'Levi...?'

'Where are you?'

'I need you?'

'What's happening to me?'

'I'm so scared!'

'I'm so alone!'

'Everything hurt's!'

'It's so painful'

I could feel my consciousness rise from the depth of darkness as I slowly raised my eyelids to reveal a glaring white light surrounding me, I tried to lift my arms to block it but I couldn't move. My limbs were pulled down limiting my movement when suddenly a wave of panic rushes over me and I start trying to pull free to no avail, my heart speeds up and the protuding annoying sound next to me was ringing in my eyes; turning to face it and yell out for it to shut up I stopped and saw it was a machine. The same machine as the one I had in the hospital but now that I look around nothing in this room reminded me of the hospital, there was nothing in here and one side of the wall reflected the entire room including me.

I...I... looked disgusting...

My skin was paler with sickly color, my eyes were red and my body was wrapped in white and... what is that?... a buckle!?

Oh no it's a jacket! A god damn straight jacket! and my legs were strapped to the bed.

My breathing quickened and my chest squeezed tightly as the rythmic beeping grew faster.

The door slammed open as a woman with a brown ponytail and glasses ran to me and started shushing lowly, her hands on my chest as she rubbed back and forth in a soothing manner.

"Look into my eyes, Eren!"

I stared into her brown orbs worriedly.

"It's okay, shhh... your safe now. I'm not going to hurt you" She assured me without looking away, after my breathing calming down I said the one thing on my mind.

"L..Levi?" My throat felt raw and dry just like whenever I woke up from those long deep sleeps in the hospital.

She looked taken aback for a second before changing the subject.

"Eren, do you remember yesterday?" She asked.

Upon remembering such a horrible scene I was somewhat scared to answer, I didn't know how to answer her question without sounding insane which was probably what I am.

"Did.. I do something?" I whispered worriedly.

"You went for a walk around the hospital on your own and you must have seen something that acted as a trigger in your mind because you ran into your room and locked yourself in the bathroom from Levi and Erwin..." She didn't get to finish as I abruptly interrupted her speech.

"THAT WAS THEM!?"

Hanji was shocked at my outburst but nodded her answer none the less.

"You didn't know?" She asked.

I let a tear flow down the side of my temple as I was unable to move and wipe it away as I realized something.

"Is that why Levi isn't here?"

"No Eren! Listen to me, Levi is just really busy with his work right now but he promised you in your sleep that he will come back" She seemed to be in a panic trying to reassure me and something seemed off...

I was forced to stay in that stupid white room all day while I would be hand fed by nurses, Hanji walked in and said I was leaving this room into a better less maddening one; she helped sit up while she undid the restraints.

She had even freed my arms from the buckle allowing movement once again, the look of disgust and judgement didn't go unnoticed from the nurses face; they must think I can't be trusted but Hanji seemed okay with it even if she is a bit strange.

She talked the whole journey throughout the building as she guided me around showing off all the different rooms, until we stopped at one room with the name Dr Petra Ral written on the middle of the door.

"Ah we ran out of time, sorry Eren but I have no right go inside this room. Don't worry your pretty face though cause the doctor is very nice" With a sudden push I was shoved inside.

"You must be Eren, it's nice to meet you"

The doctor was a young woman with short strawberry blonde hair that greeted me with a sweet smile and her hand extended for a shake, I looked at it at first before noticing how rude I was being and cautiously joined my hand with hers for a gentle but firm shake.

"You're just as cute as Levi said you were" I blushed but it didn't escape my notice of how both the women I have met know Levi.

"Please take a seat, choose whichever one it doesnt matter" Looking around there were a few different kind's a couch in front of the big window overlooking the green land, a phsychiatrist's chair where you lay back and a few armchairs; I opted for the couch.

I placed my feet on the opposite end of the couch so I can lean my back against the rest but I had my knees bent to my chest, I just thought this would be the most comfortable position right now.

I felt so insecure being inside this room.

"My name is Petra Ral, I am the phsychiatrist in this building" She introduced looking just as sweet as before.

"I thought so" I answered and she giggled at my plain response.

"I have heard a lot about you and also the reason as to why you were sent here" I looked down at my knees not sure what to say.

"But I would rather hear from you instead, so let me ask you Eren"

I locked eyes with her now.

"What happened yesterday?" Her voice was calm and sweet it didn't make the atmosphere tense even though this is the institute for mentally insane people that includes me, Hanji informed me and I worked it out anyway.

It was obvious I was on edge and I was reluctant in telling anyone what I saw but she just sat there waiting patiently.

"I dont know..." A tear escaped at my pathetic answer.

"I see... did you know what you were doing during your stroll around the hospital?"

"Yes"

"How were you feeling that day?"

"Happy"

"Why is that?"

"Because I was allowed to leave... today..."

"Did you talk to anyone or see something that made you remember something?"

"No-one but I accidently saw a doctor about to cut into a patient with a scalpel"

Petra slightly paused for a second in writing on her notepad.

"Your father is a doctor? Did you ever see him use one before?"

"Yes many times as a child when people would come to our house for help and stuff"

"Did you hate it?"

"I never minded it" I continued to speak after seeing where this was going.

"Grisha never used anything but his fists and legs except when he pushed my hands down onto broken glass, you may not believe me but I am not someone who can be abused then shiver in the corner scared; I had forgotten everything about Grisha because I had someone who captured all of my attention even if I hardly know him at all"

"You're very strong for suffering this long in that position but I am just trying to find out why you acted so out of character yesterday"

"I was being chased!" I unintentionally raised my voice

Petra flinched slightly but then her face turned serious.

"By what?"

"I don't know! it's just everything... I had to get away from everything"

I glanced at Petra who looked worried.

"What did you see?" A firm question

"Everything around me was turning into... this... thing! It was like a boneless, skinless abnormality.."

She remained quiet as she listened to my insane story waiting patiently for me to gather the right words, she didn't pressure me which I was thankful for as I tried to calm my breathing before having a break down.

"Could you see people?" Her voice was soft and light as if being cautious about how she spoke to me.

"I think I did but the only thing remotely human was these black figures and they kept surrounding me before I..." I what? What happened back there? What happened to me after that?

Petra seemed to pick up on my confusion and answered for me.

"You slipped and knocked your head on the tile's, the bathroom was a mess becau..."

"Because I smashed the mirror!" I finished her sentence and it proved to her that I knew I remembered and was conscious during the meltdown.

After explaining my side of the events Petra said that was all for today and that I'll see her next time I was lead away feeling worse than before now that I confirmed I am well and truly fucked in the head; I was being pulled along by Hanji who was my guide again.


~ Inside the doctor's office ~

Petra turned back to her desk to resume her work on the desktop as she clicked a minimized tab returning it to covering the entire screen with a recorded video call.

"Was that enough Levi? Erwin?" Petra asked to the 2 men behind the screen who had surveyed the entire talk between the doctor and patient.

"Yes, thank you Petra"