Chapter 7

When Teito first regained consciousness his mind felt very muddled and he was unsure of where he was or why he was there. Also his body felt like lead and he registered the fact that everything hurt without even trying to move a muscle.

It then dawned on him that he shouldn't hurt he should be dead, he had fallen off the churches outer wall from a hight than no one could have survived. He tried to concentrate and figure out why he was still alive, he didn't want to be alive, at this thought all of the feeling and emotions that had been consuming him since Mikage's death filled hi heart and mind once more. After a few moments Teito remembered seeing Frau falling after him, he also remembered the look in Frau's blue eyes, a look of fear and determination.

At this train of thought Teito finally was able to get his eyes open and take a look at his surrounding. The sun was shining in through the window it looked to be about 11 in the morning, he was in a conner of what he recognized to the hospital wing of the church. He then noticed Frau asleep in a chair beside the bed, his hand lightly laid on top of Teito's leg. Teito assumed it was there so that Frau would wake up once he moved. His gaze stayed on Frau who looked to be sleeping rather restlessly. Why did you save me Frau? Why didn't you just let me go? I don't want to keep living, it hurts to much and I don't want anyone else to get hurt because of me. As these questions and thoughts ran through Teito's mind, tears started to fall down his eyes filled with so much sorrow and loss.

Teito took his gaze away from Frau and sent it to the side of his bed where between the bed and the wall was a table that had a medical tray sitting on it, and on the medical trey was a small scalpel. If I can get to the knife I can end it before Frau can stop me again. Teito moved as quickly as he could to get out of the bed and grab the scalpel

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Frau woke with a start and jumped out of his chair, he had felt and sensed Teito move to get out of bed, when his eyes landed on Teito and for the second time in less than two days his heart almost stopped.

Teito was on his feet on the other side of the bed with a scalpel in his right hand and his left hand clutching the side where he had broken his ribs. He was was bringing his right hand up quickly towards his throat a look of sorrowful determination in his eyes.

Frau leaped over the bed toward him just as the scalpel made it to Teito's throat, and grabbed his right hand, just after the scalpel had broken the skin and made a small incision, and slammed it into the wall above Teito's head hard enough to make the kid drop the scalpel. It hit the floor with a loud clang. Anger flared up in Teito and he tried to hit Frau with his left hand but Frau also grabbed that one and pinned it above Teito's head without ever taking his eyes away from the Teito's green ones. Frau pinned both of Teito's arms to the wall with his left hand and the put his right hand around Teito's throat

And saying each word slowly Frau hissed "What do you think you are doing?"

Frau was beyond angry he could not believe that the kid tried to kill himself AGAIN!

Teito visibly flinched at the question and tried to divert his angry gaze

"Look at me Teito" the anger in his voice dripping from every word

Teito returned his gaze to Frau's face "I asked you a question, what do you think you are doing?"

At that point all of the anger drained from Teito's face leaving nothing but a look of sadness "I don't want to do this anymore Frau" he whispered tears coming to his eyes again to run their course down his face.

"do what?"

"live" he let out a shuddering breath " I don't want to live anymore, nor do I deserve to live"

He whispered the last part more to himself than to Frau.

Frau sighed and released his anger, only his concern for the kid remained in his face.

He then realized that Teito was beginning to shake from his weakened state and if it wasn't for the fact that he had Teito's arms pinned to the wall, the kid would have fallen to the floor.

"Oh Teito" he said releasing his arms and quickly scooping him up in his arms bridal style " of course you deserve to live, everyone has the right to live"

"But Mikage" Teito tried to interject looking up into Frau's but Frau cut him off

" Mikage died protecting you because he loved you and he wanted you to be able to keep on living"

He put emphasis on the last word " not so that could be consumed by guilt and take your own life"

Frau paused for a moment to let this sink in to Teito's head, the kid seemed to calm down a little and he was able to stop his tears

" Do you understand now that you have to keep on living?"

Teito nodded

"Good" Frau gave Teito a tight hug and kissed Teito on the forehead " if I put you down on the bed are you going to stay put and not do anything stupid? I need to patch up that cut on your throat before you lose anymore blood"

Teito nodded again

Frau placed Teito on the bed, grabbed the bandages, then set down next to the him and proceeded to patch up the cut which wasn't as bad as Frau had first thought it would be when he had grabbed the kids throat to stop the bleeding.

When Teito could finally speak again he asked " why did you save me, I mean who jumps off a wall to save someone else?"

Frau stopped what he was doing and looked at Teito " Because I had to"

"why"

" because I care about you kid, a lot, and because I spent a lot of time and effort looking for something for you and I didn't want all that to go to waist" Frau's cheshire grin back on his face

At that precise moment the little pink dragon jumped onto the bed beside Teito causing Teito to jump in shock.

" ahh right on cue, Teito this little creature is Mikage"

"say what" Teito said looking very confused, taking the little creature into his arms

" well to be more precise he is the reincarnation of Mikage, it looks like he just had to come back to make sure you were okay"

Teito looked shocked and happy as a little boy with a new toy "really? Are you sure?

" yes Teito i'm sure, now its time for you to go back to sleep, before you lose anymore color in your face"

Teito was about to protest but Frau put his hand on Teito's forehead and said "Sleep" Teito could not refuse the command of the ghost and was asleep almost instantaneously Mikage in his arms.

" thank you for being reborn Mikage" Frau whispered sitting down in the chair and falling asleep himself .

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Later that day when Castor and Labrador came to check on Teito, Frau told them that the kid wouldn't make another attempt on his own life and that they wouldn't have to worry about it anymore

" how do you know?" asked Castor

Frau looked down at Teito's sleeping form and smirked "Because he now has a reason to live"