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"True love doesn't have a happy ending, because true love never ends. Letting go is one way of saying I love you."
When I'm With You
Chapter 7
Tick tock. Tick tock. Tick tock.
I saw every second pass as I waited for my order to arrive. It seemed as though I was starving, but due to the high pre-occupations, I didn't care to eat.
I could feel Jessica's eyes on me, and as time ticked, the sense of urgency pulsed through me. She was sitting two tables across from me.
I couldn't make out why it bothered me. How long would they take to serve the mushroom ravioli and a coke? ( Sorry, I couldn't avoid what she had on her first 'date' with Edward. :D ) I started drumming my fingers impatiently. Although I must admit, the impatience was irrational. For that matter, this behavior of mine was completely irrational too.
I mean, it's not like I was expecting Edward right now, so that I could bolt out of here and flee to his side. And the same applies for Edward too. Is it like as soon as he caught sight of me, he would cradle me in his arms and kiss me?
I shuddered slightly. The thought of it created a weird feeling in my stomach. It was really strange now.. 'cause I had accepted the fact that he was no more than my best friend.. But I did love him. No force can stop me from that. But more than that? I had that feeling in the first place..
I ignored those thoughts and simply closed my eyes. And all I saw was a breath-taking picture. .
We were sitting at the beach and watching the sunset. His hand intertwined with mine and I was leaned against his shoulder. The sunset emitted glorious yellow beams across the place. I bet I was the happiest person alive. His skin was literally shimmering due to the sunset. When I looked up to meet his face, the alluring crooked smile which I loved the most, broke through his face.. And I forgot everything. How to breathe, how to speak, why I didn't even remember my own name..
"Order's here!" Announced the waitress as she arrived with the mushroom ravioli and a coke.
Thanks to her, I didn't doze off just like that. That made me snap out of my day dream. Wonder what's with my craze for sunsets? I happen to be dreaming about twilight frequently..
She looked rather tan and her ravishing blonde hair flowed to her shoulders. She smiled at me radiantly. I have no clue but looking at her, sent a wave of envy through me.
"Let me know if you wish to eat anything else." She said before turning to the table next to me.
One thing which I had gotten used to was loneliness. Back at school, I was always with Alice or Em or Rose. And they kept me plenty busy. Well, not that I mind being alone, it's just that it takes some getting used to. How badly I wish Edward were here. Ok, I admit it, I wouldn't mind some company. Everyday goes like this. Everyone's surrounded by a few people like swarms of bees, and I'm left alone here. It creates a.. crest-fallen feeling. In fact the only person whom I got along at this camp was my room mate, Serena.
I liked her next to Jess. She was the only amiable soul at this camp. Of course, the others would respond if I asked them something, although they are not very sociable. (Not that I am!)
But they possessed something Serena didn't.. maybe oversight.
I slowly started to chew on a piece of mushroom ravioli. Within minutes I had consumed the whole plate. I hadn't realized I was hungry.
And as I drained the coke, I thought Jessica ought to know what I felt.
The waitress, whose name was Kelsie, I had recalled, arrived.
"Can I get you anything else?"
"No thank you. Just the bill please."
When it arrived, I paid the amount and made a beeline to Jessica's table. I had to confront her, irrelevant of what she had to say. But one thing, I can fight fire with fire too. 'Cause she ain't the only one who is allowed to use profanities. I seemed rather reluctant to bring this up again..
"Hey, Jess." I decided to keep it light at first.
"Hello." She replied in a rather crabby mood.
"Can I at least talk to you now?"
"I guess so." She addressed me in that same tone.
I took a seat across from her and decided to get straight to the point.
"Ok.. So um yeah, do you know me?"
"Yes." She gave a straight answer.
"Would care to enlighten me about what happened today during the tryouts?"
She scowled and replied, "No blood, no foul."
"Why the heck did you yell at me?"
She scoffed. "I don't know.. You deserved it. For what you did a month earlier."
"Huh?"
"Oh, are you brainless? I've been hinting you all along! You went on a date with Mike and god knows for what reason he doesn't even talk to me anymore! Bella, Bella, Bella! He's crazy on you! And he is driving me as mad as a March hare!"
It slowly brought back those memories of the worst date of my life. I'd agreed just because he'd persuaded me like anything. Phone calls everyday, roses at my seat and I had to literally go into hiding or disguise myself to stay out of his sight. But he'd agreed that we were going just as friends. Not only him, but Alice too thought that I needed to go on a date or I'd get 'bored'. I kind of have an aversion towards guys. Not all of them can be the gem of a person, like Edward.
Alright, it turned out to be dreadful. The waitress was desperately flirting with him and he fell for her! She gave him her number right in front of my eyes. And she took hold of his face and started to kiss him! Not like I cared, but it pissed me off to the core! I poured the jug of water on his face and turned to leave. But he got hold of my wrist and begged for forgiveness. I demanded to be let go but he never slackened the grip on my wrist. In the middle of it he kissed me impassioned without my permission. That made me furious. I broke away and gave a tight slap right on his cheek! And without another word of goodbye, I flew the coop out of the place.
"Jessica, no! You've mistaken! We're nothing like that!" Ew! The thought us as a couple made me want to puke.
"Just zip it. I know that. Its just that he doesn't deserve someone like you." She said as though she was disgusted.
"What is your problem then?!"
"You! You're messing up with my whole life! First Mike..Now Edward Cullen! I was the first one to like him! How can you do this? Who do you think you are? Miss Universe? And that guy must be a lunatic to fall for you!.."
"Stop it!" My fist came down on the table. Me and Edward were nothing like that. Besides, he is the only guy to whom I even talked my heart out, as a best friend.
"Don't you dare say another word about Edward! Or I'll rip your head of!" I threatened.
"Oh, yeah? Its too late. You must've thought about all that before coming to the camp. What in the world is the reason for me to even talk to you if not for my revenge?"
I saw an evil grin on her face which gave me the creeps.
So this was her master plan. Getting me embarrassed in front of everyone! Oh my god! What was I thinking? She indeed knew about my balance. I'd fallen so many times but it didn't hurt so badly.. I'd made a fool of myself in front of everyone, but that didn't bother me either. She'd yelled at me and all of them witnessed it, but I didn't care about that.
She had done it purposely. To take revenge. My own friend has back-stabbed me. The girl whom had I trusted right since kinder garden. Her harsh words weren't the ones which made me feel bad. She'd said I never deserved either of them. And that brought a stab of pain to my heart.
Stab.
How well did I know that I never deserved Edward, but I had no clue this had been glaringly obvious. I know, I may be a plain Jane.. but I wasn't so cruel and cunning as her!
It naturally brought the teardrops back to my eyes.
"Whatever, Bella. I guess it was worth a shot. And I'd be glad if you didn't ruin my life anymore. You've been doing right since first grade. All the boys are head over heels for you. I don't even know what they see in you."
Stab.
Great. I was ruining her life.
"Get a life, Jessica! You are a loser!"
She simply rolled her eyes. "Look who is speaking. Oh and FYI, I'm not done yet, loser."
"Get lost, you cranky sucker!" I screamed my throat out.
I was completely aggravated. I even though of taking her head tossing it around as a football. Since I could never do that, I made my exit.
I literally ran towards my room, huffing and puffing along the way.
I opened the door and decided to call Edward. As I reached for the phone, I didn't see the oil which was spilled on the floor. I stepped on it, which made me scoot towards the wall, but instead I kind of toppled and slammed my head against the wooden plank of the bed. My head was injured badly and I shrieked in pain. I could smell blood and my head felt dizzy due to the nausea. I let out a piercing scream but it figured that there were no human hears to record it. My whole body started to ache and I couldn't make my body move.
It was completely different to watch it in films and experience it in real. My head started to spin and I knew I was going to faint. I cried in agony and shouted again and again, but they turned out to be in vain. Minutes passed and this utter torment faced no end.
And I saw someone barge into the room.
"Ha! Not bad! It turned to be a gazillion times better than I had expected.."
And I saw the beastly person appear once again.. What had I done to her that she had gone to the extremes of killing me?
Just then, the phone started to ring. I desperately hoped it would be Edward. I wanted to hear his voice, the most beautiful harmony in this world..
She picked it up.
"Oh look who it is! Who else would call you other than the lover boy?" She grinned mockingly and dropped the phone into my hand and it only increased the ache. I hissed in pain.
"Tell Edward I said hi.. Or not..."
Edward! It was him! Oh my gosh! Will he have arrived at the airport? I tried with all my might to get the phone to my ear, but I couldn't.
"See you in hell, friend." She said as she shut the door tight behind her, leaving me in this mid-life crisis.
"Edward, I need you! I can't take another minute of this camp! Jessica betrayed me!"
I wanted to yell so badly.
About twenty minutes passed and I seemed to have no luck in moving a muscle.
The pain lasted. And suddenly my lungs didn't seem to accept the oxygen.. And I was afraid I was going to black out.
"See you in hell, friend."
I recalled her voice. So it was true that I was going to die? I felt another deep stab on my heart.
I had troubles with my breathing. The warm liquid coming from my head seemed to have pooled on the ground. I couldn't see anything clearly.
And the tears started to fall again. I was dying. I was dying.
I know everyone has to face it eventually, but I had something else to do first.. Edward!
My heart slowed down and I had to fight to keep it beating. No one ever wants to die, but everyone wants to go to heaven.
He was probably on his way to see me. It only reminded me of the way he used to smile charmingly and the way he my skin felt against his every time I touched him.
I didn't care I was dying, I would've happily closed my eyes if I was lying on Edward's lap this instant. I broke into loud tears once again.
I put in my best effort to keep my breathing normal and my heart beating. Edward was all I could think about.
I never even got a chance to tell him that I loved him. That I was in love with him. I wanted to see him this instant so badly. It was clear that I was dying and it didn't matter to me what he felt when I told him this.
Blackness slowly started to creep over me and at a point my vision was affected too.
Edward, I love you! I'm completely in love with you!
I wanted him to hear me wherever he was, 'cause that was my only desire. But even the tiniest of my hopes seemed to be shattered. There was no use. There was no hope. He'll only find my lifeless body or.. he wouldn't find me at all.
It almost felt as if I was drowning. Like the water was pulling me inside. Like there was no way out. There was no use of my life which I had led on Earth. No use at all, since I wasn't going to get a chance to tell him that I loved him.
Yes, it definitely was like water. I struggled for life, like an ant who has been caught in the spider web. Some unseen force was pulling me towards itself. I couldn't explain it.
It was as if I was waiting for the knife and my heart is aching. Each last beat of my heart had a name.
Edward. Edward. Edward.
What is going to happen to him now? I imagined the crooked smile playing on his lips which should have happened when he found me and the way I must have leaped into his arms. Instead he was going to find my lifeless body here with the floor plastered with blood.
I would see his face when I closed my eyes, but I couldn't let them be closed. I'd be gone forever if I did so. I didn't care that I was writhing in pain. I wanted see him! Its been two weeks.. And we'd been friends for about just three weeks.
Is that all the time fate has decided for me? I couldn't be near him for more than that? My moon. My life. I'd been so close to seeing him, but I would die soon enough. That much I knew. I had so many plans.. I didn't want to leave so soon. Yet.. I'm not sure if I can keep my heart beating long. Merely seconds is all I can hold.
'The weak shall never forgive'. But I would dare not forgive Jessica for what she'd done. Not because she'd put me in this state, with my head badly aching and the blood oozing out from it. But because what she'd done had prevented me from confessing my true love.
Just three weeks of pure joy was all I had enjoyed. And he was always there in my heart. The only bad thing is, he'll never get to know that I was in love with him.
I was going towards my dreaded destination. I knew my life on Earth was over. I heard, as if from underwater, a honey-sweet voice calling for me.
"Bella! Oh my gosh! Bella! Can you hear me?"
I wasn't sure if it was real or I was just hallucinating. Either way, I would die. I could see, through the long tunnels my eyes had become, a dark shape coming toward me. My eyes closed, and I drifted.
Only if someone could convey all the love which I had for Edward. But nothing could ever be equal to the love and affection I held for him.
My heart beat its last beat sadly. Sadness, because I could never express how much I loved Edward. Edward. Edward. Edward. Edward.
I let my eyelids droop and I almost felt the coldness of his skin as he held me, in my lovely dream.
I silently thanked God for those three weeks he had given me to get to know about Edward. I swear, those were the only days where I knew the meaning of being cheerful.
To prevent me from going away, I felt strong arms enclosing me. And my lifeless heart suddenly felt warmer.
Edward, I love you with all my heart. I'm really sorry that I never got a last chance to speak with you. I love you so much. You're the only person who has what it takes to open my heart, the key.
I thought, even though he could never hear me.
Goodbye, angel. I'll miss you.
"By living a life worth remembering, you become an immortal."
Edward is worth remembering.
Readers : "HOLY HELL?!?! Bella's DEAD? THE AUTHOR WHO WROTE THIS IS DEAD MEAT, THEN!"
Haha. Cool down you guys. I know, you'll all feel bad after reading this.. Don't worry.
"I felt strong arms enclosing me. And my lifeless heart suddenly felt warmer."
Who would that be? Lemme tell y'all one thing..It might be ANY character.. :P
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