Okay it took me all day to come up with this. I changed it at least 20 million times. That's why I'm posting so late. Sorry. You know life. When I wasn't writing I was cleaning and I made dinner for my parents and little brother. Most of you won't be reading this till tomorrow and sorry it is late. I will try to update more frequently. I really am not sure where I'm taking this story. I do know the ending. I always come up with the endings first. It's my thing. Here we go. What we all have been waiting for. Chapter 7. June.

June

I spend my time talking to my parents and brother about everything. They are my family. I have never met my parents and I haven't seen my brother in twelve years. Yet I have always known they were there watching and helping me through my darkest times. We spend what seems like a life time talking. In the real world it has probably only been a day. I can feel and hear a lot of what is going around my body in the real world. I can tell my body feels weak. It can barely support me. It might not be able to if it wasn't for the machine and all the drugs they have me on is keeping me alive. I can feel some of the pain but not all of it because of the drugs and where my subconscious is. Once I am awake my body will barely be able to support my conscious.

I can hear Cathy's voice at some points worried in my ears. My parents and brother can't hear or feel what I can. They don't know what I feel and hear. I can tell a lot. I can hear Rose in somewhat of shock. I can tell she is in shock because the sound of her voice. Then it comes to me. Sure I am here with my family, but this is the part of my family that is gone. The only way I can be with them is if I die. I want to be with them, I do. But then I will be one of Cathy's and Rose's gone family members that is just gone. I remember what happened to their family. I can't do that to them no matter how much I want to be with this part of my family. My family back in reality needs me.

Cathy and Rose's father died first. He went to the warzone and didn't come back. It was before Cathy was born. Shortly after Cathy was born. According to record and Rose their mother hung herself in front of them. I think about all of it. This is my family that needs me. I need them. I can't be with the family I lost. Not yet. I want and need to be with this family of mine.

I continue to talk to my mother. During that time I feel a hand squeeze mine and move some hair out of my face. There is an object around one of the fingers. I wonder who it is and what that object is. It feels like a ring. Metal. Then I try to remember someone with a ring. Then I remember when I met Day again yesterday he had on the paper clip ring. He kept it! He did. Does this mean he remember me? I realize that's stupid and hopeful teenage girl in me. Of course he doesn't! Even if he does you don't deserve him! A little voice in my head keeps playing over and over.

I hear another voice familiar but I haven't heard it in a long time. It's N's! Oh no. If she came here she assumed something went wrong. She would be right. But he is in the republic and would just fall into his plan. His trap. She knows he did this but doesn't know what he plans to do with her. She starts to talk to Day and Tess. They all leave at one point. I am worrying myself like crazy right now. I need to warn her, stop him, and save my family. I can't lose anyone else. Death would be the easy way out. People need and are counting on me and don't even know it.

I can tell Day comes back because he starts to talk to me.

"June." He starts and hesitates as if he has no idea how to word what he is about to say.
I remember. I remember you and everything that happened." I get a bad feeling in my gut and he squeezes my hand harder. I can't walk away from this conversation or ignore what he is saying because it is playing through my ears very loud. "I know why you did what you did. I also know it wasn't your fault what happened to my family." I doubt that because I have always believe it was my fault. "I know you would try and stop me from talking and blame yourself. You can't though considering where you are and your situation. You're a fighter June. You can do this. You can survive this. You can come out of this. I need you. I love you."

Those last words hit me hard. I feel like crying. I think I can actually feel tears threatening to spill out. I love him. I always have and I always will. I hurts and it doesn't all at the same time. I love him. Those three words he just said. I love you. Does he really remember? Why does he love me? Part of me is happy my light came back but are those words real? I am second guessing because I don't want to hurt him. Some part of me wished he truly forgot me completely and found another girl and became happy. Started a family and everything. Just forget me and move on. I think part of me believes it would be best. I knew I would spend my life thinking about him never really being able to move on knowing I would fail. I am filled with so many fears right now. I am happy, sad, and scared all at the same time. He is my light in the harsh cruel world known as reality. But I was bad for him. Part of me is happy for this. The other part is silently yelling at him. Why couldn't you just move on!? Find another girl, get married, have kids, and be happy without me?! Why did I have to cause him this pain? A million other things fill my head and I can feel tears roll down my checks in reality.

Sorry so short. Most of it will be from Day considering June's situation. I will try to update soon. I am working hard on a book I'm writing and of course I can't forget reading practically every book I possibly can. I am having writers block on my book so I am trying to move past it. I will try to update really soon. Promise. 1,193 views! Amazing. Never thought it could happen. I am amazed and thank you all for reading.