~ * they say that silence is gold * ~
Her eyelids flickered opening, adjusting to the light of the RV. Her chest still hurt, her heart threatening to burst out of her chest, but at least she could breathe. Tears were still rolling down her cheeks. Eventually, the final tears dried, and her breathing evened out, until she could open her eyes properly, to see Beck's concern staring her in the face.
"A...are you okay?"
"I think so," she stuttered, tucking a few strands of dampened hair behind her ear. "I need to go for a walk."
"No."
She blinked at him, taken aback at his change in tone.
"No?"
"No. No, you're not going anywhere until you tell me what the hell is going on."
"I...I can't," she said, her body starting to shake.
"Then we're going to be in here for a while, aren't we?" Noticing her shivering, he grabbed a plaid shirt from the bed, wrapping it around her bony shoulders. "It's getting cold, don't you think?"
"Y..yes. It's cold."
They sat in silence; it was neither comfortable nor awkward. It was just...silent.
"So, Jade," he said, clearing his throat. Now it was awkward. "What's the deal?"
"Whatever you're trying to do, ju-"
"What I'm trying to do is get my girlfriend back."
"What? What do you mean? You've got me."
"No, no I don't. You know I don't. I know I don't. Even my mom knows I don't."
"Your mom? You told your mom?"
"Of course not. Don't you think she'd realise you were leaving every night, don't you think she'd hear the door closing?"
"Wel...I...I'll try and make less noise next time."
"Next time?" he scoffed. "You're seriously going to do it again?"
"I'm not even going to answer that."
"Why are you being like this?"
"Like what, Beck?"
"Like a...a...like you aren't even going to listen to a word I say. I can tell; you've already stopped listening."
"And why might that be?"
"Oh, I don't know, because you think you have it all figured out. You think you can just piss off and I won't give a damn. Well, I'm sorry, Jade, but I do give a damn."
"It's nothing like that. You have no idea what's going on right now."
"Oh, really? Then tell me."
She looked at him, trying to disguise the feeling of being a rabbit caught in headlights.
"Exactly, Jade. You know, I thought we weren't going to have secrets anymore, not after last time."
"Don't go there," she seethed, through gritted teeth, feeling the blood bubbling under the skin of her cheeks.
"I am going to go there, because I have nowhere else to go! Because you...you're just being ridiculous."
"I'm ridiculous?"
"Yeah. Yeah, you are."
"I am so sorry that the state of my head is ridiculous to you. I apologise if you think this is all a joke, or whatever. But it's not, and I'm pretty damn sure I'm not laughing." She stood up from the floor, walking over to the couch. "I'm sleeping here tonight." Then she clicked the lights off, and the RV was consumed by darkness.
~ * they say that silence is gold but i think that's a lie * ~
*author's note*
ugh okay so i have a deep hatred for this chapter but i haven't published anything since october soooo...suck it up. i hope you don't find it too shitty, or at least have the patience to keep reading while i figure out how to write something good.
on a non-fanfiction related note, i just made a liz gillies editing page thing on instagram where i post sometimes (man...i really suck at posting things regularly) so if you want to follow, it's lizgilliesedits :))
R&R if ya want; i always love reading reviews ;)
Egan x
