Sorrrrrrryyyyy! Thanks for dealing with my dry spells :P but the inspiration is back and so is the story! 'Breakeven' belongs to 'the script' not me. This song was requested by StarWarsGirl10 I couldn't thank her enough for all the song ideas she sent me.
I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayin' to a god that I don't believe in
Cause I got time while she got freedom
Cause when a heart breaks no it don't break even
Rex sat on his bunk one leg dangling over the edge and his helmet abandoned on the floor. It felt as though he was drowning, calling out to the men around him for help and they were just standing there… watching. Ahsoka hadn't tried to talk to him again after that final chat on mandalor. Why would she? He was just another clone. And she had obviously moved on.
Her best days will be some of my worst
She finally met a man that's goanna put her first
Rex really couldn't blame her. It wasn't like he had been a good lover. The truth was he hadn't known how to be a good lover.
The captain felt a pang of jealousy towards Cody. He knew exactly how to treat a woman so she would never want to leave him. It probably came from spending so much time around General Kenobi, the subsequent charmer of the Jedi order. Then again maybe he'd rather be like Bly the man who could talk even the most reserved women into a one-night stand. The man who had at least one kid running around the galaxy…
Rex shoved those thoughts out of his head. He couldn't throw his time away wishing he were someone elts. It was a waste of energy and it would probably loose him the respect of his men. Besides it wasn't like he was going to be getting involved with a woman ever again…
While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping
Cause when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven... even... no
On the other side of the ship Ahsoka was also suffering from insomnia.
The young Jedi flipped over for the 5th time that night. But she felt far to guilty to sleep.
He kissed you. It wasn't your fault. Rex should have trusted you… but those thoughts were combated by far more powerful ones. It takes two to tango. Rex has every right not to trust you. You shouldn't have even been in the garden...
Why had she been in the garden? She shouldn't have been. Lux had asked her to come out and chat with him. She shouldn't have. She had known his intentions. She was a Jedi after all.
Ahsoka flipped over once more.
She was the bad guy in this and she knew it. She couldn't blame Rex. If it had been him in her shoes she would have reacted the same way... so it was over. He was obviously over it so she could get over it to.
What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you,
And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
I'm falling to pieces, yeah,
I'm falling to pieces
Skywalker smiled when he saw his padawan enter the bridge.
"Snips!" he called. She looked up from the data pad in her hand, smiled and hurried to her master.
"Yes master?" She asked. Anakin grinned.
"Word just came in from the council snips." Ahsoka suppressed a grown. Was her master in trouble again? No, he couldn't be. If he were he wouldn't be so cheerful. Was she in trouble? "You're being promoted to knighthood." Ahsoka's head snapped around to look at her master in shock.
"What?" she asked not sure she had heard correctly. Her master grinned.
"You heard me snips. Your to be promoted and deployed with your own legion as soon as we land on coruscant."
They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words goanna stop the bleeding
Cause she's moved on while I'm still grieving
And when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven even... no
Rex had heard about Ahsoka's promotion and transfer. Strangely enough it hurt. He didn't want to see her go because… well he wasn't quite sure why. But one thing was for sure he hadn't moved on. And seeing her… sometimes he could just sit back and pretend it never happened, that they were still together. But fantasies were useless. She was getting on with her life. And he should get on with his… could he call it a life? No matter how hard Rex tried to forget about it the hurt kept coming back. Along with the thoughts which put a twist in his gut.
Maybe she'll go back to that separatist of hers…
What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you,
And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
I'm falling to pieces, yeah,
I'm falling to pieces, yeah,
Ahsoka climbed onto the transport heading for the Jedi temple. She snuck a glance over her shoulder. Rex was standing with his men, back rigged as a board, seeing her off. If it hadn't been for the jade eye helmet masking his face from the outside world, she would have seen a single tear fall down the immovable Captain's stone hard face.
I'm falling to pieces
(One still in love while the other ones leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
(Cause when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)
The men took Ahsoka's leaving pretty hard. They were all sad to see there 'little sister' go and it was all too easy to find someone to blame.
Oh you got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame.
Now I'm try'na make sense of what little remains ooh
Cos you left me with no love and no love to my name.
Rex glanced wearily to where several of his men where conversing quietly at the other end of the lunch table. Every now and again they would send him a dirty look and continue in their conversation. Rex had taken Dar'yam the past couple of weeks. Ever since Ahsoka left his men had suddenly decided it was his fault. They must have noticed them stop talking or the tension between them. And now they figured that had something to do with Ahsoka's leaving.
Rex sighed heavily and took a large bite of the unidentifiable mush on his plat, which passed for food. You'd think after years of eating it he would have gotten used to it by now but... not a chance.
The food did little to fill the emptiness in the Captains stomach and emptiness left behind by Ahsoka's leaving. He shouldn't feel a thing about it.
She made you do it.She didn't honestly think you would be taken a fool with separatist? Clones didn't share. At least he'd never met one that did. They were too loyal for that. Maybe that was why he felt so bad about all of this.
One thing was for sure his men had made their choice. Rex was the bad guy.
I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
It hurt to even get up in the morning.
Just prayin' to a god that I don't believe in
The force must hate me. He didn't even know what to think anymore.
Cause I got time while she got freedom
She had moved on. She had a new life as a Jedi knight ahead of her. What did he have?
Cause when a heart breaks no it don't break
No it don't break
No it don't break even no
He was just a clone. Why did he even bother anymore?
What am I goanna do when the best part of me was always you and
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
(Oh glad your okay now)
Rex was happy for her. He was glad she was off leading her own battalion. Saving lives like she always wanted to do. His life may have been meaningless now. But hers went on.
I'm falling to pieces yeah
(Oh I'm glad your okay)
I'm falling to pieces yeah
(One still in love while the other ones leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
(Cause when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)
Life wasn't fair. In love sometimes you lost.
Course being a clone doesn't help your odds. No wise words were going to make it feel any better. His heart was broken and as a soldier Rex only knew one way to deal with that…
He fought harder, shot more droid, charged out into the middle of the battlefield fearless of danger with both guns blazing.
Skywalker had noticed the change in his captain but he had said nothing. The man may have been blind but he wasn't an idiot. He knew it was about Ahsoka and he knew the captain had to work this out on his own.
So Rex was alone. He stopped sleeping. Sleeping only made him think of her. He stopped eating. His men just gave him dirty looks in the mess hall anyway. All he did was walk and fight and breath.
Ahsoka had betrayed him. He had left her. She was off on the other side of the galaxy leading her own battalion. Probably having already found a man to replace him. While he struggled just to cope with day-to-day life.
Oh it don't break even no
Oh it don't break even no
Oh it don't break even no
Because when a heart breaks, it does not breakeven.
Ya pretty angsty but 'the road of love never did run smooth' (I can not believe I just used that in an authors note!) anyway this story will be coming to an end soon so you better get your requests in now if you want a chance of them being used! I already have plans for the next chapter (I am not telling you what it is but I will say its Taylor Swift ;P) anywho REVIEW as always chow for now! *Air kiss*
