Sorry it took me so long to update. I try to update fast but sometimes I get a little writers block. There was a cliffhanger last chapter so your going to find out what happens now. I really hope you like this chapter and review.


Tori POV:

After Trent's party I couldn't stop thinking about Cat said and what she could have meant. I know she told me to forget she ever mentioned it but I just couldn't. It began to take over all my thoughts. I kept thinking about the possibilities but I felt as if there were so many missing pieces from the puzzle I started. It seems like Cat and Jade have a history they aren't telling me about and it involves them having had done something that Cat describes as feeling good but that's all I have pieced together.

I knew I wouldn't get any answers from Jade. She's very smart and she knows exactly how to get out of telling me things. I would have questioned her further last night but then she started kissing me again and it felt so good that I completely forgot about anything else. Whenever I kiss Jade, I can only think about Jade. I love the way she makes me feel. She has me absolutely hooked and I can't deny it.

However, Cat talks a lot. She often rambles and things seem to slip from her mouth often. I figure if I try a bit harder to ask Cat that maybe she will tell me what she was talking about because I really want to know. I don't even know if I could put a name yet on what Jade and I are but we've started dating and I feel like that's enough to deserve to know about what's going on.

I walk into Hollywood Arts and to my locker. I open it and get some books for my first class and put them into my brown bag. When I'm finished I close my locker and look around the hallway. Cat isn't anywhere and normally she's here by now. I haven't even seen Cat since last night when she ran off at the party.

"Has anyone seen Cat?!" I shout to get heard through the filled hallway.

Sinjin who's near me at his food covered locker turns to look at me. "I think she's in the janitors closet." He tells me and looks back at his locker.

He spits a piece of gum onto his hand and sticks it onto his locker. He grins at the sight. I cover my mouth in disgust and nod. I begin to walk past him to the janitors closet without even bothering to thank him. When I finally get to the janitors closet I uncover my mouth and slowly open the door.

I see Cat on her knees with her eyes half open. I see a white cardigan on the ground near her. I see a bloody razor blade on the ground with drops of blood on the floor around it. I look at it with my eyes furrowed. My eyes land on Cat's arms and I gasp. I notice many scars. Some faded scars and other fresh ones. I see a deep cut on one of her arms that has blood running from it down her arm.

"CAT! Oh my god!" I shout and get onto my knees next to her.

I can't believe what I'm seeing. My best friend, someone who I thought was the most cheerful girl I've ever met has cuts all over her arms. To say I'm surprised is an understatement. I thought Cat freaked out at the small sight off blood but I guess I was wrong.

I hated seeing someone I cared about look this weak. She looks like she could pass out any minute now. It was one of the worst feelings. I consider Cat one of my best friends. She looks really hurt and vulnerable. Her eyes were only half open but I could see that emotion that had been haunting me in her eyes. Something about it brought life to her eyes and made them glow. I still couldn't define the emotion and that frustrated me big time.

"Jade...hurts me...so much...but I still...love her...hurts...me..." Cat says, between breathes.

My eyes widened at that. Cat cut herself because of Jade? Jade is the one who made her feel this way? I didn't know what to think. Something definitely happened between Cat and Jade. I still don't know what happened but Jade must have done something really bad to Cat. Something bad enough to cause Cat to want to hurt herself. Something to make someone who I always thought was the happiest person alive truly broken.

I don't want to get hurt. What if Jade does something to me too? She definitely did something to Cat so why would I be an exception? I don't know if I can sit waiting everyday until Jade finally destroys me. I'm too scared to take this risk. I don't want to question whether I'm good enough anymore than I already have. I keep assuring myself that I have to be strong and confident but sometimes those situations that hurt you in the past can get to you so much that it becomes hard.

I snapped out of my thoughts when Cat's eyes began to close. She had to stay awake. I couldn't let her pass out. This was so scary. I didn't know what to do. I had never experienced anything like this at all. Not ever in my life. I don't know what to think. I could only imagine how Cat feels right now. Maybe she isn't a scared as I am because she's physically here but I don't know where she is emotionally or mentally due to her current state. However, I know she is way more hurt than I am.

"Cat! Stay with me! Keep your eyes open!" I shouted completely panicked. My eyes were pleading but that wasn't enough.

Cat's eyes shut all the way. She no longer had enough energy to hold herself up on her knees so she feel hard onto her stomach. Blood continued to stream from the deep cut on her arm to the ground. I couldn't let her bleed out. I couldn't let her die right in front of me. I had to do something fast but I didn't know what to do. I'd never been in this situation before.

Time was ticking and I had to move fast. I didn't have all the time in the world. Time is of the essence. There wasn't much time and I had to act fast but I didn't know what to do. Should I try to treat it myself or ask for help or... I'm horrible in these situations as you can see.

I opened the janitors closet and stuck my head out. "HELP!" I screamed in panic.

I saw Lane with his back facing me. He jumped slightly at my scream and he looked around trying to figure out where my voice is coming from. Finally he turns around and notices me. He walks to me quickly and comes inside the closet. When he sees Cat his eyes widen in shock and his jaw almost drops to the ground. The door closes behind us. The room falls into a silence.

I could taste, feel and smell the tension as it filled the air in the room. It became harder to breathe the air. It shouldn't be Cat in the situation. Whatever happened to her...she didn't deserve it. Cat should be happy like I thought she was. Tears finally started to flood my eyes. They hurt my eyes but that was nothing compared to the pain Cat must feel right now. Someone so innocent is so hurt and broken inside. Why hadn't I noticed? What happened to Cat? What did Jade do to Cat? She must have ruined her.

Lanes mouth slowly closes. He clears his throat and looks at me. "How did this happen?" Lane finally asks, shock still evident in his voice.

"I...I f-found her...right before she..."

I couldn't finish my sentence. Confused, worried, scared, nervous, sad, fear... I didn't know what to feel at once. I couldn't control everything I felt right now. I was so scared of this whole situation. I feared Cat would not be okay. I was confused about why Cat would want to hurt herself. She always seems so happy. I thought she was so childish and clueless about this kind of stuff. I always thought of Cat as someone who only wanted to hear about positive things and tuned out anything negative.

"Alright I have to call 911. Go to your next class." Lane tells me and pulls out his phone.

"No! Can I stay? I want to make sure Cat is okay..." I tell him and bite my lip.

He sighs and looks conflicted about whether he should let me stay or not. After a few minutes of completely silence again he finally nods. I flash him a thankful look and I wipe my watery eyes as he calls 911. I tune out the phone call as all these thoughts go through my mind about Jade and Cat. I need to know what happened between them. It's on my mind even more now that this is happening. I have to know. I can't let it go and I can't not worry about it.

Lane gets off the phone and he grabs a white rag from the shelf of janitors supplies. He presses it against Cat's deep cut on her arm to apply pressure. I just watch him. I can see blood seeping a little bit though the rag. I close my eyes, not wanting to see this anymore but not wanting to leave either. I just don't know what to do. Watching Cat in this condition makes me feel awful. I know it has nothing to do with me but I feel like if I'd paid more attention to my friend that I would have known she was doing this and maybe I could have stopped her.

I hear the bell ring, snapping me out of my thoughts. I open my eyes. The janitors closet door opens and a few paramedics come inside. They turn Cat onto her back and lift her up. They gently place her on a stretcher. I watch silently as they roll her away while Lane walks out behind them. I catch the door before it closes and walk out of the janitors closet into the hallway full of people.

Everyone stares at Cat on the stretcher and begins whispering among their groups of friends. I search the hallway until I find Jade at her locker. She's staring at the stretcher as the paramedics roll Cat out of Hollywood Arts and onto the ambulance outside. The expression on her face is completely unreadable. I wonder what she's thinking right now because I cannot tell at all.

Jade turns back to her locker and puts a very text books into her bag before slamming it shut. The bell ringing sounds throughout the hallway. Jade adjusted her bag on her shoulder and turns to walk to class.

"Jade!" I shout without thinking.

Jade stops in her tracks at the sound of my voice. She turns to look at me. Her expression is completely emotionless as if she doesn't even care that Cat is being taken to the hospital. I don't understand how she could possibly not care. I had always thought that she and Cat were sorta friends. She should at least look a little concerned but not at all. I wonder if it were me on that stretcher if she would even care at all. If she would show a look of sympathy or worry.

She crosses her arms and they rest under her chest, pushing her big breasts up higher. I can't help but stare at them. They are large, round and lay perfectly on her chest. As she breathes, her breasts rise and fall with her chest. They even bounce a little with every breath she takes. I wonder what it would be like to feel the rhythm of her breathing against her breasts.

I walk towards her as she waits, staring at me. The halls become clear until it's just her and I. I feel like when I say something the words would bounce around each wall and echo through the hallway.

"What?" She asks, finally breaking the silence.

"What happened between you and Cat?" I ask her again.

"Nothing happened bet-" She starts to defend.

"I know something happened Jade. Stop trying to hide whatever it is from me. Cat cut herself and now she's going to the hospital. Right before she passed out she said that you hurt her so much but she still loves you." I interrupt her.

Her eyes widen slightly at first. Her expression stays unreadable but her eyes are wide. I can't tell if it's shock that Cat said that or shock that Cat feels that way or maybe even both. Her eyes return to their normal state. I hear her swallow before sighing softly.

"I didn't do anything to Cat. She's making things up because she's confused." Jade tells me.

"I don't think Cat would just make up something like that. Jade, she has feelings. Maybe she's fragile but she wouldn't just cut herself over nothing." I say.

"Tori she makes things mean more than they are." She explains.

I shake my head. "Then what did she make mean more than it was?" I ask.

"Nothing." Jade answers, simply.

I can't help but roll my eyes. I know something is going on. I'm not that stupid.

"Jade, it's not nothing. Tell me what happened and stop trying to avoid it. Your not gonna get out of this that easily. Cat is one of my best friends and I hate knowing that she decided to cut herself but she didn't just do it for no reason. You really hurt her! I don't know what you did but based on what i've heard and pieced together I know you hurt her and she loves you. She has feelings Jade! She's not just emotionless like you are! I just...I don't think I can see you anymore."

Jade looks completely stunned in response. I take a deep breath and run my fingers through my hair.

"You don't want to date me anymore because of Cat?" Jade asks, sounding slightly angry.

"If you hurt her then you'll hurt me too." I say in a quiet voice and look down at the ground.

"Tori..." She says in a soft voice.

I don't think I've ever heard her say anything soft before. It actually sounded caring and sympathetic. That word was like the bread at the end of her fishing hook. I'm the fish and she's the hook. She almost caught me and I almost took the bate but then I remembered the image I had of Cat being rolled out of Hollywood Arts on a stretcher. I instinctively cringed and my eyes snapped back up to look at her.

"No Jade! What has changed since you hurt Cat? You won't even tell me what happened. If you had changed at all you would admit what you did and you would admit that whatever you did was wrong but you haven't and your not doing that. Your still the same person and you'll hurt me too."

After speaking, I turn around and walk out of Hollywood Arts. I know I don't need to wait for Jade to say anything else at all. I know she still won't tell me, no matter what. Maybe I don't even need to know. I think I know enough. Jade hurt Cat and that's all I need to know.

When I walk outside, I watch her through the glass doors. If she really cared about me at all she would come after me but of course she didn't. She turned around and walked down the hallway to her next class. It hurt a little but I know that if I stayed with her longer that maybe I would end up just as hurt as Cat seems to be. I didn't realize what Jade was capable of. I still don't know what Jade is capable of.

I walk to the asphalt cafe and sit down at a picnic table. I know I should be in class right now but I can't bring myself to go back inside. Not after what just happened. Not after I just ended things with Jade and not while the image of Cat being taken away on a stretcher is still fresh in my mind.

So much happened in one morning and it's all I can think about right now.

I don't know what to think about Cat cutting herself because that was very shocking based on how Cat acts normally. Cat never seemed like she was hurt emotionally at all so that's what confuses me. It makes me question Cat's personality. I don't think she could be that happy if she cuts herself. I've never known someone who cuts themselves or much about cutting but it seems like you create the scars on your arms because you have emotional scars.

I don't know if I made the right decision by ending things with Jade. I really like her. I always thought that deep down Jade was a good person but now I don't know. Jade is so carefree that it was even hard to tell if she cared about me but I always thought that she must have cared about me at least a little. Now, I'm wondering if she had been setting me up to hurt me. Was I just one of her sick little games? You'd think by now after being toyed with various different times that I would be able to figure it out but I guess I'm not that smart.

Tears blur my vision. Tears slowly stream down my cheeks. My nose becomes a little clogged and my eyes sting but I ignore it. I wipe my watery eyes and the tears on my cheek. I take a deep breath and let out a shaky one.

I begin to think again, am I not good enough? Why does almost everyone I date end up hurting me? Is there something wrong with me? Does everyone think I'm so easy to fool? Why can't someone like me and respect me?

I know Jade hadn't hurt me yet but I know if she hurt Cat then there's a chance she'll hurt me too. I don't want to have to lose my confidence anymore. It's bad enough that I already have from my past relationships.

I always let my guard down so easily. I figured that if I put up walls that they will stop me from finding something truly amazing but now I'm thinking that my guard should be up at least a little bit. I want my walls to be harder to break. I'm sick of always being in pain when a relationship doesn't work out.

A few hours later I convince Trina to drive me to the hospital so I can see Cat. I had to agree that I would cover for her when she buys Fazini boots with my mom or dad's credit card. I knew I had to see Cat and make sure she was okay so I wound up agreeing to Trina's condition.

After a while of waiting at the hospital, I was finally allowed to go in Cat's room. A nurse led me to Cat's room. I was so nervous about what condition Cat would be in. Would she be okay? Would she not be okay? These questions went through my mind.

The nurse slowly opened the door and let me inside. She closed the door behind her so I was the only one in the room. My eyes landed on the red haired girl in the hospital bed. The same girl who cut herself, who passed out in the janitors closet, who was dragged away on the stretcher, and the same girl who's watery eyes are wide open right now. She's awake.


Another cliffhanger. I know some of you might not be happy about Jori breaking up but I might surprise you. You'll see why I broke them up later on. I love hearing that you guys love this story and want me to continue. Trust me I will continue. There's a lot more coming up. Review if you want because it will make me happy and I'll update faster.