Leah's POV
My eyes slowly opened and tried to adjust to the morning light. My phone was lying on the floor and beeped to tell me it was seven. I attempted to roll over but felt something holding me back. My vision was still a bit blurred as I propped myself up with my elbows. I felt something almost soft and warm underneath me as I sat upright.
"Ugh…" I heard a deep, almost familiar moan from under me. I used the armrest of the couch to help me stand and looked down at myself. My vision cleared immediately as my eyes met my nearly exposed body. The only clothing I was wearing was my bra and panties, both were only haphazardly placed on. My mind whirled with thoughts going at a billion miles a second. I slowly turned around, inch by inch, and found myself looking at the one person that I shouldn't have been with yesterday.
Jacob.
My eyes travelled down his bare torso, going over his lean muscles and finally down to his shaft area. I grabbed for a pillow and placed it atop his manhood. On the floor were a pile of both of our clothing and I rushed to grab up my own and ran right out of the room on silent feet. The only place where I could dump the clothes without him finding them was in the laundry room. I quickly started the machine and threw the clothes in. Somewhere in one of the baskets, I grabbed up a loose t-shirt that covered enough of my body to make me look somewhat dressed. Once back in the living room, I managed to dress Jacob to a degree where he wouldn't question anything. Carefully, I made my way straight into the kitchen. By the sound of it, Jacob was still sleeping. I needed to find a distraction, my eyes flickered to the fridge and I made a beeline for it.
Breakfast would probably be a good start.
I bent and grabbed out a few eggs and turned to place them on the counter. One of them slipped and before I could catch it, broke as it smashed onto the floor. Thoughts whirled through my mind as I slowly placed the other eggs on the counter. I went to grab a j-cloth and nearly stopped breathing as I bent down to clean up the mess. Two days from now, I was supposed to get the sperm implanted to finish off my procedure. I quickly cleaned up the floor and rinsed the j-cloth as mini panic attacks were erupting inside of me.
Yesterday morning was not a part of my whole get pregnant plan.
I already crossed out the insane thought about protection. As far as Jake was concerned, no guy required a condom with me since I already couldn't get pregnant. It hadn't even occurred to me that whatever we were doing would make an attempt to blow up in my face. There was no way I could explain all of this to him without being asked a million damn questions.
"Morning," My heart pounded painfully as I turned around to meet a sleepy Jacob. He took a seat at the table and rubbed the sleep out of his eyes.
I attempted a smile back at him. "Yeah, morning." I quickly began to busy myself with making scrambled eggs and other stuff.
"I had this bizarre dream last night," He started and I nodded for him to continue while I beat the eggs. "You were in it, in fact, it was only the two of us."
"Well that doesn't sound creepy," I threw in and heard him bark out a laugh.
"Funny, but then it started to get…interesting. We were talking over glasses of brandy and then I, we, started undressing." He sounded bemused at the very thought of this. "And, well, from there we took part in various positions." A smile fell over my face at his attempt to regain his humor back. The creeping dread soon collapsed onto it as I thought about what he was saying. He believed it had all been a dream, when it had been very real. I finished making breakfast and he ate everything including thirds. It was almost ten by the time he was at the door, ready to leave.
"Leah," He turned around before stepping outside. "Thanks for everything." He stepped up and gave me a hug, which I returned while sirens were going off in my head. The sensation of a hug felt like a thousand volts coursing right through me. Slowly, his arms slid away from me and within seconds, he was walking down the driveway. I closed the door and made it to the couch before going over everything that happened for the millionth time this morning. My phone started buzzing and for a second I thought it was Jacob. I quickly picked it up and opening the text, it was from Emily.
'I'll be there in10min, you better be awake!' I'd almost forgotten about her coming over today. She was going to be coming with me to get the ending part of the procedure done; but now I'd have to tell her that wasn't happening. I went up to my bedroom and put on better clothing, my mind off somewhere else. I kept mentally kicking myself for what I'd let happen yesterday; it felt weird even thinking that we'd done something like that. I knew I was in shit for this; the sperm donor didn't have to be some stranger in order for me to get pregnant. There was always that margin of error where I didn't end up pregnant but, as doctors worldwide have said, those chances were slim to none.
Distracting myself, I went to get dressed and finished just as the doorbell rang. Well, here was the first moment of truth. My insides felt horrible and I was mentally insulting myself for taking advantage of Jacob.
"About time," Emily laughed and walked in, taking a seat on the very couch where the deed was done. Closing the door, I made my way to the couch and sat down beside her. "Something up?" She asked and scooted a bit closer to me.
"Emily…"I trailed off and stopped to think. How in hell was I supposed to tell her about yesterday? She sat staring at me and I turned away from her, hoping this would be a small clue.
"Is it something about the baby making?" She pushed on and scooted closer to me.
"More along the lines of the whole process…"I said nervously. My thoughts became silent and no new ways of breaking the news to her seemed to form. I was never any good at being the bearer of bad or good news.
"Leah, the process is safe and simple." She laughed and it took a few seconds of me staring at her for her to realize that that wasn't what I was scared of. "Oh, there's something else here." She said calmly and I nodded. Well, this was it; I stood up and tried to distance myself away from her incase her reaction went physical.
"Emily….what if I told you….that….umm….the process for….tomorrow wasn't needed anymore." My voice rose a bit at the end and I watched as her face went from calm to thinking to confusion and finally to realization.
"You had sex!" She got up and stood only a few inches from my face. Good thing I stood up beforehand or she would have tried to pin me to the couch.
"Yeah…?"I took a few more steps away from her; better not to chance any phasing with her so close.
"Who? When? Where? HOW?" She shot questions at me like bullets. I motioned for her to go sit back down. I took the chance of sitting down next to her and searched my brain for the simplest way to explain yesterday.
Man, this wasn't as easy as I thought.
"Alright; well, who? Jake…."I trailed off and watched Emily nearly glare at me. "When? Yesterday morning when he came over to my house." Again, her eyes narrowed but only slightly. "Where? On the couch we're sitting on right now." She looked down at the couch and smiled awkwardly. "We learned how during school multiple times." I finished off and waited for her to say something. Her face slowly changed back the usual calm and thoughtful one we all knew so well. We sat there for a few minutes, buried in silence. Her reaction wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be, but the silence felt worse than words.
"Does he know what happened?" She asked slowly, testing out the words.
"He thinks it was a dream." I state and play around with the hem of my shirt.
"Well, if you end up pregnant you'll have to tell him." She said and ran her fingers through her hair. "Leah what on earth were you thinking? Doing this so soon after he lost Renesmee?" Her voice rose and she looked at me like a mother would look at a child when they colored on the walls.
"We had brandy and….we just got to talking and then it happened. Do you honestly think I feel like destroying his life?" She stared at me. "Anymore?" I threw it and she sighed and stood to pace in front of me. I hated it when people did that.
"My reaction is child's play compared to what he'll probably do." She said both hands on her hips.
"I know that!" I nearly screamed and went straight to the kitchen. Why is it that every time I tried to get on with my life something like this has to happen? All I wanted was a child of my own, but now I'm probably going to be pregnant with Jacob's kid. That dream should have been a bit of a warning sign of what I was signing up for.
Shit.
That dream had the ability to become reality and I know that if I'm not ready for it there's no way Jacob will be. Emily was right, what was thinking by giving him something to calm his nerves and then getting all emotional. I took the phone of the charge and tossed it to Emily, telling her to cancel the appointment for me. There was no way I could handle a phone call when my thoughts were so confused I barely knew where one started and the other ended. The thought that I might have pushed Jacob too far this time came up multiple times and each time I tried to shove it back into the deep corners of my mind.
"Appointment cancelled. Well we'll know if you're actually pregnant in about a week or so." Emily came into the kitchen and put the phone back on its charger. Just a little over a week before I found out if this worked. A huge part of me wanted it to work even though it was going to be Jacob's kid because at least I would have one. A few scattered parts me though, wanted this to fail so that no one would ever have to find out about it.
"Jacob didn't know about me trying for a baby Emily." I said while leaning against the counter. That was going to be the hardest part of explain to him if I got pregnant. I could only imagine he'd be angry or confused or both.
"This will complicate things more." She finished off my thought and I nodded, biting my lip until I tasted blood. "We'll find a way though." She gave me her best sympathetic smile and stood beside me as my thoughts started to clear.
"Hopefully."
End.
Oh…my…goodness! Well, I finally got back into fanfiction after the past few months of no updates! I hoped you liked the chapter and REVIEW!
-DarkAngelz200
