The brunette couldn't sleep. She was on her bed tossing and turning. It was late at night and the tought of Tina out there drove her crazy. She jumped out of the bed and went downstairs to find something to distract herself. She tried to read the newspaper. Then she watched some silly programs on tv. In the meantime she picked up a bottle of wine and filled up her glass for three times. Feeling a little numb due to the wine, she finally fell asleep on the couch.
A several minutes later, Tina entered her driveway with the car. She was home after a long and endless day at work. Sighing in relief she he reached the porch and took of her heels to avoid to make noise and wake up her daughter. She led herself in and immediatly noticed her beautiful wife, sleeping on their couch. Just a little after her eyes caught the bottle of wine on the coffe table. It was half empty. The blonde approached her sleeping wife and slowly kissed her on the temple.
God, she smells of wine. How much did she drink? "Baby I'm home, wake up and let's go to bed, okay? This couch is too uncomfortable" she whispered.
Bette rubbed her face and slowly sat up. "Fuck, what time is it?"
"It's... uh... It's 2 a.m."
"What the fuck?" Bette muttered.
"I know, baby. It's late. But the lawyer-" She cutted herself at the thought of who the lawyer really was. Then she kept talking. "But the lawyer had some disruption and he arrived two hours later"
"Yes, fine" Bette said as she put a hand on her forehead. Shit. It ached. And she was kinda upset.
"Baby, did you drink that?"
"Yes. I did. I couldn't sleep. I couldn't calm down our daughter, because she wanted her mama T here with her. I couldn't stay here without doing anything it made me crazy." she sighed as she realized she was raising her voice. "Fuck, I'm sorry."
"Don't be. You have all the rights to do this. I've been there, I remember"
"What are you trying to say?"
"I mean," Tina swallowed "that's not a judgemental. I just want to say that I know how it feels when your wife is at work while you're home and don't know what to do"
Bette looked at Tina and remembered. "I know, you're right. Now I now how you felt. It's hideous"
"It is. And baby I prom-"
Her wife cutted her off. "Don't. Please Tina, don't do promises that you don't know you're going to keep"
Tina was astonished. "What did you just say?"
"Fuck, it came out wrongly." she raised her hands. "That's not what I meant. I was just saying... back in the days I made promises to you that I never managed to keep and now I know how difficult it is for you to do it. Even if you want to. I know sometimes work can be difficult to deal with"
"I will not make a promise then, but I want to assure you that you and angie are my priorities, okay? Don't forget that. And please, don't drown your thoughts and feeling in wine. Please, don't do this. It killed me watching you on the couch with that bottle of wine next to you"
"I know, sorry. I'm really sorry. I should've calm down and took a deep breathe. But the thought of you out there, it just... I don't know why, it drove me crazy. I missed you so much that it killed me. I don't know what happened today. I felt lonely and useless."
"You're never useless. Don't say that. Never!" she cupped her face with tears in the eyes "I know how you've felt. I know and I understand. But please don't ever -ever- feel that way. You're perfect. You're awesome. You're the love of my life and you will never be useless."
Bette just smiled and layed her head on Tina's shoulder. "I love you"
"I love you too, baby" she sighed. "Why don't we go to sleep? I'll take the day off tomorrow. I'll work from home. There's nothing important to do at work, tomorrow. So we can be together, okay? Then like you said, we'll spend the weekend together at the beach with the others and it will be amazing."
"Sounds like a plan" then Bette giggled. "And remember that you have to triple-make it up to me"
"Triple, huh?" Tina raised her eyebrow.
"Yep, triple, since you made me wait for two long nights and today I had to had tree cold showers!" she showed her pouty face.
The beautiful blonde laughed. "Triple will be, then!"
They led to their bedroom and jumped in bed. Both of them laying on their sides. Bette got closer and snuggled Tina from behind and soundly fell asleep in about few minutes. Tina smiled and then sighed thinking about the fact that the next day she would have talk to Bette about the 'mysterious man' she met at the hotel just a few hours before.
The day after Bette woke up early to bring Angie to school. She found Tina still sleeping when she came back home. She was exhausted. Bette loved the sight of her wife, sleeping. Her cheeks a little rosy and her hair messed up. That was so cute and kinda...sexy. Bette shook her head to come back to reality and pulled a hair lock behind Tina's ear. The smiled. A few minutes later she left the room and went downstairs to make breakfast.
Tina was still in bed, she started to stretch and opened her eyes as she nocited the empty spot next to her. Then smiled when she saw Bette entering the room holding a tray in her hands.
"Breakfast in bed" Bette winked.
"Oh, that's amazing. I have to work late too often."
"Don't you dare!" Bette pointed her.
Tina laughed out loud. Then she said whispering "Thank you baby, you're such a wonderful wife"
"I know I am" the brunette said proudly.
"You and the word 'modesty' don't know each other, do you?"
Bette chuckled. She leaned closer and kissed her on the lips. That was such a perfect way to wake up. Except for the fact that soon she was going to say Bette who was the lender and... it would have been a huge mess. Tina knew perfectly how Bette would've reacted and she was scared. But that was the time to tell her. She didn't want to wait. The earlier you do it, the earlier it ends. While Bette was still kissing her wife, Tina pulled out.
"Babe, I need to tell you something"
Oh my God, she's going to kill me. Or maybe she's going to kill -him-. She will kill us both. But I didn't do anything so she'll probably understant. Oh, who am I kidding. This is Bette we're talking about. She will freak out. I know she will...
"ERIC? -That- Fucking Eric?"
I knew it. Tina started to panick and wanted to calm Bette down. But how do you calm Bette down? You CAN'T calm Bette down.
"B, please. Don't freak out."
"Don't freak out? Are you out of your mind? Of course I freak out!"
"But, baby, he-"
Bette cutted her of. "He's going to die"
"Bette!"
"What?!"
"Please, listen to me" she sighed. "There's no need to react that way"
"Oh, there is. Believe me, there is."
With that Bette exited the room, leaving her wife alone in their room. Speechless. What the fuck?
Bette reached the kitchen and resting her elbows on the counter started to fill her head with some memories that belonged to twelve years before.
"It's not my fault. We both fell in love with each other. I love her, she loves me. Deal with it. I didn't want it to end this way. But she's a grown up woman and she can make her own decisions. I'm sorry it means that you're going to suffer, but it's not my fault" a younger Bette said.
"Of course it's your fault! Fuck you, Bette Porter. You and that fucking charm of yours. You stole my woman. She was and she -is- my woman. You're going to pay for this" Eric yelled and slammed his hand against Bette's office desk.
"I didn't stole anything from you. Tina is not a thing that you buy, or stole or anything like that. She's a woman and she doesn't belong to anyone" Bette uttered.
" . ." Eric muttered, tightening his fist. "Sooner or later, I'll come back and I will make her mine, again. Remember. Sooner or later. I will!"
With that he exited the office, slamming the door behind him.
