AN:
Hi again sorry for late updates, i have had three days in aa row with test in school, so i have been out of mind and so tired! but i hope to update a couple of more chapters. I 'm actually hoping for one or two the very least.
iRock421: i'm glad that you liked the softer side of sakura, that was revealed. It was actually more hard to do then i imagined, but then it just came flowing out of my head! So here there is actually some more hints for you to dig into and find out who she is! if you find out let me know! i'm glad to know that i can create cliffhangers, i'm really bad at creating cliffhangers!

Originally this chapter wasn't written for this story, but I wanted to try it out and it would be a change compared to the rest of it.

and to anyone else out there readinglet me know what you think, what you think i could do better and let me hear your thoughts

I hope you enjoy reading this!

Chapter 6 - The Ashes


I stood in the dark hallway. I had just entered. I had only inhaled the air. Yet he had recognized me. I didn't need to say anything, do anything or even think anything. I had only taken a breath.

The things he didn't say do or think, just that look. That colour in his eyes. That was all he had to do, they told thousands lies. I didn't need the truth, these lies were comfortable.

All the questions would bottle up inside of me, until I would explode and give him the 3. Degree. Then he would look at me, with those undeniably calm eyes, then he would lie to me.

No, not lies, he told me of an alternate, vibrant and more colourful world.

We opened doors, which otherwise I never would have seen. We would walk on pavements which only existed for us.

And all these things we would do from the same dark room…

Day after day, week after week, that was what could become of it. The first time he looked at me, the first time he kissed me and the first time touched me.

By god I would wish I had died the first time he touched me. I was of no significance. I was a grey and rational being. Sometimes I was lead to believe, that he had targeted me.

It wasn't any coincidence that I met him, that he kissed me and had eventually touched and trembled, the very core of my being. Even when he the most wanted to destroy my very core, he couldn't, he wouldn't allow himself.

I wouldn't be the same, if he did. Nothing would be the same…

Sakura stopped walking for the first time, and looked at Lee. He was just walking behind her, he absorbed every movement she made, and any sound that made their way over her lips. She sat down on a fallen trunk and vanished into her thoughts; he leaned up against a tree and lighted a cigarette. He observed her; she had never behaved like this before.

When my eyes were open, I wished to God that he would have struck me dead! For all I had seen I wish I never had, but when my eyes were closed, and the darkness crept into my mind…

I loved every moment; I spent with him, every moment in that cold and dark room of ours. I remember the first time I found him in my apartment. I dumbfounded asked him, that I didn't recall giving him a key.

Then he would look at me, how I condemned that look in his eyes, for that look had made me do many things which I am not proud of, things I wouldn't want anyone to know.

For I feared the look in peoples' eye's that I wasn't good enough or he was dangerous. But it wasn't that, I had been awakened in ways they couldn't imagine. That look in their eyes, it was fear.

Fear for this new freedom I had obtained. For I was no longer a dull creature of grey, no I wasn't light or dark. I didn't need these colours. Yet they pretended to fear the darkness that grew in my mind, whose roots went deep in my mind and into my soul…

They envied the darkness in me, they wanted what they thought was happiness.

But he had come to me…

He had lead me away from the light, and I realised that I didn't need it. I was blind before, but in the darkness I found myself…

In the shelter of night I find myself, for I discovered that I was a creature of light and dark.

Her thoughts stopped while she looked at Lee. He hadn't said a word since they started to walk; he sat silently listening to her. He didn't look at her, he didn't even petty a glance in her direction. So she got up again, created a distance and turned her back to him and continued to walk. She walked away in her own thoughts, about what seemed to have happened ages ago.

I knew the moment I saw him, he would be the one to take my hand and show me the night. He was a creature of darkness; and it was his eyes I feared the most…

He saw me; he saw who I was…

She suddenly stopped, she hadn't intended to stop but she did. Her memories had faded into the wind and travelled with it, she felt her throat contracting.

One day I walked in and looked to the dark corner. It was much colder and darker then it used to be. His eyes were gone. There were no eyes of comfort and there was no warmth just coldness…

Then I realized he was gone, but there was something else. I didn't want to see it, so I fled, I fled for my life and I never looked back. But I had seen it was cold and callous eyes.

Sakura stopped and fought something she felt stir inside of her

She stood by the stony shore overlooking the lake. She had been standing there awhile; she had soil on her hands and under her nails. The harsh wind and waves clashed violently with the rocks and reached new heights. Sakura felt the cold wind run through her hair, and felt at once tranquillity. Her thoughts left her mind and ran with the wind, they left her behind, her emotions had left her.

She ended her memories. For the first time Lee looked at her, she tried to read his eyes but they didn't speak clearly. Instead he walked towards her and took her into his arms. She stood quietly not knowing what to do. The waves met the rocks once again, and reached elevated heights, the harsh wind drove them against the cliffs. So she chose not to do anything at all. He had gotten all the answered he had seeked; he didn't need more.

He wanted more…

"Let's go back" he whispered into her ear, as her hair stroked his face. She nodded silently, and tore a piece of paper up in her hands. The wind suddenly stopped and turned, her hair was removed from his face. She turned her back to him in his embrace, while the harsh wind blew the water away from the coast. She walked away from Lee and onto the wet rocks, as the harsh wind blew on her back. She opened her palm and watched the paper pieces blow out from her palms.

The wind quietly slowed down, it didn't fight the water. It fell to silence of its own will. Sakura stood on the rocks, and felt the cold dark water return to the stones, she felt the water run in between her toes. She slowly turned around and looked at Lee; he stood silently, with his one hand buried in his pocket.

The skies cried, roared, and they blazed. Suddenly the dark clouds assembled and opened, the heavy rain poured down on Sakura and Lee, as they gazed at each other from the distance. Sakura's hair quickly clanged to her face and her body. Her clothes were wet in a matter of minutes; she looked up at Lee and saw something different. His hair had gotten a different colour from its usual silver, it was darker now.

Sakura slowly started to walk towards him; Lee looked down at her feet and saw that they had become clean; the soil had been washed off. While he looked at her come walking towards him, he noticed she had her hand clutched around something. All he could see was a golden chain entangled in her fingers and hanging from her hand. The soil from her hands ran along the chain and fell to the ground, her hands had become clean once again, but some dirt remained underneath her nails.

She walked up to him and opened her palm, from which the chain had hung. He looked at her and then on her palm and saw a locket. He acted like he wasn't interested enough to look at it, but he watched it drown in the water that gathered in her palm. He didn't need to pick it up and let it run in between his fingers. He knew what it was…

He turned his back to her and walked back to the black car. She saw his back walk away from her; she turned around and looked back at the big tree and lake one last time.

When she reached the car, he was already sitting in it, waiting for her. She looked at him and placed the locket on the dashboard.

The landscaped flew by them and became distorted colours of vibrant greens, cold blues, half-hearted browns, devious cold purples and hot yellows and oranges…