"All Around Me"
Flyleaf
My hands are searching for you,
my arms are outstretched towards you,
I feel you on my fingertips,
my tongue dances behind my lips for you.
She was watching him again. She had to admit feeling a little foolish for 'spying' on him, she felt like a little schoolgirl with her first crush. She couldn't take her eyes off him whenever they were alone, everything he did intrigued her, regardless of what it was. She wondered if he knew that she was watching him, if he did, she was sure it was something that inflated his already huge ego. The thought, that would have made her annoyed just a few months ago, made her smile somewhat indulgently now. His ego was something she actually kind of liked about him now, he had a strange way of giving her confidence whenever he brushed something off like it was no big deal. He was far from indestructible, she knew that, but she had faith in his abilities. He had worked his magic on her, she was completely under his spell.
This fire rising through my being,
burning I'm not used to seeing you.
I'm alive.
I'm alive.
She leaned forwards on the window, watching as he worked on the Strike, seeming to ignore the world around him. She smiled a little bit, amused with how involved he was with his work. It reminded her of how hard she had to push him to get him to fill in his paperwork, he was lazy. But now, with his machine, she sometimes had to tug him away like he had to kidnap her from the bridge. The thought of their little game of tug and war almost had her laughing, she had to admit, they behaved somewhat like children when they were alone. It was so different from the soldier facade they kept on when they were in public. She snorted a bit to herself at that thought. Ever since they had been caught in the bridge, something that still embarrassed her, she was positive that the whole ship knew what was going on. Just the other day when she had been with him, she had seen Kira giving her a bit of a grin while he was talking with his sister, and she knew just from that that he knew everything that was going on. It was kind of embarrassing but flattering at the same time. She had sort of wanted to keep it a secret, but in the end, she had a hard time minding who knew. Mu was proud of it at any rate.
I can feel you all around me,
thickening the air I'm breathing.
Holding onto what I'm feeling,
savouring this heart that's healing.
She was a little proud of it too, she couldn't lie. She knew he was a very attractive man, she had seen some of the younger female soldiers shooting him shy glances, and she felt jealous. She hadn't known that he was in the same boat with her until he'd shyly admit that he didn't like the second glances she had been getting when they had docked in ORB earlier. She belonged to him, just as much as he belonged to her. Neither of them minded the other's protectiveness, it was cute and strangely attractive at the same time. She continued to watch him, thinking absently about the last few nights they had been spending together. It had been difficult, it was the first time she had let someone in since he had died. She had been surprised at how respectful Mu had been about it, he had asked no questions and let her explain when she felt the need to. When she had finally let herself tell him why she was so hesitant, he had simply smiled and kissed her gently on the cheek. 'He told me that he wouldn't rush me, no matter how he felt about it... Because he loved me...' She blushed a little when she thought about his words, resisting the urge to hide her face. 'He loves me.'
My hands float up above me,
as you whisper you love me,
and I begin to fade,
into our secret place.
The music makes me sway,
the angels singing say we are alone with you,
I am alone and they are too with you.
I'm alive.
I'm alive.
Eventually, she hadn't been able to wait, and had tugged him into her room when he was about to kiss her goodnight. They had spent almost the entire night exploring each other and mapping out what they didn't know. Neither of them had gotten much sleep that night, but they didn't really mind. It had felt so right, having him there with her when she slept, waking up to his gentle kiss on her collarbone and whispers in her ear. She hadn't wasted time letting him move into her room after that, she wanted him to be with her whenever possible. He was too easy to get addicted to, and when she had told him that, he'd grinned at her and said she was the exact same way before wrapping her up in his arms and snuggling with her again. He'd made her late on plenty of occasions for her shift, and she for his, but it didn't matter very much... She enjoyed being late these days. It was like carrying around her own personal sun, he directed light everywhere he went, making people feel better and giving them warmth. She had likened him to being her own big teddy bear too, perfect to snuggle with and curl up to when she was tired. He had liked that nickname, and she had to giggle at the image of him in a huge bear-suit.
I can feel you all around me,
thickening the air I'm breathing.
Holding onto what I'm feeling,
savouring this hear that's healing.
She still had trouble thinking of the entire reason why she had avoided him and the feelings he evoked inside of her. It was like all the troubling thoughts that had controlled her mind before had simply vanished, along with all of her logic on the situation. It had only been a little while that they had been together now, but it seemed like a lifetime when she tried to think about it. The days stretched on whenever he was with her, but they always seemed so short whenever either of them had to leave. Her heart, which had lay in shreds for so long, was now healing under his gentle touch. She still wore the locket as a bitter reminder of what could still happen in this dark time, but the light he cast out always managed to block out that darkness. She was slowly but surely being drowned in the warmth that was him, but she didn't mind it at all. She could openly admit she was in love with him.
And so I cry.
This light is white.
And I see you.
I'm alive.
I'm alive.
I'm alive.
She felt alive again, oddly enough. He'd given her a new reason to live, beyond just being able to see some peace after all of the bloodshed of the war. He'd given her a second chance to see with new eyes, to believe in a better future. She hadn't really wanted to risk entertaining those thoughts, it was like eating the forbidden fruit in Eden, but she couldn't stop the little images she saw when she slept. They didn't talk very much about what would happen after the war, both too anxious to really discuss the issue. She couldn't help but wonder if he thought about it like she did, she never asked. Even though she never asked, she didn't stop believing that if they both survived the end of the war, they would be going home together.
Take my hand I give it to you,
now you own me all I am.
You said you would never leave me,
I believe you, I believe.
She was astounded by how quickly Mu had taken control of her life, it was as if her life before him hadn't really existed. He made it so easy to forget what was going on around her. Even as she thought it, she was smiling and watching him. It was as if he sensed her finally, and turned around. She swore his face nearly split in half with a huge grin, and he promptly turned around on his work and waved energetically at her. She had to clap her hand over her mouth to smother her laughter and watched as her pretty much abandoned his post and raced up to where she was. She was still laughing when he reappeared at the door and kicked off the floor to knock her over with the force of his bear hug. She gave up trying to hold her composure and wound her arms around his shoulders and hugged him back, the loss of gravity giving her another full round of laughter. He was chuckling too, nuzzling gently into her neck as they gently spun in the no gravity. "Hey. How long have you been watching me?"
"Long enough love, long enough." Murrue giggled, gently pushing him back so she could put her feet back on the ground. He laughed again and wound his arms tightly around her middle to tug her back into another hug. She smiled a little as she closed her eyes and sighed pleasantly. This was what had made her fall in love with him. This was what meant everything.
I can feel you all around me,
thickening the air I'm breathing.
Holding onto what I'm feeling,
savouring this hear that's healed.
AN
Lol hie. Anyway, I had this idea to put the other three MM songs from "Singing Me a Lullaby" into this collection after some revamping because I thought it kinda counts towards songfics but I wanted to see who would like that before I do it, lol. Meh, we'll see... Anyway, this fluffy one's all for big sis (smiles) I hope you like it!
Lotsa love,
Sky
