AN: English is not my first language

I don't own anything


I stood there with my mouth slightly open, listening how my heart started to beat faster because these women. I didn't know what to say to them, I was lost in their eyes. It was like they were looking my soul, I felt so exposed, I wasn't used to that feeling, I felt uncomfortable but not scared. And that is what scares me the most, I don't know them, but they don't repulse me. I needed to get away from them, I just want peace but at the same time i just wanted to be near them. I was officially going crazy.

As i looked them, i noticed again their red eyes, never in my life did i hear that someone has red eyes, yet these women did, same as Heidi. But Heidis eyes did not have the same effect as theirs, i could look at them for hours. Why do they have red eyes and why are they on my doorstep. I didn't do anything to them, not that i know so why are they looking for me. Heidi said that they want to have breakfast but why with me, i was nothing special, everybody wants something in secret, everybody has some hidden motive.

So i just stood there lost in my thoughts, when Sulpicia made a small step towards me with grin on her face. Even if that action didn't provoke sense of fear in me as it would if that did any other person, i took a step back. Doing that for a long time did that to me, it become a reflex. With a step back i pulled the door closer to me, leaving a small gap open. That action wiped out the smile from their faces. Their eyes filed with different emotion that i couldn't recognize, but it looked like sadness.

"Bella" said Didyme after long silence, it sounded like whispered prayer, for what at that time i didn't know. Although they brought me different emotions that weren't bad at all, i didn't want that, I wanted peace and to get better.

" Why are you here?" i asked with cold voice, trying to sound sure, but i knew that it didn't sound like that. I needed to get my guard up.

" We came to take you to the breakfast, as Heidi told you before you sent her away" said Athenodora, i could hear in her voice that she didn't like that i sent Heidi away, she was annoyed that she needed to come all this way, but i knew that she wasn't annoyed with me.

"why?" i asked before i could think, i really wanted to know why are they here, what could they possibly want with me.

" We enjoy your company and we want to get to know you better" said Sulpicia but it sounded so diplomatic that i knew that there was more to it. I don't think she lied, she wants to know me more but there is something more to that.

" That doesn't answer my question, sorry that i bothered you yesterday it wasn't my attention, i got lost in your castle and i'm sorry for that. And also im thankful for you hospitality but.." i stopped there i wanted to tell them that i don't want anything more with them, but i couldn't force myself to say that, they looked so sad when they heard what i was saying, assuming they knew what was coming next. So i stopped, i wanted to erase everything that wasn't happiness from their eyes, their beautiful red eyes.

" Bella, we just wanted to spend some time with you." said Didyme with smooth tone, like she wanted to assure me that that was the case.

I sighed as i heard that, my guts telling me that that wasn't all they wanted. So i just stood there, not knowing what to say next, because if i asked them why one more time and not receive the answer the real answer i would go mad and i didn't want that. i want peaceful day.

" We see that this will not go as planned" said Sulpicia with disappointed voice, which made no sense to me " can we at least enter and spend a little time with you" now that sounded little more like a request. Athenodora had determined face, like she would enter eve if i told them no.

I sighed not knowing what to do, should i let them enter or not. What do i have to lose if i let them pass, but i could feel my anxiety starting to appear at the thought of strangers near me, at my home. Somehow i knew that they would not hurt me, at least not intentionally.

They watched me curiously while i was having inner struggle, and it also seemed like they were having difficult time accepting that they could be rejected.

" Ok you can come in if you want" i said to them, i mean they know where i live its not like i could run or hide, also i didn't want to do that to them " i don't see a why you would want that but ok, you can enter". I didn't look at them, i left the door opened, turned around and went inside. I heard the footsteps behind me so i knew that they were here.

I went to the living room and sat down on the couch, they have done the same only Sulpicia was too close to me so i moved a little, even though a part of me didn't want to do that. They looked to like they were waiting for me to say something, afraid that if they do something wrong i would kick them out.

"Soo.." i started to say but i stopped because i didn't know what to say to them, i really didn't.

"Bella" said Didyme " i know this must be really weird to you, but we really just want to get to know you and be there for you, for whatever do you need."

" Yeah you said that already, but i don't get why you don't even know me, strangers don't do that for you not expecting anything in return. So what do you want from me? " i said upset and my voice have gotten louder at the end. Didyme started to speak but i stopped her " No, i know that there is something else not just getting to know me.." i that moment i decided to give them a chance, maybe they would help me, i promised to myself that i would try to get better ".. but if you won't tell me now, maybe you will tell me later".

When they heard word later their faces lit up, so they were watching me with smiles on their faces when Athenodora asked me if i have eaten already. When i said no they offered to make me something, which i have not expected. " No, thanks i am not that hungry, i will eat later. Do you want something to drink?" i asked them.

"No Bella, but thank you for offering" said Didyme " we wanted to get to know, well all of you, but for starters tell us something about yourself."

" Well my name is Bella Swan, Im 19... i come from America as you can hear, i finished high school but then " i took deep breath to calm down sensing that anxiety was starting to appear, i started to nervously play with my fingers to calm down " well lets just say life got in the way".

They were looking me with so much sadness in their eyes as well as a lot of curiosity, i can see that they noticed my behavior, that something was affecting me, then Sulpicia asked in a whisper like she didn't want to scare me " Why did you come to Italy ?"

To escape, i thought, but i didn't said that. I didn't know what to say at all, i started to feel tears in my eyes. They looked me so desperate not knowing what to do with me, as tear started to fall Athenodora started to approach me, slowly she put hand around me and tried to pull me in a hug.

But i couldn't bear the thought of being in a hug, of someone touching me, even if her touch didn't feel repulsing at all, so i started to go in a panic mode, my body started to slowly shake, my mind started to go crazy, so many thoughts were flowing through my mind that i couldn't pinpoint any thought. My breathing started to feel heavy, my lungs felt like they couldn't get any air. In that state i could just repeat phrase that i said many time " Don't touch me, please... please don't touch me..." i sobbed trying to get free.

But she didn't let me go, she kept holding me as i tried to get free. She brought me closer to her, putting her hand around my waist and lifting me in her lap. She was whispering something in Italian that i didn't understand but it started to work on me after 20 minutes of me trying to get free and repeating the phrase. I was crying and shaking in her arms, but she held me through it. After a while i realized that Sulplicia and Didyeme also were saying something in Italian.

Athenodora started to move her arm on my back in circular matter that helped calm me down. I didn't believe that i let someone hold me when i had an attack, so why did i let her, i mean i did try to get free but after a while i stopped struggling.

" I…" I started to speak "I came here to heal" why did I say that why, and why to them.. At that point I was looking at the floor, but then I felt smooth, cold fingers at my chin.

Normally I would flinch and started to run but her touch, no their touch was calming me down. I didn't want to run. They were gazing into my eyes, with softness I have never seen, it looked like they were on the edge of crying, but no tear fell.

" We want to help you, Bella" Sulpicia started to say " you don't have to tell us what happened that put you in this state, but we want to help you heal. Now I know that you do not know us, but we will never hurt you." Her words held so much promise, I believed them. I truly believed them.

" I you let us we will be here for you, no matter what you need, or when you need it." Didyeme said.

I was looking into their eyes for gods know how long, my brain didn't know what to think. I wanted to scream, run, hide but also I wanted to stay, with them, they offered me safety, so I said what first came to my mind " Why do you have red eyes?" them I blushed, I didn't want to say that, I wanted to say yes to them and finally stop running.

They looked me in surprise, not expecting that question now, it looked like they were talking but I didn't hear anything.

" Well, Bella, that's rather complicated question, but you will get answer soon enough, let just say it's a special condition" she and other two smile like it was I good joke, but I don't get it " but its nothing to worry yourself Bella" she assured me.

Then I realized that Athenodora didn't stop touching me, she was running her hands in smooth motion that calmed me down. My body didn't react t them like they were a threat, like with everybody else, and because that I said " Ok, we can hang…." Not sure what to say " I mean if you want to"

They looked at me like I gave them the best gift in the world. And than I realized maybe there is hope for me. Maybe they were my hope. So for the first time in the long time I smiled.


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