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Chapter 7

Bella's POV

When i reached my bedroom i flopped straight onto the bed.

Laying down i looked at my ceiling, It was covered white fluffy clouds and then blue was painted all around them like a big open sky, It looked so peaceful. If i could picture anything that could resemble anything close to heaven it would be this, a place where nobody, not anyone could hurt you.

Reaching for my ipod from the bedside table i turned on my favourite song of all time Clair de lune by Debussy.

It was so calm, it was one of those songs you could listen to forever, and still never get bored of it.

I placed my ipod down when the song finished, and walked to the music room.

I pushed the squeaky door oped and quietly walked in.

There in the middle of the room was my piano, i haven't played it since that night,

I miss playing, it's a part of me, i love it, but sometimes it just brings back to many hard memories.

Playing was a part of me, it was like when i played, nobody could get to me, because the music could protect me from anything evil in the world, kind of like that little girl in crash were she has the invisible magic cape.

I sat down on the leather seat and let my fingers hover over the keys before i started playing Clair de lune. I knew the music by heart even after so many months of not playing it.

The music Filled the room, i let it fill my ears and drown out all of the sorrows that i held so deeply inside my heart and soul.

It was like the song told a story and yet it didn't, because it didn't even hold any words. I thought back to the first time i played for Edward, it was kind of recent, about a month before the incident.

Flashback

Bella walked into the music room along with Edward. She turned to him and smiled, and he smiled his to die for smile back. Whenever Bella looked into Edwards eyes she could almost see herself, and how much love she held for him.

But she knew, she knew too well that Edward could never love her back, because he was going out with Lauren, and he had told Bella numerous times that he loved her.

She walked over to the piano and sat down,

"I'm not as good as you, so you don't have to act amazed, because i know you'll be disappointed"

she looked up at him and he came and sat down next to her wrapping his arms around Bella's waist.

She began the song and closed her eyes, letting the music fill her every being. This was her place, in Edwards arms playing the piano, this was Bella's heaven.

I finished playing, opened my eyes and let the tears cascade down my face.

I moved to get up and head for the door, but stopped when i saw Edward.

"I'm - I'm sorry i didn't mean, i was just going to the bathroom and i heard you playing" he spoke nervously.

I stared at him and still let the tears flow.

"yeah well now you can run along to all your friends at school and tell them what a cry baby i am, and maybe you make up something, you for fun" i looked away and fell to the floor.

I felt Edwards arm on my shoulder and i flinched.

"leave me alone Edward" i spoke with venom in my voice and Edward stepped back.

"Listen Bella, i-"

"You know what, after being called slut all the time, im surprised you even know my name"

"Bella, I'm sorry, but your the one that did this to your self, You ruined it all by forcing yourself on james. what did you want me to say, you killed the trust between yourself and Jessica and hurt all your friends because of how careless you were. And you expect us to just take you back like the angel your so obviously not"

His words stung, I knew i was nowhere near an angel, but it didnt mean that i deserved what i got, i stood up and looked him straight in the eye.

"Edward leave me the fuck alone, before i do something that i wont regret" Hitting him right now would leave me with no regret, he never gave me a chance, never gave me a chance to tell my side of the story, never gave me the time for me to tell him i was raped.

He looked hurt but he couldn't even be hurting half as much on the inside as me.

I looked out of the window, heard the door shut and closed my eyes as i listen for the footsteps retreating down the hall way.

I closed the lid on the piano and walked to the bathroom. I turned the taps on the tub and stripped my clothes off.

I looked in the mirror as i waited for the bath to run and took my makeup .Slowly as the foundation and eyeliner disappeared i saw the girl i had become, i wasnt even a girl anymore, i was a nobody, nobody wanted me, nobody needed me and every one hated me.

I turned the taps of after a couple of minutes and climbed in the bath.

I relaxed instantly into the bubbles and closed my eyes.

Flashback

"Edward, Edward, quick we got to go again come on, get the skateboard"

Ten year old bella screamed down the stairs to eleven year old Edward. They had been going up and down the stairs all day on the new skateboard bella had got for her birth day, even though she had been bought millions of dolls and clothes and dress up dresses, bella insisted on playing on her skateboard. She had always been a bit of a tom boy, skateboarding, trousers instead of skirts, hats instead of plaits and all of the other stuff opposite to what girls would do.(braids i think is the American term lol)

These habits where probably also because of Edward, bella had known Edward since she was two, and since then they had been inseparable.

Edward came walking up the stairs with the skate board and set it down on the stairs.

Bella climbed on first and the Edward got on behind.

"Ready, steady, GOOOOO" the bunch were always so loud and hyperactive, that even and old lady that was half death could probably here them scream.

The two went flying down the stairs and crashed into the wall.

"Owwwwwww" bella starting moaning.

Edward walked over to her and sat down next to bella's fragile body.

"bella are you ok, what's wrong?"

She pointed to her knee and starting crying, she had a big carpet burn and a cut on her knee.

" My knee Edward owww" he looked at her with sadness in his eyes, but then he leaned down and placed his lips down on her sore and kissed it better.

"There it'll be all better soon" bella stopped crying and smiled up at Edward.

" I love you Edward" and she brought him into a hug.

"I love you to Bella"

I woke up out of my dream and looked at the clock on the wall, it was nine o'clock, i had slept for nearly two hours and the bathe water was freezing cold.

I wrapped a towel around my worn out body and went to my room and put my pyjamas on .

I lay on the bed and put the ear phones in my ears again, but this time i put a different song on.

Run by Leona Lewis. I felt like i could relate to this song a little, i related it to me and Edward six months ago.

I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say.

I shut my eyes and drifted into a peaceful sleep knowing that James couldn't get to me tonight

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