Randy's head snapped round as he felt Cody pull away from him, as he watched the younger man slide off the swing and take a few steps away from him. He went to call his name wanting to pull him back down but a hand on his arm made him stop. Looking back at Evan, Randy stared at his broken nose and feeling his resolve crumpling, he rumbled, "I never meant to hurt you. Evan I swear…"

"Do we get to have sex with him as well?" interrupted Cody, his voice sounding strangely flat.

"Ummm," Randy was at a loss for words. He could say sure you can have sex with John but he didn't know if it was something John would want. So instead he mumbled, "Well if he wants to and you want to, either of you. I mean if you let me I have you to let you," Randy was hoping that came out right.

"So it wouldn't bother you to see us have sex with John?" Cody turned and looked at Randy and Evan on the swing.

"If everything is like before just with added John, then no," Randy looked Cody in the eye. "Why would I? It would be no different from finding you and Evan getting up to no good while I was out," he gave a nervous laugh. In his heart Randy needed this to work, he needed all of them. He'd thought when John had come to visit that they wanted John as a part of this as well. Maybe he was wrong.

"Cody," Evan spoke looking at the pacing man. "I've thought about it. I'm willing to give it a shot."

"You sure?" Cody walked closer to the swing.

"Yes I am sure," Evan nodded. "But if I find it not working I will be saying."

"Ok," Randy turned and gave Evan a kiss grateful he was willing to try. "Cody?"

Cody stared at him his mouth set in a firm pout. Randy gulped softly. He wasn't used to Cody being quiet. Of all of them Evan was the quiet one, the thoughtful one. Cody was the loud, exuberant one. He was never quiet, not like this. Subconsciously Randy was squeezing Evan's thigh, the big hand gripping the thigh so tightly Evan actually whined in slight discomfort.

Looking up at his younger lover, Evan sighed and called soothingly, "Cody it doesn't change anything, with us I mean. Randy still needs us..."

"To fuck!" finished Cody petulantly, "That's all we are, Evan! We're just things for him to fuck but we're not good enough to fuck him. Not like John. Oh no John gets to fuck him but not us. Evan, if this happens - we're going be nothing but kept rent boy."

"Cody..." breathed Randy, his voice thick with pain. The idea that Cody could ever think he would treat them like that hurt more than any physical slap or punch ever could, "No. No that's not true." He stared at his youngest lover adding desperately, "I love you. Baby please you know I love you I…"

His voice faded into nothing as Cody glared at him. Beside him he felt Evan shifting and then Evan slid of the swing. Padding over to the sulking figure Evan reached out and linking his hand with Cody's, he murmured," Do you really think that? That that's all we are…"

Cody nodded angrily, sniffing loudly.

Evan sighed again then looking back over his shoulder he gave Randy a soft smile before looking back at Cody. Without warning he slapped Cody fondly around the back of the head, his hand lingering to caress the dark hair as he snapped, "Then you're a fucking idiot!"

"Ow," Cody grumbled looking at Evan. Cody turned and looked at Randy how was sitting there with a frown on his face. "Why aren't we allowed to fuck you?"

"Cody after all we did to get…" Evan stopped as Randy stood from the swing.

"I never said you weren't allowed," Randy looked Cody in the eye. "I guess I just never gave either of you the opportunity because I get nervous."

"Bull you say it all the time during sex you're the boss and you fuck us," Cody glared.

"Heat of the moment baby," Randy came close and Evan stepped aside so Randy could stand in front of Cody.

"So we get to fuck you?" Cody looked Randy dead in the eye.

"If it will make you stay then yes," Randy reached up to stroked Cody's face. Cody looked in Randy's eyes and saw pain, he could tell he was being honest but there was more.

"But you really don't want to bottom for me," Cody shook his head. "You would do it but you wouldn't enjoy it."

"Hasn't happened yet I don't know," Randy wanted Cody to stay more than anything. He wanted his happy world of the four of them.

"I won't make you do it," Cody turned and kissed Randy's hand. "I'll try."

There was a moment silence then Randy smiled slowly asking nervously," You mean it? You'll honestly try...for me?"

Cody nodded then, giving a little huff of near bitter laughter, he confessed, "Fuck Randy I just want you to be happy and if that means I have to put with John "being" here then fine I'll try but if it doesn't work out.."

"It will work out!" breathed Randy almost desperately, "It will I'll make it work I promise." He turned and held a hand out to Evan, pulling him closer. Curling an arm around Evans shoulder, he brushed a kiss into the dark hair rumbling, "For both of you. I mean it I will try so hard."

"So will we," promised Evan grinning at his two lovers. He gave a low little giggle and pulling away, he said," I think I go see John I think he's starting to panic in the kitchen."

He took a few steps away but stopped when Randy caught his arm. Turning back he smiled as Randy slide into place against his body. Cupping Evan's face Randy stroked a bruised cheek and breathed, "What did I do to get someone as good as you in my life?"

Evan blushed and stealing a quick kiss he shrugged and replied, "No idea but whatever it was – I'm glad I'm here. Even with this" he pointed to his bruised nose.

Before Randy could respond Evan pulled away and padded towards the kitchen chuckling to himself. As he pushed the door open John spun around and exclaimed, "Oh god! Please tell me the answer was yes!"

Evan looked at John who was wide eyed and hoping everything is ok. "It's a yes but…" Evan began.

"There's a but. Should we talk about the but in the living room so they don't hear?" John looked past Evan to Randy and Cody who were embracing on the pool deck.

"Sure come on," Evan led John into the living room.

"Ok tell me the but," John looked into Evan's warm brown eyes.

"Cody and I are going to try this if we all click living together great, if not well we will cross that bridge if it happens," Evan looked at John who was nodding. "Cody and I want to know if you have any desire to be sexual with us or if Randy is your only concern?"

"Like you and Cody, I love Randy. To be honest I don't know how romantically I feel about either of you I just haven't been around you both enough," John shrugged. "On a sexual level do I find you both attractive, yes."

"Just hypothetically speak," Evan swallowed. "Would you be opposed to having sex with Randy if Cody and I were in the bed too? I mean we would be doing our own thing or maybe just watch or well if welcome to assisting," Evan awaited John's response.

"Shit," breathed John puffing his cheeks out, "You don't hold back, do you?"

"Sorry," shrugged Evan, "but I need to know. I need to know how much you being here is gonna change what I...what Cody and I have with Randy. Until now it's been near perfect but now…" his voice faded and he gave a little sight.

John nodded and rubbing the back of his neck he murmured, "I honestly don't know. I 've never been in a situation where there was more than one other person involved," he gave a soft almost embarrassed laugh confessing, "I guess for once I'm the baby of the group I don't know half the shit you guys get up to and…" his voice faded into sigh at the look on van face.

"Oh," replied Evan a half blush creeping up his face as he asked, "You think we're strange, don't you? You think we're odd for doing this for liking this. For wanting what we have?"

"No!" exclaimed John, quickly grabbing Evans arm as the smaller man turned to go, "Evan no. Please look I come from an old fashioned family I've only ever know old fashioned ways of sex okay. You know two people doing it. What you guys have...got to admit I'm kinda jealous because having seen the three of you together, despite everything that happened the other night…"

He paused and swearing softly, he absently cupped Evan's face. His hand dwarfing the smaller man's feature, "Shit Evan I'm jealous as hell. You guys have something amazing and I…I won't lie I want in. And I'm prepared to try anything once but like you said if it's not working, if it becomes too weird I'll tell you. I promise, no lies no hiding no creeping behind each others backs. I want this to work and I…"

He didn't finish his sentence. Before John could get another word out, Evan just launched himself at him, kissing his face as he exclaimed, "Thank you! Thank you! That's all I wanted to hear. Oh god thank you..." Without even thinking what he was doing John wrapped his arms around the small bundled of energy and held him closer. Burying his face against Evan's neck he inhaled the unique scent he suddenly hoped he would get to know a whole let better.

Evan pulled back a bit with a smile. "This will make Randy happy," Evan looked over his shoulder. "I just hope Cody adjusts to this because I can see him being the one with the hardest time."

"We'll have to let him have extra time with Randy then that should help when we all, um, go to bed," John scratched his head. "Are we all going to fit in the master bedroom bed?"

"Yes that thing could hold Big Show, Mark Henry and Khali and still have room for a few more," Evan laughed.

Outside Randy felt the breeze roll over his exposed body while Cody nuzzled into his neck. "So you see where I'm a little worried," Cody finished his story.

"Yes I do. That won't happen Baby," Randy kissed his hair. "Everything will be even and equal."

"I know for you it will, it's the rest of us," Cody pulled back. "John doesn't have feelings for Evan or I. What if he gets them for one of us and not the other?"

"Cody, don't worry about things that haven't happen yet," Randy pulled him back in. "It will work just have to believe," Randy kissed Cody's lips trying to assure the young man everything was fine.

Cody kissed him back, loving the way Randy's naked body fitted against his dressed one. As the kiss finally ended, Cody pulled back sighing, "I want to believe but..."

"No buts," rumbled Randy, "Cody pleases, just give it a try don't 2nd guess it."

Searching Randy's face Cody nodded then murmured, "Fine but if it isn't working…"

"Then we talk," agreed Randy. He gave a relieved smile leaning in to steal a kiss. Turning he looked back towards the house musing, "I wonder how Evan's doing with John?"

"Want me to go see?" offered Cody

"N'ah," smiled Randy "I'll go. How about I get them to bring dessert out here? We can all just relax and chill."

"Sounds good," grinned Cody he gave Randy a smirk adding, "Never know we may end up with a food fight again."

Randy just chuckled and headed back toward the house.

John and Evan were just padding back into the kitchen as Randy came in from the deck. Looking at the two men Randy realised he couldn't tell what either man was feeling. Suddenly feeling very nervous, he asked gruffly, "Well?"

"We're good," John smiled.

"Unless Cody changed his mind," Evan bit his lip.

"No he's ok," Randy walked towards them. "I think he has doubts but we'll over come those."

"Yep," Evan agreed.

"You guys want to eat dessert out on the deck?" Randy looked at both of them.

"Yeah sounds like a good plan," John went to the fridge opening to retrieve the items to create dessert. Evan walked over to help John out with the ice cream sundaes while Randy snuck over to a jar of cherries.

"Hey don't eat those," Evan scolded as Randy was about to eat a cherry.

"You know I love cherries," Randy popped the fruit defiantly into his mouth.

"In more ways than one," Evan replied walking over to take the jar away.

"You didn't complain," Randy laughed.

"Whoa, wait," John turned to face the pair. "You took Squirt's cherry?" John made air quotes grinning.

"Damn right I did," Randy stood proud while Evan blushed fiercely.

"So you've only had sex with…" John started.

"No," Evan snapped. "I've had Cody too."

"I was watching," Randy smiled stealing another cherry. "Then I joined in."

"Wait you've been…by…" John was pointing back in forth between Randy and Evan.

"Yes I have, and I liked it," Evan pausing as he put the lid half on the jar. "We've done lots of things so you might get use to looking shocked John."

"Yeah but...you're tiny!" exclaimed John.

"What?" asked Evan indignantly, "What do you mean I'm tiny?"

"I mean you're…well you're... I mean compare to them... they...they must ripped wide open..."

"They didn't" assured Evan with a little huff, "They were careful and took their time and…" he gave a little sigh of happiness and winking a Randy finished, "…it was wonderful."

"Really?" asked John intrigued, "I would have thought it would have been as painful as hell."

Randy chuckled and stealing another cherry – yelping slightly when Evan smacked his hand and snatched the jar away from him, finally screwing the lid firmly in place – "You've never bottomed John you don't know how good it feels to be filled up to be…" his voice faded as a memory stirred. A memory filled with screams and pain and humiliation. Letting his gaze slip to the floor murmured hauntedly, "But you're right done wrong it can rip you apart body and soul it can…

"Okay so chocolate ice cream or vanilla?" called John grinning desperately trying to take Randy's mind off what ever memory had just flooded his mind.

Evan smiled gratefully at John. Padding over to Randy he slid his arms around Randy's waist and hugging him he whispered, "Randy look at me…" he waited for the haunted grey eyes to look at him before whispering, "You didn't hurt me that night. You've never hurt me during sex. Please you've got to believe me."

Randy stared at him and reaching out he touched Evan's bruised cheek rumbling softly," but I have hurt you. Seriously hurt you…."

"Even if I say yes you physically hurt me it doesn't mean I'm leaving you or that I feel any differently about you," Evan got Randy to look him in the eye. "I understand you have past problems that's why we're all here together now to help you through them," Evan smiled at the older man.

"Ok," Randy whispered. "But I won't forget I just will try to push past it," Randy held on to Evan, hugging him tightly.

"Do your best even if I have to blind fold you," Evan winked trying to perk Randy back up.

"Ok take your bowls," John handed them each a bowl of ice cream. "I'll take mine and Cody's," John walked towards the door. He knew Cody wasn't overly pleased about him joining in. Backstage he and Cody got a long but there was always some unspoken competitiveness between them when it came to Randy's attention and friendship. John didn't have this same issue with Evan.

Stepping out on the deck John saw Cody sitting on a swing looking at him like he wish it was Randy or Evan holding his bowl of ice cream. John silently pass Cody his bowl and sat beside him.

"Thanks," Cody took a spoonful.

They ate in silence neither of them sure what to say to the other. Finally it was John who murmured, "I'm not trying to steal him from you, Cody."

Cody flicked him an evil look and pursed his lips but said nothing.

John sighed. He really didn't know what to say to the younger man. He was telling the truth he didn't want to be a home wrecker but equally he'd waited for this moment for so long, dreamt about it for so many lonely nights he wasn't about to let it slip from his fingers just to keep the peace between him and Cody. He gave another soft sigh and sinking back on the swing he glanced over to the kitchen and smiled. Randy and Evan had lingered in the kitchen and from his vantage point John could see them laughing, Randy was caressing, almost stroking, Evan's hair as the smaller man talk animatedly about something.

"What are those two up to?" he asked absently not really expecting an answer form the sulking from beside him.

"Being themselves," replied Cody softly.

When John looked questioningly at him, he explained, "Evan always manages to calm him down, to make him happy…" his voiced faded a moment then with a sad huff he snapped bitterly, "That's why it hurt so much when Randy attacked and shattered his nose," John frowned his mouth opening but Cody cut him off growling, "I hated him that night." he turned the brilliant blue eyes on John and with a million emotions swirling across his face, he asked bitterly, "Do you know how awful it feels to hate someone that you actually love with all your heart?"

"Yeah," breathed John, "Yeah I know exactly how it feels."

"You do?" Cody arched an eyebrow.

"I do maybe more than you," John sighed really not want to remember that night. "You didn't have someone you love tell you to basically fuck off and die while he rode someone else's dick," he didn't name any names because he knew the reality of the situation now.

"Randy back when he was with…" Cody was trying to delve deeper.

"Yes, I know now he didn't mean it," John looked into Cody's eyes letting his emotions. "But it nearly killed me and that's all I will say on that."

Cody nodded realizing that John and Randy after all these years over came a bad night. So that meant he, Evan and Randy could overcome their night of hell. Overcome it with John's help. Know what he now knew he felt more comfortable having him in the house but still had uneasy feelings that John would take his place.

"Looks like they are about to come out here," John took a breath and smiled. "If you love him you'll try," John looked at the glass door and Cody wanting to snap back at him for saying try and accept him. However John followed his words with, "and smile like everything is ok."

Cody's mouth fell open and as the kitchen door opened he hissed, "How dare you tell me how to act in my own house!"

John turned sighed when he realised how Cody had taken his last comment. He wanted to grab the younger man and tell him to stop being selfish and to focus on Randy. But before he could say anything Evan bounce dup onto the desk grinning at them both and asking, "So who's sitting where?"

"I'm on the swing," snapped Cody petulantly sinking back onto the swing seat, glaring at the back of John's head.

Evan frowned slightly but not wanting to let a dark cloud descend any further than it already had, he spun round and asked carefully, "Randy, where would you like to sit?"

"I don't mind," rumbled Randy slowly walking towards them. He was still feeling the recent coupling with John. It had been a long time since he'd felt such sensations and it was taking his tired body a little while to respond.

"Okay," mused Evan gnawing his lower lip, "Why don't I sit with John on the bench and then you can swing with Cody."

"Sounds good to me," replied John striding over to the ornate bench. Sinking onto the soft cushion he glanced at Cody and gave a sad smile.

Cody didn't return it he glared at him then turned and held a hand out pulling Randy down beside him. Randy complied slumping down beside his youngest lovers. Evan waited a moment then sensing the tension he padded over to the swing and leaning down he brushed a kiss over Cody's' cheek whisper, "Baby – don't start a fight tonight, please?"

"I won't," sighed Cody.

Randy over heard what was said between his two lovers and knew this would take a lot of adjustment. "So I was thinking we could all watch a movie tonight on the couch," Randy ate a spoonful of his dessert hoping that was a safe activity they all would enjoy.

"Sounds good to me," John said. "I'm game for any type of movie," John actually wasn't only liking certain genres but knew it better to help Randy get Cody and Evan use to a four way relationship by being more agreeable to things.

"I say we watch a comedy," Evan smiled hoping a light hearted movie would break the ice more around all of them.

"Sounds fine," Cody nodded not really caring just trying to cope with what was occurring.

"Ok we'll watch a comedy," Randy ate more of his dessert knowing only time would tell which of his lovers would stay and which would go.