One-shot 7

Pairing: MuraKuro


"Ah! M-Murasakibara-kun!"

"Hey~ That sounds like a mouthful to say in bed~ You can call me Atsushi if you want…~"

"Nnh….At-…atsushi….-kun?"

"Why's it a question~ hmm? C'mon, Kuro-chin, learn to let go a little…~"

"Ah b-but, if I do…Mura-…Atsushi-k-kun will…will completely overwhelm me…-!"

"Does that really seem so bad…?"

It didn't. It really didn't seem that bad. But even if Kuroko wanted to let go, he couldn't. Not right now. Not right here. Not while Murasakibara was here with him, making love to Kuroko in a way that he could only image was a dream.

But it wasn't a dream, Murasakibara was taking him, bring Kuroko so, so, close to brink of pleasure, looking down at him with his normally lethargic eyes full of passion. Ah…his long purple hair was so beautiful…Kuroko really wanted to reach out and touch it, run his fingers through it in their afterglow.

However, Kuroko always passed out for a couple minutes after sex and Murasakibara had other things in mind for his afterglow. He would never wait for Kuroko to wake up and just cuddle together, warm and safe and comfy in each other's arms.

This time when Kuroko opened his eyes, it was like all the other times. He's naked, cold, and in an empty room. Murasakibara only did a half-assed job cleaning up and hadn't bothered to cover Kuroko with blankets even though it's true he'd only be out for a few minutes.

Checking the clock, it seemed to be about seventeen minutes since he'd last checked the time and Murasakibara usually took ten minutes during sex, including his version of foreplay. Which meant Kuroko had been out for seven minutes.

Sighing and rolling out of bed, Kuroko left the room after getting dressed, finding Murasakibara in the other room, stuffing his mouth with the latest flavor of chips and watching some TV Kuroko had never heard of.

"Ah, Kuro-chin…~ You're up," Murasakibara didn't even look at Kuroko, didn't take the time. And that hurt. Kuroko took a step towards Murasakibara, working up his courage. Something like this…Kuroko wanted to end this kind of fruitless sex-based relationship. He was going to tell Murasakibara the truth, he'd been holding it in too long.

"Actually Atsushi-kun I—"

"Hmm…? Why are you calling me that…~?" Murasakibara finally looked at Kuroko, but the look in his eyes left a chilled feeling inside of Kuroko's heart.

"Eh? But you just said to call you Atsushi-kun…"

"Ah~ That. Sorry Kuro-chin, don't call me that outside of sex okay?"

"Oh…A-alright. You know, Murasakibara-kun, I really lo—"

"Can you leave Kuro-chin? I wanna eat right now and you're bothering me."

"Sorry Murasakibara-kun. I'll leave now," Kuroko shut the door quietly behind him when he left, waiting until he heard the door click shut behind him to cry. He cried silently for a while, hoping no one would come by or notice him. He certainly didn't want Murasakibara to find him like this, right outside his door. He'd probably tell him to stop bothering the neighbores.

Although, another, larger part of Kuroko was hoping Murasakibara would open the door, take one look at Kuroko and ask him what's wrong. And then he'd gently pull Kuroko inside, kiss the top of his head and—

"No…I can't…I really will disturb the neighbores…" That's what Kuroko told himself, stepping away from the door and descending the steps of the second floor. The apartment was a place nobody thought someone from the generation of miracles would be staying. It wasn't run down but it had certainly seen better days.

To Kuroko, though, it looked like just the place Murasakibara would live. Somehow, the first time Kuroko had seen the place when they started having sex, Kuroko hadn't been surprised. He knew what Murasakibara was like and accepted all of him.

Turning away, Kuroko wiped his eyes but the tears kept coming, blurring his eyes. It was hard to see where he was going, but Kuroko knew his way home from this place by heart, he didn't need to see. He had memorized this route because when he was walking here, it led to the person he wanted to be with the moth.

"Actually Atsushi-kun I really love you."

Hadn't Kuroko just been so determined to say those words? He'd worked up all his courage to tell Murasakibara that he didn't want to just have sex anymore, but Murasakibara had broken down that courage so easily. What hurt the most was those words he had used to destroy Kuroko resolve were careless. Murasakibara hadn't even thought about them at all when he said them. He was just a really careless thoughtless person.

And Kuroko was hopelessly in love with him. Hopelessly lost in these feelings he held for him. Not even Kuroko knew why he loved Murasakibara. If someone asked him why he loved him, Kuroko wouldn't be able to answer.

Murasakibara knew nothing about Kuroko's feelings for him. Because Kuroko hasn't told him yet. Each time Kuroko tried, Murasakibara would say something or do something that would cause Kuroko to lose composure and make it impossible for Kuroko to confess.

Sometimes Kuroko thought that he already knew of Kuroko's feelings and that Murasakibara just didn't want to listen. And that kind of thing only deterred Kuroko from telling him. He always thought he would do it the next time. The next time turned into the time after that. And the time after that turned into when the time was right. It was never right and somehow…Kuroko really wanted to say his name right now…

"A-…Atsushi-kun…" Kuroko whispered, and even though he knew there wouldn't be, there was no reply. The quiet the followed was louder than thunder and Kuroko filled it up with Murasakibara's name, repeating it endlessly, it just kept slipping off his tongue. It felt so natural to say his name.

"Hey~ Why d'ya keep saying my name Kuro-chin?" Kuroko gasped, turning around to see Murasakibara, slightly out of breath, not a single snack in sight, just him out there just for Kuroko.

"What do you mean M-Murasakibara-kun?" Kuroko asked, playing innocent. The street lights were dull and Kuroko was hoping he could let it slip past Murasakibara that his eyes were red and swollen from crying.

"And now it's my other name…~"

"I honestly don't know what you're talking about—"

"You're lying!"

"Please don't yell at me! I-I-I…I'm already…at my limit…" Kuroko slid to the ground, collapsing there silently, his eyes glued to the ground so he wouldn't have to look up at Murasakibara.

"Hmm…"

"I'm already…really happy that you came after me. Anymore and I won't be able to hold back," it was true; the smile on Kuroko's face was hidden by the dull light and the soundless tears streaking down his face. What a mess he was.

"Hey~ Kuro-chin, did you know that I'm the one who has to hold back…~? I constantly have to keep myself from holding you too hard…~ Or I'll break you~" Murasakibara crouched down, gripping Kuroko's chin and lifting his face up, a kind of lazy smile on his face when he saw that Kuroko was also smiling.

"I'm not talking about sex Murasakibara-kun."

"I already know exactly what you're talking about Kuro-chin. If I didn't feel the same way, why do you think I'd bother holding back~? You're the last person I want to break…"

Words like those were something Kuroko had waited what felt like an eternity to hear, even if Murasakibara hadn't said them directly, he also loved Kuroko. And it made Kuroko's chest swell with happiness, it felt like something was growing inside of him. But before he could give in to the feeling, there was one more thing he had to say…

"Then why do you always kick me out right after we have sex?"

"Ah," Murasakibara's expression told Kuroko he had completely forgotten about that. Typical. He was so lazy he couldn't even remember why he'd been worried he'd hurt Kuroko and came out here in the first place.

"That's because you always look so yummy after you wake up…~ I just wanna ea~at you up again~ It's really ha~ard not to you know? I might hurt you~ That'd be bad," Murasakibara answered and it was like the most natural thing in the world for him to say. Of course that would be his answer, Kuroko really should have known and somehow he should have known. Kuroko already knew what he was like and accepted all of him after all.

"…You don't have to hold back for me…"

"What?"

"It's nothing Atsushi-kun. I should have told you the truth sooner."

"About what…~?"

"I love you Atsushi-kun."

"Oh that truth…~ Say Kuro-chin, wanna go black to my place…~?"

"Yes please."


A/N - Well...this one-shot is less smutty and less fluffy than the others. Happy...holidays? Even though it's not Thankgiving anymore(because Thanksgiving was yesterday and I meant to post this then), I still wanna give my thanks to everyone who's left a review. I adore all of you and I try to reply to all of them. Even if I do, I read all of them. Thank you all so much, you have no idea how much power you're words can hold and I wouldn't be able to keep writing without you guys.

And in case you haven't noticed, I did extend these one-shots to start including all of the GoM+Kagami. So tell me what pairing you want next?

Happy holidays guys!