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Okay, so I want to apologise for this taking me so long! I had to put it on hiatus for a while as the creative juices weren't flowing as well as they should of done! I will try and update more often from now on but RL is a bitch and gets in my way sometimes!
Hope you enjoy this long awaited chapter and hope you think it was worth the wait!
BellaPov:
The past few weeks have flown by, I've been working at the garage Monday to Friday and then been working at the station with my dad all day Saturday's. I'm tired, so tired but I have to keep busy to keep my mind from the mental scars Mike has left me with. It has been getting to me a lot more the last few days since I received a letter from Renee my mother for all intensive purposes.
Renee has never been a mother to me. She left my dad and I when I was only five years old without a word to any of us. I don't remember much because I was so young when she left but my dad has always been truthful with me about her. He told me that from the moment I was born she couldn't bring herself to bond with me, she never wanted kids and got unlucky. Her and my dad married at a young age and weren't really in love with each other, both just scared of being alone, that's what dad told me anyway.
Dad said he was the one who did all the night feeds and diaper changes as Renee just couldn't be bothered, it was that simple. It hurts me to think that my mother didn't want me from birth, I mean the woman carried me for nine months and still nothing, she felt no connection to me what so ever. Charlie was and still is the best father a girl could ask for, we have been through our awkward times like when I first got my period and he well and truly freaked the fuck out and when he had to explain to me about the birds and the bees, it was just as embarrassing for me than it was him, but no matter what situations I got myself into dad was always there for me.
When my mom left, dad being in the police tracked her down and she was shacked up with some other dude. She demanded a divorce and basically took my dad to the cleaners, telling him to keep me because she has more of a life without us both. Of course dad being dad kept a track on her secretly to see what she was doing with her life and I think part of it was to make sure she was okay. My dad has a big heart and even though my mother treated him despicably he would never see any kind of harm come to her.
So this letter arrives basically saying that she would like to meet with me. I'm really not sure if I should or if I really even want to entertain the idea but she's my mother and I have a shit load of questions for her. I haven't told Charlie yet, I don't want to upset him in anyway. I will talk with him... as soon as I've figured out what to do.
I am also having a hard time getting Edward out of my mind, It's near on impossible. Every day when he rolls up to the garage my heart skips a beat. We have been talking more throughout the day and conversation seems to flow between us with out any kind of awkward silences although there is always a lot of staring and a lot of me blushing. He's so easy to get along with and he always says the right thing at the right time. He is also extremely handsome in fact handsome does not do him justice. No one ever seems to refer to a man as being beautiful but Edward in my eyes is just that.
I confided in Rose about the situation with the letter from my mother but Rose's words were "tell her to get fucked off the cheeky bitch." So she wasn't exactly... helpful. I'm currently sat at my desk at work, reading the letter over and over again. I hear a light knock on the door.
"Come in," I say.
Edward pops his good looking face round the door. "Hey, sorry to bother you. I just wanted to check if you were okay. You've been a bit distant these past few day's."
I place the letter down on the desk "I'm fine." I say absentmindedly.
"I can clearly see that your not Bella," he says walking fully into my small office and shutting the door behind him.
I'm silent just staring at the piece of paper. "Whats that?" I hear Edward ask.
"Oh, nothing." I say, grab the letter and try to shove it the drawer.
Edward grabs my hand lightly and takes the paper from me. He takes a seat opposite and begins to read it. I throw my head forward, so it's resting on the edge of the desk and internally cringe waiting for him to finish. After about five minutes I raise my head slightly and eye him. He is staring at me. I sit up straight.
"Bella, whats this?" He waves the letter in the air. "Well I know what it is; is this what's been bothering you?"
"Yeah, it's been playing on my mind a lot since I got it. Edward, I don't know what to do. She left me when I was a baby, didn't want to know me. Why would she want to know me now?" I open up to him.
"Honey, I can't tell you what to do. You need to figure this out for yourself, I wish I could help you more but whatever you decide it has to be your decision only." He tells me honestly.
"I need to tell my dad. I know it's going to upset him but I can't keep it from him. He brought me up, provided for me and made me the woman I am today. I know he'll know what to do. He was right about Mike," I chuckle sinisterly "and I know he'll be right about what I should do in this situation."
"Mike? Is that..." Edward starts but then stops and knits his eyebrows together.
"Is that what?"
"Your husband, who... um... beat you? I'm sorry, Emmett filled me in." He looks down.
"It's fine Edward. Don't apologise. Yeah Mike's my husband soon to be ex. I don't mind that Emmett told you, you were bound to find out at some stage." I shrug.
"I just can't get my head around why anybody would want to hurt you like that Bella. You're such a good person with a pure soul," he balls his fist. "You didn't deserve that." he sees me looking at his fist and relaxes it. "I think we could say we're friends now right?" He asks and I just nod. "Well as your friend Bella, I promise you that no one and I do mean no one will ever hurt you like that again. Not while I'm around okay," he hands me back the letter but holds my hand.
"Thanks Edward, that really means a lot to me. It's nice to know I have people willing to look out for me," I say smiling at him. He's staring right into my eyes and I'm staring back. Getting lost in his leaf green eyes.
"Go out with me Bella," he whispers.
"What?" I ask. Although I heard what he said.
"Let me take you out, I can't get you out of my mind."
"Um... Edward I'd love to but I just don't think I'm ready. My head's not in the right place. I wouldn't want to disappoint you." I hang my head.
"I understand that Bella but I could never be disappointed by you. How about we just go out for a drink after work... as friends?"
I think for a minute, I mean what is the worst that could happen? "Okay, yeah, that sounds good."
"Great, I'll see you at clocking off time then," he says and walks out of the office.
It's just a drink right?
All afternoon I have the biggest smile on my face. Clock watching. Spying on Edward through the small window in my office that looks out onto the forecourt. I watch as he works under the hood of a car. His back is to me and even though he's wearing a t-shirt I can see all his muscles flexing and turning under the material. Edward is like the hottest guy I've ever seen but what I like most about him is that he's modest. He doesn't think he can get through life on just his looks, he works hard and is a genuinely nice guy.
At five to five I run into the bathroom, swill my face with cold water and ruffle up my hair a little bit. When I get back to my office Edward is laid back in my chair with his feet up on my desk.
"You ready to go?" He asks.
I slap his legs "feet off." He laughs and so do I "yeah I'm ready, I'll just say bye to the guys."
"They've already left," he says standing up.
"Fucking charming," I blurt out. I wanted to inform Rose of where I was going.
"Ooo, language Bella," Edward teases as we walk out to the lot.
I head for my truck "Oh no you don't, woman." Edward shouts.
I eye him suspiciously "what do you mean?"
"We'll ride in my car. I'll lock that heap of junk in the garage."
"Hey, don't hate the truck," I say and hand him the keys.
He backs the truck up inside the garage and locks up. We walk to his car and get in.
"I thought I'd take you to a place where me and the guys drink, it's nice and out of the way."
"Cool," I say looking out of the window.
"You can relax Bella. It's just a drink," I look at him and he winks at me "or two." He adds and we both laugh.
"I know, I am relaxed. It's just strange going out for a 'drink' with a guy other than Mike." I say honestly.
Edward's facial expression twists to like a pained look "please don't say his name like he's a person. That man, if you can call him a man is an animal, Bella." He spits.
Wow Edward really has a problem with what Mike did to me. "I'm sorry."
"Don't you be sorry. I just want to take you for a drink to make you forget about him. To show you that there is decent guys out there."
"I know that there is decent guys Edward, all I have to do is look at my dad, you, Aro, Emmett and Jasper," I get cut off.
"Urgh, the major himself." Edward mumbles.
"Yes, Jasper is a decent guy. What's your beef with him anyway?" I ask 'cuz I really want to know. When they had that fight I swear my ovaries exploded. It's wrong to fight I know but damn, that was the hottest thing I've ever seen. I was just secretly wishing Aro would've joined in too.
"He accused me of wanting to sleep with Alice. Well that's where it all began, he's a sick fuck! Ever since then, he just grates on my nerves. I can't stand the sight of him if I'm totally honest with you. I've promised myself that I will try to get on better with him for Alice's sake but not sure how long that will last."
"He accused you of that? I had no idea. It's good that you'll try to get along with him. He's not all that bad and he treats Alice like a queen. They're so in love, it's a beautiful thing to see. A couple so happy and in love."
"I give him that, he does treat Alice right and I believe he would die for her. I just don't agree with some things he does, it irritates me."
"I see. So do you think that altercation with you and Jasper at the garage will be an end to it all now then?"
"I guess so, but I'm not making any promises. Enough of that anyway, how are you such good friends with Rose? She's a bloody nightmare." He says.
"Rose isn't that bad Edward. We've been friends for a long time. Lost contact through Mi-him. As soon as I'd left him, I found the courage to call her and like a true friend she was there for me. I owe her a lot."
I look out the window and we are pulling up outside a really nice bar. Junction Roadhouse. We get out and make our way inside. I grab us a table while Edward goes and orders us some drinks. He brings back the drinks and we talk about work and stuff for a while. I'm surprised at how much I'm enjoying myself and Edwards company. The drinks are in full swing too, I doubt Edward will be able to drive home, he's... shall we say a little fresh and so am I. We sit chatting and listening to people singing on the karaoke some good, some exceptionally bad. We laugh carelessly and take the mick out of the bad ones.
"You should totally get up there and sing Edward," I say nudging his shoulder with mine.
"Oh, your worse than the guys. They're always getting me up to sing." He tells"Well go on then Cullen. I'm waiting," I tease. I didn't expect him to actually get up and head over to the DJ, whisper something to him and grab a mic. I giggled like a fucking school girl when he looked at me and winked.
As soon as the music started I knew the song straight away. A song by Ed Sherran names 'kiss me'. I know this because his album is the only thing I play in the truck. Then Edward started singing and I was totally entranced by the first word...
1,2,3,4... Settle down with me, cover me up, cuddle me in.
Lie down with me and hold me in your arms.
And your hearts against my chest, your lips pressed to my neck.
I'm falling for your eyes, but they don't know me yet.
Another feeling I'll forget, I'm in love now.
Kiss me like you wanna be loved, you wanna be loved, you wanna be loved.
This feels like I'm falling in, falling in love, I'm falling in love.
Oh my fucking god. Edward's voice is amazing and I'm totally swooning right now. Our eyes are are firmly connected to one and other and it's like there's just me and him in the room.
Settle down with me, and I'll be your safety, you can be my lady.
I was made to keep your body warm, but I'm as cold as the wind blows so hold me in your arms.
I know, my hearts against your chest, your lips pressed to my neck, I'm falling for your eyes but they don't know me yet.
And with this feeling I'll forget... I'm in love now.
Kiss me like you wanna be loved, wanna be loved, wanna be loved.
This feels like I'm falling in love, falling in love, I'm falling in love.
His voice is like pure silk and he's singing this song with so much emotion. I believe every word that he's singing and yet he hasn't taking his eyes from mine and nor have I... what does this mean? That he's singing this song to me? That he means what he's singing to me? I'm so confused but I don't care because this man, Edward Cullen, in this moment is making me fall for him.
Yeah I've been feeling everything from hate to love from love to lust from lust to truth I...guess that's how I know you, to hold you close... to help you give it up.
So kiss me like you wanna be loved, wanna be loved, you wanna be loved.
This feels like I'm falling in love, falling in love, I'm falling in love.
I can't take my eyes from him as he finishes the song. The crowd erupt into applause and cheering but none of that matters. Edward is walking back over to me with that gorgeous lop sided grin and before I know it I'm on my feet walking towards him. As soon as I reach him I don't say a word, I simply wrap my arms around his neck and plant my lips on his. I feel his arms wrap around my waist as he kisses me back. A thousand feelings are rushing through my entire body. This is what a kiss should be, this is what a kiss should feel like. I felt like we were both saying so many things to each other that we couldn't speak aloud. We moved in perfect sync as the kiss deepened. My head was spinning like I was drunk off Edward. As our lips came to a halt and we pulled slowly away from each other I heard a roar of cheers again.
"Breath," Edward whispers to me resting his forehead against mine.
So I did, that's why my head was spinning. The kiss took my breath away, never in my life have I experienced anything like that. All thoughts of Mike and the letter from my mother vanished like they never happened, like it was all some fucked up dream. I was kiss was full of intensity and passion and I knew right then and there that I was rapidly falling head over heels in love with Edward Cullen and it was scaring the hell out of me.
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