A/N: So sorry for the long wait. I have had exams but I am back and you can expect weekly updates! Xx :)

Olivia groaned and pulled the covers over her face. She could tell today would already end badly. She felt terrible and she woke up alone. She and Alex had been sleeping separately for the last week and it was killing Olivia. She missed waking up and being able to roll over and feel the warmth of Alex.

She sighed and rolled out of bed. She grabbed her phone checking it. She had 10 messages from Alex. She had to work late last night. She smiled as she read down through the messages. She loved waking up to messages from her, even if they were small and short.

Olivia got ready for work and hoped she got to see Alex at some point today.

...

As Olivia's slow, long, and exhausting day went. She was very disappointed when Alex was nowhere to be found. It was near lunch when Olivia finally ran into her. She was entering the elevator with another lawyer, they were laughing and Alex was doing her famous hair flip and huge smile, every guy loved so much. Olivia sighed and figured she'd catch her later, but Alex called after her.

"Olivia!" She waved her in the elevator.

The tall lawyer smiled at Olivia.

"Danny, this is Detective Benson, my girlfriend." Alex smiled.

Danny held his hand out to Olivia. She took it kindly. She was very impressed with Alex. She didn't try to hide it or anything. She was out and proud.

"It's really a shame you are gay. You are a serious goddess, detective. I would take you out and show you the city." Danny winked.

"You're funny Danny. I'm extremely gay. I am flattered but I see much of the city every day considering I am always chasing someone." Olivia fake laughs and looks at Alex.

Alex senses Olivia's uncomfortable and she smiles and looks at her phone.

Olivia quickly withdraws her hand from Danny's and turns her back to the elevator wall. She wanted to smack her head off the wall over and over. As the elevator doors pinged open, Alex turned to Olivia.

"I'll see you at home for a late dinner? You have off tomorrow right? I have a day planned for you!" Alex smiles.

"I'll see you tonight. I'll text you." Olivia says before letting the doors close.

Olivia walked in the squad room and Elliot looked at her. She sat down and huffed.

"Alex flirting with men pisses me off."

"Well, she isn't really gay." Elliot said cautiously. "She enjoys both."

"Elliot the jealousy is going to kill us."

Elliot gave her a small smile before looking back down at his paper working. He knew all about jealousy with Kathy. Even though she knew Olivia was gay, she was always talking about Olivia.

"Being with someone who isn't really gay makes me even more insecure. I not only have to worry about woman, now I have to worry about men too. I don't really think I can top that one."

"Liv, it'll get better, just give it time."

Olivia sighed and looked back down at her paperwork.

...

Olivia got home later than she expected. She pulled her coat off and threw it over the back of her chair. She saw she has a new voicemail.

"Hi baby, it's me. I just wanted to let you know I should be home in a few. If you want to order dinner go ahead, anything will do."

Olivia smiled as she called the Chinese place. She ordered for them both and sat down, flipping through the television channels. She figured nothing good would be on this late. She sat there settling for some late night show. She groaned at how tired she was feeling and it was only 9. The one night she and Alex had alone in a week and she would be too tired to enjoy it. She heard her phone beep and she picked it up, seeing a text from Alex.

I can't make it tonight. So I'm going to crash here at the office and get a late dinner with Danny. Sorry. Xx

Olivia sighed; she did not like this Danny character at all. She was relieved when someone knocked on because she was starving. She opened the door and saw Elliot with her food.

"I figured you could use some company. I brought some tequila."

He held the bottle up. She grabbed it and smiled.

"You should've just said tequila."

She laughed as she walked in the apartment. Elliot sat the food down and plopped on her couch. She got plates and cups for them. She sighed when she got another text from Alex.

"So Alex isn't coming?"

"Nope she's having dinner with Danny." Olivia made a face as she sat down.

She read the text and rolled her eyes.

I suppose you fell asleep. Sweet dreams love.

She sat her phone down and got her food. She looked at Elliot and he gave her a sad smile.

"Why couldn't I be in love with a gay woman? Like actually gay. I am choosing to be with Alex knowing she isn't really sure about what she wants."

"Olivia you can't help who you fall in love with, it just happens." He sighed.

She knew Elliot was right and as much as she wished her life wasn't complicated, she loved Alex more than anyone and anything and she knew that wasn't going away anytime soon. She poured her drink and jugged it. She figured she'd get wasted since she had off tomorrow.

"Whoa whoa Liv, slow down." Elliot laughed.

"I have off tomorrow, so I'm getting trashed she said as she drank the rest of her drink.

She poured more and some in Elliot's cup. She handed it to him. He shook his head and she gave him a look.

"Drink up. I don't want to be drunk alone." She said.

He took the cup and drank it.

After an hour of drinking, the bottle of tequila was gone and Olivia was way past trashed. She and Elliot were laughing and laying on the floor together.

"You ever think about being with a man?" Elliot asked.

"Sure, sometimes." She looked up at him. "You ever think about being with a man?" she laughed.

"Hm, no." He said, smacking her ass.

She laughed and laid her head back down. She sighed as she thought about Alex and their complicated relationship.

"El?"

"Yeah?"

"Cuddle with me?"

"Come here." He said, turning on his back.

She laid on his chest and knew she was going to fall asleep quickly. She drifted off.

Alex walked in and saw Elliot and Olivia on the floor in each other's arms. She saw that Elliot had Olivia's clothes on and Olivia had his on. She looked around and saw the empty bottle of tequila and food boxes everywhere.

"What the hell did you two do?" Alex said loudly.

Olivia jumped awake and went to sit up but she was too dizzy and her head was pounding.

"Alex shush, way too much tequila for yelling." Olivia said burying her face into Elliot's chest.

Elliot groaned and looked at his watch.

"Shit! I am supposed to be at the divorce attorney's office at 10."

Olivia moved off of him and face planted on the floor.

"Ouch." She groaned. "Oh I'm going to throw up." She said laying there.

"Liv I need my clothes. When the hell did we trade clothes?" Elliot laughed

"I don't recall." Olivia said sitting up.

She pulled off his shirt and pants. Alex just looked at the apartment and the half-naked Olivia.

Olivia ran to the bathroom and fell down beside the toilet. She hurled into the toilet and yelled to Elliot.

"I hate you Elliot. We are never drinking again."

"I'll see you later."

Alex walked back to the bathroom and rolled her eyes as Olivia puked and then when she stopped, she sat back and rubbed her head.

"What else don't you and Elliot recall? Did you have sex with him?" Alex asked.

"Oh god, no."

"Yeah well I'm not so sure."

"Alex I like women, in case you missed that. YOU don't have to worry about me with men."

"I can't do this. Everyone knows how you and Elliot act together. I'm leaving."

Olivia laughed.

"Always finding a way to leave Alex, fuck you. I am done fighting for you and this relationship or whatever." Olivia yelled.

"Fuck you too Olivia. I am so done."

Alex stormed out and Olivia leaned over throwing up yet again. She knew her and Alex wouldn't last. She knew she would never be enough for Alex to stay…

A/N: I know we all want them together but I think I put them together WAY too fast. So I think they need a break from each other and Olivia needs to make Alex a little jealous for once. ;) let's see where I can take this. Reviews are welcome. Love you guys! xxx