love Audrey. She just has that air about her. She's wicked. This was random wasn't it? I know it was but it adds something more to the story. I'm a sucker for drama. I find that if someone doesn't push you away right away they will eventually. Men are like that. Assholes. Hehehe. Just kidding. Hope you liked this chapter! Thanks for the review!
Pequenop- Did I ruin this for you? I hope not. I hope that this chapter makes this story just a little bit more interesting. They did have a strong relationship and who knows? Maybe this will make them stronger. Elizabeth to me always seemed like a mother figure to Lulu. She's always there for her and she really loves her because they both consider each other sisters, you know? I hope that GH shows that more. This isn't the last either but I hope you liked it! Thanks for the review!
Kanga- I hope that you liked this chapter! Thanks for reviewing!
SammiJ- I'm happy you found this story. I hope you still like this story now that this chapter sort of just popped up. Don't worry though everything will work its way out…sort of. Maybe, maybe not. There will definitely be more angst in the next few chapters. Hoped you liked the chapter and merci for the review!
Hartjm- Hope you liked this chapter! Thank you for the review. Their New Year's was cute wasn't it?
If I missed anyone I'm so sorry!
Signing off
Books.
P.S. The song is 9 Crimes by Damien Rice and obviously it doesn't belong to me. I wish it did. It's a wicked song.
