Disclaimer: I don't own the rights to Sanctuary

"You can't just keep pretending like everything is okay, Nikola. You just can't." Helen said.

Nikola scoffed at her and practically snarled, "What? You think you know me? You think that just because you read that mistake of a book you KNOW ME?" Nikola smacked the book out of her hands and Helen winced. "You know nothing."

Helen calmly picked up the book and looked into his eyes. "I know what it's like to hurt. And to feel alone. Behind that cocky smile of yours, is a scared little boy who's lost."

"Shut up."

"And, I'm sorry." Nikola narrowed his eyes in confusion. "I'm sorry you waited so long for me. I can help you. Show you. But, you have to stop pretending." Helen reached out to him.

Nikola shook her off. "One who knows nothing, shall no nothing. I don't need you. Not anymore. . . .I'm old, Helen. Like you. Very old. And, I spent all that time chasing you and look where it got me. Absolutely nowhere. And, I'm tired. So, stop acting like you care. Because it's been there. I've been right here, screaming out to you and you never noticed. Never dared to touch what lied just beneath the surface. And, just because you read a couple things that doesn't make it better. In fact, it makes it worse. Because, you never got it by yourself, without that book, would we really be standing here? No. You'd be somewhere else. And, I'd be right here."

"That's not true." Helen insisted. "I care about you Nikola. I do. But you have to let me in. You have to let me try."

Funhouse

Dizzy and sick as the walls bend

This is where we separate the lions from men

I stumble around inside

No place to go, no place to hide

Looking back at me with curious eyes

Was myself, the truth I was trying so desperately to hide

One, two, three, four, five

Different reflections of me come alive

Laughing and taunting as I stand in the middle

From all sides I am played like a fiddle

Hey

Look at me, I'm a genius!

I can calculate the square root of pie

In less than T-minus five

Edison's a big, fat mooch

In fact, nothing more than tubby, dumb douche

I'm the shit, I'm better than you, I'm better than you

SMASH

Hey

I'm a monster

So now, all I use are my teeth

'Why are you doing this?' are the last words you breathe

Loving the sounds of fractured jaw lines and broken necks

Splattering my soul with red specks

Of blood and a twisted sense hunger

That never seems to subside or go under

More and more and more

I needed more

I needed blood from the sky to pour

SMASH

Hey

I'm in love

Waiting for you to notice me noticing you

My eyes would follow you around like glue

In love with everything you are

I'm not gonna be cheesy and say 'you're my shooting star'

Instead, you are the fiery comet that shoots through my black night

Destroying my every sensible thought without a fight

You make my heart and brain and legs turn to mush

I'm in love with yo—

SMASH

Hey

I lived for a very long time

And I'm tired, I just want a sign

So I know I can rest now

I just want to throw in the towel

I'm old

Very old

SMASH

Hey

I'm alone, solo as I walk the lands

My race is gone, fizzled, evaporated, dead

Not one of my kind left

All fell to the cold icy touch of Death

So I'm gonna re make them

Human blood and vamp blood I'll blend

I want nothing more for them to rise

And raise their kingdom to the skies

Age of the Vampires reborn

The thought of humans mutilated and torn

Love, love, lo—

SMASH

Nothing left but shattered glass

Only one big piece of trash left

Standing with bloody fists

And hair messy, the wind blows stray whisps

But this one can't break or go away

Only the real one remains

Not a reflection, not mirror

The true one remains