Memoria

Chapter 6: Confrontation

To unexplain the unforgiveable

Drain all the blood and give the kids a show

By streetlight, this dark night, a séance down below,

There're things that I have done

You never should ever know.


Obsidian wings beat the air as Light sped towards the ends of the shinigami realm.

"L could've already found out about Rem, so be careful. You may be able to get her to put in a good word for you, though, if you get there quickly enough."

Light's eyes desperately scanned the masses of shinigami for Rem. At last he found her, frozen in shock as she stared at L. Light swore. He was too late! What would Rem say about him? He hid himself among the other shinigami, hoping to listen in.

"…I've lost all my memories from when I was alive, but recently I've begun remember more about the last case I was working on before I died. I want you to tell me everything you can about the case." He paused for a moment. "And about Light Yagami."

"I suppose he is here, as a shinigami, as well?" L nodded.

"Did he…?"

"Kill you? Not exactly. He forced me to kill you, you were going to seize Misa Amane, a human I cared about very much, and the only way for me to prevent that was to kill you.

"Misa… the name sounds familiar…"

"Yes, she was another one of your suspects in the case." Rem paused for a moment. "You were correct, about both Misa and Light. The two of them were, in fact, Kiras."

"Kiras… would be people using Death Notes, correct?"

"Yes. Did you just remember this now?"

"No, I heard the task force members mention you. The fact that you already went out of your way to 'die' for a human involved in the case confirms that shinigami and their Death Notes were involved in the Kira case as well." Light saw an amused smile on Rem's pale face.

"Your intellect is as sharp as ever, I see. Yes, Light, the first Kira, got a Death Note from the death god Ryuk, and began using it to kill off criminals."

"He thought he was being righteous, and would become the god a new, perfect world."

"Correct again. This eventually developed into a direct battle between you and him, to find out who was who first. If Light was proven to be Kira, he would get jail and, most likely, the death penalty. While you would of course die if Light found out your name." L was silent for a moment. He seemed lost in his own thoughts perhaps remembering new aspects of the case.

"I… I remember things… about Light and I. He was actually working with me to try and capture Kira, and he was… different somehow."

"At the point during the case Light was forced to give up his Death Note so he would lose credibility as a possible suspect."

"Of course…" Before Rem could speak L said, "Light developed a split personality?"

"Yes. I suppose the power of the Death Note went to his head and he became determined to kill you. Before that, when he was 'Light' and not 'Kira', we will say, it was simply a desire to make the world a better place for everyone. To make a world without evil." Light was wondering how hard his heart would be pounding if he were alive.

"Say something, Ryuzaki… say something…" He breathed.

"Is it possible that Kira has changed back into Light after my…"

"That I do not know." L was silent once again.

"Thank you, Rem-san. I believe I know what to do now." He turned to her. "Why have you helped me so much?" The shinigami was silent for a moment.

"Perhaps I too hope that this new shinigami is Light, not Kira… because if he is Kira I will have to somehow destroy him myself for what he has done to me." L stood silently for one moment, at one point he seemed to begin to say something. He stopped himself, and instead disappeared in a flap of dark wings.

Light watched the sky for a few moments before dashing out of his hiding place. Ever second he thought he could see L coming back, diving out of the sky straight for him… He shuddered, forcing himself to show his face to Rem. Her single amber eye glared at him as he approached her.

"You missed L, if you were trying to talk to him."

"Not exactly. I was trying to speak to you before he did." Light paused for a moment. "I'm not Kira anymore, Rem."

"It will take a good deal more than just a statement from you to convince me of who you are right now."

"Very well, don't believe me and just listen instead. I just want to find a way to tell L that I am sorry, to tell him I'm not Kira but that I will take responsibility for everything that has happened. Please, can't you-,"

"Whether or not you are Kira I cannot help you in this. You have gotten yourself into this mess, so you need to tell L this yourself. Besides, I am imprisoned here, I can't leave simply because you need help with your lover." Light glared at the shinigami who simply returned an expression just as fierce. The death god spread his wings.

"Fine. Thanks anyway." He looked at her once more. "I'm sorry."

With that he was off.


There was so much that had been explained by this discovery, so much that was made clear. Why Light could look at him so tenderly and kindly one moment and so coldly the next, why L had come to love him so much and yet feel such hate and suspicion as well…

But who was he now? Was this Light or Kira? How could two people share the same face and yet be so different? L wracked his incredible brain for an answer but found that he could think of nothing. The Death Note… he had no idea it could change people in such extreme ways. Suddenly L wanted nothing more than to throw his own Death Note away and never have to look at it again…

But what about Light? Or Kira? Light was caring and righteous… he was idealistic, and he had a very witty sense of humor that L simply loved. Kira was ruthless, cruel and manipulative… How could L…?

The detective's eyes snapped open.

"Could I…?" He whispered. Could I actually…?

He slowed his wings, preparing to land.


Light was wondering if he was going insane. Insane with self-contempt, fear, and dread. How much had L learned by now? What could he possible be thinking of him? Light swallowed, running his hand through his hair as he approached his home.

His footsteps echoed throughout the cave, dread for some reason increasing with each step. He suddenly realized why as he eyes met with L's.

Never before had the detective ever looked so enchanting and fearful. Moonlight lit up his pale skin, giving him a ghostly glow, just like the day of his death. Those dark tresses framed his face perfectly and his eyes bore into Light as if peering into his very soul. He looked for a trace of something, or anger, of hate, but he could see nothing except his own shocked reflection in those two black mirrors…

What are you thinking?

"Ruh…" Light swallowed before trying again. "Ryuzaki, I have something to-," His words trailed off as the detective slowly walked towards him. After what seemed like an eternity L was right in front of him. L shivered as fingers danced across his cheeks and a voice sounded off next to his ear.

"I've been waiting for you, Light…"

The shinigami's mind seemed to shatter as L's lips pressed against his own.


One more chapter to go!!! I'm sorry, I seemed to slack off again about getting these chapters out… I feel really awful though, so I'll fart out the next chapter (which is rated M, by the way) no matter what::puts on determined I'm-gonna-fart-out-a-fanfiction-chapter face::

Yes, people, I've suddenly had to sudden urge to make L disturbingly OOC and I've made him a whore.

NOT. I'm not that bad, people!!! Give our adorable, sweets-loving detective a chance!

I do not own "This is How I Disappear" by My Chemical Romance (ironic how I'm using this song again… hee hee). Thanks for sticking with this damn story for so long, I'm really sorry it got dragged on so much… ::feels guilty…:: On to the next chapter!!