Skipping Sunday which would be leaving the hotel and going home… nothing exciting, but this one I have been really excited about! I'm not going to be writing full days or sometimes I'll skip whole days from now on, so keep an eye on the dates. Steff x

The song is Cinderella by Tata Young, it's totally suits my Ana down to the T! No copyright infringement intended!

Monday March 25th 2013

I am so nervous as Christian pulls up outside Grey Records. It's a quaint looking place from outside, a grey record disk with GREY huge in red and white and records smaller beneath it in black above the glass doors making up the sign.

"Ready?" Christian asks giving my thigh a squeeze.

"Yeah, let's get this done." I say giving him as confident a smile as I can manage before getting out of the R8, I'm not ready, I'm far from ready I'm so nervous it's unreal.

"So it's a girl called Lila that's written the song, she promises she wrote it with you in mind." Christian says as he takes my hand, I just nod, this could be a disaster and I hope he knows that. "She's nice, a little older than you but she's friendly." I see he's taken with her, it's not often that he talks about employees in such a way and I don't think I like it.

"Good Morning Mr Grey, Mrs Grey." The receptionist is on her feet as soon as we're through the door.

"Miss Young." Christian nods without stopping or introducing me.

He takes me down a back corridor which is all dark and spooky with dark grey walls and lots of doors. He finally comes to a stop and opens the door to one of the recording studios. We're stood on one side which has red walls and a big desk with loads of buttons and headphones and stuff. There are two people in the room, one male and one female.

"Ah Mr and Mrs Grey right on time." The girl says jumping to her feet and swishing her blond hair over her shoulder, she's around my age…

"Ana this is Lila, she wrote the lyrics to your song and this is Tito he worked with Lila to put together the music."

"Yo Mrs G pleasure to meet you." He says shaking my hand with a friendly smile.

"Well I have some paperwork to do upstairs so I'm going to leave you in their capable hands, have fun." He kisses my temple then he's out the door leaving me with the big burly black man and the blond bimbo… holy hell.

"So Mrs G, you wanna hear the music, Lila here will sing it for you to get a taste?" Tito smiles, his teeth dazzling in his dark pink thick lips, gosh he's sorta scary!

"Uh sure and it's Ana, please. I'm a little like a fish out of water so…"

"Don't worry Ana we've got your back." Lila grins before giving Tito a nod. He knocks a couple of buttons and an upbeat track begins to play.

Lila rocks her shoulders and holds a piece of paper in her hand, bobbing her head from side to side to the music, she's so comfortable here that's obvious as her blond hair swings from side to side with her bobbing.

"When I was just a little girl, my mama used to tuck me into bed and she read me a story…" She's a pretty good singer, what's Christian need me when he has Lila, she's better than me that's for sure.

I find myself smiling and bobbing along to Lila's singing and the song. I like it, I do, it's much better than the love songs I had in my head, this is definitely not a love song. If I've caught the gist of it, it's about wanting to be independent and the only man for me would be one who treats me as an equal… not Christian then even if he is better than ever he still sometimes forgets I'm his wife and not his submissive and after Saturday I wouldn't be surprised if he forgot more often than not even though my insides clench deliciously just at the memory.

"So what do you think Mrs G?" Tito asks cutting the track off and bringing my thoughts away from pussy spanking.

"It's brilliant, Lila you're amazing." I say to the blond with a smile.

"Pft I don't want to sing, just write songs and music." She says with a shrug. "Now ready to learn this?"

"Uh… ok." I say not knowing what to do, I really am a fish out of water here. I mean come on what am I supposed to do? I am not a singer!

If we can get the chorus learned Lila and lay it today we can get a demo up on the web." Tito says swinging in his black leather chair, his hands palms together, he's a good looking man, probably in his early thirties, cleanly shaven with dreadlocks in his black hair.

"Ok, chorus, come on." She pulls me through a glass door that portioned off the two rooms. "Here." She passes me some head phones. "The chorus is easy, quite monotonous really until we add the backing, with you being a newbie Tito wants the track laid in pieces and then get you to learn it properly by listening to it over and over."

"Listen to myself?" I ask awkwardly, Lila smiles and nods while I cringe.

"Now put these on." She says signalling to the headphones while she picks up a set of her own. "I'm going to sing into this, you'll be able to hear me clearly, try and pick it up. Tito put the chorus on loop for me."

"Sure think Lila." Tito's voice reaches my ears and I realise that he'll be able to hear me sing too.

The track comes on in a place that's clearly not the beginning and I watch as Lila's bright red nail taps her head phones while she holds the lyrics in the other hand, I realise she's counting herself in when she begins to sing.

"I don't wanna be like Cinderella, sitting in a dark old dusty cellar, waiting for somebody, to come and set me free. I don't wanna be like snow white waiting, for a handsome prince to come and save me on a horse of white, unless we're riding side by side. Don't wanna depend on no one else, I'd rather rescue myself." Lila's voice sings beautifully into my ear, her voice doesn't suit the music in a strange way but it's still pretty. "Simple right?" She asks and I smile and nod, it really is quite a simple melody.

She goes again and I try and pick it up, bobbing my head to the music some as I listen intently hoping to pick some of the tune up. By the time we're on the forth loop I hum along and Lila nods encouragingly.

"Try singing this time." She says as we go in for time number five. My stomach drops into my shoes as I watch her count me in and thrust the lyrics under my nose.

"I don't wanna be like a Cinderella, sitting in a dark old dusty cellar, waiting for somebody, to come and set me free. What are these lines?" I interrupt the song because I can't understand the lyrics because of double slashes in certain places.

"One line means small breath, two lines means a bigger one. Like commas and full stops." Leila explains calmly giving me a smile, not minding that I've interrupted her.

I lose count of how many times we've gone over the same bit by the time I'm completely comfortable with the chorus and it isn't until I look up from the lyrics to see Christian standing there that I lose my nerve.

"You're doing well Ana." Christian speaks into the mic Tito has been using to communicate to us, I give him an awkward smile and he gives me a thumbs up, this is really strange but I'm cool, I'll go with it.

"Yo Mrs G, you cool for Lila to step out and for us to try lay down first ed of the chorus?" Tito asks and I look at Lila who nods encouragingly. I shrug, smile and nod straight after each other and Lila gives my arm a squeeze before removing her head phones and stepping out of the booth leaving me on my own.

It's so weird. I'm no singer yet here I am in a recording studio laying down my song… my song… that's unreal. I never ever imagined myself here.

I keep my eyes on Tito who counts me in with nods of his head and gives me encouraging smiles.

"I don't wanna be like Cinderella, sitting in a dark old dusty cellar, waiting for somebody, to come and set me free. I don't wanna be like Snow White waiting, for a handsome prince to come and save me, on a horse of white, unless we're riding side by side, don't wanna depend on no one else, I'd rather rescue myself." I sing my eyes the entire time on Tito so I won't lose my nerve.

He dims the music out after I've sang and I take my headphones off to see Lila and Christian both clapping.

"Come listen Mrs G." Tito's voice scares me as it fills the booth making me jump.

I hurry out, nervous to hear this played back. Christian guides me to the black couch that Lila was sitting on when we came in while Tito knocks a few buttons on his sound desk (as I heard Lila refer to it) then the music comes on, followed by my voice.

I listen with a smile, bobbing my head naturally as I listen. I can't believe it's me!

"What did you do to it?" I ask in shock with a big smile.

"What do you mean?" Tito asks looking unsure.

"To make it sound like that, that wasn't me singing I can't sing." I say still smiling, I don't care about editing my voice anymore, this is actually quite fun.

"Mrs G, I ain't done anything to it yet."

"You're lying."

"Nope." He pops his p. "We'll have to level it out the voice to the track and stuff and add the backing which will be very low in comparison to your voice. I don't see much being done to this Mrs G, you can sing pop no problem." I don't believe him but shrug and smile anyway, I like it, that's my song.

"Now I'm taking my wife to lunch while you two plan on how you're going to teach Ana the rest of this song, sooner we get it out there the better for Grey Records." Christian says helping me to my feet though there's no need.

"Catch you later." Both Tito and Lila say and I wave before taking Christian's hand and following him out.

Christian takes me to Café Campagne just around the corner from the studio. I am on some sort of high from singing and hearing it back, I love how it sounds even if I don't believe Tito when he says he didn't do anything to the track, I mean it was good and I can't sing!

The café is a quaint little place but not the type of café I'd pop in for a cup of tea and a bagel either. Christian talks briefly with someone and then suddenly we're whisked off to a private dining room with a view of Elliott Bay and the produce stands of Pike Market.

Christian orders which I'm thankful for, I wouldn't know what to get without taking the time to study the menu and in all honesty I just want to get back in the studio.

"So why the privacy?" I ask sipping at my water casually as I eye my husband suspiciously.

"We'll talk once we've been served." He says and that does nothing to ease the nerves I've suddenly gotten.

I sit and hum my song making Christian smile a little and I can't help beginning to sing it and pulling faces towards him making him snort, I love it when he lets loose like this and it makes me smile, I'm guessing whatever we have to talk about isn't that important.

I shut up quickly when the wine and food comes making Christian laugh more. I don't know why but I can't help but think of singing live… I don't think I'll ever be able to and that's not good for someone about to release a song!

"So we need to talk." Christian says as we both tuck into our stake and fries.

"Ok, what about?" I ask and he smiles his I've got a secret smile.

"Saturday."

"TPE." I say my mouth dry as I glance around the room.

"Don't worry we won't be disturbed until we're done." He says with a smile. "No not exactly more about the Pussy spanking."

How I don't choke I don't know but I know my eyes open wide at his simple utterance, goodness we're in public!

"Don't look at me like that Ana I'm not the one who was floating on cloud nine after a brutal spanking with a paddle whip." He says making me snort.

"Ok, spill what's this about Christian?"

"Well you obviously enjoyed it."

"Very much." I agree with a smirk, how could I not? It was better than anything we've ever done.

"Well I want to explore that with you. It's obviously your kink Ana and I loved how much you loved it." He says and I smile, he knows when to lay it on doesn't he?

"Ok?" I say in a questioning manner.

"I've bought a new contraption for the playroom, it will be put up today. I was hoping you'd trust me enough to take you there and explore a little with you." He says quietly.

"Expand what you mean by explore Christian." I reply in an almost threatening tone, I don't know why but I think I feel threatened.

"It would involve … your hard limits." He says and I freeze, their hard limits for a reason… "I won't do anything without your consent but considering how much you enjoyed what I did on Saturday I can see you enjoying this, it's just an experiment, I'd check in with you every few minutes and you can yellow or red at any point and I'd undo it quickly."

"Which hard limits?" I ask not agreeing to anything without knowing for sure what I'm getting myself into.

"Genital clamps." He sees my face fall. "Soft adjustable ones." He says quickly as I swallow hard and reach for my wine. "And should that work then maybe a whip or a cane but not the first time with clamps. I'd be slow and walk you through it all, get you into a mild subspace before we begin anything…"

"And we'll take it slow?" I'm fucking considering this, what the hell?

"Yes, absolutely Ana and if it's not for you then I won't push you to do it again, but I want to try and explore this safely and slowly with you." He says gently and I nod.

"Ok, I'll try." I say quietly but not because he wants it but because I do. I also need to see Sandra.

"Before New York?"

"Ok." I agree at once, New York's on Friday.

"How about Thursday before we fly out?" He suggests and I smile and nod, that's ok with me.