It was cold out, when Caroline walked up to the boardinghouse. Snow had covered it and made it into a winterwonderland, like a movie setting everything was covered with white untouched dust. When she came inside the place wasn't messed up. She was relieved that yesterdays clean up wasn't in vain. On the table she noticed two glasses and an empty bottle of Damon's favorite bourbon. Again he had company last night. There was going to be a new naked slut in his bed. She really was getting impatient.

She was done helping him. After what happened with Elena yelling at her. She had wanted to talk to Elena this morning in school, bet Elena never showed. And when she tried calling her , Elena had refused to pick up her phone.

Caroline was going to drop by Elena's house again after seeing Damon, to ask her to come to the Christmas party at the grill with her tomorrow night, to make up for what happened. She just hoped Elena wouldn't keep ignoring her. She hated it when people did that more then anything in the world.

Caroline put the bottle back in the bar and the glasses in the sink. Quietly she made her way passed the door on the left and hoovered. She hadn't been in Stefan's room since the night of his death, it creeped her out.

On the way more to the right she stood in front of the big mahogany door and was no awnser. With a big bang she opened the door and started shouting again. "GET UP!" was all she yelled out, the person under the blankets moved, obviously a girl. But Damon wasn't around. Had he just left the girl alone in the house? that wasn't like him. He usually had the decency to erase their memories.

"Ok missy get out of the bed and don't get idea's this was nothing more then a one night stand" She said coldly pulling the sheet off of the girl. She took a long look at the brown locks that draped over the girls elegant slim body, it was only when the girl turned over so Caroline could see her face she noticed who it was "Oh my god! Elena! I'm so sorry" Caroline said shocked!

On that moment the other door in the room that lead to the private bathroom, opened. "Who's yelling?" Damon asked wrapped in nothing but a towel around the waist.

"Caroline?...Damon?...Where am I" Elena asked confused running her hand through her hair.

"In my bed" Damon grinned.

Elena took a moment the look around, her eyes widened. "Why am I in your bed? how? ...WHY AM I PRACTICALLY NAKED!" Elena freaked out.

"I"m gonna go" Caroline threw into the akward conversation and made way for the door again.

"Damon! what the hell is going on?" Elena asked, infuriated.

"You really don't remember last night? wow you really were hammered" Damon laughed.

Elena threw the empty glass that was on the nightstand towards Damon's head "And you took advantage of that so you could sleep with me?" She screamed.

"HEY! Watch it!" Damon warned ducking away from the glass. "First of all! I would never ever do that to you! You are only in MY bed, because i thought it would be too painfull for you to be in Stefan's bed"

"Then why am I naked?" Elena asked him.

"You are not, you're just wearing my shirt because you puked all over yours!" Damon Explained.

"Oh..." Was all Elena could bring herself to say.

"And last but not least, if I DID sleep with you, trust me sweetheart, you wouldn't forget!" Damon said with a cocky grin.

"Don't push your luck or i'll throw more stuff at you" Elena moaned pulling the sheet back over her head. The light from outside hurt her eyes.

Damon laughed. "Wow you are so moody when you're hung over" He laughed. He walked over to the bed and crouched next to it, he pulled the sheet back from her head and tousled her hair. "Hey, you feeling ok?" he asked her.

"My head is exploding" Elena moaned. She looked at Damon's worried face. He really was ridiculusly hot. Especially now wearing nothing but a plain dark blue towel. She felt her body respond.

"I'll whip you up something against the hangover in a second let me get dressed first' Damon said walking back into the bathroom.

Elena pulled the sheet over her head again. She turned around to push her face in the pillow making sure as little light as possibly could touched her face. The pillow smelled amazing. It was the pure essence of Damon, not some expensive cologne , just Damon. Elena noticed how it made a smile appear on her face and breathed in deeply. She had missed her friend. For a moment she took the time to dream off. Everything seemed so unimportant right now, and staying here , in what probably was the safest place in the world , was now for just a second her greatest desire. She thought about all the other girls that had probably been in this bed and figured she wasn't alone in this feeling. Then it hit her. Caroline!

"Shit" Elena muttered reaching out for her cell phone. It was nowhere to be found. She must have left it downstairs. With resentment. Elena got out of the warm bed and made her way downstairs. The living room was tidier then they had left it. One of the few things she could remember. Her purse was still next to the couch though. She reached out for it and grabbed her phone that was inside. Trying to see through her blurry hung over eyes she hit the Caroline button in her name list .

"Elena? I'm so sorry!" Caroline shouted in the phone as a greeting.

"Caroline don't shout I'm hung over…." Elena moaned.

"I swear I didn't know it was you!" Caroline went on.

"Caroline! It's ok…It's not what you think." Elena explained.

"No, no Elena it's fine it's none of my business" Caroline kept rambling.

"I didn't sleep with him Caroline, we got drunk It was too late for me to drive and I puked" Elena said through the rambling.

It was quiet for a moment.

"Oh" Caroline whispered with what sounded like a hint of disappointment.

"Caroline?" Elena asked her phone.

"Right! Of course! Hey listen are you coming to the party at the grill tomorrow?" Caroline quickly changed the subject.

"I don't know Care…." Elena whispered. She hadn't gone out since the incident. She just didn't feel like it.

"Oh come on! Everybody misses you" Caroline whined.

"I'll think about it" Elena finally gave in.

"Great!" Caroline said in her bubbly self voice. "Bring Damon!" Caroline said and she hung up the phone.

Elena stared at her phone….Damon…she remembered.

Damon came out of the bedroom to find it empty. Did she leave? Her clothes were still in the laundry though. He stood still trying to pick up the sound of something. Her heartbeat… her breath….her voice….something. He found her in the living room and decided to go downstairs.

He found her watching the fire, still in his black shirt. She took his breath away. Wearing nothing but the shirt and some underwear she looked more attractive and yet more breakable the ever. If he could just hold her, promise the pain would end he could….Damon quickly pushed to thought away.

Still hung over?" Damon asked her moving towards the fire.

Elena nodded. She was quiet.

Whats wrong?" Damon asked sensing the mood.

"Nothing…" Elena whispered.

Damon sat himself in the couch and Elena took the seat next to him. He pulled her legs over his lap and places his hands on them, gently and softly caressing her shins. "Talk to me" He whispered.

"It's just this place I guess, the memories" Elena said rather coldly, she really wanted to avoid the subject.

"You need to leave all this for a bit" Damon replied. "Forget all the drama for a day, we could go to Atlanta again " He smiled.

"Don't think Jenna would like that very much" Elena laughed sadly. "But there's a Christmas party in the grill, I'll go if you go" Elena tried carefully.

"I don't know" Damon doubted. "Most of the people there really don't like me"

"And since when do you care about that?" Elena remarked.

"Good point, fine….it's a date!" Damon said.

"No it's not" Elena suddenly said caught off guard.

Elena brushed the last strains of her hair and finished putting the last hint of pink gloss on her lips. For her first time out in months, she looked pretty amazing she thought to herself. Damon was picking her up in twenty minutes, and this whole arrangement still felt like a date to her. She was wearing a purple sweaterdress with a turtle neck to keep warm in the snow, it fitted thightly around her body and curves, with a black belt to accesorise. The dress fell till just above her knee's and under it she wore black thights and black high heeled boots to finish it off.

"So you're really going out with Damon?" A voice whispered from her door.

"It's not a date jer" Elena said.

"you're dressing up like it's a date' Jeremy noticed.

"Were just trying to be friends again" Elena sighed.

"Look it"s ok if you're into him, just don't lie to yourself about it' Jeremy said.

"I'm NOT into him, i'm not katherine, it wouldn't be fair to Stefan" Elena replied annoyed.

"Elena...stefan is dead..." Jeremy said easily.

Elena dropped her brush, and closed her eyes for a moment "Thank you for reminding me" She whispered.

"I"m sorry sis, I just want you to be careful" Jeremy explained.

"I know, I will be...like i said...Damon and I are just friends" Elena forgave him.

"If that's what you say I believe you, and, you look great" Jeremy made up.

Elena hugged her little brother lightly so she wouldn't wrinkle her dress too much. "You sure you don't want to come, could be fun"

"Nah, I think i'll just hang out here for a while, have fun though' Jeremy said.

The bell rang.

"That must be Damon" Elena whispered. She caught herself looking in the mirror again to make sure she looked her best. Why would she do that, it was just Damon.

Jeremy opened the door. "She'll be down in a minute'' He said coldly.

"Thanks" Damon said staring around in the hallway.

"Hey, I know you can kick my ass in a second" Jeremy said holding Damon by his arm "But if you hurt or take advantage of my sister I'll stake your sorry ass...got it!"

Damon laughed "you used to like me! what's up with the treath's"

"I"m being serious asswhole.." Jeremy raised his voice.

"I know, warning noted, i'l take good care of her ok" Damon said

"Good" Jeremy anwsered taking off.

There was movement up the stairs, Damon looked up. There was a princess gliding down it's wooden steps. Covered in a classy yet revealing purple dress, like a winter goddess. Damon swallowed. Her hair was in a sideways ponytail draped around her neck and shoulders almost till her chest area, wich was covered yet showing. She really did have the perfect figure.

"Hey! Eyes more up!" Jeremy waked Damon up from his stare.

"right sorry..."Damon walked over to Elena and offered her his arm "Mylady" He smiled.

Elena's heart made a jump. It was impossible not to blush when Damon was in his gentlemen mood. "Let's go you idiot" Elena said deliberatly ignoring the arm she went straight for her keys.

"Taking off! won't be out late!" She shouted to jenna who was in the kitchen.

"Ok have fun!" Jenna shouted back.

Elena opened the door and headed for the car.

"oh no way! I'm driving" Damon said speeding to the car.

"It's my car" Elena protested!

"Yeah, and I'M driving it, or were taking mine..." Damon replied.

"Fine, you drive" Elena threw him the keys.

Damon catched them with the grace of a gazelle and rushed to open the door for Elena.

"Stop that damon, this aint a date" Elena said annoyed.

Damon closed the door to the car once she got in and sat in the drivers seat. They didn't speak untill they arrived at the grill.

The music was playing loudly at the grill. It was decorated to the extreme with lights and fake snow.

"ELENA! you came!" Caroline screamed. She hugged Elena tightly.

"yeah.."Elena smiled.

It only took a moment before people started to crowd around her. Damon made his way for the bar.

"Bourbon please" He said to the bartender. He glanced at Elena who was still surrounded by friends. Nipping his drink. She looked at him and smiled.

After a while Elena got away from the people surrounding her and made her way to Damon.

"Drinking again" She sighed.

"Yeah" Damon replied.

"Can I have a sip" Elena asked.

"No..." Damon turned towards Elena.

The music started playing a softer song. A tune soft and beautiful.

"Dance with me" Damon smiled to Elena.

"Damon this is not a date" Elena said once again.

"I know that , i'm asking you as your friend..." Damon guided her hand towards her.

"Fine" elena said taking his hand.

They made their way to the newly created dancefloor.

I've hardly been outside my room in days

Cause I don't feel that i deserve the sunshine's rays

The darkness helped until the wiskey wore away

and it was then i realised the concience never fades

Elena closed her eyes and let Damon sway her trough the music. She felt as if she were floating. Like a princess in a disneymovie. It was just the way she had felt during the dance of the miss mystic falls pageant. She had felt butterflies through her body that day, and now she could not deny the knot in her chest either. Why did she feel like this, obviously it was just a sexual attraction she felt. right?

But I will fight for you,

Be sure that I will fight

Untill were the special two once again

And we would only need eachother, we'll bleed together,

Our hands would not be taught to hold another's,

'cause were the special two

And we could only see eachother, we'll breath together,

These arms would not be taught to hold another's

cause were the special two.

Damon held Elena as close as he possibly could. For the moment she let her guard down he planned to get the most out of it. The song was fitting. Life never felt so perfect before. And if he could convince her, he would never hurt her again. Slowly Damon moved in closer and kissed Elena's forehead. "I"m glad i'm in your life again" he whispered.

Elena pushed Damon away from her.

"Damn it Damon why wouldn't you let it be!" Elena said in a stern voice.

"What are you talking about" Damon asked confused.

"Why do you have to do it? The flirting...being charming! How many times do I have to explain to you this is not a date!" Elena nearly shouted.

People started to look at them and Damon guided Elena to the corner where they had at least the illusion of more privacy.

"Why are you being so on edge" Damon asked Elena.

"I"m NOT katherine, i'm not gonna switch from one brother to another" Elena said.

"I know that I"m not pushing you into anything you're being ridiculus" Damon told her.

"No i'm not! I've had to tell you like 5 times tonight to stop acting like were on a date!" Elena said.

"Yes, You've been telling me so many times I wonder if it's not yourself you're trying to convince! We've always had something you and me...you can't deny that, I won't let you anymore!" Damon sternly said.

"So now that Stefan isn't around anymore you decided to make you're move! you think i'm that pathetic?" Elena shouted. She had gotten used to replacing the word died with not around anymore. For her it was pretty much the same, but for the people who didn't know it still sounded like he had just left her.

"Elena it's not like that, why are you being so defensive, who are you trying to convince? me or yourself?" Damon said.

"You! And frankly I regret letting you back into my life when you're acting like this" Elena said and she stalked off.

I remember someone old once said to me,

That "lies will lock you up with truth the only key."

But I was comfortable and warm inside my shell,

And couldn't see this place could soon become my hell.

So is it better to tell and hurt or lie to save their face?

Well I guess the answer is, don't do it in the first place.

I know I'm not deserving of your trust from you right now,

But if by chance you change your mind, you know I will not let you down,

'Cause we were the special two, and we'll be again.

Damon sat at the bar . Women...why did they always drive him drinking? Elena had taken the car and driven home. She wasn't in the mood for a party anymore she had told Caroline and Bonnie. Bonnie had thrown him some hating look and Caroline had tried to talk to him hoping to redeem between him and Elena. But it was in vain.

After his third bourbon there was still no drunken mist in starting to set in his head. He had been drinking too much and had started to get imune to the liquor. He took off , maybe walking would help him clear his thoughts. He stepped out into the snow, no specific goal, he'd see where he'd end up once he got there.

I step outside my mind's eyes for a minute.

And I look over me like a doctor looking for disease,

Or something that could ease the pain.

But nothing cures the hurt you, you bring on by yourself,

Just remembering, just remembering how we were...

Damon didn't mean to end up here. He just did. He only realised he was standing outside Elena's house once he recognised the steps that lead to the porch. He stared at her window. The light was on, and she was sitting next to the window writing in her diary. The soft rays of the moonlight made her face a bit more pale, like an angel stuck on earth. He caught her eyes when she looked out. She probably felt him staring. She closed the curtains and the lights went out. She was still mad obviously.

He looked at the window a little longer and then turned around. Making his way back to the sidewalk. It was only then he heard the front door open and felt the artificial light on his back.

"Damon" the gentle voice softly called out to him.

"Hey, sorry, I'm not stalking you I promise" Damon said trying to crack a joke to make light of the awkward situation.

"I know, I'm sorry I freaked out on you, that wasn't fair" Elena whispered.

Damon walked back to the porch. He needed to be closer to her.

"It's ok, I didn't mean to upset you" He said emotionless. He didn't feel comfortable in this heart spilling moments. Like it was against his nature, or so it felt.

"I know, and you're right...There is something between is, but I'm not ready for it now, and I don't know if i'll ever be. I hope you understand that. I'm sorry" Elena confessed.

There was an awkward silence again a tension in the air.

Damon took a deep breath and moved in closer. In a swift mood he held Elena in his arms and softly pressed his lips against hers. Her lips were soft and sweet. His hand softly caressed the side of cheek. It was the perfect kiss. Soft, yet with tension and passion.

Elena felt Damon's lips on her. Though her mind told her to stop this, her body only responded asking for more. It felt so right the way his lips combined with her. His tongue softly caressing her lips. His breath was warm and sweet. She never had a kiss like this. So sweet yet so needy and wanted. It was like opening a christmas present , waiting to see what it was for so long and then finally you carefully but urgently open it because you simply cant wait for it anymore.

when we would only need each otherwe'd bleed together

these hands would not be taught to hold another's,

We were the special two.

And we could only see each other we'd bleed together,

These arms would not be taught to need another's,

'Cause we're the special two.

And then finally she found the strength to break the kiss. And Elena gasped a little for air. Her head was dizzy.

"Damon what-" She wanted to ask.

But Damon placed his index finger on her lips and pointed above them. There on taped on the porch light was a single small green mistletoe.

"Merry Christmas Elena" Damon Whispered.

Hey guys! I promised you a Christmas Special here it is! I hope you all really enjoyed it! I know i did writing it!

I hope you all have a great Christmas and a dazzling new year. My resolution is ...I don't know yet...but it'll be awsome...

This Chapter is based on The Special two by missy Higgins and i worked in the lyrics this time cause i thought it was important to do so! Be sure to check out her work , it's beautiful!

I want to give a very very VERY special shout out to Aurora & Jolien : You guys are the best friends a girl could ask and thank you for letting me borrow your song... I know it means alot to you and I did my best to make it stand out as best as I could

To my Beta-reader : TwilightObsessed-YESTWILIGHT I saw a big Edward Cardboard the other day and thought of you , but how would that cross the sea ?

And last to my bestest friend (and my special person) Danni, never leave on holliday again...I miss you more then I thought was possible.

Love,

Em.