Omg what is this? An update? They still exist? Yes I'm still updating. I'm so sorry these keep taking so long, I've become the authors I hate. Any ways, here we are with the new chapter.

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Ryouma became a more active part in Izumi's therapy. He joined Izumi when he was doing his aquatics therapy. He would rub the blonde's legs when they got home. Every night, he helped his lover with some small exercises to increase strength in his legs. Three times a day Ryouma would hold Izumi up vertical as the blonde would stand in one spot to stretch out his legs. While Izumi was sore, and while he complained, Ryouma just sat beside him and listened.

The couple's time was split between each of their places. Ryouma spent as much time in the Sena home as Izumi spent time in Ryouma's apartment. Some of Izumi's clothes were at Ryouma's and the same with Ryouma's being at Izumi's. Most days they were at Ryouma's. It was one such day where the two were on the couch watching tv.

"Ry, you know you don't have to quit acting just because of me right?" Izumi asked. The blonde having noticed that his older lover never worked since the accident. He would give Izumi his space when he needed it, but other than that the black haired man was always with him. Ryouma looked at Izumi.

"I know. I just don't want to. You need me more than the industry. There are more actors to fill roles they want me for. If its money you're worried about, you and I both know we have money. I can afford to not work for some time." the older one told him.

"Okay. What happened with the show we were doing?" Izumi asked out of curiosity.

"Well, the episode we were doing when you fell was the last for the season. The series was aired and now we are waiting to hear if there will be a second season. If we are confirmed another season, I'm not sure what will happen. But please don't worry about it, focus on getting well. Focus on getting those legs of your's strong enough to walk. Its been almost nine months since the accident. Tomorrow we go to see if you're ready for crutches and support braces." Ryouma said before he kissed his boyfriend's head.

"Do you think I'm ready?" the blonde asked.

"I do. You've been doing so well with you're aquatic therapy and your exercises. You can stand up with my help and your legs don't shake. Yes they tremble but that's normal. The trembling will stop once you get use to using your legs and your legs gain muscle mass." the other man said.

Izumi smiled up at him. He pulled Ryouma down and kissed him. The two pulled away, smiling like fools. Ryouma got up and put on some anime for the two to watch. Since Izumi came home, they both compromised on some things. One being shows they watched together. Izumi agreed to watch shows that Ryouma liked, while Ryouma agreed to watch animes that Izumi liked. It was a true sight to behold, the handsome Ryouma Ichijou watching magical girl animes.

The next day couldn't come fast enough, but eventually it was time for Izumi's appointment. Ryouma and Rei were with him, Shougo being away on tour. The blonde was in the physical therapy room getting ready to walk along the bars. The physical therapist, Doctor Young, came into the room after a couple minutes. She looked at Izumi.

"You ready to do this Izumi?" The blonde nodded.

"As ready as I'll ever be. I mean, I gotta try this at some time. I can't wallow in misery forever. I have to try. I admit I'm scared. What if I can't do it? What if I fall? But I owe it to Ryouma, Rei and Shougo to at least try."

Doctor Young stood at one end of the bars while Izumi stood at the other end. He held onto the bars and made his way to the other side. He was noticably faster than the last time he did the bars. His legs didn't shake much as all. Within five minutes, he was at the other end. The other clapped.

"Good Izumi. Now I want to see how far you can go without holding onto the bars. Think you can try that?" Young asked. Izumi nodded.

He turned himself around and waited until the woman went to the other end of the bars. He took a couple of deep breaths before slowly lifting his hands off the bars. His legs shook noticably as they now had to bare all of the blonde's weight. Izumi slowly put one foot in front of the other and walked without assistance. He made it half way before his knees gave out. Ryouma went over and helped him up, then hugged him.

"You did so well Zumi. I'm so proud of you." Izumi smiled and hugged him back. Doctor Young came over to them. She took a look at Izumi's legs, feeling them up.

"You're progress is remarkable. I believe you are ready for the next step. The support braces will provide stability for your legs as you get use to using them again. I did already pick out a pair for you." She goes over and picks up two braces from the corner of the room. She had Ryouma move Izumi to the chairs in the room. She showed them how to put them on and take them off.

"The joints at the knees and ankles are moveable and will help to bring the joints into positions as you move. The straps are adjustable. Now I want you to keep doing your exercises. Increase the weight of the ankle weights by five pounds when it starts to get easy. I want to see you back here in six weeks to see how you're progress is." The woman said. Ryouma moved in front of his smaller lover and helped him stand up. He moved his hands away, while still leaving them out for Izumi to grab, while they all watched Izumi get his balance.

"It feels weird. Its kinda bulky but if it helps. It feels like my legs are being forced into positions." Izumi said. He takes a step forward, hands out ready to grab Ryouma if he needed to. He stumbles quite a bit, walking awkwardly. Soon he was walking laps around the room slowly on his own. He smiled happily. He looked up at Rei, who had his phone out recording. Rei smiled back.

"You're going to send that to Shougo aren't you?"

"Of course. He'd want to see you walking for the first time." Rei responded. The recording was stopped, and the video sent. The three left the building and were out for lunch. They just put their order in when Izumi got a call. He chuckled and answered his cell.

"Hi Shougo." Izumi said.

"I saw the video. Your walking! I can't believe I missed it. You have no idea how proud I am of you! How are you feeling?" Shougo said quickly.

"I'm feeling okay. My legs are sore but the physiotherapist told us it's due to me not using them. The braces feel weird. They force my legs and feet into positions they're not use to. But as long as they help, I can't complain. Watch I'll be complaining at night when my legs are sore and aching." Izumi chuckled.

"I know when I'm sore after a show, I use a muscle relaxing cream with a warming effect. One of the others uses the same thing only its got warming and cooling. The warming will relax the muscles while the cooling will help sooth the muscles. Its something to think about." The older blonde suggested.

"I'll bring it up with Ryouma and Rei. How are you?" Izumi asked his brother politely.

"I'm good. The tour has been going well. We should be done within the next couple months. It'll depend on how things go. Any ways, what else did Doctor Young say?"

"She wants me to come back in six weeks to check my progress. Rei says the next step would be crutches. Oh hey Shu, I gotta go. Our food is here. Call me later." Izumi hung up and the three ate their meal. After they ate and paid for their meal, Rei left them. Ryouma and Izumi went around and slowly made their way to a near by mall. They spent the afternoon in the mall before Ryouma called for a car to take them home.

That evening, Ryouma ordered some pizza and Izumi put on a movie to watch. Once the pizza arrived and was paid for, the two settled down. Izumi leaned into his boyfriend as they watched the movie. Half way through the movie, the pizza gone and they got something to drink. Izumi takes the time to take look up at the dark haired man's face. He watched as the lights danced acrossed his face. He frowned a little and looks away. Ryouma looked at him.

"You okay Zumi?"

"Mhm." the blonde said, still not looking at the older man.

"Izumi, something is bothering you." Ryouma said. He paused the movie and moved so he was facing the smaller man. Izumi refused to talk. He looked down at his lap.

"Its just... How are you still with me? Ever since the accident, you've focussed all your attention on me and my recovery. You've bought so many things to help with my therapy as well as building my legs up. I know you have jobs lined up. I know you won't take them and its all because of me. I know acting makes you happy, you love doing what you do. Yet, here I am holding you back. I have been nothing but a burden to you. I've held you back for so at least half a year. You could have gotten so much done, but you stay here and waste your time on me. Izumi sadly said.

"I know you try and shelter me from the media, you and Rei, but I still hear what people say about me. They say you can do better than me, that you deserve better than some crippled kid. And they're right. I'm no good for you. I'm a waste of your time, space, and money. I'm a problem and a burden. You deserve a beautiful woman. A lovely lady who you can relate to, who you won't be ashamed of." Ryouma had heard enough. He placed a hand over the shorter man's mouth. After a minute he removed his hand and placed both his hands over both of Izumi's.

"Izumi, I know I've told you this, but I will tell you again. I. Love. You. You will never be a waste of my time, space or money. You aren't a burden to me. I love you, flaws and weaknesses and all. I spend my money on you because I love you and I believe you deserve to be spoiled. Being the child of celebrities isn't easy. I know they don't really show you any affection and are demanding you do things that you don't want to do. Even now, I can't recall your parents worrying about you from the accident. I don't think they even know what all you have had to go through. I also like buying things for you. It makes me feel like 'hey I have someone so significant to me in my life.'

"I know I haven't been working, but you know what? I don't care. Since the day we first met as children on the first wedding commercial, I wanted to be with you. As I grew older, all I wanted was to be with you, to see you again. Now here we are. Sure I'm not doing anything in the entertainment industry, but you are so much more important. If you want, I can do some local jobs. I know I can afford o not work for years. I just to be available in case you need me.

"I especially know how hard it, but I need you to ignore the media. I don't care what they say. I know I don't need a woman by my side. I don't believe I could love anyone, even a beautiful woman, as much as I love you. I don't care that you're not a woman. I don't care that you are not what society wants you to be. How could I find a woman I can relate to, when the one person I relate to so much is right in front of me? I love you for you. I love your tiny body, your one of a kind eyes, your personality. You do what you do with such passion, it makes me want to be better. You follow your dreams even if your family thinks otherwise. Why would I ever be ashamed of you?

"Right now, the most important thing to me is simply your happiness. As long as you're happy, I don't need a thing. If you are happy, I"m happy. If you have anything on your mind, I would like for you to talk to me. I anything makes you unhappy, I hope you would tell me so I can make it right." Ryouma said. Izumi remained silent until he flipped his hands, holding the other's hand.

"I hate acting. I hate being in show business. I want to be a mangaka. Yet, everyone would tell me my dream was stupid. My parents and Rei expect me to do what they want, that I have to be in show business. I bet you right now, Rei is finding rolls I can do. I am so tired Ryouma. It is almost like it isn't my life any more. I want to do something that makes me happy. Sure I admit, I may not ever be a mangaka. I can't draw very well, but I am always trying to get better. Yet, I still want to try. I gave into what my parents and Rei wanted. I tried acting, but I'm not happy. I want to do something that makes me happy." Izumi admitted. Ryouma thought for a moment.

"Say your dream down't work out. What do you plan to do? I know you don't want to, but maybe you should continue acting until you have a few plans. It wouldn't be good for you if you just quit and not have a back up plan. You and I both know sometimes in life people have to do jobs that we don't like."

Izumi thought about it for some time. He nodded, agreeing with what the other said. Izumi's eyes started to water and soon he began to cry. He lunged into Ryouma, clung to his shirt and let all the negative emotion go. Ryouma held his blonde boyfriend close, doing his best to calm him. He rubbed soothing circles across Izumi's shoulders and hummed a random tune. It took quite some time for Izumi to calm down. Izumi laid against Ryouma's chest, physically, mentally and emotionally exhausted.

Ryouma picked up Izumi and carried him to the washroom. Setting the blonde on the counter, leaning against the wall, he went and got a bath going. While the tub filled, Ryouma undressed Izumi then himself. Shutting off the water, Ryouma carried Izumi and got in the tub. He leaned the exhausted young adult against him. As the two relaxed in the tub, Ryouma began to run his fingers through the soft, silky hair of his lover.

When the water started to cool, Ryouma took them out of the tub. He wrapped a towel around his waist, then dried off Izumi. Picking up the sleeping blonde, he carried him to the bedroom. Ryouma set Izumi on the bed, got him dressed, then got dressed himself. Grabbing a tube of muscle cream, he went back to the bed. He rolled up Izumi's pant legs then began messaging the cream into his calves. Once the cream was thoroughly rubbed in, Ryouma quickly washed his hands. He went around the apartment, shutting down for the night before returning to his room. He got into his bed beside Izumi and covered to the two with his blanket. He held Izumi close.

"I promise you, I'll do everything I can to make you happy. You deserve that."


Well there we go. Chapter 7 done. So we got a bit of Izumi's insecurities and fears. You think I should have more of Izumi's fears and anxieties or should I go on a different plot line? Let me know what you think.

I can't say I'm happy with the ending. It feels rushed to me. I'm gonna seriously try to update more. Anyways, leave a review (if you want. I don't do any of that I want x amount of reviews or no chapter bs), feel free to give me ideas.

Niris Nox signing off :3