Disclaimer: I don't own the rights to Sanctuary
"You can't just keep pretending like everything is okay, Nikola. You just can't." Helen said.
Nikola scoffed at her and practically snarled, "What? You think you know me? You think that just because you read that mistake of a book you KNOW ME?" Nikola smacked the book out of her hands and Helen winced. "You know nothing."
Helen calmly picked up the book and looked into his eyes. "I know what it's like to hurt. And to feel alone. Behind that cocky smile of yours, is a scared little boy who's lost."
"Shut up."
"And, I'm sorry." Nikola narrowed his eyes in confusion. "I'm sorry you waited so long for me. I can help you. Show you. But, you have to stop pretending." Helen reached out to him.
Nikola shook her off. "One who knows nothing, shall no nothing. I don't need you. Not anymore. . . .I'm old, Helen. Like you. Very old. And, I spent all that time chasing you and look where it got me. Absolutely nowhere. And, I'm tired. So, stop acting like you care. Because it's been there. I've been right here, screaming out to you and you never noticed. Never dared to touch what lied just beneath the surface. And, just because you read a couple things that doesn't make it better. In fact, it makes it worse. Because, you never got it by yourself, without that book, would we really be standing here? No. You'd be somewhere else. And, I'd be right here."
"That's not true." Helen insisted. "I care about you Nikola. I do. But you have to let me in. You have to let me try."
Funhouse
Dizzy and sick as the walls bend
This is where we separate the lions from men
I stumble around inside
No place to go, no place to hide
Looking back at me with curious eyes
Was myself, the truth I was trying so desperately to hide
One, two, three, four, five
Different reflections of me come alive
Laughing and taunting as I stand in the middle
From all sides I am played like a fiddle
Hey
Look at me, I'm a genius!
I can calculate the square root of pie
In less than T-minus five
Edison's a big, fat mooch
In fact, nothing more than tubby, dumb douche
I'm the shit, I'm better than you, I'm better than you
SMASH
Hey
I'm a monster
So now, all I use are my teeth
'Why are you doing this?' are the last words you breathe
Loving the sounds of fractured jaw lines and broken necks
Splattering my soul with red specks
Of blood and a twisted sense hunger
That never seems to subside or go under
More and more and more
I needed more
I needed blood from the sky to pour
SMASH
Hey
I'm in love
Waiting for you to notice me noticing you
My eyes would follow you around like glue
In love with everything you are
I'm not gonna be cheesy and say 'you're my shooting star'
Instead, you are the fiery comet that shoots through my black night
Destroying my every sensible thought without a fight
You make my heart and brain and legs turn to mush
I'm in love with yo—
SMASH
Hey
I lived for a very long time
And I'm tired, I just want a sign
So I know I can rest now
I just want to throw in the towel
I'm old
Very old
SMASH
Hey
I'm alone, solo as I walk the lands
My race is gone, fizzled, evaporated, dead
Not one of my kind left
All fell to the cold icy touch of Death
So I'm gonna re make them
Human blood and vamp blood I'll blend
I want nothing more for them to rise
And raise their kingdom to the skies
Age of the Vampires reborn
The thought of humans mutilated and torn
Love, love, lo—
SMASH
Nothing left but shattered glass
Only one big piece of trash left
Standing with bloody fists
And hair messy, the wind blows stray whisps
But this one can't break or go away
Only the real one remains
Not a reflection, not mirror
The true one remains
