Chapter 7: My song
Author's Note: Review guys and tell me your songs please. I would like to put them in.
So this update was in accordance for the premire Of glee in the States. Yay! hope you like it
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Santana's P.O.V
It was my turn to sing and I wasn't sure what song I should sing. A song about my love for Quinn, a song about my pain, or a song about my sister I wasn't sure.
I chose to sing a song about my deepest fears, about my sister and a song to Puck and Blaine. I know when I sing this song no one will ask questions simply because its me. It hurts to know that the closest people I have to friends actually couldn't care less .
" The song I chose is Save you'
I decided to play the song myself so I moved to play the piano. I could see everyone is surprised I can play the piano but no one asks me this.
I Can Tell
I Can Tell
How much You hate This
Deep Down Inside
You Know It's Killing Me
I Can Call, Wish You Well
And Try To Change This
But Nothing I Can Say
Would Change Anything
I looked at Puck and Blaine knowing that this verse was for them
Where Were My Senses
I Left Them All Behind
Why Did I Turn Away
I think back to the day when I turned around and left my sister to go back to my hell.
I Wish I Could Save You
I Wish I Could Say To You
I'm Not Going Nowhere
I Wish I Could Say To You
It's Gonna Be Alright
It's Gonna Be Alright
How everyday I wake up and tell myself its going to be alright. That one day I might not end up dead
I Didn't Mean
Didn't Mean
To Leave You Stranded
Went Away Cause I
Didn't Want To Face The Truth
I remember the feeling of that blade on my wrists and how I tried to end my life. How I still have those dark thoughts lurking within me. The say suicide is for the weak but I say bullshit you had to have been through hell of a life to rather end it.
Reaching Out
Reach For Me
Empty Handed
You Don't Know if I Care
You're Trying To Find The Proof
There Were Times I'd Wonder
Could I Have Eased Your Pain
Why Did I Turn Away
The countless arguments I had with Puck and how he said I needed to do something about my situation. Fuck him cause I've been trying. Its just so hard to push those thoughts away.
I Wish I Could Save You
I Wish I Could Say To You
I'm Not Going Nowhere
I Wish I Could Say To You
It's Gonna Be Alright
How I wish my mom could save me from this hell she has left me in
It's Gonna Be Alright ( Alright )
It's Gonna Be Alright (Save You)
It's Gonna Be Alright ( I Wish I Could Save You )
The constant pain I feel. The hurt the struggle the utter despair pains me . Everyday I'm losing a part of me and only she can keep me here
We Can Pretend Nothings Changed
Pretend It's All The Same
And There Will Be No Pain
Tonight...
It's Gonna Be Alright (It's Gonna be Alright)
Yes Quinn is all I have now. My sister if I ever see her again probably hates me. The only feelings I have left is love for a girl who doesn't love me back. This is pathetic
I Wish I Could Save You
I Wish I Could Say To You
I'm Not Going Nowhere (Save You)
I Wish I Could Say To You (Say To You)
It's Gonna Be Alright
I smile thinking of my sister knowing she doesn't have to face this pain.
It's Gonna Be Alright( Alright )
It's Gonna Be Alright (Save You)
It's Gonna Be Alright ( I Wish I Could Save You )
It's Gonna Be Alright...
As I finish the song Blaine has a tear in his eye and Puck seems to understand the message behind the song. As for the rest of the glee club they are standing and giving me an applaud.
"Santana! That was great I didn't know you could play the piano. Anyways that is all for today"
Mr. Schue walks into his office and most of the glee club is leaving the room. Puck and Blaine look at me to see if I need a lift or something but I gently decline. I make my way to the door when a hand grabs my arm and I jerk away.
" What's your problem S why you turn down Britt?"
" If you don't know Q I don't hook up with people I don't love"
" What have you been smoking everyone knows you sleep around San"
" Well I don't care Im not dating her"
I turn around to leave when she forcefully turns me around hurting my injured shoulder more.
" Whats going on Santana. You act like your world is falling apart"
"What if it is Stretch marks"
"Real nice new names now. You have a family Santana stop acting like a spoil child!"
" What if I don't have a family. What if I am suffering all this shows is yopu care more about yourself then anyone else"
"…"
" I know damn well you were in that auditorium you saw me at my weakest point and now your acting like a total bitch".
"…."
" No answer huh. I never attacked you at your low and here you are upset that I denied Britt. I think its time you get over yourself Princess"
I leave and go to my car. I know what I said was uncalled for but I needed to vent and there she was yelling at me. Now Im going to go home and cry to myself for screaming at the girl I love. What a life I say
Quinn's P.O.V
I don't even know why I was so upset at her. The words just flew out of my mouth before I had time to realize what I was saying. Gosh I'm such an idiot. I know what this feeling is but I'm scared I'm scared to admit it. To admit that Brittney could voice her feelings so easily. I'm jealous Im jealous of her closeness with Santana. We used to be like that but once I got pregnant it disappeared. The day I heard her sing that song in the auditorium I know I saw her differently. No I saw her how I viewed her when we were younger. My first love.
A/N: So how was it?
